(excuse all mistakes.)
Compton, California 📍
Vadah Avani Parker|Buddha
"Lil nigga you got me fucked up if you think ian nothing to be worried bout." Daddy sized Kamiri up.
It was going on 7 and Kamiri, Kris, Squirrel, and Tonio had just gotten here. Aub and Tiggy had been here since 6:30.
"Got him fucked up!" Chauncey yelled.
"Daddy that's a bad word. Don't say that." Milly looked up at him.
"Ain't shit lil bout me big cuh." He smirked a little making me roll my eyes. He loved knowing he was getting under people's skin.
"Okay that's enough." I pushed through and grabbed Kamiri's arm then looked up at my Dad. "Stop."
"What you talking bout?" He furrowed his eyebrows. "I'm just talking to the lil nigga."
"Aye this nigga Banks messy as hell." Chauncey laughed.
"You wanted to meet him formally. Kamiri this is my father. Father, this is my boyfriend."
"Bitch saying father. She know who she be calling daddy." Aub mumbled making me slant my eyes at her.
i can't stand this girl.
"Wassup big cuh." Kamiri nodded. Im so happy he wasn't high but, the only downfall with that was he didn't give a fuck about what came out of his mouth. At least he had a filter when he was high.
"Don't be calling me that." Daddy mugged him.
"What you prefer? Big homie? Pops?"
"Aye!" Los started doing that ugly ass laugh.
"Ion like him." Daddy looked at me.
"Ion ca—"
"Ahhtttt!" I cut Kamiri off.
"Man Buddha yo lil ass trippin I was getting ready to record. KB you known for knocking niggas out, you know they used to call Banks lil Ali back inna day?" Chauncey snickered.
"And I thought I was an instigator." Kris bust out laughing.
"Who you?" Daddy scrunched his face up before looking at Kamiri. "You just gone bring the whole hood to my shit?"
"Kristopher Wallace sir." He got serious real quick. "This is Carlos Jaxon."
"This a ole 6ix9ine ass nigga. Y'all need to watch him." He twisted his lip at him making Chauncey and Los bust out laughing.
"Woahhhh stop playing on my top. That's out." He shook his head.
"Called yo ass 6ix9ine!" Los screamed.
"Twinnn! My main squeeze!" Chauncey yelled to Squirrel.
"Wassup twin." He nodded making him pipe down.
"What's wrong with him?" He frowned. "What's wrong with you?"
"None." He shook his head. "I'm chilling."
"Oh well. Guess I'm chilling too." He shrugged, replacing his previous facial expression with a nonchalant one.
"Okay can y'all move from in front of the door? Y'all letting all the A/C out." Zaza looked at us.
"Damn Zaza you kinda baldhead." Kris jerked his head back. Her natural hair was in a small afro.
"Stop playing with me boy. I cut my hair."
"She always using that lame ass excuse." Daddy rolled his eyes. I see he had an attitude today.
"Banks you at neckssss!" Chauncey hollered.
"Come on." I grabbed Kamiri's hand leading him to the living room.
"This you?" He picked up my 9th grade school picture that my Dad had framed.
"Omg give me that." I bust out laughing, reaching for it.
"No." He moved it up some. "This big ass smile on your face. Happy ass. You got a unibrow? I'm finna fie yo ass up on cripppp!"
"Stop playing with me." I laughed a little, feeling hit. My Dad was big on embracing being natural so when I first came to live with him, he didn't really want me to get my eyebrows done.
I wasn't bout to be walking around looking like no Neanderthal though so I changed his mind real quick.
He a give me the world if I asked for it foreal.
"Now you mad?" He laughed.
"Ain't nobody mad. You're just playing on my top."
"I'm playing on your top?" He mocked me and laughed some more. "You so proper."
"The It bitch has arrived!" Nay came through the door with Daja behind her.
"The itch bitch." Kris joked.
"Kris stop fucking playing wit me." She bust out laughing.
"My favorite pregnant bitch! How you doing?!" She ran and hugged Zaza like she hadn't seen her in forever.
