Jia POV
It's been two days and hindi pa din namin nakakausap si Jhoana. Ewan ko ba dito kay Ate Ella, sinusumpong ng tantrums. Even Deanna, she doesn't want to see Jhoana pa daw. Kahit nagtetext samin si Jho na she misses us. Hayaan na lang daw muna namin magsuffer si Jho and wag replyan. Para daw marealize ni Jho yung consequences nang ginawa niya.
You let someone in, someone's gonna be out. Ganon nga lang naman ang takbo ng buhay.
Nico out, Bea in, Bea out, Nico in.
Ang pangit ng routine, ang pangit ng rotation wala bang Bea in na lang lagi? Hehehe. I miss my Beibei.
Baka pag nawala si Nico, baka bumalik si Bea hehehehe.
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Alyssa POV
After Jho texted me what happened. I talk Den about it. We asked ourselves na bakit galit pa din siya sa De Leon, kahit patay naman na si Bea. He even told to Jho na alam niya na si Bea pa din.
Then what now? Ano kayang balak niya ngayon?
I was taken back to reality when I felt someone backhugged me.
"I miss you." Den
"I miss you too. I'm sorry I was thinking about Nico." Alyssa
"Don't you think we need to tell it to Ella and Jia?" Den
"Gusto ko sana,kaso ayoko naman pangunahan si Jhoana about don." Alyssa
"Well you're right. So why don't we just take a rest for this day and be lazy at bed?" Den
"Sounds like a plan babe." Alyssa.
Deanna POV
I'm now at my condo. I don't feel like talking to anyone. Even Jema ang daming gumugulo sa isip ko lalo na si Nico.
Everything feels so wrong. I know Ate Bea's dead but hindi ba naisip ni Ate Jho na Kuya Nico's one of the reason why she is dead.
I'm going insane. I heard my phone's ringing.
It's Jema. But I ignored it. I don't want to talk to anyone. I get my carkeys and drive.
Pumunta akong sementeryo sa puntod ni Ate Bea. Whenever I'm in pain, confused and angry sa kanya lang ako pumupunta. Siya lang kasi yung tao na nandiyan lagi para makinig sa mga rants ko sa buhay even before. She's my bestfriend kahit at times naggagaguhan kaming dalawa.
I remember one time. Kung paano niya ako kinulit para tulungan ko siya kay Ate Jho.
Kasi all I know na straight si Ate Jho. And etong babae naman na to, well she's gay and nothing's wrong with that.
F l a s h b a c k
"Deanna come on help me, lumalalim na feelings ko sa kanya. Masama na ata tama ko." Bea
"I don't know Ate Bei, ang hirap ng pinasok mo na sitwasyon. Bestfriend mo siya tapos nafall ka pa, kung di ka naman tanga at kalahati eh." Deanna
"Ano ba Deanns you're not helping! Huhuhu paano ba mawawala feelings ko sa kanya?" Bea
"Try going out with other girls? I can recommend some girls if you want." Deanna
"That's sounds like a bad idea. Gusto mo atang magkaworld war 3!" Bea
"Luh? Tuwang tuwa ka naman na magagalit si Ate Jho. Just give it a try? Friendly date lang naman and try to cut some space with Ate Jho and mag-isip isip. Baka naman di ka pa sure sa feelings mo." Deanna
"Maybe, I'll try. Thanks Wongskie!" Bea
She did what I said, and to what she expected World War 3 nga ang nangyari.
Madami kaming memories ni Ate Bei. Good and Bad. Pero lahat yon pinapahalagahan ko that's why I don't want na mapunta lang sa wala yung pinagsamahan nila ni Ate Jho. Yes I know she has the rights na magmahal muli pero of all people na pwede niyang mahalin si Nico. I swear to God, I want to kill him.
Ella POV
I'm still pissed off kay Jhoana. Biglang desisyon siya kay Nico. Did she forget everything? Nakalimutan na ba niya lahat ng nangyari? Pinsan ko si Nico but I still won't tolerate his attitude.
Maybe he changed or maybe not. I don't know bigla na lang siyang sumulpot muli.
Habang nasa bahay ako. Nag-impis ako ng gamit sa may wardrobe ko. Sa isang box. I found an envelope written Jhoana.
Then I remember yung last letter ni Bea kay Jhoana. For season 80 pero di ko naibigay kasi nakalimutan ko na.
