Warning: depressing talks
Y/N's POV
How easy it is for people to leave this world...
The funeral was finally over , i still couldn't believe that my sister was gone ...
I looked at the old photo album that held our memories together ; i stared at the picture of ours at the beach, i still remember when we all went to the beach... it was such a nice day and how both i and SungHee buried our dad in the beach sand ...
i couldn't help but smile at the thought..
Soon my thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door
"Seokjin oppa?!" I spoke
"You haven't eaten anything , come outside and have a bit." He said
"No oppa i don't feel like eating." My voice came out low
"Thankyou oppa but i want to stay alone for a while." I told him to which he sighed and went out
They all are so nice .. they have been checking on me every now and then .. except one person.. i guess he cant face me atleast not after what he has done....
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The night came like a thief of night and i laid on my bed curled up in the same position for hours...
But why are there no tears?? Why am i not crying...
All of a sudden the door open with a bang sound and in came a stern looking jungkook with .... food ?? in his hand ...
"Go away i don't want to eat." I said still in the same position...
"I wont until you eat!" He spoke
"Did Jin oppa sent you?"i asked
"No, they left" he answered
"Don't act like you care!" I snapped
"Stop with the drama, get up and eat!" He answered raising his voice as he approached me
"Leave me alone , you are the last person i want to see right now." I shouted at him
"Good to know that our feeling is mutual.. get up and eat otherwise i ll feed you myself forcefully" he demanded as he held my hand and pulled me up..
"YAAAHHH WHAT ARE YOU DOING??STOP ACTING AS IF YOU CARE...I KNOW I AM NOTHING TO YOU..STOP IT OK!!YOU MUST BE HAPPY RIGHT?YOU WANTED TO SEE ME SUFFER SO TELL ME MR JEON ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?ARE YOU ENJOYING YOUR REVENGE GAME TELL M.." i was cut off as i felt a pair of arms pulling me closer to them and before i know it i was in his embrace "YAAH—LEAVE ME!" I hit his chest but he didn't budge instead his hold got tighter around me ..
"Will you believe me if i say i care?!!" He said in a gentle voice before continuing
" I know you want to let it all out , so let it all out once and for all.. its okay to cry" his tone got softer and much to my surprise the lump in my throat started forming and coming out
"I am not looking at your face so no need to get embarrassed , just let out whatever you are holding in.."
Tears started to trickle down my cheeks and i felt him caressing my hair..
"I can stay here all night if you want .. i know your pain.. i have lost my sibling too."He spoke
My sobs soon turn to cries as i held his arms tightly
"Why does everybody leave?" My voice came out low as i cried in his shirt "i thought atleast she would stay with me for life." I continued "but she left too, why? Is it that easy to leave." I cried as i felt his chest rising up and down
"Now what exactly is the purpose of my life, i should die too." I cried as i realised for whom should i live now
"Shh you are alive that means you still have a purpose in your life." I heard him say in his deep yet gentle voice ...
"Why is God being like this,first it was my parents , then junghyun and now my sister.." my voice came out low
"Sometimes we can't question God , there is a reason he is the Most Superior Being because the things he do is beyond are imagination..We can't question his doings y/n!!" I heard him say as his Aden's apple moved up and down....
He continued caressing my head with one hand while his other hand rubbed my back ..whenever he spoke his warm breath would tickle my neck skin..
I felt calm, i felt at ease, i felt comfortable in the arms of a murderer.... what is it about him that makes me comfortable around him.. why is it that the toughest and the rudest person is the most comfortable to be around with..
i wish time would stop so we would just stay like this...
Seems like jungkook cares
So what do you think?
Enjoy shabiha
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