FIFTEEN| Trial and Error
December 31, 2015
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//Sammy\\
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"You bitches ready to go or what?!" Cakes popped in the room where me and Fiona were doing our make up in.
Fiona cheesed and got hype, "Bitch you already know I'm up in there bitch. Finna find me a real fucking Nigga for new years you hear me." I laughed as she did a light twerk.
"Bitch you might as well save yo pussy for Patric—
She cut me off with a sarcastic scoff, "Patty ain't got nothing on me being single baby."
"Oh wowwww." I laughed, "I thought you was actually fucking with him this time."
"You know what though," she started saying, "Patric ain't bout shit for real."
"Why you say that?" I was curious, Fi usually told me everything but she made me miss a episode.
"Girl he told me he was embarrassed by me."
"What?!" Me and Cam yelled in unison.
"Yes. His white ass said I embarrassed him." She rolled her eyes, "it's not my fault my ass big and I look like a sophisticated prostitute—
"An escort?"
Which she is —
"Exactly Sammy thank you." She smiled sarcastically, "and basically he told me he was embarrassed because his co workers knew of me."
"What you worked with one or some?" Cam asked. Fiona shrugged, "he's married so I guess all that other shit don't matter."
I was so dead, but I could tell his statement fucked with my girl head on some real shit. Fiona act like she love to fuck, but truth be told when she not being cared for like she wants to be; the bitch feels degraded whole heartedly— I mean I should know.
"Well fuck Patric he can be embarrassed all he wants. He don't even know he missing out on a bad bitch." I gave her a kiss on her cheek.
"Ian worried about him anyway." Fi laughed, "ima just miss the money for real. Nigga was paying for my Jamaica clothes." She pouted.
She play too much. I wish I had her charisma for dumb shit.
Fi done been through everything under the sun, and got with Gane at a young ass age, the fact she can still live in her body is crazy— I'm hanging on to a thread everytime I think about the shit that happened to mine and look at me now—
Going to the new years party.
A piece of me didn't want too but the rest of me said fuck James and Kain and just do me.
It'd be the first real shit where I can just kick back— a party that's not at the crib too so I mean I was on edge but then again I'm Sammy—
I can't let that shit hang over my head like a dusty ass cloud.
Cakes drove to Manhattan to this club and her sister Nia was tagging along. Nia don't be around cause she slick just like Toya and me and her don't mix when I get liquor in my system—
It's her mouth— it's reckless.
But tonight was gonna be different cause I was gone be doing me. Even though it was a opening party for the club and the event was for Gane, I wasn't even about to be on that hype shit.
Just get me a bottle and sit by a wall.
"This shit finna be crowded?" Nia asked as Cakes parked.
Fi shook her head, "Gane shit never really packed." We laughed getting out.
I Doubted it at first and got Fi to take my picture before we got to the door to the club.
"You ready girl?"
"For new years? Hell yeah."
And it was packed. Fi spotted Fo long ass neck in the section and we followed suite all saying Hi to Gane first cause he's a big ass drama king.
"This shit lit Gane, I'm surprised you actually did it." I cooed at him, he grilled me. "What made you say that?"
"You been playing with this idea how long?" He laughed, "All the opticals dead now."
"Not all of em." I heard Hercu mutter from the side of me. I didn't question it though. I seen they had they own little bottle and started reaching for that. "Nah that's my shit—" Herc grabbed the bottle out my hand, "the bar down there."
"Ouuu don't do my bitch Herc." Fi laughed sipping out a cup. I smacked my lips as he laughed, smacking him out the way I told her I was just go get my shit myself.
He lowkey just irritated me.
"Give me the whole Henny bottle." I yelled over the counter to who ever this nigga was slouched over in the bar.
"The whole bottle—
Not Aj— "so what you just a bartender everywhere." I crossed my arms frowning up a storm. He just laughed at me.
"Only where Gane need me."
"Like a little doggy." I pouted.
"Oh it's like that." He laughed, "What yo small ass need a whole bottle for?"
