Newt's P.O.V.
On the holiday in my third year I have spend time with Leta LeStrange for the first time. She was actually nice to talk to. Y/n couldn't stay at Hogwarts at that holiday and I missed her but Leta helped me to get my mind off of this. I was proud of myself that I have found one more friend.
When the new term started and Y/n came back I introduced her to Leta. As the end of the year came I could tell that Y/n tried to be friends with Leta but Leta wasn't trying to be friends with Y/n. Y/n pretended that everything was fine but I could see her getting sadder and sadder every day.
When exams were finished and everyone went home I have realised something strange. A few weeks passed and I have noticed that almost every of my thoughts would trail to Y/n. Her kind and shy personality. Her beautiful appeareance. Her hair. Her rare smile. Her gorgeous eyes. At first I was a bit scared of what was going on with me. But after some time I came to a conclusion that... that I have a crush on Y/n. I mean, who wouldn't? She is the prettiest girl I have ever seen!
But there was just one problem. One problem I knew for sure. A girl like her will never, ever like a guy like me. It made me sad. It made me so sad that I decided to distance myself from her for a while. I wanted for my feelings to go away. But they never did.
I have never told it to Y/n but there were a few times when other boys at Hogwarts from different houses were asking me about Y/n. From the moment they approached me I knew that they were no good. They wanted to know her because she was beautiful and not because her personality. It made me so disgusted. I wanted to tell them to never even glance at Y/n, I just didn't have the courage to do so. So I being my stupid self just turned around and walked away.
So instead of spending time with Y/n I started spending time with Leta. I could tell that she was happy about it. But the thing is that I wasn't. I wasn't happy at all. I tried to pretend so but failed.
It broke my heart to see Y/n all alone at her usual place at the Ravenclaw table. She was so sad and lonely. And it would make my blood boil when I would see one of the boys who asked me about Y/n approach her. But it made me let out a happy sigh when she would reject them. It would make a smirk apear on my face when I see those boys who are sure that every girl wants to be with them look at Y/n walking away with shock and disbelief on their faces.
Right now, you are probably wondering what kind of a terrible person I am if I watch the most kind and beautiful girl in the world being so sad and lonely and do nothing. Well, I will tell you. The thing is that I'm afraid. I'm afraid that if I'll start to spend time with Y/n again, my secret will slip out. What will happen if Y/n will find out that I have a crush on her. I know that she doesn't return the feelings, I'm sure of it. But what will happen? Will she say that we can be just friends? Or maybe she will never want to see me again?
Merlin's beard! I'm just hopeless. I'm having a crush on the girl of my dreams. But the thought of me the way I think of her will never, ever even cross her mind.
Not that long ago Leta asked me about Jarveys. I told her everything I knew about them. Like that fact that they can talk, where they live and what they eat. I didn't know why she wanted to know it. When I asked Leta she said that she was just curious. That was enough for me to know.
But one day she told me that she had found a Jarvey in the Forbidden Forest. Leta showed me her notebook with an experiment written down. I immediately closed the book and gave it beck to her. I told her that it was a very bad idea. It would be the same as animal abuse, and it is illegal.
The exact same day we had a Deffence Against the Dark Arts lesson where we were learning a 'Riddikulus' spell. Y/n was there too. When we were forming a line she was pushed into me. The moment me and Y/n made physical contact I blushed like crazy. Thank Merlin that she didn't look at me. Even after almost two years of distancing myself from her my feelings haven't gone.
Then we faced Boggarts. Y/n's Boggart was terrifying. It made me feel so bad. My Boggart in compare with hers looked kind of stupid. After me was Leta's turn. Her Boggart turned into something scary, but curious. Leta ran out in tears. Me being a good friend, ran after her.
Well, I'm not a good friend. If I was a good friend I would never do what I did to Y/n.
After this Leta seemed to forget about her experiment. That was good.
