A/N: Hello lovelies! As you're all about ready to jump through the screen and slap Sarah I thought you could do with a double update to see what she does. I do love you guys, your comments have been making me laugh all day! Xxx
I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. To bury myself in the safety of my bed and cry. Cry for the life I know I'll never have, for all the damn stupid mistakes I've made and for my little boy.
Holding onto Derek as we ride makes me feel anchored and safe, but I'm not safe. No, Charles has found me and won't be taking no for an answer. I don't know what to do, do I run? I doubt a restraining order would mean anything to a violent arrogant man like Charles. All I know is I have to keep Tobias from him. He asked me where Tobias is, so that means he doesn't know and he's safe for now. Maybe I could run by myself? Lead Charles away from Tobias, I know he'd be safe with Cordelia, but it would break my heart to leave him.
As much as I want to hide it's not an option anymore, I need to be proactive and figure out a way to fix this. Maybe if I release all the information Skye and Circuit found he would stop? No, that would just anger him more.
"Sarah!?" I snap out of my head when Derek yells my name, I hadn't even noticed we'd stopped
"Sorry." I smile as I quickly climb off the motorcycle and take off my helmet
"You sure you're ok? Want me to take you home?" Derek asks as he takes off his helmet and balances it on the handlebar.
"No, I'm fine, sorry, just a busy day today." I reply, I'm obviously doing a sucky job at hiding my worry from Derek. I don't want to tell him what happened because I don't want to bring trouble to the club, they didn't have to take me back in and yet they have. They gave my son somewhere to sleep, warm food and friends like he's never had before. I left them because I was scared of danger, I can't expect them to help me with the danger I've brought to their door.
"Come on." Derek says as he nods to the pizza place across the street taking my hand in his as we walk.
"You gonna tell me what's bothering you now?" Derek asks as we sit eating pizza. I don't want to involve him, but how is he going to trust me if he knows I'm hiding something?
"I just, I don't want to get you or the club into any trouble, not only because of what I did, but because I love the whole club like a family and I love you." I sigh
"How many times do I have to tell you Sarah, I would do anything to protect you." Derek replies
"I know that, but I don't want you to get hurt, or go to jail, or even die because of me." I place my hand on his thigh.
"Nothing is going to happen to me, how can you expect us to work again if you won't talk to me? Last time you didn't talk to me you left, I can't take that again Sarah." Derek sighs resting his hand on mine.
"I know, I love you Derek, I'm scared to tell you because I want to protect you, you have to see that." I plead
"I'm supposed to protect you. What is this about anyway? Did something happen?" He shakes his head before looking at me, I take a deep breath but the words don't come
"He's here." I whisper
"Who?" Derek asks looking around
"Charles is here." Just saying it brings tears to my eyes
"Where? I'll kill that fucker!" Derek growls as he stands, reaching for the gun I know is under his cut
"Derek, please, just calm down and I'll explain." I wrap my arm around his as he looks down at me
"Come on." He says as he pulls me over to his motorcycle, he doesn't speak, just places my helmet on my head. The ride back to the clubhouse is terrifying as Derek breaks all the speed limits. He stops the bike in the lot, I go to speak but he drags me through the clubhouse and up to his room
"Derek? What the heck? You could've killed us." I ask as he pushes me to sit on his bed
"I needed you somewhere safe before I could concentrate. Now tell me exactly what happened, every single detail." He says as he kneels before me. I tell him the whole story, I don't leave anything out, including where he hurt me
"Mother fucker!" Derek roars as he slams his fist onto the floor and I wince
"Do you need to see Cordelia? I'll call her right now." He says as he pulls out his cellphone
"No, it's just a little bruising, nothing I'm not used to." I reassure him
"Show me." He commands
"Derek..."
"I want to see where he hurt you Sarah." He says as he kneels back down, I sigh as I slip off my jacket and lift my sweater to show the bruising above my jeans
"Fuck." Derek curses, he moves back and guides me to my feet. I can't look at him as he unzips my jeans and pulls them over my hip to see the full purple hand print
"I'll kill him." Derek growls
"No, you can't. Don't you see, I have to find a way to deal with him legitimately or he'll destroy me and your club." I sob as the tears fall, I gasp when I feel his lips on my hip
"Sorry, did I hurt you?" He asks, I shake my head
"No, it feels good." I whisper
"I'm done with this bullshit Sarah, you're mine, you always have been and you always will be. I won't let him near you again, I promise that." He says looking up at me
"Derek" I whisper
"I mean it Sarah, you're mine, Toby is mine too. I will protect you both from him." I see the fire in his eyes and I know he means every word
"I love you Derek." I pull him up to stand in front of me
"I love you." He says before our lips crash together, he lowers me onto the bed so gently I sigh against his lips. My sweater disappears, then my bra as his lips and fingers travel every inch of my skin. I feel him pull off my boots, my socks and then my jeans
"You're not wearing panties." He smirks as he looks up at me, my jeans hitting the floor
"I learned a long time ago panties on a bruised hip hurt." I explain.
"The only marks you'll ever have on your body will be from me fucking you." He growls before I feel his lips on my thigh. He turns me into a writhing moaning mess under him as he ignites my body with his touch.
I cry out when he bites my delicate skin, I've never been interested by the pleasure/pain combo, but right now it's exactly what I need. A good pain to wash away the bad, Derek marking me with passion, not Charles marking me with pain. I can't take anymore, I need to feel him inside of me
"Derek, fuck me, fuck me hard, please." I say breathlessly, his lips turning up in a smirk for my use of that word
"I didn't even have to make you say it." He chuckles as he strips off his clothes, I can barely wait for him to put on the condom before I pull him back to me. He lifts my legs so my ankles rest on his shoulders before he thrusts deep inside me hard
"Yes!" I moan as he begins a brutal pace, just what I need to keep me out of my head. All I can do is hold on as Derek pounds into me, sending me closer and closer with each thrust. He reaches between us and circles my clit with his thumb, making me see stars as an orgasms crashes through my body making me cry out his name as I lose control.
"Don't think I'm done with you yet." Derek growls as he lowers my legs flat on the bed, holding my hip down as he grinds against me
"Oh god." I moan as the new position hits my sensitive spots in a whole new way. I grind my hips with him as he leans down and kisses me
"Oh god, Derek." I moan as my head rolls back, another orgasm building
"Look at me, don't close your eyes." He whispers as I look back up at him. The connection is more intense than anything I've ever felt, as we gaze at each other, feeling him move inside me. I call his name as my orgasm hits and I fight to keep my eyes open, this orgasm more powerful than the last, which I didn't think was possible. Finally he joins me, climaxing himself as the last few tremors of my orgasm wrack my body.
"Fuck." He curses as he collapses on top of me, lazily brushing his lips over my damp skin.
I have to find a way to fix my ex, because I know this is where I belong, where me and my son belong, to Derek.