"What anybody need a bottle for." I shrugged. He chuckled and grabbed a bottle and two shot glasses, "I'm sure you ain't tryna pay 200 fa his whole bottle— cause that's how much he charging." He told me pouring up.
"You right." I sneered, "You gone give me a discount?" I smiled.
"I'm still waiting on a date." He laughed sliding me the shot he just poured, "salute."
"Boy." I took mines back, "ima just let you on a little no so secret okay." We leaned up against the bar, "I don't do boys."
"Bullshit." He backed up. I laughed shrugging, "Don't believe me. I got a couple bitches in this very room sir."
"Damn it's like that?"
"It's been like that since high school."
"So I never had a chance?" He continued to grin at me. He didn't believe me not one bit. "I guess not Aiden."
His face contorted into confusion as he cleaned his glass cup, "I don't believe you."
"Mhmm."
"Cause you seemed like you really was liking me when we last talked."
"Mhmmm."
"I'm just saying, one date I'll have you considering a life with me."
"Boy." I laughed. "Give me my bottle so I can stop entertaining you."
"Girl, you know you love talking to me." He passed me my bottle, "Ima see you soon?"
"If you keep following Gane around prolly."
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//Milan\\
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"Carmen?" I called out getting no response from the top bunk. "Carmennnn." I kicked at the top bunk.
"Hmmmm fuck." I heard her groan.
"I heard you had matches?" I heard her smack her lips, "I know you didn't just wake me up for that."
"Can I have one?"
"Fuck is you finna do?" She looked down at me, "burn this shit down and get us caught?"
"No I just need a candle." I shrugged innocently, "ima put it out quick."
"What's it for?"
"Damn bitch can I have some mystery to my shit?!" I asked annoyed with her questions and shit, "damn. I don't ask all these questions when you ask me for shit."
"You don't give me shit." She laughed, "you tell me no remember?"
My mouth hung open as we looked at each other, "that's different."
"How so?"
"You ask me for shit I need, you don't need your matches anymore."
"And why you think that?"
I smirked, "Cause I watched you burn all them pictures the other night."
"Mhmmmm." She rolled her eyes, "And what you need my shit for?"
Just tell this bitch—"It's for Midnight."
She smacked her lips again, "not you waking me up for fucking new years girl, I'm going back to sleep."
"I can give a fuck about a new years bitch." I got on the bed to grab the cupcake that I had got earlier, "it's for my homegirl birthday."
"Awww that's cute, she one of the ones that be coming to visit you." She asked teasing me.
I sighed sadly, "nah she died last summer."
"Oh wow, shit I'm sorry." She hoppped off the bed, "Forget I was talking shit."
I shook my head, "you didn't know."
"Okay and? I played too much,,," She said sadly, "can I hug you?"
I rolled my eyes as she did anyways. "Here." She handed me the matches while we stood in the dark, "you gone wait till midnight to light it?" She asked.
"Yeah." I nodded, "you can go back to sleep now."
"Nah I wanna be up with you." I seen her smile threw the moonlight. I shrugged sitting on the cold floor. "What was her name?"
"Jonae." I tried to stop myself from croaking up, "Jonae Stevens."
"Damn I heard about her, shorty they found by the River huh?"
"Yep."
"Damn." She shook her head, "you can have all my fucking matches."
I laughed at her, "thank you."
"You just been through so fucking much in one year girl now you fighting this bitch ass case— I would've been crying fa two weeks too." She joked.
"Bitch shut up." I laughed, "but nah for real doe." She spoke seriously, "like don't get me wrong I done been through some shit but I couldn't fathom half of the shit you been through—
"What shit?"
"Girl the shit you be screaming bout in yo sleep." She paused, "why you think I been going to sleep before you?"
"Shit my bad." Embarrassing.
She shrugged, "it's not your fault girl. It's called PTSD."
I laughed at her, "I don't got that."
She laughed. "What?" I retorted.