"Hey girl." She spoke irritability. Her contractions had been killing her so she was not in the mood. "Wassup Daja."
Kamiri and I were sitting down while they all stood, crowding around.
"Aub? Girl what you doing here? What any of y'all doin here? I thought this was a family dinner."
"Yeah and we family now love." Aub nodded. She wasn't feeling my sister's after I gave her the backstory on them.
"Period." I chuckled.
"Oh hey Buddha bitch! Ian even see you!" Daja came over to hug me.
"Wasssuppppp sissy Pooh?!" Nay exclaimed. "Feel like Ian see you in forever."
Were they really gonna act like they didn't ignore me for damn near three weeks? And then come in here like shit was cool? What the fuck?
"Sup." I dryly nodded as we awkwardly hugged.
They went to walk away making me scrunch my face up. "Don't walk away like you don't see my nigga sitting right here."
"Huh?" Daja turned around.
"Oop." Chauncey, Squirrel, and Kris spoke at the same time.
"... Girl what? We literally didn't see him. Why you acting like that?" Nay chuckled furrowing her brows.
"Wassup KB." They spoke in unison.
"Sup." He nodded before looking over at me. "You ain't have to do that."
"No, ain't nobody bout to disrespect you in front of me. You sitting right next to me and we're holding hands ain't no way in hell she ain't see you. Fuck outta here." I rolled my eyes over this whole thing already.
"Gah lee, the dick got you ready to turn on yo family?" He joked making me bust out laughing.
"Move you irritating." I pushed him.
"I'm ready to go. You wanna go?" I rubbed his face. I don't know why I just liked touching on him.
"Girl I just got here. Let a nigga get a plate first, shit." He chuckled.
"I just don't feel like being around nobody right now. Everybody irking me." I rolled my eyes, feeling on his ear.
"Girl why the hell you always touching me?" He grabbed my hand.
"I don't know." I laughed.
"Hey family!" Chocolate walked in the house.
"Girl get yo ass out. You know better." Daddy slanted his eyes at her.
"Yo ol boy at necks." Kamiri laughed.
"He's annoying."
"What you got against me?" She jerked her head back.
Kris and Chauncey started coughing dramatically.
"Derrick stop playing and let that girl sit in this fucking house." My grandma cut the corner and told him. "It's hot out there."
"Grandmaaa!" Milly ran over to her.
"Grandmaaa?" Kris, Squirrel, and Los leaned back.
Kris looked over at me. "Yo grandma fine as hell."
"She don't look like no grandma." He added.
It was true my grandma looked young as hell. Black don't crack babyyyy.
"Hey my baby." She hugged her.
"Do you have candy?" Milly looked up at her making her dig in her purse and pull out a peppermint.
"Hm." She handed it to her.
"That is not no damn candy." Chauncey mugged her. "Gon give my baby a damn peppermint."
"Y'all don't see y'all grandma?" She cut her eyes at Nay and Daja. Zaza had walked off somewhere.
"Hey chile." They laughed, hugging her.
"Buddha I see yo lil ass sitting on this couch. Get up." We shared a long hug before she pulled away and looked over my face. "How you been?"
"Pretty amazing." I smiled.
"That's good." She nodded. "You know your mother called me?"
"What she say? When? Is she—"
"Calm down chile. She—" She sighed. "We'll talk."
My curiosity was getting the best of me as I nodded and sat back down next to Kamiri.
my mama?
"And who is this fine piece of chocolate?" She rested her hand on her hip.
"My boyfriend, Kamiri." I gestured as he stood up and rubbed his hands on his jeans making me stifle my laughter.
he really was nervous.
"How you doing ma'am?"
"I'm just fine thank you." She rested her hand on her wide ass hip making her keys fall.
Kamiri bent down to pick it up for her making her gasp.
"Awh shit my grandbaby done went out and got her a MAN!" She held her chest dramatically.
"Grandma, please." I held my hand up.
"I'm just saying sis. 35 years ago, you woulda had to watch yo back." She pointed.