A few weeks have passed since then and the end of the year was near. But then something happened. Something that changed my life forever. I saw a creature running in the castle. A creature that looked like a Jarvey. At first I was a bit confused but then it hit me. Leta did her experiment. By the time I have realised what happened the Jarvey was long gone. So I went looking for it. Then I stumbled across Leta talking with the headmaster and Professor Dumbledore. Without thinking twice I approached them and told them that it was my idea and therefore my fault. They told me that one of the students was seriously injured. That wasn't good. They let Leta go. We went to the headmasters office where I was told that I'm getting expelled. Professor Dumbledore tried to protest but It didn't help.
Professor Dumbledore and I walked out of the headmaster's office. My head was hanging low. I warned Leta that it was a bad idea. I only took the blame because if Leta got expelled her family won't be happy about it. Well, my family won't be happy about me too. I already can imagine the expression on Theseus's face when he will hear the news.
The thing I was worried about right now was Y/n. How will I tell her? How will she take it? Will I ever see her again? Will she ever forgive me for it?
"I'm sorry, Newt." Professor Dumbledore said and let out a sad sigh.
"It's alright, professor. It wasn't your fault."
"Neither it was yours."
I sighed.
"Newt, you have to tell miss Y/l/n yourself."
"I know."
Your P.O.V.
It was Sunday morning. You just had breakfast and we're heading to your dorm to get your notebook and pencil case. It was the end of April so it was pretty warm outside. You planned to go to the Forbidden Forest and find yourself a quiet place to relax. You were so deep in your thoughts that you didn't hear a slight mumbling. Suddenly you saw a glimpse of a small creature's tail. You followed it but when you took a turn into another corridor, no creature was there. It was probably your imagination playing tricks with your mind. You convinced yourself that it was all in your head and continued your day.
When you stared going up the Staircase you heard two students talking.
"You heard there was an accident."
"Yeah, I did. Someone's in big trouble in headmaster's office."
"That boy, Scam... Salam... Salamanders or something."
You froze. They were talking about Newt, weren't they? What has he done?
You quickly started walking to the headmaster's office. You were just one turn away from it when you heard two familiar voices but you really couldn't make out what they were saying. Your breathing was steady. Your heart was beating a thousand miles per hour. You were so worried. You knew Newt, he would never break any rules on purpose.
When you took the turn you almost collided with Newt and professor Dumbledore. Newt immediately looked down. Professor let out a sad sigh and patted Newt's shoulder.
"I'll leave you two to talk." He said and walked away.
You glanced at Newt and then looked down. After a few moments of silence you decided to start yourself.
"I... I heard that something happened." You quietly said.
"Y... Yes."
"What happened?"
Newt let out a shaky breath.
"Leta experimented on a Jarvey and it endangered student's life."
"That doesn't explain what it has to do with you."
"I told her that it was a bad idea, but she wouldn't listen, Y/n. The experiment went wrong and... and..."
Newt was silent and you were getting more worried.
"And what?" You asked.
"And I took the blame." He whispered.
"What... Why would you do that?"
"I don't want her to get expelled."
You felt like you were unable to breathe or move anymore. Tears started to form in your eyes. You were right. Newt liked Leta. Newt liked Leta so much that he took the blame for her.
"But you want to get expelled yourself?" You whispered more to yourself.
"Y/n..." He started.
But you couldn't hear him. You quickly stared to walk away. You didn't want Newt to see you cry.
"Y/n... Will you come to the platform, please?" Newt pleaded as he walked after you.
But you were to fast. You left Newt alone in the hallway. You made your way to the Ravenclaw Tower. That's when you finally let all of your sadness to pour out of you. Why would he do that? Why would Newt get himself in so much trouble for her?
Newt's P.O.V.
I watched as the person I cared the most about walked away in tears. But what else could I have done? A few tears escaped my eyes but I quickly wiped them away and stared making my way to my dorm room. I probably should start packing.