"You in denial?" She asked softly.
"Girl." I rolled my eyes, she laughed. "You don't know me for real Carmen."
"You right I don't, but I am roomed with yo ass so I feel like I know enough." She laughed, "we don't even have to have to this conversation either cause you wear that shit like makeup and I'm sure you don't wanna hear that shit coming from me."
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//Sammy\\
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"Sammmmyyyy Bae where you been!" Jamie kissed me as soon as she seen me in the bathroom.
She was a bitch I think used to really like me so I had to cut it off, so to say her kissing me through me the fuck off— would be an understatement. "I missed you." She told me going towards my neck.
"Okay Jamie." I grabbed her hands pulling her off me, "I'm drunk but Ian that drunk shorty."
"Who said I was drunk?" She bounced slightly laughing, I just shook my head at her. "You need to go get some water."
"Why you been doing me like this though?" She said grabbing my hands to stop me from leaving out the bathroom. I rolled my eyes almost getting annoyed with her, "Doing what?"
"You don't wanna talk to me?" She retorted, "You don't even slide through the hood as often to see me."
"I got shit to do Jamie." I told her. She smacked her lips not believing me, "we at a party." She concurred, "What happened to you being a real bitch?"
"I was until you got clingy Jamie damn, why you can't just take a fucking hint dawg." I pulled away from her once again, "I'm not tryna get sucked into yo shit anymore—"
"And what the fuck that suppose to mean?"
"We not together Jamie." I shrugged, "last I checked I was single as fuck, and we were just fucking—
"Well what if I wanted to fuck right now?"
"I'm not drunk enough to fuck you." I politely told her. "Shit, get a Uber and go home too, you too fucking drunk tryna fuck on me."
"Take me home?" She smiled.
I returned it, "I'm drunk too." Yawning big I took a step back from her, "lemme get one of the guys to drop you?"
"Nah Sammy—" she cut me off frowning, "ima just let you do you. It's clear you don't really fuck with me."
"Just because I'm not in the mood to fuck on you, don't mean I don't care about you getting home safe—
"That's cute Sammy." She rolled her eyes. "It was good seeing you homegirl." I could tell I had her in her feels but damn, bitch had me feeling like a big ass downer.
We'd been here for hours and while Cakes drove Nia home like an hour ago and Fi was too busy talking to Rylen, that I couldn't even find the bitch when I made it back to the session and niggas was whole ass boo'd up. "One of y'all take me home." I demanded standing infront of Herc, G, Fo.
Herc wasn't paying attention to me so my eyes were on dumb and dumber.
"Whoo?" Dumb looked around the room, "You know you see niggas with shorties—" Dumber side eyed me as he pulled the bitch leg all on him.
My fist was twitching and dumber was finna get hit. "What the fuck that gotta do with me Forest? You talking all this shit you might as well be the bitch to take me home." I said grabbing his drink.
He smacked his lips pushing the girl legs off him, taking the cup before I could drink some. "You being mad disrespectful." He grilled me, "Where this energy with G, damn let me have this one."
"Oh so you don't care about my safety."
"I do but I'm tryna get right." He said grimly making the girl laugh—
"In a second ima make you get up and take me home." I pointed as G started to get up, "Calm down Sammy."
"No like I will beat this bitch ass and make him take me home—
"Bitch do what to who?" She got up peeking behind G. I must've ran off on her so quick.
"The fuck is you talking to hoe!?" I stunted as I popped her in her mouth. That bitch was all on the couch tryna get me from on top of her.
Fo had got up out the way but was now pulling at me. I knew they were gonna get me off her in a her in a second, so I grabbed the bitch wig and punched her one more time before they finally yanked me and her wig off her head.
"Now take me the fuck home Forest!" I yelled as I being extorted out. I heard a deep chuckle— I knew it wasn't Fo that wasn't carrying me but Herc.
Herc laugh like a demon.
"Let me the fuck go Herc."
"Fasho." He released me. "Why you get up on her though?"