"Woaaahhhh, grandma wylin!" Kris bust out laughing.
"I'm tired of her old ass." Chauncey mugged her. "You just don't say shit like that. Just embarrassing me."
"Lydia, come get yo ass in this kitchen and make these greens!" Daddy shouted from the kitchen.
"Yo grandma fine as hell." Kamiri raised his eyebrows.
"You would think so. Ms. Jackson." I rolled my eyes. I still can't believe he fucked that old ass lady.
it's true, niggas a fuck anything.
"Woahhhhh." He bust out laughing. "Chill."
"You always fucking lying Arondae! Get on my nerves."
"Zyir calm down for you run yo pressure up." DaeDae walked behind Zaza who had a mug on her face.
"Just get out my face Damn. Everybody blowing me." She huffed.
"DaeDaeeee!" Kris, Los, and Tonio dragged.
Tonio who was sitting next to Aub smiled. "Nigga ain't seen you in forever feel like."
"I be with my wife." He chuckled. "Wassup."
"That nigga a father, on crip." Kamiri laughed.
i swear he has the cutest laugh.
"Aye Tonio what's that shit you say? One thing's forsure, two things for certain?"
"We take care of them kidssss." They dragged before busting out laughing.
Grandma came back out the kitchen with a sweet potato pie and sat it on the table and Chauncey sped walked to the table making her pop his hand.
"Don't nobody touch this pie till after dinner, hear?"
"Then why would you bring it out here?" He stale faced her making her pick it back up.
"You better get out my face. You steady acting like cause you grown I won't still whoop yo ass." She slanted her eyes at him.
"Nay come move this vase. I know this ain't where it belong." She directed.
Nay huffed and stood up, moving the vase.
"Damn, this thing dirty. When the last time y'all dusted this damn thing?" She raked a finger over the spot.
"Watch she tell me to go clean it." I whispered to Kamiri. I loved my Grandma with all my heart but I hated when she came over because she swore it was her house.
Clean this. Clean that. Move this. Pick up yo that. Like girl take yo ass home.
"Buddha come clean this up." Kamiri chuckled a little making me roll my eyes.
"Stop being disobedient. Go clean that up like she said." He teased.
I stood up and went to the hallway closet where the cleaning products were.
"Grandma ughh! You come here bossin us around! How you know we don't like the way we live?" I heard Nay say.
"Y'all like living in filth?" She scrunched her face up just as I cut the corner to wipe the table down.
"It's not filthy." Zaza mugged her. Grandma looked down on Zaza ever since she got pregnant so they were not too fond of eachother. "I just cleaned this whole entire house before you got here just for you to come here and mess up MY floor! Come in here with these big ass rain boots bringing in dirt and dog ass and wanna say the house dirty. YOU made it dirty! Fuck?"
"You ain't finna be cursing at me that's what you not finna do. You think cause you having babies you grown?"
"Girl I'll mix your pills together. Get out my face." Zaza waved her off which made Chauncey holler.
"I love this family oh my God."
"Disrespectful ass lil girl." Grandma waltzed out the living room and I turned around to put the wood cleaner back where I got it from.
"I knew I came here for a reason." Kris was dead as hell.
"Man I'm just waiting for Lady to get here!" Chauncey dragged making them laugh.
"Chauncey you messy as fuck on crip."
"Lady just got from the airport last night. She on her way over here." Nay snickered.
"Wait so what was the special occasion? Why's dad cooking?" Daja asked when I walked back out.
"Well it's Sunday so he decided to make a big meal but he wanted to meet KB too so." Zaza explained.
"Ohhh, that's why everybody over here." Nay nodded in realization.
"Shit Nay, KB meeting dad. When you gone bring Marv over here?" They smirked.
"Daddy already met Marvin." She laughed.
"Foreal? He like him?"
"Girl who don't like his nice ass?" She laughed. "It was on accident really. I was coming over here to get extra clothes for my trip and he brought me. Marvin was sitting in the car and Daddy went out there being nosy."
