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Tommy's POV
Okay.
For starters, this is why I don't get drunk, because when I do, apparently I like to invite Adam to sleep with me.
I swear he gave me a heart attack when he moved, but hey, the look on his face was priceless from my reaction. What I don't understand is why he was acting so chill about it, isn't he supposed to be dating Sauli? This man needs to get his priorities straightened.
I spent at least a good hour in the shower trying to remember and piece together what happened last night, so far all I know is what Adam told me and for his sake, I hope that's all I did.
Besides getting drunk.
I got out of the shower and dried myself then throwing on some fresh underwear, trackies and a singlet top. I wasn't in the mood to be bothered and do my hair, so I just left it damp and in its usual hairstyle.
Heading downstairs I began making a simple breakfast for myself which contained two slices of toast with banana and strawberries on the side to finish it off. While I was buttering the slices I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist and I stopped what I was doing, freezing completely.
"You don't need to try and avoid me because of last night, it's not like we did anything" Adam whispered in my ear.
Pretty sure he could sense my shocked state because I felt his arms loosen slightly.
"Plus, I enjoyed it"
"A-arnt you supposed to be with Sauli?" I replied once I finally found it in me to speak.
"Yeah, but that doesn't mean we can't have a our moments still" He said, moving his head so he was able to kiss me below the ear. Did he seriously forget what he told me during the tour?
At that display, I unwrapped his arms from my waist -much to his process- and turned around, pushing him away slightly so I could glare at him.
"No! You do not get to say that after you were the one who said we needed to stop" i said continuing to glare.
"I had a moment of weakness with Sauli and that whole thing, but Tommy I miss you" those words hit home, hard. "we live together but you always find a way to not be near me, I hate how much we have drifted" His words seemed full or meaning.
I didn't know what to do or say so I just stood there looking at the ground, sheepishly.
"Tommy" He whispered, taking a step towards me.
Trying to get my breathing under control i slowly peered up at him, I was still pissed off but I did my best at not showing it.
"We can't" I said "I'm not going to let you cheat on Sauli, plus in the end someone is going to get hurt and I've already been hurt enough by you, so please, stop it" I finished. I tried walking past him but he managed to grab my wrist and pull me back to my original spot.
"I love Sauli, you know that but-" he paused taking a deep breath "- I love you aswell" he said closing his eyes gently before opening them again to look at me.
"If that's your attempt to try and win me over, it's pathetic" I spat out.
Adams eyes turned cold as he looked at me, but then it was replaced with a look of determination.
Wow, perfect time to start acting awkward tommy, good job.
I didn't get time to process what was about happening before Adams lips captured mine in a hard kiss. He didn't moved them, he just held the sides of my face in his hands and kissed me hard.
He roughly pulled away and I looked at him. I didn't know how to feel about this because all my frustration I had before began to fade away and all I could focus on was his.
"Fuck it" I said and threw my arms around his neck to kiss him again, but this time it was more heated and urgent.
Our lips moved in sync and I felt Adam lift me up onto the counter. I took this as an advantage to wrap my legs around his waist to pull our bodies closer. Pulling away from the kiss, I kissed down Adams neck and found his soft spot were I nipped and sucked, Once I heard a deep moan come from his throat, I continued biting at his neck leaving a mark. Adam pulled my face back up to meet his and honestly he looked attractive at this moment, his hair was messy and some bits were hanging over his lust-filled eyes.
I slammed my lips back onto his, running my tongue along the edge of his bottom lip, I felt his mouth slightly open and he took complete domination, it reminded me so much of our Amsterdam kiss where he had me completely bent of back wards on the stage. My hands became tangled in his hair and his had a tight grip on the sides of my waist.
"Adam, are yo-"
Adam jumped away from me, looking at me shocked, before we both turned our heads, coming face to face with a very hurt looking Sauli. I hoped off the bench cowering behind Adams tall figure.
Ugh, this is exactly why I told him can't.
"W-what was that?" Sauli said, his voice cracking at the end, taking a small step back.
Adam looked back at me so he was staring into my eyes, he could tell how scared and hopeless I looked but he gave a apologetic look before turning back to Sauli.
"It was nothing" Adam said with a shaky laugh, walking towards him.
"It didn't look like nothing" He replied stopping Adam from coming closer.
"I- uh- um it -fuck" Adam groaned and gripping his hair in a frustrated manor.
"Tommy" My head snapped up to look at Adam. "Can you give us a moment?"
I nodded quickly and dashed past the both of them running upstairs to my room. What just happened? Oh yeah, you couldn't control yourself and just had to throw yourself at Adam, get your shit together Tommy.
