Ack welcome back to another chapter!! This one might be long or short depending on how I feel so let's get right into it!
~.:when Midoriya went to his room:.~
Todoroki's Pov
Everyone was still eating and having a good time," listen I said I was sorry! What more can I say!", Sahara yelled while looking at Tokoyami and Dark Shadow. "We told you already, do the chicken dance and we will forgive you", he replies. "Ok anything but that, how about I do your chores for two weeks?", she asked hoping it will work. "No, that's what we asked", he says, "although that is tempting", he finished. Sahara groans as her head falls on the table, I just noticed that her food was gone. "You can sure eat fast", I said out loud while she looked at me. "So can you", she says pointing at my plate. I didn't notice that I ate that fast, she stands up and takes both mine and her plate along with Midoriya's to put it away for later. "I actually want to see that furred rat do the dance because that's what she is", he says while chuckling at his own joke. "That's not funny Bakugou and you know it", Uraraka says but just gets glared at. "I want to see you sing Barbie Girl because it suits you", Sahara said from the kitchen. "WANNA GO FUCK FACE!", Bakugou yelled while others try hard not to laugh. "Pff like you can catch me idiot", she replies while walking in. "You doubtin' me!", he practically yells while standing up. "I'm not sure KaTsUkI, try me", she says but then dashes off when Bakugou swings his arm at her letting off an explosion. "YOU BITCH, DON'T CALL ME THAT WHEN YOU HAVE NO RIGHT!", he yells while running at her. "Like I said on the chat, I'm not a dog but you sure the heck are", she says while laughing while some of us try not to laugh. "Fuck you!", he yells and swings another explosion at her but she quickly changes into her fox before she got hit. "I'll take a hard pass", she says and runs underneath him but just then he grabs her tail. "Got you damn rat", he says smirking but just then she shocks him then runs. "You fuck face! Get back here!", he yells angrily. "Ok young Bakugou, that's enough", he says. "Who are you even yelling at? ", All Might asked while scanning the room and just then she comes back into the room in her human form. "Sup", she says waving which made Bakugou mad and let off small explosions. "You'll get it next time you damn rat!", he says and storms pass her. I must say it was quite funny but it did need to be stopped eventually.
~.:present time:.~
Midoriya's Pov
I woke up to light shining into my eyes and the pleasent sound of birds chirping. I sat up, or well tried to but got stopped from arms being held around my waist. I looked behind me to see Kacchan's face,'that's weird.. thought Mr. Aziawa was in here last night', I thought to myself and started to unravel his arms. Just as I thought I was free his arms re-wrapped themselves on me, I felt someone gazing at me so I turned around and was met with crimson red eyes. "Where ya think your goin nerd?", he asked while pulling me further into his chest. "I was going to get up and use the bathroom", I said answering his question. He just grunts in reply as he let's me go, I grab clothes and walk into my bathroom. I turned on the shower and brushed my teeth while it heated up, I then started to undress myself after I finished brushing my teeth. I looked in the mirror and saw my body in bandages, I cringed at the thought of my cuts being cleaned by Mr. Aziawa or Kacchan but just shrugged it off as I unwrapped them and stepped into the shower. I washed myself up and cleaned my hair while my thoughts attacked me altogether. I turned off my sink and dryed myself off, I got bandages and re-wrapped the old cuts and some new ones and got dressed. I stepped out of my room with a towel on my head *where it's covering his face if you get it* . "Well that's a nice sight", I heard a deep voice say. I took the towel off and saw Kacchan standing there but looked more refreshed with a different outfit. "Yeah yeah", I say waving him off. I grabbed my blow dryer and dried my hair, after my hair was some what dry I took my brush and brushed my hair down making it look like a dome on my head then shook my head to make it flood up. "So that's the secret to your hair being floofy?," he asked me and I just glared at him which in return made him chuckle.
