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I sigh for the hundredth time in the last twenty minutes as I rub my temples in hopes the headache goes away
Everything that Mason said has made me double think things
I mean..his not wrong..Blake isn't really the description of a gentleman and his definitely aware of his effects on females...
Maybe he does only want sex..maybe he is really playing me...maybe he says whatever I want him to say so that he can have his way with me faster...
ughhhhh
I'm so stupid
Getting excited over a kiss like that when it's all a game to him..
I chuckle dryly shaking my head
"Ten minutes everyone! Ten minutes!"
I look up at Mr.Hister as I look back down on my page that is filled with pointless doodling instead of paragraphs 'elucidating our understanding of Siddhartha and the self'
shit..
Get it together Angela
With one last heavy sigh, I begin writing hoping whatever I was saying was making at least the tiniest bit of sense
wait...
Siddhartha is the Buddhist right?
I'm screwed...I thought facepalming myself
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"Angela! Angela!"
My eyes widen a fraction as I recognize the voice who is calling out for me
I readjust my bookbag on my shoulder as I scurried through the hallway hoping to not have to talk to him
"Angela!"
Suddenly I feel a hand wrap itself on my forearm turning me around
damn it
I turn and see Mason looking at me sadly
"Angela...I'm sorry" he said looking down at his feet before looking back up at me with a pained expression
"Mason, I-"
"No, pelase let me finish" He stopped me midsentence, "I was jealous, alright. I acted completely horrible because I was so damn jealous of him"
I looked up at Mason biting the inside of my cheek shuffling side to side not knowing what to do
"You didn't deserve anything of what I said to you and I'm sorry. I'm truly immensely sorry"
"I forgive you Mason"
His eyes immediately look up at mine wide open as his famous smile returns to his face
"I forgive you but I will need time to move on from it" I finish my sentence watching Mason's excitement wash from his face causing guilt to wash over me
He casts his eyes downward as he nods his head forming his lips in a thin line "I understand"
I smile sadly at him as I turn around and head to my car releasing a breath
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I drive towards the cafe feeling my stomach go in circles
I know Mason said he said those things all because of jealousy but what if he is right..what if that is how it is
I head in the cafe with my book in my hand and see John greeting the customers smiling and laughing
A little small smile plays on my lips seeing him so happy
When John sees me he smiles and says something to the customer before coming to me
"Hey Kiddo" he exclaims as I go for a hug
"Hey John"
"How are you child?"
We release each other from our hold
"Alright" I say vaguely causing for him to look at me suspiciously
"You better always be smiling kid. That's all I want from you, your happiness"
I smile at his words as he looks at me sternly
"Thanks John"
"Green tea?"
"Yes sir" I salute causing him to let a small chuckle before patting me in the back
I go and sit at my usual place and open my book
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2 hours later..
Oh my goodness..
THIS BOOK IS SO DAMN GOOD
I grin wide as my eyes continue to read the words itching for the moment when he FINALLY tells her he loves her
come onnnn
come onnnnn
COME ON
"He was rubbing my cheek up and down as tears kept falling. "Please" I croaked looking at him desperately
He stared into my eyes in pain and confliction as if this was tearing him apart
"Stella...I..I can't" he whispered as a tear escapes his eyes
He lets go of my face making me suddenly feel cold as he walks away not once looking back as I stand there feeling the weight of an elephant on my chest"
I hurriedly flip the page anxious and find...
an empty page?
What?
NO
NO
THAT IS NOT THE END
ARE YOU SERIOUS?
I TAKE IT BACK! SHITTY ASS BOOK!
I close the book harshly as I fold my arms across my chest frowning
"What did the book do to you mi amor?"
I look up to see Blake looking at me smirking raising his eyebrow in all of his glory
"Bad ending" I mutter still feeling salty with the author
"Let me guess...they didn't end up together?"
I grunt in response causing Blake to look at me in amusement
Suddenly, I remembered everything
What Maon said...
My doubts about Blake...
Everything..
I cough forcefully as I grab my book and get up to leave
"Your leaving?" Blake asked voice void of any emotion
"Yeah, I'm quite busy so.." I responded holding the book closely against my chest
Blake analyzes me his eyes narrowing, "Why are you lying to me?"
My eyes widen as I shake my head profusely
"I-im not"
Fuck...nice going bitch
Blake tightens his jaw as he glares at me before grabbing me by my waist and leading me towards the door
My breath gets caught in my throat as I feel his warm hand on my waist
shit..it'd be so much easier to breathe if he wasn't so near me
He walks me to the parking lot before he lets go of my waist and turns towards me his grey eyes shining in the sunlight
"What have I told you about me not liking to repeat myself?" He asked
"You never learn mi amor do you?"he asks before nuzzling his face in my neck as I feel his hot breath on me
My knees go weak and as if he knew, he grabs me by the waist keeping me still
"So tell me..why are you lying to me?" he asks softly as he leaves feathery kisses all over my jaw
"I-i"
fuck..USE YOUR WORDS ANGELA
"Because Mason said you only wanted me for my body and now I'm worried," I say out of breath
...not those words bitch
Blake suddenly freezes
he moves his face from my neck as his eyes connect with mine
"Mason said that?" He asked strangely calm yet his grip on my waist tightening and his grey eyes slowly turning a night sky color made me believe he was anything but calm
I slowly nod my head biting the inside of my cheek
"How many times do I have to tell you?" his voice got hard and cold
"If I wanted a slut, I'd get myself a slut" I slightly winced at his words
"But I want you. I want you mi amor" He said with so much emotion in his voice
I looked into his eyes to see any trace of lying but I saw none
I smiled and gave him a quick peck on the cheek before turning bright red and looking at my hands suddenly feeling shy
Blake chuckles grabbing my chin before kissing me on the lips slowly and sweetly causing my stomach to spin in circles
"Now..where's Mason?"