July 30, 1993
"So when you gon' let a brotha take you out on a real date?" Pac asked on the other side of the phone. Janet and Tupac had talked to each other almost every day and they were becoming closer. "I enjoyed taking you as my date to the premiere and I really enjoyed spending the night with you, but I wanna go somewhere fun. Just you and me."
"All you have to do is ask.." Janet curled the phone cord around her finger. "It's a lot of things you don't know about me yet.. I need you to know Rene hurt me really bad..he did some unspeakable things to me. I'm ready for something real, Tupac and I want that with you.." Janet's voice softened.
"I don't know what ole boy did to you..but I promise you Tupac Amaru isn't like that. I got you, baby. Just trust me.. You already know how I feel about you, Square." He said softly. "Come on, I promise you we'll have fun."
Janet laughed."I hope that doesn't mean what I think it means."
"I promise it's nothing like that. I'm just tryna spend time wit you girl. With that being said—"
Janet interrupted him. "Yes I will go on a date with you. I wanna go to the park. I haven't been in so long."
"Ight then. Have yo fine ass ready by eight o' clock."
She laughed. "Aright bye bighead."
Janet put on some jeans and a black crop. She tousled her curly hair, making sure she looked good. She sprayed some perfume and headed downstairs to wait for Pac. She was so excited. The last time she saw him, they had ended up spending the night together and that was a while ago.
She missed him and she couldn't wait to be with him. She missed him so much, she even wrote a few songs about him.
Ding dong.
Janet sprinted to the door.
"Hi Lesane.." she laughed and hugged him. "Shorty, that is not my name anymore quit playing with me, Damita Jo." He sucked his teeth.
"Eww stop! I hate my middle name. It's so country." She playfully shoved him.
"Well I like it so I don't care what you think about it. By the way, you look beautiful..Anyways I brought you something." He smirked.
He handed her a piece of paper. "It's a poem."
She silently read it. As she read it, she could feel herself falling even harder for him than she already was. Janet could've just melted right there.
"Come here.." She threw her arms around this neck and kissed him passionately.
"What was that for, shorty?"
"Because you're the sweetest man I've ever met and we're not even together yet." She kissed his cheek.
"Did you like it?" He asked.
"I loved it." Janet gazed into his beautiful brown eyes.
"Why are you so good to me?" She placed her hand on his cheek.
"I want you to see how you're supposed to be treated and I'm just showing you how serious I am about you." He stroked her cheek, then kissed her forehead.
"You ready tho?"
"Yes, but let me put this in my room, I don't wanna lose this."
She carefully placed the poem in her drawer and headed back down stairs.
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Janet and Pac were walking around the park talking and eating fruit. "My mom is a huge fan of you!" She exclaimed.
"For real?"
"Hell yeah..she's gonna be so happy to meet you." Janet smiled at him. "What about your mom? You never talk about her.."
"Well..it's just complicated. My mom was on and off drugs when I was a kid and when I dropped out of high school she told me I was never gonna amount to nothing and she kicked me out.. we're on good terms now and she's clean, but those memories still hurt sometimes. But my mom would absolutely love you." He smiled at her.
Janet took a moment to think about what he just said. "Why do you think that and do you ever think about going back and getting your degree?"
"You're a good influence on me and yeah sometimes I do..did you get your degree?"
"Oh I got mine, I went to Valley Professional School but, my whole family had a tutor. Her name was Ms.Fine, she taught us everything"
"So you went to one of those fancy schools?"
"I guess you could say that..it was just where a lot famous kids went to school. Tupac, I really think you should go back to school."
"I think I just might do it..anyways, since we're talking about family, don't you have some nieces and nephews?" He asked her, biting into a piece of pineapple.
"I have lots of nieces and nephews but the ones I see the most are Michael and Mariah's kids. Those are my babies.." She beamed.
"What are their names?"
"Camilla and Jayden. They are so sweet and funny. Jayden is like Mariah and Camilla is like Michael.."
"Do you want that for yourself?" Tupac said, playing with her hair.
"Kids?" She bit her lip.
Shit. I knew he was gonna ask.
Janet tried to gather her words so her anxiety wouldn't be too obvious.
"Of course I want to have kids.. I-I just don't know if I'll be a good mother.." She frowned and started to twiddle with her fingers.
"Um what about you.." she said, still looking down.
"Yeah I want at least two kids.. just don't know if I'll be a good dad."
"Of course you'll be a great dad..you're so caring and loving. So don't worry about that, Baldie." She said, taking last bite of her strawberry.
"You ready to go back to your place?" He poked her.