We walked downstairs together and headed to the kitchen to be met with the smell of pancakes, bacon and eggs. We were then greeted by Satou getting out of the kitchen while drying his hands off. "Your plates are already in the dining room", he tells us and we nod and headed off after I said thank you. When we walked into the dining room the only seats left are ones on the left side of the table. I sat next to Sahara and Kacchan sat in between me and Todoroki, I started to eat slowly while Kacchan at his how he normally eats. "So Miyo", Sar starts up," how are you?", she asked probably referring to last night. "Ah, I'm ok", I replied," just I bit tired", I said while looking up at her. I then took a sip of my orange juice slowly and looked around, I caught a glimpse of Kacchan drinking his juice also. "So Bakugou", Mina chirped while clapping her hands together. "Who ya got a crush on!", she asked which made Kacchan coughed up some of his juice. "Why the hell ya askin' raccoon eyes", he says while wiping his mouth off. "You have a girlfriend!", Hagakure asked while I think looks like her jumping up and down on her seat. "Hmm I'm sure he might have himself a boyfriend", says Kirishima as Bakugou glared at him but then reverted his gaze. "You could say that they are a bit girly for how they act", he says in reply. While giving me a slight glance a bit later so no one suspects anything, I puffed my cheeks slightly and kick his foot. "What about you Midoriya!", asked Hagakure which made me slightly blush at her forward question. "Well they act tough even though deep down their a big softy", I said smiling to myself imagining Kacchan's face when I said that. "I think I know who it is", Sar stated out bluntly while others stared her down. "WHO!?", asked Momo, "yeah I want to know also!", chimed in Mina. "Its quite obvious", she states and sips her drink while smirking at what I believe is Kacchan and I. "Just give them time and they will come out on their own, but I'm sure Kirishima knows who since he gave the biggest hint", she said while smirking at Kiri while he smirked back but made it a smile others turned to him. "Bro, hook a man up", says Danki but only got a head shake," sorry man but my lips are sealed", he says while almost laughing. Everyone groaned but Tokoyami, Sar, Me, Kacchan, and Kiri. "Sahara", Tokoyami's dark voice chimes in while Sar looks at him questionably but goes to a pleading and begging look," please noooooo", she says while she slips down her chair slightly. "You know the deal", he says. This all has me confused," what do you mean?", I asked then she jumps up out her chair," please don't let them do this to me!", she says while shaking my arms," she has to do the chicken dance so Dark Shadow can forgive her", Tokoyami says while Dark Shadow nods his head. "Yeah but whenever Bakugou lights off explosions near him he doesn't get any punishment! All I did was sneeze and zapped near you!", she yells looking at him. "That doesn't seem fair, Tokoyami", I said while he and Dark Shadow looked at eachother and nodded. "Fine, only because of how you made Bakugou look like a fool yesterday", he states which got me questioning last night.
It was the afternoon today, which is Thurday, and there was nothing to do. 'I could always sneak out and buy more blades', I thought to myself but shook it off. 'That will never work because people can't leave me alone', I thought while rubbing my chin in confusion,'maybe I can go at night?', I thought to myself, or so I thought. A idea popped into my head so I got off the couch and walked to the kitchen to "pretend" that I'm making a call, once some time passed I walked to the doors of the dorm building and started putting my shoes on. "Were ya goin' nerd?", I heard Kacchan say, I looked up at him while he stared back at me. "Oh, I'm going to the store", I tell him which makes him shake his head," sorry but you need someone to go with you", he replies back and sat next to me to get his shoes on. "Its ok, Sar said she will sing back around to pick me up", I say to him to hopefully let him stop what he's doing. He just stares at me in disbelief," with that damn rat? Thanks but no thanks, don't trust her", he says. Well great... now I have Kacchan with me, what could go wrong? We exited the building together and walked to the exit of UA, once we got to the gates Kacchan stops me. "Deku?", he asked in a serious tone while looking at me, I felt shivers go down my spine as he said this with that look. "Y-Yes Kacchan?", I asked back hoping my nervousness goes away," why did you lie saying the furred rat will pick you up?", he asked with slight worry. 'Crap! How am I supposed to answer this?!', I though to myself while showing my worry on the outside forgetting he was there,"Deku.. were you going go get more?", he asked me with worry and slight anger which made me look up at him with surprise. 'Ok... play it cool Izuku', I said thinking to myself," of course not Kacchan!", I told him. He let's go of my arms and nods," well then, what do you want from the store?", I asked him while he looked at me in a suggestive way," what you mean?", he asked me while we walked into a small alleyway filled with small shops. "Like, do you want a small snake or drink from the store?", I asked him while looking up at him, he ponders over this but stops and smirks at me. "Nah I don't want anything, I already have a small snake right here", he says then grabs ahold of me and wraps his arms around my waist while plopping his head down on top of my head. "K-Kacchan!", I said while yelping a bit," not in public! Its embarrassing..", I said to him while we continued walking slowly down the alleyway. We got digested looks from some people as we passed but they quickly averted their gazes when they were met by Kacchan's blinding anger in his eyes.
