Caution this part contains: Acts of Gun Violence and B&A
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TEN| Livin THE Normal
November 3, 2014
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//Milan\\
The death of Fitz came as a shock to all of us. Mostly because he was close to us and not just some random boy off the street. I got the call from Ro, Ro got the call from Redd, and Redd got the call from Damien mom.
Now its the aftermath and nobody knows whose the perp. Who could've wanted to kill Damien, he was cool with everybody.
But then again people sometimes just die for no reason at all.
"Yo get yo head in the game." Rylo nudged me in my shoulder as he got his gun ready. I didn't even feel right about this, my stomach was turning and I was nervous as fuck.
The shit didn't make any sense. I pushed the thoughts I had to the back of my mind as I cleaned off my gun before looking at Rylo saying, "Im good."
My stomach is feeling stuck in my ass, no funny shit.
I wonder what the fuck I would be doin right now if my life was slightly normal.
Probably be sleepin in a comfortable bed with no dumbass voice in my head—
Shut the fuck up, "You ready?" I heard him ask me, I nodded not really ready.
It was four of us in the car, him, me, Fo, and Silas.
Silas was new at this like me but Gane thought it'd be good to show his rivals what the fuck was up. He was playing with fire now ever since, he says Chiefs boys are getting picked one by one we needed to start expanding our horizons.
That means taking territories from other sets.
That means war.
"Are you sure?" Fo asked me as if he was my big brother or something, "No anxiety attacks, on no nut shit, nothing?" He asked with my mask in his hand.
I took my mask and put it on, "Im perfectly fine."
"Good cause we don't have no time for you to be getting cold feet." Silas hissed at me, "Its already bad that you a girl." I heard him mumble.
"The fuck that suppose to mean?" I asked offended, "I forsure beat yo ass like a nigga, weird ass sexist ass bastard, you niggas disgust me."
"Yo it's not even that deep-"
"It is to mean the fuck? I got rights too just like the next nigga."
"You done?" Rylo asked looking at me irritated. I shrugged.
"We only here for two things." He said opening the door and looking back at Silas, "Don't fuck up." Rylo got out the car.
I mumbled a small prayer before I got the car with them. Being the last person behind like always I watched them.
Just get the money.
Just get the money.
"GIVE ME ALL YO FUCKING MONEY MOTHER FUCKER!" Silas dumb ass yelled before I even entered the fuckin door. His gun was raised at the man just how Rylo's were. I felt like a hypocrite.
Let some nut shit go down like this at Papi store, its over.
"What money we have no mone-"
"DON'T FUCKING LIE MOTHERFUCKER! OPEN THE CASH REGISTER! OPEN THE DAMN REGISTER NOW!" Rylo yelled. The man frantically opened the shit, you can tell bro was scared for his life. Guns pointed at him, all that he's ever worked for in life is being fucked with.
It's fucked up, "HURRY THE FUCK UP!"
"SILAS GIVE THE MAN SOME TIME LOOK AT HIM!" I yelled honestly tired of his loud ass, the man was doing the shit, and I was right behind the nigga finna get the shit.
We at a damn liquor store, aint nobody gone walk in right now, includin 5-0.
But then again Ian no fortune teller.
"TiMe!" Silas yelled, wabblin the gun in front of the man with a secure grip. "BITCH WE HAVE NO TIME! OPEN THE FUCKIN REGISTER AND GET THE BREAD!" He said before looking at the man who was reaching for something, "What you doin-
POW
POW
"WHAT THE FUCK!" I yelled running over to the man, "You fucking shot him!" I yelled at Silas.
"He SHOT AT ME FUCK!" He yelled in defense as I got up looking for the tape.
Rylo huffed angrily grabbing me up, "Fuck that just get the money! I got the tape." He showed me, before walking by Silas, "Always fuckin up."
When I hurried and got the money including the stashed shit we both left out and into the car. Fo pulled off in a hurry as Rylo hit the dash board angrily five times, "ALWAYS FUCKING UP SILAS!"
"IT WAS HIS FAULT!"