"She don't know her place." He side eyed me before laughing. "I'm drunk!" I laughed too, " and besides the point, Fo didn't wanna take me the fuck home, like he don't care about my safety."
He just laughed like shit was sweet but I wasn't fucking laughing. "Are you taking me home?"
"Nah get somebody else to do it." He laughed. I was just over them completely, "I'm just fucking wit you." He shook me, "my man's coming out right now."
"And who the fuck is that?"
"Aj—
Just then he came out the building wit his keys in hand. "Sammy you ready to go?"
" I'm not sure how I feel letting niggas know where I live."
"I got heat in that bitch." He shrugged, "and yeen gotta talk to me, just put the addy in yo phone.."
I stood there for two minutes contemplating but walked with him to his car anyways. He had opened the door for me and everything, but I was still on edge lowkey.
"You comfortable?" He asked once his caddy was heated up. I just nodded and watched him pull off, texting the girls that I was in his car and he was taking me home— Ian get not one reply. "Ian expect you to get up on homegirl like that."
"Bitches need to stop talking to me crazy." I retorted making him laugh. I couldn't help but laugh too. "She should've knew what was up."
"You tiny as hell the way yo ass hopped over Fo to get to her was crazy, Ian gone lie." He laughed some more, "Ian know you was that flexible."
"It's a lot you don't know about me Aiden." I smirked, "thank you for driving me home—
"Nah nah, this on me." He nudged me, "I'm just politely waiting on my date."
I laughed obnoxiously, "you ain't gone let it go are you?"
"Man hell no." He laughed, "Just one and if you don't like me, you don't have to call me ever again."
"Who said you was getting my number?"
"The lord after the time we bumped into each other."
I cooed at that, that was cute.
Corny but cute.
"Fine ima do you this one solid—
I was giving him my number. I was drunk and he was nice— drunk Sammy can be nice too.
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//Milan\\
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"No the fuck I don't." I had sat quiet as fuck for ten minutes running over her dumb ass sentence and honestly, "Can't nobody tell what the fuck I've been threw unless they read that shit on document papers."
"Or if they in the same room with you for hours at a time." She blunted said picking at her nails, "... or listen to you sleep."
"Sm—
"But you in denial so we not gone talk about it, I wouldn't wanna trigger you."
"Bitch you triggering me right now." I said annoyed as fuck, "you keep tryna therapist session me every fucking chance you get, in a minute ima fuck you up."
"Bitch you can't get up there with me." She laughed, "What you did to tuts was cute, but you ain't got shit on me. Respectfully." She stopped what she was doing to look dead at me.
"Let's test yo theory."
She laughed obnoxiously, "girlalalalala, fuck out my face." She continued to laugh, "I don't waste my energy on bullshit— you mad? Redirect that shit somewhere else."
"Fake ass guru bitch—"
"You right." She got down from her bed for the second time tonight, "Instead of talking to me you should talk to Evelyn— I'm sure she could get you talk to about whatever Joe did to you—
I grabbed the bitch by her collar and she pushed me back against our cell door. I ran up and threw my right arm and she dodged it throwing her left hitting me dead my shit.
I sat on my ass feeling a burn from mouth, and got up rushing her into the toilet and started sending them bitches to her and a few connected before she pushed me and fell on top of me hitting me twice before she tried to grab my arms.
I hit her a good two times before she finally got my arms and yelled stop.
We were in that position for a good minute before we heard keys start giggling and she rushed and grabbed the matches off the floor before sitting on the toilet and I grabbed the cupcake and slid on the wall before the guards walked in.
"What was y'all doing?" Dana asked us.
"Nothing." We said in Unison. "I'm just tryna take a shit in piece." Carmen said outta breath.
"What happened to y'all eyes?"
We shrugged in unison too, and Giselle just looked at us both telling us to go to sleep before leaving. Me and Carmen looked at each other for a cool 15 seconds before she threw the matches back at me. "You feel better?"
A smile crept on my face as I said, "A little bit."
