NINE| Summer '14
June 12, 2014
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//Milan\\
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Y'all are probably wondering what i'm doing right now—well if you couldn't tell yet, Im releasing my emotions onto these poor fake target practices.
I got ahold of a guard named Jack's key card and i'm here learning how to operate these guns.
I was lowkey fascinated during this meet when I seen these hitmen on they way to a mission. I think I wanna be one.
I don't know why though, it just looks cool from the tv shows and shit. Stopping the opps, it's a great thought, though I can't do it here.
Them niggas travel and shit, I wanna travel. Hell I may even go to like Berlin or fucking Tokyo or some shit, I might as well get a job as a flight attendent to fly for free.
Do they get to fly for free?
Maybe it comes out they pay check.
That would be the smart thing to do if I was the boss of the airlines hell they aint nobody special.
Mhm, but they are risking they lives, its the least they can do. Plus they don't even get a real seat I don't think they pay.
Shit maybe not.
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So in this last year let's just say that it has been a little trip. Later after I got out the hospital last you seen me, I went into this nasty depression. I didn't wanna speak to nobody but Ro, but then after like a month I started 8th grade.
Mad rumors were going around about me. Turns out Destiny and her homegirls had found out about my preg—situation and uhm yeah they told every body like weird muthafuckas they are.
I got tatted with Ro. Its something small and simple on my calve mostly so Joe won't notice, but we plan on getting more soon.
Since Cakes told me this story about when Kengi won this gambling thing with a hole bunch of ace cards, I decided to stop by Rodney, Rush's cousin and get tatted with Ro.
He got this saying going along his arm saying, "One Life, One Choice."
He said since his shoulders are coming in he was going to get his wait or whatever but I stopped listening to what it was gone be. I was distracted by the voice in my head you know her.
Me.
So uhm, yeah and then as life went by, I started to go back to the trap and took Aunt Jen's advice into consideration and went back to work. Sadly being bumped back down to sellin weed but I guess. Ima bout to be in high school, who snorts crack then? Weed is where my money is.
"Yo!" I felt my headphone be pulled up and slapped back down. I turned my head and seen Gane.
What the fuck he want?
"Yes sir?" I asked him placing the gun on the table taking the headphones off my ears.
He looked pissed, "What you doing in here? You suppose to be selling candy to the kids remember?"
Old ass joke.
"Sure but I got side tracked, I wanted to come in here."
"How you get in here?"
"I found a way." I walked from in front of him towards the door, "And plus what you even doing out yo lil office?"
"Don't worry about my business lil girl. I think Im too nice to you."
"You are, but thats okay. Nobody knows Gane." I shook my head at him, "What you really come down here for?"
"To talk to you. Jack knew you took his key card, he told me."
"Mm." Snitch ass nigga.
"How old are you?"
"Im fourteen."
"Perfect," he chuckled slightly, "You wanna make 5k."
"WHAT?!"
"Put that gun down and come up stairs I wanna talk to you about some." Say lessssss.
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June 15, 2014
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"Ro I told you I have work to do that doesn't concern going to this pissy ass pool wit you!" I yelled moving him from off me.
He was pulling me to the community pool to talk to some girl but he wanted me to talk to her brother since they always together and her brother don't like Ro or some corny shit like that. I had to be in Brooklyn.
Don't ask. I can't really tell.
"Girl, I never ask you for shit. Just do this one thing for me please." He begged me, I smacked my lips.
"I bought you food yesterday and when we went to the mall I got you a whole outfit." I rolled my eyes, it's hot as fuck out here and he wanted to walk!
Fuck I look like!
"I still didn't ask you."
"Well still Ro. I can't, money is on the line."
"Didn't he give you a while to do that?"
"Yeah bu-"
"Nothing girl, do me this one solid and I got you for life."
I rolled my eyes, "You've been had me for life you bozo."
"So is that a yes?"
"Come on before I change my mind." This nigga better not be ugly. "I hate you."
"Love you too mamas." He kissed my cheek, I pushed him off me.
Getting to the pool it was mad deep bro every body was in this bitch, they mamas mommas, granny kids everybody, "How the fuck you suppose to find this bitch?" I asked him he put his hand up at me and continued to look. Hell Ian even know what this bitch looked like but I sure was looking for her.
The pool look nice and clean lowkey, these Bad ass kids keep on running around and if one of em fall in i'ma laugh.
"STOP RUNNING AROUND THE POOL!" I heard this voice it was like foreign or something. I looked up and seen the lifeguard, or at least thats what I thought he was from his life guard sweater he had on but from the laughter he shared with the other kids Im thinking he's just some dumb teenager.