After some time walking in the alleyway we found a small desolate shop and walked it, if you ask me it looks like your average day corner store just to quickly grab something and leave. We walked in and grabbed one of the small baskets you can carry around to place stuff in, while we were walking around I found the blades I was looking for but quickly averted them when Kacchan came up to me and plopped a bag of candy down. "Float bitch wanted them so why not", he says and walks away. "Well that's awfully generous Kacchan", I say to him while he just looks at me with a blank expression. We bought the thing we grabbed but before we walked off I stopped Kacchan,"w-wait! We forgot to get something fro Sar!", I exclaimed while looking through the bags,"who cares, let's go", he says and was about to walk off. "No way! We got everyone something but her! It's not ok to leave her out, how would you feel if I got everyone something but you?", I said to him while he looked like he was thinking about it. "Ugh fine, hurry up", he says which I returned with a nod, I ran back into the store after I gave everything to Kacchan. I walked down the candy aisle and grabbed Snickers, I think quickly rushed to the aisle that had the blades, I pondered this for a second but grabbed one bag full of them and went to check out. Once I did and payed for them I took the blades out the store bag along with the receipt and put them in my inside pocket that was big to fit them. I walked out side to Kacchan who looked board out his mind," ok Kacchan!", I enthusiastically said while looking at him,' let's go!", I said and started walking with him side by side holding hands.
.:time skip brought to you by my brother tripping over air:.
We make it back to the dorm building and walked inside, we say Sero and Denki laying on the ground clutching their heads while groaning. "What the hell happened here?", Kacchan asked while holding back a laugh," Denki and Sero thought it was a good idea to swing off the light and catch the other person", Momo said while drinking her tea. "Makes sense", Kacchan replies and walks off after handing me the bags," Kacchan, really!?", I yelled at him while he smirked and walked off, I huffed at this but turned ti everyone. "I got you guys something as an apology for scaring you", I said and handed everyone their candy. "Aww thanks Mido!", Mina exclaimed happily while I got a 'thanks' by everyone or 'your so sweet' by some of the girls. I walked up to my room holding on to a Snicksr bag and walked down to Sar's room, I knocked on it and waited their a few seconds till the door opened to a tired Sar. She looks like she just woke up because her hair was messy, her eyes are half lided, and she was wearing pajamas," he Miyo", she says tiredly while she yawns," what'cha need?", she asked while rubbing her eyes. "Oh, it's nothing. Just got you candy", I said and handed it to her. She looked taken back but smiled," aw thanks cha Miyo!", she says and hugs me while I hugged back," it's no problem!", I say and broke the hug, she closes her door after saying thank you again as I returned back to my room. I got in my room and locked my door, I took my coat off, since it's late fall outside, and opened the inside pocket with my blades. I got them out and opened the bag, I walked over to my bed kneeling down and grabbing my black box, I took it from under my bed and opened the lid that holds all my emotional letters or vents. I lifted them up and poured out all ten blades and placed the papers back over them, just as I put my box back and hide the blade bag back inside my coats pocket someone knocks on my door. "I'll be there in a second!", I said and hug up my coat, I walked over to the door and unlocked it then opened it to be met with Mr. Aziawa. 'Why is he keep coming over!?', I said thinking to myself. "Hello Midoriya", he says with his blank expression," hello Mr. Aizawa, what brings you by?", I asked so I won't draw any suspicion. Just came by to check on you", he says while I offered I'm to come inside my room, we both sit on my couch with a bit if a comfortable silence. "I just wanted to ask if you are doing better since yesterday", he says without showing any emotions. I tensed up a bit knowing what he means,"Y-Yeah... I'm ok", I told him but he doesn't look convinced,"Look kid, I may not seem the type but I do care for you. I won't push you but right now I do need an explanation", he tells me while I lift my knees up to my chest and hug them while averting my gaze. "W-Well... I did feel uneasy and nervous for who cleaned my.. cuts but I just pushed that aside and had a good time with everyone...", I told him honestly and he seems pleased with my answer. "You went to the store with Bakugou? Right?", he asked me," what else did you buy? He told me you went back into the store to get something", he tells me while I panicked on the inside. "I went back into the store because I forgot to get soemthing for Sar.. so I bought her something so she would feel left out..", I told him and he just nods. "He and Sahara told me that, atleast your telling the truth", he says to me while I mentally sigh in my head. We continued to talk for some time until he left me to the darkness of my room, I stood up and walked over to my bathroom and closed the door. I took off my shirt and took off my bandages, I looked into the mirror looking at the ugly reflection, all you can see is a scared up chest with the ribs showing but not as noticeable, my face with bags under my eyes and my hair that always looks messy. I cringed at my sight but sighed and averted my gaze at my reflection and looked down at my scared eyes.