"He aggy." They laughed.
I just sat there. I've come to the point with them that if nobody spoke to me, I wouldn't speak to them. We didn't have to talk. It was that simple.
"Mommy I hungwy." Tiggy rubbed his stomach looking up at Aub.
"We gone eat soon baby."
"Chauncey come move yo fucking car yo!" I heard Lady's voice.
"Nevermind. I can't stand this demanding ass bitch." He grumbled patting his pockets. "Milly you gonna come with me?"
"No I wanna stay." She twisted her leg, looking over at KB and I.
He shrugged and walked out making her come and sit by us. She looked up at KB making me chuckle and bunch my eyebrows together. "How may I help you Milly?"
"Oh." She giggled. "Nothing I was just gonna ask KB a question."
"What yo question is shorty?" He looked down at her.
"Where is Marv?" She whispered before looking at Nay making me bust out laughing, throwing my head back.
"Milly you shadyyy." I dragged while Kamiri laughed beside me.
"Ion know where he at Milly." He chuckled. "You want me to call him?"
"Yes please." She smiled sweetly.
"Your dad's gonna whoop your ass." I shook my head.
"Boy okay cause why you walking so slow? You finna blow me, damn." Lady walked in the house, rolling her eyes.
"Why you think I'm scared of you? I'll walk even slower. Ugly ass." He slowed down his steps.
"Chauncey move damn." She pushed him and walked past everybody, straight to the kitchen.
"That bitch don't see nobody?" Daja asked.
"Y'all good? I know y'all fought." Chauncey snickered.
"Yeah we good." She rolled her eyes and snaked her neck at him.
"That's what sisters do Chauncey. They fight and get back right." Nay spoke.
"This bitch is not family." Chauncey mugged Daja. I swear they were fucking on the low.
"Boy fuck you." She rolled her eyes.
"Hm." He jerked his head back giving her a look.
"You seen that?" I raised my eyebrows looking at Kamiri. Everybody else was talking amongst themselves but him and I were sitting back watching.
"Mhm." He hummed smirking.
"Aye who studio that is back there?!" Squirrel walked from the back of the house, pointing his finger backwards. I didn't even realize he disappeared.
"My Dad's. He's a producer."
He gasped so loud and his eyes got real big. "Adopt me?"
We all bust out laughing but he kept the same facial expression. "I'm serious. What's funny?"
"Tombout adopt you. What you wanna be a producer now?" Los laughed.
"What's wrong with that?" Chauncey and Kamiri spoke at the same time.
"Awh shit." Kamiri was gone speak up and talk his shit regardless of who you were but, when Chauncey said something, I knew it was serious.
"It's good y'all chill." Squirrel waved them off looking sad.
"Yeah chill I'm just playing." Los chuckled. "Everybody let's just calm down."
"Ain't no chill. Ion know if that's something you feel strongly about but if it is, I'll support you. Fuck what anybody else talking bout." Chauncey shrugged.
"On crip." Kamiri agreed.
"Squirrel I can talk to my dad for you if that's something you'd like." I offered.
"Yeah, I'd like that." He nodded looking a little happy. "Preciate it."
"Of course." I smiled.
"On God Chauncey imma kick yo ass." Lady came out the kitchen and looked at Chauncey.
"What you talking bout now?" He sighed.
"Look at my pictures." She pointed her phone to his face. "They came out so dumb I cannot stand you. I don't take your pictures like that."
"Girl bitch bye. You don't take my pictures."
"Chauncey be using that same one ass picture for a whole year." Nay joked making them bust out laughing.
"That picture look nice fuck y'all. It's hard to get another good one." He laughed.
"She ain't gone say nothing to you?" Kamiri asked in my ear.
"I don't know and I don't care." I shrugged speaking honestly. I didn't do her nothing. Why the fuck I'm apologizing for something I didn't do? That's dead.
"Chill y'all sisters. You forgave me ain't it?"
"That's differ—"
"It's not P. Don't let me be the reason you fall out wit yo family. That's yo sister."