He was cute though not gone hold you. He was brown skinned, he had this curly afro thing going on. He had a pierced and a snake bite. I didn't even think a guy could pull that off except for the white catholic school kids I sell volumes too but hell he had it going from him.
If I didn't know any better, I'd say he was a sophomore but that is obviously going to be a junior next year.
"I don't see that bitch."
"Chill moe, you don't even know what she look like," he put his hand up at me pulling his phone out, "they're she go right there." He smiled and fixed his fade, "Ouu, I can't wait."
"You a hoe." I shook my head at him as we started to walk up to who ever the fuck he was talking about, "All you wanna do is kill." shaking my head.
"Mhm, and she finna be a senior too she gone let me." He laughed shaking his head, I smacked my lips, "watch when you start fuckin fuckin you gone know."
I scoffed, "Nope when I do its gone be to one nigga and that nigga only. She gone be yo what third girl this month?" I cackled, "Yeah ima have some real fun."
"Im having a mantervention." He spoke matter factly.
"Ha, cause of Dyamond? Fuck that bitch-"
"Don't speak the devil to me, shut up." He hissed causing me to laugh as we approach ole girl and her brother.
And, "Nope." I pulled his arm from away from her, "You not finna talk to Ryana Fitzgerald Ro nope, nope, nope. Not while you my best friend you not." Now that bitch has a track record. Slaughter house visits included.
"And why not?"
"Because." I tilted my head like he knew. My aunt made us all swear not to tell.
Jasiah told me that she was the one who did it.
Don't tell nobody but Ja gotta lil problem fucking wit snow bunnies in college. Long story short He brought a lil some to one of his home boys party some shit went down and he met Ryana Fitzgerald.
The girl gave him CLAP.
He was burning for a week before Aunt Jen let him take the antibiotics to teach him a lesson about sneaking onto Fordham campus but he still does it.
Long story short, that bitch is bad news and I don't want my best friend going through the shit my cousin dumb ass did.
Nasty ass.
"Because?!" He yelled, I punched him in his chest.
"Don't yell at me."
"Don't punched me." He shoved me, I grabbed his arm, "Ro you better not let me go?!"
I was right at the end of the pool, he pushed me hard as fuck.
"Maybe I should, you punch like a fucking man."
"Ima fuck you up," he jerked me, "STOP! Ro i'm dead ass you betta not let me go."
Now he was causing a scene we wasn't even here fifteen minutes and his bitch ass already doing dumb shit while i'm tryna help him succeed in a long run without a bad track record.
If he wants to enjoy both parties he at least has to be a responsible partner.
"Tell me whats wrong with her."
"Ro pull me up,"
"Tell me." He smirked, I smacked my lips, "Fine."
In the midst of pulling me up, kids.
THEM BAD ASS FUCKING KIDS, ran and bumped his dumb ass and you know what he did
SPLASH
he let. me go.
My once dry Wiz Khalifa shirt was now wet, and if I wasn't smart enough to wear a black tank under it, you'd see my nips.
Thank you RO. Thank you so much, and and my hair is wet. MY HAIR!
I decided to have my fun and play dead for a little while. I wanted to know if someone would help me.
Fifteen seconds under I lowkey hear a splash. Im not breaking I don't wanna get caught in this act, this, this is something serious.
I could've died when he shoved my dumbass in here, who does he think he is.
And when I get back alive, i'm killing him!
The person grabbed me by my stomach and began to swim me up to the surface. I was being pulled up and put on the ground and I felt like the same seven year old girl that almost drowned.
Instead this isn't Rome saving me.
"IS SHE BREATHING!" I heard Ro yell, "Im sorry best friend, Ian mean to kill you. I though yo ass knew how to swim or something."
Yeah after the accident happened I was forced to learn. Quinten taught me.
"Ima perform CPR," ouu, Texas accent, yes put you're lips on mine.
When I felt his lips press against mine I crossed all boundaries and kissed him. At first I thought it was a bad Idea but I was being bold and when I felt him kiss me back I knew he was digging it.
Pulling back from me, I opened my eyes and began to fake cough, "You ass whole!" I tried to punch Ro, he was farther then I thought he was. "Thank you--"
"Hirem." He laughed, "It's been that long or somen?"
"Yo forreal?!" I cheesed hard and hugged him, "Why didn't I recognize you?"
"Ion know but I been watching you since you walked in here." He smiled, "You wanna go and get a towl or some. Talk or some?"
"Sure, Ro ain't NO help."
"Im sorry Mi—"
"Go enjoy the—" I clapped at him but I don't think he got my point while I walked to the locker room with Mr. Remy.