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I grabbed my blade from my pocket that I slipped in before I opened the door for Mr. Aziawa, I looked down at my wrist and thought about this deeply. 'Should I really do this?', I thought and of course... they came back.
'They won't care', one voice said.
'I can't... what would my friends think?'
'Their only doing it out of pity'
'N-No their not...Kacchan cares... so does everyone else'
'Do they really?'
'...'
'My point exactly'
I took the advice of the voice and begun to cut, deep. I felt relief from doing this until space ran out and went to the other one, my head started to get dizzy as I continued to cut long deep cuts all over my left arm. I couldn't stop, I can't stop. I needed this badly and I can't afford them to take these away, not again. I used up all the space on my left arm so I continued on my chest until a thought came across my head,'what if I cut my neck?', as I looked at the untouched flesh. I rubbed my neck with my bloody hand making a slight faint mark on it, I reach the blade up but stop as I heard my dorm room's door get knocked on.
.:you may continue!!!:.
"Midoriya, I forgot something. Can you open the door", I heard the faint voice of Mr. Aziawa say as I start to panic," Y-Yeah! Just a moment!", I say to him as I wash everything up making sure its spotless, I wrapped my chest and arms and put my shirt back on. I walked over to the door and opened the door which he just walks in and grabs his scarf wrap thingy," sorry, forgot it was even here. I thought I left it somewhere else till I remembered I came here", he tells me as I just nod. "Well, have a good nig-", he stops mid sentence and stares at me. "What's on you neck?", he asked while I forgot to wash my neck, I didn't really know it was that noticeable. "O-Oh! I was wri-ting down some things with red pen until it e-exploded, I guess I forgot to clean-n my neck", I tell him hoping he believes my lie. "But I don't see the mess at you desk, not only that but your hands will be slightly stained red if that happened", he says not believing my lie. 'Well shoot', I said thinking to myself. "Midoriya", he says while looking at me but I didn't look at him. "Tell me what it is", he continues and walks to me, I had enough," why can't people just leave me alone! Am I really that much of a kid to be constantly checked up on?! Or do i need constant reminders of who- what I am!", I yelled not really meaning to let all that out. After I said that I started to cry and shake uncontrollably while breathing heavily," Midoriya just calm down, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push", he says while rubbing my back and shushing me little by little trying to calm me down. My breathing did calm down after thirty minutes. I just sat there being hugged by Mr. Aziawa while he rubs my back *rubs keeps autocorrecting to runs* in a soothing way,"so... you just want me to check tomorrow morning?", he asked me but I shook my head,"I-It's ok... you c-can che-ck now", I say nervously while he just nods. I take my shirt off to only see bloodied bandages on my chest and arms, I'm not going to lie but I did feel slightly dizzy from doing this thirty minutes earlier. I look away from him but can see him from the corner of my eyes shaking his head slowly, Mr. Aziawa reaches his hand up to me to only see me to flinch away from it. "O-Oh... sorry", I say and went back to how I was sitting originally," no it's ok, do you want to take them of?", he says in a caring way. I slowly shake my head because I'm probably not able to fully unwrap them without breaking down, I already have tears going down my face. Mr. Aziawa then starts to unwrap them and sees the deep lining cuts, he looks at me sympathetically and places the dirty bandages on my table. "Midoriya...", he says full of concern,"Y-Yeah.. I know, they're bad", I cut him off looking away. "Did you clean them?", he asks me but I didn't answer, he sighs at my answer and gets up off the couch. 'He's going to leave, he is going to leave me like this. Maybe he didn't care at all, why should he. Everyone probably didn't care anyways', as my thought continued I got cut off by Mr. Aziawa flicking my head softly,"You know your mumbling, right?", he tells me and I got embarrassed. "Listen Midoriya, we do care for you it's just that we never knew this until now because you didn't let us help you", he starts. "We want to help you and make you feel better", Mr. Aziawa finishes while he starts to clean my cuts, I wince at the new pain but let it happen since I didn't care for them being cleaned.
Some time passed and Mr. Aizawa left my dorm while taking my blade that I had, just as long I have the others I'm ok. I walk over to my bed and laying down in it. I look at the clock and saw that it was eleven at night, I sighed and turned to my black ceiling and slowly drifted off into sleep.
Ok, so this chapter was longer then the others because I was heavily motivated but that slowly died. Welp! Hope you enjoyed!
Date: 11-8-2019
Words: 4099