"Yeah! Let's go." She grabbed his arm and ran to the car.
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They were back at her place, watching television. He looked over at her concentrated face as she intently watched Law and Order. The way Janet froze up when he asked her about having kids was really bothering him.
"Babe, why are you staring at me so hard?" She chuckled. When he didn't reply, she knew he was thinking about something.
"Babe?" She studied his anxious facial expression.
"Janet what happened between you and Rene?"
She took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
"A lot of things..he was abusive. Physically, verbally and mentally.."
Tupac turned off the T.V. and faced her.
"What?"
"...And h-he r-raped me.." Janet put her head in her hands. At this point, Tupac was already planning a hundred different ways to kill Rene. He grabbed her and held her, rubbing her back as she sobbed.
"I tried to fight him off, but he just wouldn't stop.."
She looked up at him, eyes red and puffy.
"That's why I got so scared at that party..I thought it was going to happen again."
"I swear on my life, I will never let anything like that happen to you again. I promise that, baby girl."
He wiped away a tear and kissed her cheek.
"There's something else.." She sniffled and then took a deep breath.
"...I was two months pregnant and he beat me so bad that I had a miscarriage..that's why I got so anxious when you were talking about having kids because I don't even know if I can have any more.." She bit her lip to keep herself from sobbing.
Tupac felt his heart drop to and could tell Janet was heartbroken by the look on her face.
"Is that why you were crying that day?"
She nodded.
"Janet look at me.." He said softly. Janet looked at him and he could see the anguish in her sad eyes.
"Sweetheart, that wasn't your fault. He did that to you.. it was beyond your control, but I know you'll be okay. Everything is going to work out just fine. I promise you that."
"You always know the right thing to say." Janet looked at him and smiled. She grabbed his hands. "I'm so lucky to have you."
"I'm the lucky one." He kissed her forehead.
"For real though, I have something I want to ask you.." He grabbed her hand, making Janet look at him.
"I want you to be my girl..I know you keep acting like you don't have feelings for me but I see it in your eyes, baby girl." He placed a soft kiss on her lips, making her blush.
"So stop fighting it, shorty. What do you say?"
At this point Janet was smiling so hard her cheeks hurt.
"Yes, I will I be your girlfriend." She hugged him tightly then kissed him.
"Alright I think we should head to bed because I got a big day planned for us tomorrow."
"What are we doing?" She said, standing up and stretching.
"It's a surprise, Square. I promise you'll like it." He stood and threw her over his shoulder.
"Stop it! You play too much." She laughed.
"Hush! You know you like it." He carried her upstairs and laid her down on the bed.
"Lay yo ass down, girl." He said, talking off his shirt.
"I have to take this makeup off. I'll be back I promise." She blew him a kiss and scurried off into the bathroom.
Tupac planned a whole day for him and Janet. He was going to take her to meet his mother and then take her to the beach. He just wanted her to relax just for once.
"Alright, baby I'm ready." She walked back into the bedroom with a blue silk night gown on and flopped down onto the bed. He had never seen her bare face before.
"I already thought you were beautiful, but seeing you now..just damn, baby." He kissed her.
"Thank you.." She blushed and looked into his eyes.
Janet settled into bed next to Tupac and they fell asleep.
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The Next Day..
Tupac woke up first. He watched Janet sleep peacefully for a few minutes before attempting to get out of the bed. She looks like an angel.
He moved slightly and Janet grabbed his arm.
"No baby, get back in bed with me." She opened her eyes and pouted.
"Baby we gotta get up soon anyway, remember? I got a whole day planned."
She sat up and rubbed her eyes. "Oh yeah I forgot.."
"Get up, girl. We got things to do." He pulled the covers off of Janet.
"Come on in this bathroom for me."
"Baby.. just a few more minutes." She groaned.
"I was gonna cook you breakfast but since you wanna go back to sleep I guess I won't." He shrugged.
"Okay, okay I'm up. Now get out the bathroom, I need to take a shower." She shoved him playfully.
"Say less. Imma go make that food for you. It'll be ready when you get out. And put on something nice."
Janet got into the shower and let the hot run down her body. She was so glad that she was offcially his girl.
"Call Tupac, my boo
Gotta meet him soon
Tell Mimi call Shawn
I'll be there one" Janet sang softly.
Hmm..I should write that down.
She turned the shower knob and stepped out. She dried off her body and put her curly hair into a pony tail. She continued her morning routine and after going through her clothes, decided on a white crop top and a flowing white skirt. She let her hair fall and headed downstairs.
"Hey Square." Tupac said as he placed two plates on the counter. "This looks amazing." Janet licked her lips.