Adams POV
"Sauli, I swear it was nothing" I pleaded.
"I-I don't get it, why?" Tears were welling up in his eyes.
"It was nothing" I repeated in the same pleading tone.
"Stop saying that!" He suddenly yelled.
"What did I ever do to you that would cause you to cheat on me? I was okay with you and Tommy on stage, but this? Really?" He said between sobs.
I could feel my chest tighten and my eyes begin to sting with tears. Why do I always need to screw up? I just wanted one moment with Tommy. I should have listened to him, he was right when he said someone will get hurt, I was just to caught up in my stupid thoughts about him to think of Sauli.
"I wasn't thinking Sauli, okay!" I yelled back, trying to also hold back tears.
"That's because you never think!" Yep, that one hurt.
"Doesn't this just feel like a lovely sense of déjàvu?" He continued.
"T-this has nothing to do with the happened in the past" I spat.
"Oh really? Because I don't believe this is the first time I've walked in on you with your tongue down someone's throat!"
"I was drunk and we were fighting!" Its true, I was drunk the first time.
"And let's not forget how a week later, after we were sorted out, I found you fucking some bimbo in our bed just because your were bored and I wouldn't give myself to you!" I continued, venom dripping from my voice.
He was speechless.
"That doesn't explain what just happened" He spoke up.
I was glaring at him when I noticed a hickey peaking from under his scarf. Rage took over my body and I stormed over to him and ripped his scarf off.
"How about you explain that then" I hissed point at the hickey "Because I'm pretty damn sure it wasn't me who gave it to you"
Sauli kept opening his mouth and then snapping it shut again as if he doesn't know what to say.
I ran my hand through my hair. Relationships shouldn't be this hard. His cheated, I've cheated and I'm sure we're just kidding ourselves that this was going to work when we can't even keep our hands off other men.
"Um- maybe we shouldn't continue this" I spoke quietly looking at the ground.
Sauli snapped his head up to look at me.
"What n-no, we're fine, this is just another fight" he said frantically.
"Sauli, we can't keep kidding ourselves" Tears were now freely streaming down my face.
"No, we can work through this!" He begged.
I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his small frame and pulled him into my chest, nestling my head in the crook of his neck. Sauli slowly returned the embrace. We didn't talk but I heard a faint sob come from Sauli.
"Okay" He said in barely a whisper, as if surrendering.
We pulled apart and just shared a look regret of what has become of us.
I felt the urge to kiss him one last time so that's what I did, I tilted my head and slowly moved in so my lips met his for a gentle kiss, my pressed my forehead against his then took a deep breath moving away.
He gave me a soft nod then turned around and left, for good.
Tears were coming down heavier now as I let out a loud broken sob and fell to the floor holding my face in my hands.
Tommy's POV
I was sitting at the top of the stairs listening to the fight until I heard Sauli leave.
I quietly walked down stairs and saw Adam on the floor letting out broken sobs, he heard me and looked up. As soon as I saw how red and puffy his eyes were and the tears flowing down, I rushed over to him and sat next to him facing the opposite way and pulled him into my chest while he broke down. I stroked his hair while he gripped my shirt into fists and continued crying.
This was heartbreaking and I hate the fact it's all because I made that stupid move and kissed him! but I could never regret it.
Once the sobs died down he sat up and moved so his back was pressed against the cupboard, I copied is actions. We sat there in silence and I decided to grab his hand and hold it.
"We broke up" He choked out.
I didn't reply because how am I supposed to reply to that?
"But I don't regret kissing you" He added.
I looked at him to find him already staring and offered a small smile.
"Me neither" I said resting my head on his shoulder.
"For the record, I love you too" Those words felt foreign in my mouth but it felt good to finally say them.
"Hey Adam?"
"Yeah?"
"Sing" That's all I said.
Once I heard his soft singing, I closed my eyes and felt completely and utterly peaceful in this very moment.
"Strip away the flesh and bone
Look beyond the lies you've known
Everybody wants to talk about a freak
No one wants to dig that deep
Let me take you underneath
Baby, better watch your step
Never mind what's on the left
You're gonna see things
You might not wanna see
Its still not that easy for me
Underneath
A red river of screams
Underneath
Tears in my eyes
Underneath
Stars in my black and blue sky
Underneath
Under my skin
Underneath the depths of my sin
Look at me
Now do you see?"
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A/N holla! Again you know the drill, here's a new chapter, it hasn't been edited yet and yeah :) I'd like to say a MASSIVE thankyou to adamlambert23 for giving me the idea for this chapter, so thankyou :) go check out her story!
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