She laughed, "Something wrong with you girl." She went and got back on her bed, "You might as well gone and light that bitch, you know she gone slide back."
"You right." I sat back against the wall and opened the match box up, grabbing two. I put one in the cupcake and lit the other one within seconds.
Jonae didn't have a candle last year, but she acted like she did. Optimistic ass bitch, she seen the good in everything. It's fucked up I couldn't save her.
It took me a minute to blow out the match, Nae's light got snuffed out way too early for me.
Please don't start crying gang.
I'm trying—
"It's okay to cry." Carmen continues to coach me. "Let all the emotions out."
She was right.
We been roomed together too long. Sarcastic ass bitch gone get her head popped.
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The Next Day
//Sammy\\
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"Sammy! Bitch wake the fuck up!" Fiona shook at me.
I groaned annoyed as fuck, "That key is for emergencies bitch." I turned over stretching, "Don't make me take it from you."
"Whatever bitch, can you look at yo phone it's going on 12 and bitches been calling all morning. What type of drug dealer are you?"
"An almost retired one bitch." I got up grabbing my phone as she followed me all the way to the bathroom. I didn't have on no clothes so I just hopped in the shower.
She watched. "What's going on?" I asked her. She rolled her eyes sitting on my sink, "Gane want us to drive all the way to his fucking house, and we late."
"Who gives a fuck—"
"You know how that nigga get though and I'm not tryna hear his shit." She spoke bluntly. I chuckled but understood her completely. "What's funny bitch."
"You ho!" I laughed, "I'm human bitch we just gone have to be late." Simple.
"Just hurry up please. That shit a hour and half away."
"Oh you be taking trips huhhhh—
"Bitch, Ew." I laughed at her as she walked out my bathroom leaving my door open and shit.
It's not my fault I got lit last night. And Aiden dropped me off and bought me food— like if I didn't eat that food I would've prolly heard my phone— but I was slump bitch my body feel good.
And it's not just this shower talking.
~
"What he even want?" I asked for the fiftieth time. She shrugged once again. "I'm guessing Jamaica, he prolly got them passports done."
"He could've just told us that at the trap like who the fuck wanna drive all the way up here." Nigga got us in Staten Island, she lied to me.
An hour and a half away my dick.
"I don't question that nigga Sammy."
"I forgot he was yo pimp." I laughed.
"Ha ha ha bitch, not fucking funny." She mugged me. "He yo pimp too bitch, you give him half of all yo shit."
"And you give him most of yours bitch. 15 percent ass bitch." I laughed.
"Shut the fuck up Samatha." Now I was the sour bitch and she was the one laughing, "old ass Becky name, stop talking."
"Okay Fiona'Rae." I scoffed, "When yo mama find the niggas she was naming you after call me." She laughed, "Wanna be sophisticated and hood talking bout me at least that bitch picked one yours couldn't even settle for one."
"Samantha Athena Givans—
"Okay— and what the fuck is Fiona'Rae Kelsey Cooley? Like yo last name take the fucking cake bitch." We laughed.
"You got that, you got that."
"Yeah hoe I know, don't do me bitch." I laughed. As the conversation died down Fi pulled into his neighborhood. I could tell which house we were pulling up too since Herc got a distinctive ass car, and Fo long ass neck can be seen from anywhere.
"Long neck ass!" I yelled out as I got the car to go hug my brother. "I hope you got the pussy you choose up for." I frowned smacking him upside his head.
He laughed, "You be onnat." He nudged me back, "I just needed to get my dick wet."
I pushed him off me playfully smacking his chest before giving G a hug too. "Gane talking shit, let's go in here and see what he talking about." G told me and Fi dropping his roach down on the ground.
We all walked in, following behind G. The closer we got to the kitchen the louder I could hear Gane voice.
Talking bout some basketball game but when we came into view all that shit shut down and he was mugging us, "I like that I'm on yall time."
"You live far as hell for no reason." I said shrugging, "my fault."
