*Trigger warning: mentions of suicide, so please don't read if you're triggered by suicide. Also, if anyone is triggered by these imagines or ever just needs to talk, I'm always here, for everyone xxx*
Calum
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I scrolled through the contacts in my phone. There was only one person that I needed to say goodbye to: Calum. I pressed his name and put the phone to my ear. After three dial tones, he answered.
"Hey, babe." He greeted.
"Hey." I spoke quietly. There was a pause.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"I called to say goodbye." I sniffed.
"Why would you want to say goodbye?" he questioned.
"I'm not going to be here when you get back." I answered quietly. Another pause filled the conversation.
"Baby, are you leaving me? Please don't leave me." He begged.
"I'm leaving everyone, Cal. It's the way it has to be." I choked.
"Oh, god. Y/N, don't do this. I know what you're about to do, please re-think it, hold on for another two minutes, I'm nearly home, we can talk about this, just please don't do anything." He rushed.
"Too late." I mumbled as I looked at the cuts that littered the insides of my arms.
"Wait, what? Jesus, Y/N, get your arms wrapped, I'm on the doorstep now." He spoke.
"Goodbye, Calum." I choked as I felt myself getting more lightheaded.
"Wait, no, babe-." I hung up and rested my head against the bathtub before dropping the phone. I heard the front door open and feet run to me.
"Oh, god, Y/N." Calum spoke as he quickly grabbed a flannel and put it over my bleeding arm before pressing down. I winced at the pain.
"I know, baby, I'm sorry, but I've got to do this, that pressure is going to keep you alive." He reassured, looking at me with teary eyes.
"I'm sorry." I cried.
"It's okay, baby, it's okay, the ambulance will be here in a minute." He nodded, gently rubbing my cheek.
"Just, please, don't ever do that to yourself again." He choked before kissing my head and sitting next to me.
Luke
My breath hitched as I put one leg over the balcony ledge and sat on it. I looked down the building, at the buzzing streets below. I gulped hard as I realised just how high it was. I took a deep breath before swinging my other leg over the ledge. I just sat there, waiting to jump. I tried to picture what Luke would say if he was here. I remembered the phone call earlier, where he had told me that he would be late home. That would give me the perfect opportunity to carry out my plan without the risk of him stopping me. I closed my eyes and took another deep breath before slowly peeling them open again. I held out my arms as I leant forward. I closed my eyes and let myself go.
"No!" before I knew it, Luke's arms were around my waist, pulling me back over the ledge and lifting me up.
"Luke! Let me go!" I screamed as he carried me inside and locked the door before turning to me.
"What the fuck were you doing?" he hissed.
"What do you think I was trying to do?" I snapped.
"I think you were trying to get yourself killed." He spat.
"I just want it to end, is that too much to ask?" I cried, tears suddenly falling from my eyes. Luke's face softened immediately as he engulfed me in a hug.
"I'm so sorry, baby...I'm sorry, please, just don't do that again." He begged, gently stroking my hair.
"It's the only way to stop the pain." I sobbed into his shirt.
"No, babe, it's not. You're going to be okay, but you have to promise me that you're not going to try that, or anything that will end the same way, again." He spoke, looking at me.
"Promise me." He demanded. I sighed.
"I promise." I whispered. He breathed a sigh of relief before kissing my head.
"I love you so much. Never forget that." He mumbled, hugging me tightly.
Michael
I emptied the contents of my pill bottle into my hand and counted them. I was only meant to take one day, and I was about to take all one hundred of them. It would hurt, but it would do what I wanted. I took a deep breath before grabbing my water and popping the first ten pills into my mouth. I took a big drink of my water to wash them down before popping the next ten in, continuing to take ten at a time until they were all gone. I quickly started to feel lightheaded, making me fall to the floor. I started to close my eyes as I saw a figure over me.
"Oh, my god, Y/N, no!" Michael rushed as he knelt down beside me. I kept my eyes closed, determined to make this work.
I peeled my eyes open, squinting them as they were met with a bright light. I looked around and gulped as I was in a hospital bed with Michael sat in a chair by the bed, clutching my hand. I looked around again.
"What happened?" I asked quietly. Michael's head shot up, and his red, puffy eyes told me that he'd been crying.
"You took all of your pills at once. I got home seconds after you did, but according to the nurse, if I would have gotten home any later, your suicide attempt could have worked." He choked.
"Oh." I mumbled.
"Why did you do it?" he asked, making me sigh.
"I'm sorry, Mikey, everything just got too much. I couldn't handle it anymore." I admitted, looking down. He sighed.
"Just don't do anything like that again, please. I'm going to do whatever it takes to help you through this, okay?" he spoke.
"Okay." I nodded. He sighed before pulling me into his body, hugging me tightly.
Ashton
I gulped as I shut the front door. I sighed as I saw Ashton sitting on the sofa, just watching TV. I walked up to him, making him look at me.
"Hey, babe." He smiled. I sat down next to him.
"I love you, Ashton. You know that, right?" I asked. He looked at me.
"Of course I do. I love you too." He smiled. I nodded before kissing him passionately.
"Goodbye." I choked before standing up and heading to the bedroom.
"Wait, what?" he asked as he stood up and followed me. I walked into our bedroom and shut the door before locking it.
"Y/N, what are you doing in there?" Ashton's muffled voice sounded through the door.
"I'm sorry. It's too much, I can't handle it anymore. I'm sorry." I spoke as tears rolled down my cheeks. I opened the bedside table drawer and got out my gun.
"Y/N, what the fuck are you doing?! Please don't do anything!" I could hear Ashton's voice getting more frantic.
"I love you, Ashton. I always will." I choked as I put it off of safety.
"Please, baby, don't do this, I love you." He begged.
"Goodbye." I said before closing my eyes and pulling the trigger. I opened my eyes again. I frowned as I looked at the gun. I quickly opened the bullet magazine to see it empty.
"Shit." I mumbled. I went to the door and unlocked it to reveal Ashton holding my bullets.
"Hand it over." He muttered. I sighed before placing the gun in his hand, making him put the gun into the back of his belt and out of my reach. Suddenly, he dropped the bullets and grabbed my face before passionately kissing me. I quickly returned it as I curled my arms around his waist.
"I love you, okay? I love you, and I'm going to get you get through this. Just promise that you will never do that again." He demanded. I sighed before nodding.
"I need to hear you say it." He insisted.
"I promise." I mumbled.
"Okay." He sighed before kissing my head.