(Ariana's POV)
Another day another tour date! I was trying to forget yesterday's events but all over social media was our fans arguing and fighting. Some people were blaming me for Matt leaving magcon and others were defending me. It was all getting a bit much.. I almost wanted to contact them and apologise for well.. I don't know what I needed to apologise for but I wanted everything back to normal that's for sure!
"Justin" I call.
He comes into my dressing room and smiles at me "yes gorgeous?"
"Can we talk" I sigh
"What's wrong?" He asks concerned and sits down next to me.
"I want to reach out to Shawn again." I say
"I'm not his biggest fan Ari. But I'll do anything for you" he smiles.
"All I want to do is commend the peace. I'm so sick of all this arguing on social media and all this shit" I sigh.
"Okay we can arrange something" he smiles and kisses my head. He really is good to me.
I was currently getting changed into my outfit for today. Erin always did my hair for me as she trained as a hair stylist before she came on tour with me.
"You know I miss the blonde." I smile.
"Girl you could rock any colour" she smiles.
"I'd love to go lilac one day" I smile.
"Let's do it" she giggles.
I had minutes before I was due on stage. I've been forgetting to take my medication so I felt a bit out of breathe but I didn't really want Justin knowing. I would just catch up with them tonight.
I put my ear piece in and make my way towards the stage.
I was starting with no tears left to cry as that was the most iconic song for me right now.
The lights went dark and my stage started lifting.
"Right now, I'm in a state of mind
I wanna be in like all the time
Ain't got no tears left to cry
So I'm pickin' it up, pickin' it up
I'm lovin', I'm livin', I'm pickin' it up
I'm pickin' it up, pickin' it up
I'm lovin', I'm livin', I'm pickin' it up (oh, yeah)"
At the end of the song I was smiling widely as I absolutely loved seeing my fans singing along and being so happy.
"Hi guys" I smile and they all scream.
"I want to bring out a special someone to me to sing a new song off my album. If you know it please sing a long with us. It's called Love Me Harder" I smile into the microphone and everyone goes absolutely crazy as they knew Justin was coming out.
"Tell me something, I need to know
Then take my breath and never let it go
If you just let me invade your space
I'll take the pleasure, take it with the pain
And if in the moment I bite my lip
Baby, in that moment, you'll know this
Is something bigger than us and beyond bliss
Give me a reason to believe it
'Cause if you want to keep me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder
And if you really need me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder
(Gotta love me harder)
Love me, love me, love me
Harder, harder, harder"
When we finish the song he turns to me and walks over kissing my lips and pulling me into a huge hug.
"Give it up for the beautiful Ariana Mendes!" Justin smiles.
I blush as everyone screams. He kisses my cheek before running off stage.
@JustinBieber:
Singing w my baby 🌹 @AriMendes
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@AriMendes: but why am I dabbing?
@ErinJ: couple goals..
@Jariana82: MUM N DAD
"Okay this is my last song for today. I haven't performed this live yet and I would really appreciate if you guys would sing along with me" I smile and walk to the front of the stage and sit down right in-front of my fans.
As Moonlight started playing everyone starts screaming.
"The sun is setting
And you're right here by my side
And the movie's playing
But we won't be watching tonight
Every look, every touch
Makes me wanna give you my heart
I be crushin' on you, baby
Stay the way you are"
@Arianator:
SHES SINGING MOONLIGHT. WE WON.
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@Arifablove: NO WAY someone live stream!
@MagconAri: she should be singing this on magcon.
As I was singing I felt my breathe becoming shorter and the song itself was hard for me to sing. I start panicking as I knew I wasn't able to do the high notes. To distract me even more, the thought of Hayes was not leaving my head. Everything we have been through.. I just started crying.
@AriFan2:
BABY DON'T CRY 💔
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@MagconArmy: why's she crying?!💔
@Arilove; @MagconArmy she's singing moonlight 🥺
@Arianatorforever:
I feel so bad 😓 she looks so sad
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@MendesAri: someone HUG her
@OfficalAriFan:
Ariana sung 'Moonlight' live for the first time. Despite crying and not being her best she still broke a smile with her fans 💔 #weloveyouAri
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I was so upset with myself. As I finish the song I just burst into tears and cover my face with my hands. I now know how serious my medication is. I can't let this happen again!
"Thank you.." I say my voice breaking "I love you all" I say before leaving the stage.
I hold an arm around my face as tears fall and rush off the stage. Matt and Erin were waiting for me instantly.
Justin rushes around the corner out of breath. He was supposed to be under the stage about to go on.
He gives me a huge hug and kisses me cheek.
"I love you. Please don't be sad. " he says.
"Justin you're on NOW!" Scooter calls.
"Get on stage" I smile at him wiping my eyes. He smiles back at me and runs back to the stage.
Matt and Erin hug me and scooter comes over
"Are you alright ari?" He smiles.
All my dancers came to see me . I felt so loved.
"Yeah.. just I just completely lost my breath and memories made me sad. I get frustrated with myself when I can't reach notes" I sigh.
"Have you been taking your medication?" Scooter asks.
"Uh not perfectly but I'll be better" I sigh.
Matt and Erin walk me back to my dressing room.
I change into an over sized hoodie and some knee high boots.
"What made you cry" Erin asks.
I take some of my medication and sigh looking at her.
"A mixture of everything. Yesterday, my health, I didn't realise how much of an impact that song had on me when I sing it. I honestly couldn't stop thinking about Hayes when I wrote it and showed him and he dumped me." I frown.
"Do you miss him?" Matt asks
"No. Well not no.. but not yes" I shrug.
(Hayes POV)
Maggie was currently on stage singing. The crowd was pretty dead.
#WeLoveYouAri was trending no.1 on twitter. I go onto it wondering what it was.
I press on a video and watch it.
I loved hearing her voice. I noticed her voice was quite Shakey and she was out of breath. It must be from it being her last song of the evening.
The second she started crying i realised why the hashtag was trending. I felt myself getting sad seeing her like that. The fact she was tearing up during moonlight was a sight I never wanted to see. I wish that song made her as happy as it did the day she played it to me. At the end of the day I have no idea why she was crying but because it was moonlight a small part of me wished it was because she missed me.
All day at magcon had been an ongoing subject with the fans about why Matt and Ariana aren't here. Shawn had a black eye so we couldn't lie to them.
As I was about to put my phone away to re enter the stage I notice Ariana had posted.
@AriMendes:
Thank you for accepting my humanness, it's super emo and difficult singing some of these songs 🖤 y'all keep a smile on my face 🖤
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@Arianator: #weloveyouari 💜
@MagconAri: was it about Hayes?
@ArisPuppy: she's an actual angel.. #weloveyouari
@PonytailAri: she needs a break 💔 she sounded breathless.
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