Hate 11/7/10
I hate you because you’re such a special person to me
I hate how grief eats me alive
When I reminisce our shattered memories
How I treasure and cage them up in my heart
I hate watching our wonderful friendship die
When it was the source of my motivation
Giving me these tempestuous sensations
I feel so incomplete like an unfinished puzzle
Because you hold some of the pieces
I don’t know if you still have them
Or if you already threw them away
And when I ask you, you just try to avoid it
I don’t know why I feel this aggressive hate towards you
I get so revolted and repulsed of you
You’re a completely different person from who you were before
You’ve turned into this sickening monster that’s driving me insane
You act so cold and calm like everything’s ok when it’s not
Oh, you want to know how malignant my feelings are for you?
Every time I see your disgusting face
I feel this dreadful rage build up inside me
I could feel my heart drum on my chest with its heavy beats
My glare gets tighter whilst my cynical scowl
Some inner poison slowly spreading through my body
And when it gets to my finger tips…
I want to strangle the life out of you
I want to stab a knife in your heart
I want to shoot a bullet through your head
I want to scream out and cuss in front of you
But I the memory of you being my past best friend still linger in my mind
So I can’t do anything but control my indescribable emotions