"WHO TOLD YOU TAKE THE GUN OFF THE SAFETY!" He yelled at him causin him to shut up, "AND YOU!?" He pointed at me, "TaKe HiS tImE!?" He tried to mock my voice.
"That man looks old enough to be my great grandfather the fuck, he was gone die anyways from a fucking heart attack the way Silas was speaking to him, if he would've just let me go in first-"
"So it's my fault?"
"Yeah it is yo fault dumbass! THIS AIN'T A MOVIE BITCH WE GOTTA DO THE SHIT OURSELVES!"
"WHO CALLIN A BITCH HOE!"
"YO BITCH ASS THE FUCK!" I punched him causing us to start going at it in the backseat. Not gone hold you this nigga face was fucking my hands up.
SKKKKRRRT
BUM
BUM
Doors closed and opened, all I felt was me being pulled out the car and then pushed up against it, "CHILL THE FUCK OUT!" Rylo yelled at me and like a puppy with a tail between its legs, that's exactly what the fuck I did.
BOOM
"Hit my fucking sister." Fo said after punching Silas in his face. "Mi get yo ass in the front, we gone let Gane handle yall dumb asses." He said before he kicked Silas in his stomach before getting in the drivers side.
I looked at Rylo for permission to be let out of his 2 by 4 hold, and he let me out; thank god.
~
As Fo parked in front of Cakes house I huffed taking off my seatbelt. He sighed rubbing his face, before chuckling. I rolled my eyes, "Whats so funny?"
"You are." He chuckled, "You really sweet but feisty at the same time."
"I'm not sweet."
"Fine, genuine." He side eyed me causing us to laugh, "Im forreal you gone be something different."
"What you tryna say Forest Gump?" I teased him, "You got something you wanna get off yo chest?" I smirked.
He licked his lips, "I'm just saying you special." He nodded, before laughing. "Get out my car shorty."
I laughed, "And im different." I nodded as he laughed, "Ok honey. Ima see you later."
"Ight Mi." After I got out the car he waited until I had the door unlocked to leave, I smiled out the gesture as I took off my shoes and socks so I woke be loud and wake her.
I'm not sure what time it is but I know its later then 2. Maybe.
When I was almost half way to my room and away from Cakes room I heard her call me and paused.
Then kept goin until I was in the room and cut on the light cutting off the light on hearing Sammy groan turning her way seeing her new fling Amanda was in the bed with her.
Fiona says shes going through a phase so I leave her alone, "yo it's like 3 in the mornin-yo is that blood?" She asked as I took off my pants.
"No you seeing shit wit yo sleepy ass go back to sleep." I threw some socks at her, "Milan I know you hear me callin yo ass." Cakes said walking in, "Where was you?"
"Can y'all leave with that shit-" Sammy slurred causing Cakes to snap at her, "Shut yo drunk ass up."
"Bitch kick rocks."
"Sammy shut up you in my ear." Her guest said all groggily and shit.
She can leave.
"Hoe you can leave." Sammy pointed to door. Her bitch for the night cuddled into her more.
"Bitch shut up. You come here." She said before walking out as I hurriedly put them clothes in the closet and my gun tucked in my hamper, before leaving to her room where she laid on her bed on her phone.
Scratching my head I laid on her bed, "Get up." She told me causing me laugh. She right.
"You aint take no shower comin in here running the streets, don't bring dirt in the house."
"Okay Cakes, whats up." I smiled innocently with my hand behind my back praying she wouldn't start.
"Where you was at?" She asked me a second time putting her phone down giving me all her attention. "Don't lie either."
See, this the shit.
I wasn't finna tell her ima accomplice to murder right now and i'm not finna tell her I was with a group of niggas. Fuck what I gonna do.
Chill, first.
Right, "I—was with Ron." I concluded not really caring how this was gonna sound it was gonna happen sooner or later, "His hamster Kendrick died tonight and he wanted me to come over. He had his cousin drop me off since he was coming this way."
"A fucking Hamster?" She looked at me, "I look part of the circus or some Mi, I look stupid?"