"I don't even see Rylen in this bitch." Fiona questioned before me.
"Mine yours lil bit," he came out the back. "We all here now what's up?"
"Never mind." Fi put her hands up in surrender. They vibe off as fuck. Usually Ry would be all on Fi now he pushed ten steps back and Fi not talking her shit?
They prolly fucked last night. Definitely prolly fucked last night.
"Man I brought y'all here cause we needed some privacy. The trap need some rebranding— we lost two motherfuckas that could've helped with Jamaica and Italy and we need somebody to fill in the spots."
"What you mean fill in the spots?" G asked for me, "Mi just fighting a case right now."
"That she gone loose." Gane retorted, "come on now we all know the facts. It's business—
"Gane man we family at the end of the day, we can't let no more new niggas in." Fo spoke up, "Especially when that ain't how Ghost got down."
"Facts." We all spoke in unison.
"So how y'all tryna play it?" He asked turning to Herc, "How you tryna play it?"
Hercu sparked his wood and sat at the island. Herc ain't been the same since Ghost died and you can tell in his demeanor like, bro was weird before but now he just numb to the bullshit it seem.
"I'm saying like— we can do Jamaica without Mi but Italy she gone be out for fasho."
Gane scoffed, "Don't be dumb man, how the fuck? Is that gone happen?"
"I got my ways man." Herc smirked, "Ghost did it for me when I was fighting that case and if Ty as solid as niggas in his hood make it seem she gone be out that bitch by her fucking birthday gang. But on the flip side of shit man, we are gone have to bring in one new nigga to this shit cause Ghost not here to do it."
"And who is that?" I fussed, "Scoobs bitch ass?"
He laughed, "Exactly. Him and Sykes just until we get this Mi shit situated."
"Are you sure you wanna take that risk?" Gane looked at us, "After Mi get out— if she even gets out it's gone be eyes on her."
"Gane— ima grown ass man and I've seen it get done."
"And I'm telling you, you ain't gone be able to do that shit and not get us hit up in the process." Gane leaned forward, "don't do shit stupid."
"So you suggest we leave sis to rot in that bitch?" Fi pondered. Gane shrugged, "I'm worried about this money. We literally got shit planned and we can't do this shit without a full team."
"Listen Gane you get the Shit in Order and I'll handle the rest." Hercu said getting up, "Just let us know the dates."
Shortly after the meeting was over with and me and Fi was walking over to the car when Hercu pulled up next to us, "Send me Cakes number I gotta chat with her."
"Fashoo, stay safe Herc."
"Man y'all too." As I got in the car Fiona was starting that shit up shaking her head. "What?" I asked her.
"Gane bro." She continued, "Ion like how he just did that."
"Did what?"
"For one, Mi handled the niggas that got Ghost killed and he just saying let her rot let's replace both of them." She turned to me, "He don't give a fuck about us for real, what happened to Mi being his fav and shit."
"Girl you should've been knew what it was with Gane after he upped stick on Cakes."
"Okay but that's Cakes." She rolled her eyes, "Cakes ain't in this shit for real, but Mi is. Literally been dropping shit since forever—
"And Fiona?"
"I'm just saying, this one body get found as hers, what else gone get pinned." She looked at me once again, "He worried about her getting out mean while I'm worried about the bitch going to trial. You know what Ghost was on before he died, now all the shit is out."
"Man they digging up nothing and your worried?" I asked her before scoffing, "You worried about the wrong shit."
"No y'all just playing this shit dumb." She rolled her eyes, "The shit is loose loose either way."
"We gone see." I shrugged, "We don't even know how much evidence they got on the scene anyway."
"Exactly." She mugged me, "shit could be looking hella bad out here and we'll never know."
"Well girl." I shrugged, "We just gone have to see, but I trust Herc got that shit."
"Fuck that shit." She rolled her eyes. "Two ways this shit can go and both ain't finna be good."
"As long as she get out— I'm fine with the karma."
"Don't say that."
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