"We didn't fall out cause of you, we fell out cause she too prideful and she think she know every damn thing." I started to get loud making them look over here.
"Aight chill firecracker. You think you can beat the world huh?" He chuckled, wrapping his arm around my waist.
"Hell naw. But I'll damn sure try." I scoffed.
"Period pooh." I bust out laughing. I don't know where he got that from but it killed me every time he said it.
"Hey Aub. Ian know you was here." Lady smiled a little.
"Girl, I couldn't careless if you ain't say a word to me." She laughed humorlessly. "You ain't say nothing to your own sister."
"It's. About. To go. Down." Kris said.
Lady's smile instantly dropped. "She seen me. She ain't say nothing to me. That's on her if she over there hurt."
"Chile please ain't nobody hurt bout shit. We don't have to talk. I don't care." I shrugged.
"Okay then we won't. The fuck?"
"She been acting weird." I heard Nay whisper.
"Lady you being childish as fuck to be 21. You was the same one asking me if I heard from her and if she was okay. Now you tryna act like you'on give a fuck about the girl." Zaza rolled her eyes.
"Giving the crips very much two faced." Kamiri shook his head.
"Aye this nigga KB get on my nerves." They bust out laughing.
"She still my sister so Imma be worried but if she don't say nothing, what you want me to do?" She spoke as if she was saying the smartest shit in the world.
"Be the bigger person. You older. Dimwit." Daddy cut the corner. "Y'all come eat."
"Shit you ain't gotta tell me twice." Chauncey, Milly, and Squirrel jumped up at the same time.
"Untun Chauncey you know that's my seat!" Zaza dragged, stomping her feet like a child. "Arondae tell him get up!"
"Girl what DaeDae gone do to me?" Chauncey swore he was invincible.
"Get up out my girl seat." He stood in front of him.
"Aye Squirrel!" Chauncey hollered, obviously taking DaeDae for a joke. "Who this nigga think he is? 'You want yo cornbread?' neck ass. Boy you better get yo slinky ass on for I have to do something to you."
"This nigga think he hold weight." Squirrel co-signed. "Boy you a IN-LAWWW!"
"Leave my man alone!" Zaza stomped.
"And who you think you is? The family don't even know you." Dae bust out laughing, pointing at Squirrel.
"Bitch they finna adopt me. I'm finna be yo baby lil brother." We all bust out laughing.
"Period pooh!"
"Cuh just get up out my girl seat. You know she sit there."
"Come on Chauncey don't make him look bad. He tryna redeem himself with his lying ass." Kris joked making them bust out laughing.
"Y'all not funny." He straight faced all them.
"Alright imma give him a break. He look tired as hell." DaeDae really looked tired. He had black circles and bags under his eyes.
Kamiri and I chose the seats closest to where my father sat, just for the simple fact that everybody took all the other seats.
I of course sat by my Dad.
"Ion know how y'all do shit where I'm from. But where I'm from food don't go on the table. Get y'all asses up and go make y'all plates." Grandma frowned.
"You want me to make your plate?" I looked over at Kamiri who was looking at me.
"Naw, imma come with you." We both stood up and walked in the crowded kitchen.
"Milly why you got that sweet potato pie?" Grandma rested her hands on her hips.
She looked up at her Daddy who kept looking straight ahead, steady putting pigeon peas and rice on his plate.
"Chauncey that's fucked up!" Kris hollered.
"That's how you gone do me if we in that jam?" Milly asked.
We screamed.
"What the fuck you know bout being in a jam? Give me this damn pie." Grandma snatched it out her hands.
Chauncey bent down to pick her up and she scrunched her face up, moving away from him. "Don't touch me. You flaw on crip."
"On crippppp!" All these damn gangbangers dragged, laughing.
"I can't even get mad at yo lil grown ass, you just like me." He chuckled.
"You want some of this?" I pointed at the potato salad. Kamiri was making my plate and I was making his.