"I mean why does it matter where I was anyway?" I tried to brush it off lightly tracing my steps in a round about oval as she spoke.
"Do you know what yo young ass do for money?" She looked at me like I was stupid, "Do you know how many old ass perverted ass bastards are willing to snatch yo ass up or did you forget where you from?"
Mm. She right.
One day she gone stop caring.
"You really think ima let somebody kidnap me?" I scoffed, "I'a kill a Nigga they tried to."
"That's what they all say Mi." Her face softened, sighing. "Milan I don't want you out in the streets past one its bad enough i'm sayin one when you only 14–-"
"It's not even that deep tho." I whined, "Ou dead ass?"
"As a heart attack Milan. I just want you to be a normal teen babes, boys, school, normal friends your age-"
"I have all those." I laughed.
"And you also have enemies Milan. You banned from Brooklyn like who the fuck gets Banned from Brooklyn you upset these grown ass men and expect them to kiss yo ass later; it don't work like that baby."
"Im not finna fall into that bullshit though, plus Brooklyn? That's— that's like mad different."
"Milan-"
"Cakes I understand your concern for real but im good." I whined, "I am a normal teen I just get money."
"Random teenagers get regular jobs at fucking footlocker— you slinging crack and taking licks this shit ain't normal! You've touched damn near 500 bands and blew that shit—
"I didn't blow shit, like your exaggerating." Blowing shit yo I wish I had touched 500 bands I've seen it sure but gained all that fuck out my face I wish.
"Either way I know for a fact the shit you bring in ain't normal exaggeration or not that's facts."
"Okay so what are you saying? Like I'm not finna stop getting my money, like I wish people stop tryna take me off game!"
"I'm not tryna take you off game bitch! But look at what you doing! Blood all on yo neck—"
"Like we didn't just pop a few niggas in yo living room, okay—" I'm not finna do this bitch, cause I'm getting a little too hype right now in my stomach.
"That's what I'm saying though. Niggas see you they see a little ass kid! Easy to snatch up, you know how many niggas in the club be talking about you and shit?!"
I laughed, "that has nothing to do with me thoughhhh I'm not fucking no body bruh im getting MONEYYYYYY—
"Blood money."
"What— ever the fuck it is Cakes can this conversation be over with, you already know what the fuck it is wit me." I took a deep breath leaving any ways, I'm not finna sit there and talk to her about no bullshit that nobody gives a fuck about like I made it home; is that not good enough?
"What was that about?" Sammy asked me.
"Nothing."
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The Morning
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"Hey Boo." I walked up to Ron giving him a kiss, "What you doin?" I intertwined our hands as he rubbed his eyes.
"I'm takin random pictures. Do yo best face." He said holding the phone up. I laughed looking at the picture.
"Best face my ass. Why you looking so serious?" I laughed, he laughed at me.
"I look good when im serious."
"Ight sir."
"What you'on think so." He pulled me back into him. I shook my head wrapping my arms around his neck. "You look yo best when you smilin."
"Word?" He smiled.
"Dead ass, you something different." I gassed him up before kissing him. Suddenly the bell had rang and I was late for second period. Pulling away from him he stared in my eyes licking his lips making me blush, "You gone text me?"
"I'ma call you."
Smiling while walking to class, I felt a buzz in my sweats pocket. I wasn't feeling it to you know dress up for school today so I just wore something simple and comfortable and since it's November I popped out the uggs too.
I was ready to go to sleep in Ms. Nelson class, dead ass.
Pooh Bear🐻❤:
Pooh Bear🐻❤: **best feature me
Pooh Bear🐻❤: 😵😴
Mi💙: awe you cute💗
Mi💙: what happened to callin me?
Pooh bear🐻❤: I wanted to talk to you now.
Mi💙: how did I get so lucky 💍💍
Pooh Bead: Tall mans cant jump😭😭
Mi💙: right 😂😂
Mi💙: Imy😤
Pooh Bear🐻❤: imy2
Mi💙: i miss your lips😋
Pooh Bead🐻❤:I miss yours too
Pooh Bear🐻❤: I'll do even more wen you let me💦💦
Mi💙: in yo dreams boo💍💗 .