I can't believe I kissed him, he has some perfectly lushes lips.
"I wasn't expecting you to kiss me. I thought you were dead."
"Please you didn't even check." I chuckled sitting down on the bench as he gave me a towel, "What you doing in the Bronx anyways. I thought you were from Brooklyn, shouldn't that be where you are?"
"Well technically but I like havin fun." I was not buying that shit, "Plus my cousin live this way, im with them."
"Oh them kids you were with-"
"How come you didn't recongnize me? It aint like its been mad years since we last seen each other."
"Well last year was a hectic year."
"Wanna elaborate?"
"Elabor-what?"
"Elaborate. You know go into detail?" He squinted his eyes at me, "You dont know what elaborate mean?"
"Well sorry for being so under educated," I knew what it meant, I was just playing.
"Nah it aint like that its just damn. Elaborate come on now that word is a elementary word."
"I never heard that word before." Ive even used that word before. Im not that dumb.
"What other word have you never heard."
"You'd be surprised. I dont have a white persons mind—"
"Knock that shit off right now ight. You dont have to be white to be smart." He said before he sucked his teeth, "Can I show you something?"
"It depends."
Getting on his phone he began wallking out calling somebody, I followed him out. People were looking at us, ian like that. Fucking weirdos, "Come on." He told me grabbing my hand, "Yo Shells im out." He told im guessing his cousin before we began walking down the block.
I didnt know what to expect, "Where are we going?"
Ofcourse I was leaving Ro he's a big boy, he wouldve left me we cool.
Just when we turned the corner this limo was there waiting. What rich ass gone drive to the hood and leave they car?
If ian know any better i'd rob them.
"Come on." I was walking ahead of him not even knowing he'd stopped. Turning around I seen him holding open the limo door. "This you?" My eyebrows rose in confusion, while his dumb ass smiled at me.
I guess they right when they say don't judge a book by it's cover, "You lucky I like you." I joked walking back towards the car. He laughed once I got in, "I think it's really you lucky that I like you. Otherwise you wouldn't even be in this limo."
"Okay honestly, who are you."
"Hirem Barns at your service." He joked, "Keith to the house please."
"Yes master Hirem."
"HA, master." Im impressed.
Why blow it out yo oh wazoo.
You such a bitter bitch.
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I'd watched all the trees pass us by, the many cars as well, this was something new that I wanted to get out of.
I was uncomfortable, you'd think any other little girl from the hood would like shit like this but it felt wrong, "You good?"
"Yeah you?" I came off harsh, I shook my head, "My bad its just. I never been in a limo before."
"What else you never done."
"Well theres a lot I've never done before, skii, go on a rollercoaster, drive a stickshift I wanna do that one day, uhm go on a plane, theres a lot."
"Thats crazy," he chuckled, "I would've thought you'd be the type to be fearless."
"Please, theres no such thing as fearless. Everyone has a fear Remy."
"Yeah." He scooted over to me.
I nodded, "Yep."
"Can you tell mine?" His arm was behind my neck, I felt all my insides swim like fishes and my breathing come close, "What am I afraid of?"
I bit my lip and turned to look at him, "Close youre eyes," Putting my hands on his head, and my thumbs on his temples I closed my eyes and acted like I felt this energy but If any bodies real fear they all share on thing in common, "Youre afraid of fakes."
He scrunched his face up, "Fakes?"
I smiled going back towards the window, "Yep. Fakes, people that say one thing and be about another."
He smiled at me and nodded, "Fakes."
"Fakes."
"So what you afraid of? Drowning?"
"Please I can swim. What im afraid of is whats in my mind."
"Ouu spiritual."
"Yep, you'd be surprised. I think that my mind holds everything out for me."
"Mh-"
"Yeah so I got this theory right, you know how they say god made us from the ground up and Ive just been crazed about the fact that if he could make us why not make our entire story? From our name to the way we die."
"Thats creepy."
"Yeah but it makes sense." Looking at him I wanted him to tell me that he thought I was crazy but, he was actually listening to me.
"What made you think like that?"
"Something bad happened to me and I just wanted make sense of it all. Its in gods plan all of this is. Maybe its the inner Spanish me but it just makes too much sense."
"Well kudos to that. I wouldve never guessed it."
"Well kids our age only think about too many things. I just have alot of time on my hands."
"Mm, would that include time for a date?"
I scoffed, "A date? How old are you?"
"I just turned 16 in a week ago."
Wow.
"How old are you?"
Uh, dont loose this guy, his accent.
"15 in febuary." well theres no lie there.
"So a date? I know the most perfect spot."