"Awh that's so cute." Aub cooed before she smacked her styrofoam plate in the middle of Tonio's chest. "Make my plate bitch."
"Yes ma'am." He licked his lips.
Him and Kamiri was just alike because whenever I told him what to do, he'd do the same damn thing.
"Yeah. I want some chitlins too." I damn near threw up in my mouth.
"Um sir, we don't eat those in this household." Nay held her finger up making him scrunch his face up.
"Girl I wasn't talking to you."
"Oop." Kris snickered.
"Oh hell no friend he like stank ass chitlins? Get rid of him." Aub shook her head.
"Y'all tripping." Tonio shook his head.
"I be tryna tell her. Them shits be good wit a lil hot sauce."
"KB that's disgusting." Daja laughed.
"Why they keep talking to me?" He looked down at me.
"You're fucking petty." I laughed. "You want seafood rice or no?"
"No just pigeon peas and rice. Gimme some greens too."
He packed my plate to maximum capacity while his barely had anything on it.
This was one thing that really worried me. It's like he had no appetite and I couldn't understand it for the life of me.
"You sure that's all you want?"
"Mhm." He nodded, walking in front of me.
"Who gone say grace?" Grandma asked.
"We can go around the table." Daddy offered.
"For whatttt?" Chauncey whined. "This ain't thanksgiving."
"Okay so you pray." Grandma mugged him.
"Bet." He shrugged. "Bow yo head and close yo eyes."
Everybody did as told. "Lord bless the food. Amen."
Grandma and Tonio smacked their lips. "That lil ass prayer boy."
"I'll do it." Tonio offered.
"Oh my fucking God." Kris groaned.
"Lord bless the food, let it be for the nourishment of our bodies, bless the hands that prepared it. And God I just ask that you form a hedge of protection over each and everyone of us in here. Watch over us Lord, for we may not know what we're going through—"
He continued to say this long drawn out prayer and bitch I got ADHD so you know I had to open my eyes. Milly and Chauncey was sneaking eating their food and Kris was rolling his eyes so hard I thought they'd get stuck.
"Yes Lord." Aub nodded as Tonio continued to pray.
"Amen!" Tiggy exclaimed making Chauncey drop his fork while him and Kris busted out laughing.
"My dawg said he ready to EAT!" They was dead as hell.
"He did say he was hungry." We all sat down and began to dig in.
"Thank you young man for that beautiful prayer." Grandma nodded.
"No problem."
It was quiet as everybody was stuffing their faces.
"Damn dad you did yo thang." Squirrel licked his lips.
"Dad?" Daddy jerked his head back.
"Yeah, you gone adopt me."
"You're so cute." Grandma smiled.
"Shiddd and you fine as hell. You wanna be my sugar mama?"
"Boy!" She bust out laughing.
"Alright chill Squirrel that's still my mama." Chauncey looked at him.
"So KB."Daddy nodded.
"Crip." Kamiri did the same.
"Whew!" Kris yelled.
"Please don't ask no dumb ass questions like what's yo intentions wit my daughter and shit." Chauncey said.
"We like it spicyyyyy." Squirrel dragged.
"My daughter growing up and shit. This my youngest baby, I just wanna make sure you got her best interest at heart."
"I do." He nodded with a smirk.
"So that mean y'all doing what y'all doing ain't gone take her off track.— Man why the fuck you keep smiling?" Daddy frowned.
"What I did?" He kept that sexy ass smirk plastered on his face.
My vagina was quakingggg.
not the time fat ma.
"This nigga acting like Poison." Los mumbled making Kris scream.
"You sitting there laughing and I'm tryna be serious."
"I'm not laughing, I'm smirking."
"Ion like him. He got an answer for every fucking thing." Daddy looked over at me.
"Daddy." I frowned at him. He was not being reasonable.
"What?" Him and Kamiri spoke in unison.
Chauncey screamed. "I LOVE IT HEREEEE!"
"Frienddddd!" Aub was laughing hard as hell. "You set yo self uppppp!"
"Oh fuck no." Daddy sat back shaking his head.