Pooh Bear🐻❤: Bet😨
Honestly I was ready for Ron to you know—take me there. Hes a good guy and I know how he feels about me.
And I trust him.
Plus over the months I haven't been hearing any real life complaint complaints— at least I don't count them as complaints so I'm sure someone trusts him too a little bit.
In the midst of me leaving him on seen and putting my phone back in my pocket I feel my whole fucking shoulder get nudged back and my phone fall out of my hand.
Turning around I pushed the bitch that nudged me and walked up on her, "YOU GOOD BITCH!" It was this one opp as bitch name Trinity.
She wanted to be from the hood so bad but the bitch was a mark, next thing you know we hear this bitch jumped the homegirl to get her put on to some wannabe Tarantino crew.
Ever since I noticed the bitch moved schools here, I been keepin my cool and shit away from the bitch but then again they always wanna mess with the unbothered.
Misery loves company.
She didn't say anything before she rushed me running me into the lockers causing some of the air to fall out my body. "Dumb ass bitch!" She yelled punching me a good two times before I gained my posture grabbing her ear before punching her with my right hand feeling something pop on my hand and her earring rip out her ear from me pulling on her shit.
She yelled pushing me off her. I laughed at her hitting her with my left hand since my right was in major pain. "Dumb ass bitch stop fucking wit me!"
I heard doors open as she got me on my back, "Hey, HEY!" Mr. Alvarez my algebra teacher yelled coming out his room seeing me kick her off of me and hitting her another good time causing her teeth to break my skin as someone grabbed me from on the floor.
"AND ALLAT BITCH!" She teased from the teacher hold, "I GOT THAT ASS!"
"GOT WHAT BITCH!" I mouthed off with blood spewing out my mouth as I scratched to get out the guard hands, "LET ME SEE YOU HOE, SCARY ASS BITCH!" I smiled evilly letting my anger take over me licking the cut on my lip.
"NEVER SCARED!"
"Yeah ight bitch.
I got something for that bitch.
"TAKE THEM TO MY OFFICE! NOW! EVERYONE BACK TO CLASS!" The principal yelled but all I could feel was my hot ears, aching face, fucked up hand, and this adrenaline rush I didn't even realized I missed as I walked to the nurse guarded by two of the security guards.
It wasn't till I was cool, calm, and collected, when I realized what was gonna happen next.
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"Milan, I don't know what we're gonna do with you." The principal said as I sat quitely, "You threatened the girl thats a hard offense, truencies, and runaway?" He scoffed, "What do you say for yourself?"
I barely looked at him, focusing my eyes on my hands, feeling the burning stare of his. Ever since he walked in here he's been giving me that stare.
We gone kill that bitch.
We gone kill that bitch.
"He talking to you-"
"Don't touch me!" I yelled at Joe seeing his hand almost land on my thigh. Taking a deep breath knowing I have to leave here with him I took another, "Do what you gotta do."
Anything to get me away from this sick fuck—
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I busted out of the school with him hot on my tail. Truth be told I just didn't want him by me. It was still almost 11:45 in the morning. So many things can go completely wrong between us before 3:10 when I get out and Cakes know something wrong—if she figures somethings even wrong.
That fucking bitch made me shatter my FUCKING PHONE! Now I cant ask anyone to come to my saviour.
Bitches dont even know I need it right about now as I stomped away from the mad man behind me.
"MILAN! BITCH STOP WALKING AWAY FROM ME!"
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled back at him walking faster then before, I should be running but Im not sure ima get that far with my aching legs.
"DON'T MAKE ME GET YOU!"
"JUST LEAVE ME ALON-Oof." I fell to the ground from something being thrown to the back of my head, "was that a fucking rock bitch." I groaned touching my head feeling a wet liquid.
It was a fucking rock.
My head felt light as my view grew blurry, feeling a big hand cover my mouth, I knew he had me. "We taking a little trip Lani. Daddy's gonna take sweet care of you." I fought him as he started to put a rag over my face.