"As long as it doesnt interferre with my curfew."
"When is it?"
"8."
"Got damnm what you do?"
"It wasnt me, just rules."
"You know rules are suppose to be broken."
"Yeah except for the ones I live under."
"Well cool them, ima have Keith help work some out then."
"Its a date."
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"THIS IS YOUR HOUSE?" I asked as he opened the doors to this nice ass mansion, "What does your dad do for a living?"
"He makes deals, kinda like a salesman."
"Salesman pay aint no joke." I croacked out, "Oh my god, this is so much better then my shitty apartment."
"Well its just me in here half the time. Me and Keith that is," he said as we started to walk to the kitchen.
"Mm, so you got some type of Bruce Wayans thing going on. Bruce and Alfred." I laughed at the thought.
"Alfred was his butler." He mugged me as he started to make us some type of drink.
"Yeah butler, driver, chef." I added for him, he rolled his eyes.
"I have a butler and Chef that arent Keith." He chuckled, "They just arent here at the moment. More on call, today is there day off."
"Well Kudos to you." I nodded my head, "Im impressed as fuck."
Dont be.
"Dont be." He shook his head, "Im still the same Hirem you met in McDonalds a year ago."
"Yeah begs the question why you were even in there. Bronx and Brooklyn arent neighbors."
"I know but like I told you I got cousins in the Bronx I like seeing." He passed my glass, " And Im not used to the rich life." He shook his head at me, "My dad got two other sons then me, both of them dont want what he offered and I was his last resort."
"Thats where the Texas accent comes from or—-"
"Yeah, I'd been here for three months before I met you." He sat his drink down, "Lets go see what I was talking about shall we."
"Sure."
Following him up the stairs to his room I guess he opened up the double doors to this Anime world, "What is this?"
"Welcome to Hirems land-"
"This is what you wanted to show me?" What the hell type of lil kid shit is this.
"Yeah." He laughed, "I wanted to get out of that infectious place, and I thought you'd probably wanna see my collection on this."
Negative.
"Why?"
"Naruto almost drowned." I scoffed and turned around, waste of my time. "Wait hold up, it aint even like that listen."
"No, what the fuck-"
"You got in the car with me, you knew where we going, where'd you think we were gone do?"
"I dont know, you gotta problem with my vocabulary you tell me?"
"I dont have a problem wit yo vocabulary-"
"So why am I here?" I folded my arms over my chest as I grilled him.
He smirked and licked his lips, "I like you. I thought it was obvious."
"Obvious?" I laughed, "You have a problem. You take other girls here to show them yo collection."
"No-"
"SO WHATS DIFFERENT NOW!" I yelled at him. He bet not be on no weird shit and here I am. At his house with him and Keith he could just kill me now.
"AYE DONT YELL AT ME, IAN START WITH YOU IGHT!" He yelled back shaking his head, "Aint shit different I just, Ion know I like you."
"This isnt very 16 like approach you know. This is lil boy shit."
"I know who you really are," what? "Lady Snap."
"How you know about me?"
"Kengi-"
"HOW YOU KNOW HIM!" I gripped him by his coller, "You gettin on my last one--"
"Him and my dad used to be close ight Hulk." He got me off of him, "I been needing a partner in crime for a while, I heard of you and thought why not, I know her whats gone be the big issue but maybe I was wrong."
"So this was a master plan to get me back here? Well if you did know me, you'd know ion like these games you playin."
"Yeah and what if I said that I have the means to help you find who ever killed Kengi."
I smacked my lips, "How do you know about shit like this."
"My dad is a very powerful man."
"So what do you want from me?"
"More like what I need--you, exactly."
"Why me? What have you heard about me?"
"Only that outta all of Ganes Jr's, you the only one that hes got on hold, you got bumped down to baby Jr, and that you have no connects to some of yo family and thats just what type of person I need. Lets not even forget the fact that you're not that much qualified but a quick study and with the right practice you can be one of the best."
"Why though? Why me?" I smacked my lips whining, "I shouldve stayed at the fucking pools."
"Maybe but youre not. Help me help you."
"So whats in it for you?"
"A friend for life,"
"A Friend?" I shook my head, "You must think im stupid, just keep it a buck with me."
"I cant tell you that much into detail unless you in it for real."
"Fuck you,"
"You have an attitude and I get that I do just please help me. We talking about Kengi's murderer."
"Dont do that-"
"Then help me." He grabbed my hands, "For a friend."
"A friend?" I shook my head, "Fine,
He smiled and hugged me, "Thank you." Fuck you, "Friend."
"Just dont lie to me about your intentions of me again."
"You got my word."
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