"Not as good as you though." He winked.
"You play too much." She laughed as she sat down.
"I hope you like it."
Janet took a few bites before saying "Baby this is amazing."
"Thank you babe, you know I put it down." He sat down next to her.
He finished the rest of his food and went upstairs to get ready.
"I'll be back love. I need to freshen up. You just get ready because we're gonna leave soon."
"Okay baby."
While Tupac was in the shower, Janet finished up her food then cleaned her plate. She straightened up the kitchen and living room before sitting down and putting her black sandals on.
"Alright babe, you ready?" Tupac said as he walked downstairs.
"Yes, honey." Janet called back and tossed him her car keys.
Once they were all settled into the car, Janet asked
"So where are you taking me, handsome?"
He side eyed her.
"What?!" She exclaimed.
"Can you ever relax and enjoy the ride?"
"Of course I can!"
"Then stop asking so many questions, Square. We just got in the car."
"Okay, Dad." She rolled her eyes.
"That's not exactly the name I wanted you to call me, but that works for right now."
Janet smirked. "If you're a good boy, I'll be calling you that other name in no time."
"Girl I will pull this car over right now. Don't play with me."
She placed her hand on his leg and leaned over to whisper into his ear, "You know I wrote Anytime, Anyplace about you, right?"
He looked over at her as he came to a complete stop at the red light. "Oh word?"
She licked his ear, "And I mean just that..
"Anytime..." She kissed his lips.
"Anyplace.. I don't care who's around. I'll let everyone know you're my man.."
Tupac was already thinking about how she would look face up ass down and how many different positions he could have her in.
"Why are you you so quiet," Janet placed her finger under his chin.
"Daddy?" She purred.
"See you tempting me, Square but you aren't ready for this.." He laughed.
"Oh I'm not huh?" She asked in sultry tone and unbuttoned her blouse a little just some cleavage showed.
"You keep teasing me, Imma pull the car over and have you in the backseat begging me to stop."
"The only reason I'm teasing you is because you won't tell me where we're going.." She rolled her eyes.
"We'll be there in a few minutes, Sweetheart. Calm yo freaky ass down." He took a left turn.
She buttoned up her blouse. "Okay fine."
He pulled into the driveway of brown house with a wrap-around porch and parked the car.
He turned to her. "This is my mom's house. I want you to meet her."
"Baby, I'm so nervous." She checked her hair in the sun visor mirror.
"Sweetheart," He grabbed her hands. "She is going to love you."
"What if she doesn't?" Janet said in a doubtful tone.
He kissed her forehead, "She will. Now let's go inside." He walked to Janet's side of the car and opened the door.
"Thank you, handsome." She said and grabbed his hand.
"You're welcome gorgeous." He swung their arms as they walked to the front door.
He rang the doorbell and waited.
"Coming!" They heard a voice yell from inside
A few moments later they heard clicks from the door unlocking and were greeted with the face of his mother, Afeni.
"Son, it's so good to see you!" She hugged her son joyfully.
"Is this Miss Janet?" She said sweetly after pulling back from their embrace.
"Yeah that's her mama." He looked at Janet adoringly and grinned.
"Hi, Ms. Shakur. It's really nice to meet you.." She pulled her into a tight hug.
"Girl, just call me mama. Now come on let's go inside."
"See, I told you. She loves you already."
They followed her into the house and sat down in the living room. Janet was sitting next to Afeni, while Tupac sat on the other side of her.
"I've heard so much about you Janet. Tupac hasn't shut up about you since he met you" Afeni laughed.
"Really now?" Janet looked at Tupac.
"You know, he's had a crush on you since he was a little boy," She teased.
"Ma!!" He groaned and covered his face to hide his burning cheeks.
Janet laughed at his coyness. "Aww, baby that's adorable."
"He used to watch the video for Miss You Much every time it came on. He was so excited that he was gonna be doing a movie with you. He was especially excited getting to kiss you." Afeni giggled.
Janet got up and sat on his lap. "Is that true?"
"Of course it's true. You're my dream girl." He gazed at her lovingly.
"I'll be right back." Afeni said before exiting the room.
He put his finger under her chin, bringing his lips to hers, kissing her fervently. Without breaking the kiss, she straddled him as he snaked his hands around her waist.
"Baby.." She panted. "We gotta stop.."
He moved his hands down to her butt. "No we don't." He spoke lowly.
She gave him a look.
"Okay you're right."
She lowered herself back to her spot on the coach a and noticed his hard-on.