I started to cave in, "Joe please leave me alone."
"I'll never do that baby." He cooed at me before I felt the drug kick in, "You're mine."
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I woke up in a familiar bed.
A bed that tormented me for what felt like half of my life.
Yaking in the garbage can on the side of the bed I began crying feeling my hair on my bare shoulders and Joe's arm on my waist. I tried to get out the bed but he pulled me closer to him, "Where you going Mary?"
I clenched my jaw as I stopped the tears from seeking out my eyes, licking my lips I cleared my throat, "I'm going to the bathroo-"
"Nah."
"Joe I gotta pee." My lip trembled as I started to break down, "Joe please lemme go pee." He groaned pinching my stomach causing me to yell, "Fucking hoe ass!" He yelled before hitting my head causing me to let out a cry and hold my pee getting up when his hold loosened. "STOP FUCKING CRYING!"
"IM SORRY!" I flinched falling to the floor thinking he was gone sock me when his fist clenched. Hearing him suck his teeth, I lowered my hands from being in defensive mode and peeked at him while he waited at the bedroom door, "C'mon pissy." He demanded me.
I got off the floor and hurried past him before he could touch me to the bathroom. Before I could close the door he said, "No locked doors." I nodded telling him I understood closing the door approaching the mirror silently crying for my face. I knew some of it was from the fight but—
Goin under the cabinet I searched for the stash I left in here one night hoping it still was hurriedly. "Sss." I hissed feeling my self get caught with the blade. One thing Joe doesn't do is clean the bathroom, I knew he wouldn't go in here.
"You taking to long." I heard him before straightening up getting ready for when he opened the door, for when he did I ran up to him and gutted him with the knife looking him in his eyes turning us around to switch places.
Leaving the blade in his stomach I pushed him and ran to the door going to Royal house for some clothes limping with every step I took. I hated these apartments.
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BOOM
BOOM
BOOM
BOOM
"Who is it?!" I heard from behind the door as I tightened the towel around my body.
Sniffling, I wiped my eyes. "Shelia it's me, I need Royal."
"Mi?" She looked me up and down before closing the door noticing I was in only in the bathroom towel that was in the house. Hearing her unlock the she opened the door looking at me like she knew what happened as my eyes watered/hers did as well.
She probably thinks she knows the whole story.
'this is where i'm from', "Come on."
After I took a long and meaningful shower, I changed into clothes I left over here and kept here. Going into Ro's treasure trunk, I got his uzi putting it in his back pack fuck all that extra shit, "Yo what you doing?" When I got here he was here. I guess Shelia called him, she always call him when im here by myself for a while.
"What it look like i'm doing?" I packed up his Glock 17 as well making sure it had bullets in it and none in his chamber, "You won't believe the day im having." My voice cracked as I stopped, "You wanna hear about my day?" I looked at him.
He sighed and entered his room, "Tell me about ya day."
"Well it's shitty I give you that." I bussed out crying, "He got me again..." I sniffled, "And it's all that bitch fault."
"What bitch?"
"A bitch whose gonna pay." I wiped my tears tightening up, "I got her. She marked."
"You wildin ma, you know that. You just need to chill-"
"You know I was thinking that too UNTIL A BITCH TRIED ME ROYAL!"
"Why you yelling at me?" He asked me calmly, "Because you ain't hearing me." I retorted back to him.
"I was gone a long time before she started that shit with me, considering a break too but she tried me Royal." My lip trembled, "She's gonna pay for what she got me into."
"Fine ma go ahead but you can't run these for that, these aint mine." He told me pullin a strap from his waist, "Ion have no bodies on it."
"You might as well come with me." I nudged him, "Have some criminal bonding."
"Nah I actually need to head out, I just came to get some." He said going into his closet getting out five different bags: Polo, Disney store, Children's place, Toys R us, and Baby Gap? Let's not forget the extra four shoe store bags.
"Baby Party?" I asked getting that itch in my ear, "You got some girl pregnant you not telling me about?"