"What this remind you of Derrick?" Grandma chuckled.
"Himself! It better remind him of himself!" Chauncey was smacking the table.
"I'll never forget when yo daddy met yo mother's father." Grandma looked at me.
"You were there?" I asked.
"Of course. It was me, him, yo grandfather, Emonie, and Chauncey."
"Remember that day like it was yesterday." Chauncey wiped an imaginary tear. "KB cool though cause Banks was being disrespectful."
"See look big cuh I got respect."
"Stop it." I looked over at him.
"Why the fuck you keep calling me big cuh?" Daddy sighed irritably.
"My bad Pops." Kris and Chauncey could not stop laughing.
"I want dessert." I stood up. "You want dessert?"
"Good God Buddha your hips are spreading." Grandma's eyes widened.
"Ha!" Kamiri threw his head back. "Doing my job say whatttt!"
"You gone have to get out." Daddy shook his head.
"Finally somebody that's not me." Chocolate looked up.
"Grandma stop." I shook my head walking to the kitchen.
"Hope they be using a comdom." I heard Lady mumble making me roll my eyes.
"Whewwww lawd, say what would Jesus dooo?" Aub dragged.
After I made a plate of my beloved banana pudding, I walked back to the table.
"So how was y'all lil trip?" Daddy asked making me look up.
He couldn't have been talking to me cause I didn't go anywhere.
"It was so funnnn Daddy. Za I wish you could've went." Lady dropped her fork and swallowed.
"Wait where y'all went again?" Chocolate asked.
I peeped Daddy rolled his eyes.
"Miami. Sis it was so many fine niggas." Daja shook her head.
I peeped Chauncey looked at her with his face scrunched up.
"Y'all went to Miami?" Grandma asked, taking the words right out of my mouth. I had too much pride to ask myself.
"Yeah. Me and Daja looking at University of Miami and FIU so we just went over there to see what we'd be working with. Lady came with us."
"Awhhh, did y'all have fun?" She continued eating oblivious to the fact that I looked like I was about to fucking cry.
"You good?" Kamiri looked over at me.
"Mhm." I nodded, looking down at my plate.
"Did you go Budddha?"Grandma looked over at me.
Chauncey cleared his throat and dropped his fork. I guess he peeped.
"Hell naw she ain't go. She don't need to be involved in their hoe festivities." He spoke for me.
"Who a hoe? Boy stop playing with me." Daja mugged him.
"Chauncey always playing. She ain't go cause she ain't want go." Nay shrugged.
"Girl literally what?" I squinted my eyes. "I was not invited. Nobody informed me about no trip to Miami but okay Trenee."
Tears threatened to spill from my eyes and I was trying my damndest not to let them fall.
I knew I was only so hurt because as sisters, we planned to take a trip with each other. And even though we weren't talking, I expected someone to invite me. Because if it was me, the offer would definitely be on the table. No matter how mad I was.
I guess everybody wasn't built like me though.
"Vadah please, you was too busy sulking and shit over KB. Didn't nobody wanna be round that sad ass shit."
"On crip hoe keep my name out yo mouth." Kamiri mugged her.
"Regardless of her being sad as sisters we should've been there and for that I apologize." Zaza nodded. "I was told that you were invited but just rejected the offer."
"Somebody lying on my sis." Squirrel frowned.
"Exactly cause didn't nobody invite me." I roll my eyes.
"I swore I did. It must've slipped my mind. My bad." Daja slapped her forehead.
"You mad cause you ain't get an invite? That's why you acting how you acting?" Nay jerked her head back.
"Girl please stop acting like it hasn't been weeks since we've spoken to eachother." I mugged her.
"Ohhh so you mad cause a bitch gave you your space?" She laughed hysterically.
"Wow." I nodded wiping a tear that fell.
"Come on baby." Kamiri scooted his chair out and stood up, grabbing my arm.
"Nay I thought we were the closest? I thought we were supposed to be there for each other. I went through some shit and y'all wasn't there for me."