"Aww baby did I get you excited?" She teased
"Yeah. Got a nigga excited and shit just for us to stop." He playfully folded his arms and sucked his teeth.
"I'm sorry baby. I didn't wanna stop, but I don't need your mama to see you blowing my back out." She pouted
"It's ight. When we get back imma have you face down a-" He said before being interrupted.
"Aht aht! Don't be saying all that nasty shit in front of me!" His mother commanded.
"I'm sorry, Ma. She know what she be doing to me."
"I don't wanna hear about that. How about a little music?" His mother turned on the stereo.
"I'm gonna cook a little something because it looks like yall are staying for dinner.."
"Okay ma." Tupac replied.
Lately by Jodeci was still dominating the R&B charts.
"Ooooh, baby this is my song!" Janet enthused.
"Come over here and dance with me then, girl." He bit his lip.
"I will." She laughed and swayed as she walked over to him.
"So babe, the plan was bring you to meet my mom and take you to the beach, but it's getting really late now.
"You're so sweet. We can go another day." She kissed his cheek.
"You know I'm gonna marry you right?" She said firmly.
"I already knew that, Sweetheart. I was just waiting for you to figure that out."
After spending the rest of the evening with Afeni and eating a good home cooked meal, they headed back to Janet's place. Once the made it inside, the sexual tension between them was almost unbearable. As soon as the got in the door, they were ripping each other's clothes off.
"Baby," Tupac stopped and reached over to turn on her stereo. "Are you sure you're ready?"
"I've never been more sure in my life." She kissed him. He continued to undress Janet as she did the same to him.
"Baby can you turn off the light?" She said quietly.
"Why?"
"I don't want you to see my body..."
"Uh uh. Come here, baby."
He kissed her lips, her neck, her stomach, then her thighs. "I love you. All of you. Your body is beautiful. Let me show you."
He picked her up and laid her gently on the bed. He unhooked her bra and lifted it over her head. He took one breast in his mouth and massaged the other with his hand.
"Mmm.." Janet let a low moan escape her lips.
He continued you to swirl his tongue around her nipple and gently suck on it while playing with her other one.
He planted kisses down her stomach until he got to her panties. He slid them down her legs before spreading them.
"Damn, baby. You're wet." He said as he rubbed her clit.
"Fuck.." she moaned lowly.
He sucked on her clit, causing her to moan his name loudly. She pushed his head back, causing him to stop.
Tupac removed the rest of his clothing before positioning himself between her legs.
"Tell me if you want me to stop okay."
"Okay." She nodded.
He slowly entered her warmth. "Ah.." She cried, wrapping her legs around him.
"Damn, baby it's tight.." He groaned, throwing his head back.
Janet hadn't had sex this good since, well...never.
Rene didn't know how to please her and never took the time to learn. She was insecure about her body since Rene always made fun of it. She was still nervous, but Tupac was showing her all she needed to know.
She was digging her nails into his back now, crying out his name with every stroke.
He leaned down to kiss her lovingly as he sped up his strokes.
"Shit.." Janet moaned into his mouth.
"You like that shit?"
"Mmhmm." He eyes rolled back and she moaned lazily in response.
"Say it.." He pounded into her.
"Yes..." She groaned as she gripped onto the sheets.
"Yes what?"
"Yes, Daddy.." She grinded her hips into him.
His chain hanging in her face only made her want him more. She didn't want him to stop any time soon. She pulled him into a passionate kiss as she felt him move in and out of her.
"Go deeper, Daddy.." She whispered as he sucked on her neck. His strokes slowed as he went deeper, making Janet whimper.
"Ah...right there.." She threw her head back.
He slowed his strokes.
"Ooh...right there..shit." She beyond ectasy at this point. With every stroke he took her deeper and deeper into the rapture.
"Fuck.." He groaned feeling her walls tighten around him.
"Oh my God.." She moaned loudly from Tupac hitting her g-spot as she climaxed. He bit his lip as he watched her ecstasy covered face. She gripped onto his arms and she rode out her orgasm.
"Fuck!" Tupac moaned before speeding up more.
Janet wrapped her arms around his neck and brought him to her lips.
He groaned one last time before laying beside Janet.
"I can't believe we just did that..." Tupac laughed.
Janet laid her head on his chest and looked up at him.
"You," She kissed his cheek. "You really put it on me."
"Girl you needed that.
"I still need some more..." She purred, tracing his lips.
He didn't answer, he just rolled over on top of her and started to kiss her lips. He pulled back and they gave each other a sweet smile.
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I'm really sorry I took so long to update. I rewrote this chapter soo many times because of writer's block. Let me know what you guys think. (:
- Kelc