"Yeah and she turning two?" He said in sarcastic way while I looked at him sternly, "I-Im joking Mi the fuck." He laughed making smack my lips, "Its the homegirl daughter birthday, I thought i'd show out for her."
"And did you." I said sarcastically.
"I had too, it's in my name."
"Right." I said before getting up with the blue bag not putting the Uzi back, "Well have fun okay."
"Okay much love babes, Ima see yo hot ass on Thursday right?"
"Sure." Thursday was Fiona birthday she was throwing a function at the house, I honestly was here for it. Hugging Ro and Shelia was the last good deed I did that night because right after I went to the trap to grab G5 and Fo.
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"You really wanna go through with this, especially with what went down last night?" Fo asked me with this unreadable face. "Yeah you know you don't have too." G5 decided to cosign from the front seat as I clenched my jaw. "At least let the shit cool down first the fingers gone be pointed at you." They started again; I officially regret asking them.
"Why y'all keep on talking bout this shit-"
"Cause it's like you got yo ass handed to you and you can't take the L. Ma it's okay." G5 teased before I smacked him in the back of his head.
"She'an beat my ass yo!" I yelled offended, "Y'all don't know shit." I cursed as they laughed.
"Im just sayin Mi-"
"Don't say shit then." I huffed honestly frustrated with them as I starred at the uzi in my lap.
I could do this.
But is it even worth it.
I wanna kill that bitch.
That's okay we can—
It's not though stop encouraging it—
"Sis you know we here for you." Fo started, "I'm on whatever you on."
I smacked my lips getting this bad taste in my mouth, feeling sick I shrugged, it off still mad on the low. "Pull off before I change my mind—"
What?! You fake crazy bitch all that energy and for what?! Lemme do it!
Not yet.
"Good cause hell, I did not want you to do that bullshit." He and G5 shared a laugh as he started to drive out of Trinity hood.
I hope I'm not making a bad mistake by waiting now.
As time went by and we rode while the music played in the car I enjoyed the ride with Forest and Giovanny. They were honestly amazing guys to hang with, "Ight Tyga or Meek?"
"Is that a question?" I asked him looking at him like he had a dick on his head, "You really retarded sometimes bro."
"Yo eat a dick."
"Y'all niggas crazy."
"But did you hear this dude." I laughed before sitting back in my seat, "Dumb ass nigga boii."
WOOOOO
WOOOOO
The fuck? I turned to see red and blue lights flashing behind us, "WHAT DID YOU DO?!" I asked eyes widened like a deer in headlights.
"Yo chill buggin out and shit, just keep cool and stash that shit, get my license and the registration out and be cool." Fo told us as I did my best to hide the guns.
Forest pulled over and cut the music down while I buckled my seat and began to act like I was minding my business when I heard the cops door close.
With a flash light in hand and the other on his belt he knocked on Fo's window while his partner, a black man went on G5 side of the car/ Fo rolled his window down.
"Hello officers how may we assist you men?"
"License and Registration please?"
"Here sir." He gave the man both as his partner came around from being on G5's side of the car too Fo's. I seen him look into the car and squint his eyes like he was tryna recognize me from some where.
I didn't know cops by name, nor did I know this nigga.
"Ain't it a school night kids, shouldn't y'all be home?" He asked us. We didn't say anything, but it wasn't a short time before his partner came back.
Ion know why but I felt like we were being profiled just by him standing there looking so deep at us with his hands stuck to his hips.
G5 had tattoos and was starting to look like a real nigga and Fo was basically a whole ass Nigga Tattoos almost touching his neck sleeves hit included then you got me in the back looking like a fast ass bitch ready to go hit a lick.
Unless y'all go to the store at 12 am in all black too.
"Get out of the car please?"
"Can I ask you why?" Fo asked as curiosity played on all of our faces, "Or what I did for that matter. Sir?" I could tell he tried not to get mad.
The cop had a playful smirk on his lips as he chuckled. "This car was reported stolen." He reported to us smartly, "Now please step outta the car. Sir."
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ENDING CHAPTER X
Livin THE Normal
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