I got my keys and texted Jhoana to meet me. Pumayag naman siya.
After 30 minutes of drive dumating ako sa coffee shop na pinag-usapan namin.
Nauna pa ako sa babaeng yon hays kahit kelan pahulihin Jhoana Louisse.
Dumating na siya and all smile siya sakin.
"Uy donya wag ka na magalit sakin please." Jho
"Choice mo yon sa buhay Jho. Di kita mapipigilan." Ella
"Ehhhh galit ka pa din eh." Jho
"Just give me some time to absorb things. Pero let's not talk about that. Kaya kita pinapunta dito kasi may ibibigay ako sayo." Ella
"Ano yon donya? Ang seryoso mo naman nakakatakot." Jho
Inabot ko naman sa kanya ang envelope na may sulat ni Bea.
"Here, I hope you still remember her and sorry ngayon ko lang naibigay. Sana hindi ka nagkamali sa desisyon na ginawa mo. Mauuna na ako." Ella
"Kadadating ko lang eh. Mamaya na." Jho
"I want to go Jho. Next time na lang. Read it when you are ready." Ella
At umalis na ako nang di lumilingon kay Jhoana.
Jho POV
Ang weird ni Ate Ells. Tiningnan ko yung envelope at may sulat na Jhoana.
Napansin kong pamilyar ang sulat kaya binuksan ko agad ito.
Dear Jhoana Louisse,
Let's go for Season 80 Beh! Gamitin mo last playing year mo okay? Kailangan mabigyan ka ng magandang exit. Kasi deserve mo yon, deserve niyo ni Maddie. By that time senior na din si Deanna pilitin mo yun mag 5 years okay? Para di maiwan agad mga rookies natin. Beh alam mo ba sobrang proud ako sayo. Yes maybe you won't remember us but I'm still your bestfriend right? Di man tayo nag-uusap kagaya dati. But I want you to know na kung ano man maging desisyon mo sa buhay lagi kitang susuportahan.
You know I love you. I really love you from the first time I met you. I know na ikaw yung binigay ni Lord na sagot sa dasal ko.
Sabi ko kasi sa kanya bigyan niya ako ng makakasama sa buhay. Di ako nagkamali ikaw nga yon. Ikaw pa rin talaga pagbaliktadin man siguro ang mundo na ako naman ang di makaalala. Pipilitin kong alalahanin na ikaw yung mahal ko. Kahit piliin mo na si Nico kahit masakit tatanggapin ko kasi mahal kita. All I want in my life is for you to be happy.
Be happy my love. Be happy even though I'm not the one who makes you happy anymore.
Within every infinity we promised, I never doubted you or our future
Remember our plans we made?
* We would have our first date at a beach
* The endless date that we would do
* Our first passionate kiss
The list goes on, but maybe we're naive. I will savor these happy memories,
And store them deeply within my heart. Maybe there isn't a happy ending for every fairy tale out there, maybe I'm not the one you need.
But if you asked, I would do it again. Just like I sang,
— I can't help falling in love with you —
I would fall for you all over again and again.
Every time I hear a romantic song, it would always reminds me of you.
Every time I wake up, I think about you.
Every time I daydream, I imagine our future.
Call me a helpless romantic, but I lived desperately for you.
Without an explanation, I must leave.
Without another word, I must live on.
Without you, I must learn to love myself.
Whatever happens in the future. Don't blame yourself and free yourself from it, okay? May you always remember that I love you and I will support you.
Hi Love this would be my last letter for you and may you live happily ever with the person you would choose. I love you beh always was and always will. I'll miss you and take care of yourself.
May we meet again.
Love,
Bea
Pinaiyak niya na naman ako.
Beatriz, thank you for always choosing my happiness over yours. I'm sorry love that I didn't save you.
For three years, I dedicate my life on sobering up and blaming myself about your death.
And I'm sorry if I let myself to be fooled with Nico again.
Hindi ko man nasabi sayo sa huli na mahal kita pero sana alam mong mahal kita at walang papalit sayo. Ngunit hayaan mong piliin ko naman na ang sarili kong kumawala sa lungkot.
Paalam mahal.
My Isabel Beatriz, may we meet again.
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Sorry for the lame update.
Writers block at it again.
I'll try my best.
I'm sorry.