"Here she go again with that y'all shit. Let me go get my pie." Chauncey dropped his napkin and stood up.
"Out of the three of y'all, I suspected you last."
"Oh my GOD girl I got my own life to tend to! You finna be 18 in a few fucking days Vadah! Everybody ain't gone come at yo every beck and fucking call! Stop looking to be spoon fed!" She snapped.
"Nay chill." Daja tugged on her arm.
"No a bitch tired of her whining ass! I fought for you! I stood up for you! I've been there for you! It's time for you to be there for yourself!"
"Preach!" Lady laughed.
"Can I fight her? Literally I wanna fight you." Aub slammed her fist into the palm of her hand looking at Lady.
"Girl please. I bet you the reason she getting all big headed. Bitch get a new friend and a nigga and get bold on us."
"Ian KB, I'll knock yo ass out bout mine." Tonio stood up.
"You ain't even have to say that. I oughta knock yo ass out." Kamiri mugged him.
"I wasn't looking to be spoon fed." I wiped my eyes. I was past hurt. I was at a loss for words. "I never asked you to do any of that. I just wanted one of my sisters to be there for me. No matter what I had going on, whenever somebody did you something I made it a priority to be there for you. Guess I'm stupid for wanting the feelings to be reciprocated."
"You not a fucking baby no more Vadah. Grow the hell up."
"I was trying and when I did, I got cursed out for that too." I laughed, tears streaming down my face. "I can't win for losing."
"That was fucked up Trenee." Chauncey mugged Nay, eating a piece of pie.
"Chauncey I don't care." She rolled her eyes.
"You'on have to care. Just know you burnt yo bridge with me." He nodded.
"You doing it too stupid. Babying her ass. You gone cut Nay off cause she being a baby? Bye as fuck." Lady shook her head.
"You burnt yo bridge with me too bitch you best stop talking to me." He laughed.
"Chauncey that's yo niece. Watch yo mouth." Grandma warned.
"Girl I would say you burned yo bridges but you be doing yo thang with this pie. I'm taking two of these hoes." He stuffed his face, mugging everybody. "Come on Milly."
"Buddha?" Daddy frowned. "You okay?"
"I wanna go. Daddy can I go with Kamiri?" I wiped my face.
"Y— yeah." He nodded with furrowed eyebrows. I knew everything that went down caught him off guard. "Make sure you text me."
I nodded, holding on to Kamiri's hand.
"Aye." Daddy called out when we turned around.
"Not you. Him."
"Washannin?"
"Take care of my shorty." They dapped each other up, staring one another in the eyes. "We gone talk."
"Fasho." He nodded. "Los, Kris, Come on!"
"My bad I had to get me some banana pudding. It was nice to meet you Mr. Banks." Kris nodded.
"Boy getcho ass out my house." Daddy mushed him.
"Squirrel! Come on!" Kamiri called out as I went to hug my Dad.
"I'm serious baby. You better call me." Squirrel licked his lips at my grandma.
"Boy you better getcho ass out my son house." She laughed before looking at me.
"Don't let that get to you baby. You know I'll baby you forever and even after that." She smiled and kissed my forehead. "I'll love you. Call me. Remember we gotta talk."
"I love you too."
"Come on P." Kamiri grabbed a hold of my hand and led us out the house.
this thing called life, huh?
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in chapter 30 when vadah was telling kamiri she ain't think it was gonna work...
y'all don't feel like she had ah right to feel the way she felt?
tombout, "bitch you see he trying." LMFAOOOOO okay and so what? cus when she was trying, he needed time. she gotta work on his time all of ah sudden?
man idk, i've noticed in these books a lot of y'all don't see NOOO type of wrong in these niggas actions and that right there says a lot about y'all as females.
lol sorry not sorry. 😭😭🤷🏾♂️
when that nigga wrong, he WRONG! let that fuck nigga feel you! period!
anywayssss...
my ass still ah prisoner. 😠
#freebigtana. 🤙🏾💙
thanks for reading. 💕
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_slimsantana. 🎲