When I walked into the Hufflepuff Common Room it went silent and all eyes were on me. I quickly made my way toward my dorm, placed my trunk on the bed that was mine for almost five years and stared packing. As I did so tears were rolling down my face as I kept thinking about this beautiful place and Y/n's face full of sadness.
When I finished packing I almost ran out of the castle to say goodbye to Pickett. I thought of offering him to come with me.
Your P.O.V.
You have spent all day at the Ravenclaw Tower crying your eyes out. You have skipped lunch and dinner. Newt's train will leave after dinner and dinner will finish in a few minutes so you stood up and made your way to your dorm to grab your coat. When you did you stared making your way out of the castle, head hanging low. You looked at your necklace. It was a present from Newt on your sixteenth birthday. Even though he stopped spending time with you, he did not forget about your birthday. It was a long silver necklace with an enchanted feather of a Hippogriff. It was covered in metal. It meant so much to you. You rubbed the enchanted feather between your thumb and index finger as you made your way to the platform.
When you reached the platform the train was already there. Newt and professor Dumbledore were standing near one of the cabins. But there was no sight of Leta. You quietly stood there admiring Newt's features. His soft ginger-brown curls that were covering almost half of his face. His golden-greenish-bluish eyes. The countless amount of the most adorable freckles. His smile. His dimples.
Then Newt noticed you. Professor Dumbledore as well. You looked down and approached them.
"I thought you wouldn't come." Newt said smiling sadly.
"How could I miss this?"
"I'm sorry."
"It is not your fault." You said as a tear escaped from your eye.
You quickly wiped it away.
Suddenly you heard the train honk. You both let out a sigh. But then something happened that you did not expect. Newt hugged you. He hugged you like his life depended on it. You blushed very hard. After a few moments your arms slowly wrapped around him. It has been years since you had your last hug and you did not want to let go. You just wanted to stay like this forever.
"Newt, it is time." Dumbledore said softly.
You and Newt parted. You watched as the two shaked their hands. Newt looked back at you. A tear rolled down his face and he didn't even bother to wipe it away. Newt sighed.
"I should get going." He said.
At that moment you wanted to say so much but you did not know what to say. It was like you forgot every word.
"I will miss you." Was all you managed to say.
Newt looked down and sadly smiled clearly blinking away some tears.
"I will miss you too."
A tear rolled down your face when you heard him say these words and you didn't bother to wipe it away either.
"Goodbye, Y/n." Newt said.
It broke your heart to hear this from him. And it broke your heart to respond.
"Goodbye, Newt." You said with cracking voice as more tears escaped from your eyes.
"Goodbye, professor."
"Goodbye, Newt." Professor said sadly.
Newt sniffed and nodded his head slightly. Then he turned around and stepped into the train. A few seconds later he appeared in the window. He sat down on one side of the cabin. You raised your hand and waved slightly. Newt waived back. The train slowly took off. You followed it until the end of platform. You followed it until you couldn't see Newt's face anymore.
You stood there until the train disappeared from the view. Tears just couldn't stop falling. You felt professor Dumbledore's hand pat your shoulder.
"I'm so sorry." He said.
I just couldn't hold it back anymore.
"Excuse me." You said and quickly headed off the platform and toward the forest.
When you were far enough you stared crying and sobbing hysterically. After walking for some time you leaned on the tree because you felt like you were choking from all the crying. You slowly slid down and sat on the ground with your head in your knees.
Newt's P.O.V.
When I sat down by the window in the train I looked out of it and saw Y/n and professor Dumbledore. I looked at Y/n. She was waving at me so I waved back. I could tell that she was holding back a huge amount of tears and sobs. I was in the same condition.
I looked at Y/n's face. I wanted to remember every single of her features. Her soft y/h/l y/h/c hair that framed her face perfectly. Her mesmerising y/e/c eyes that were now filled with tears. She was just so beautiful. The most beautiful. It broke me to see her in this state. She was in this state because of me.
The train slowly started moving. Y/n started following it. She followed it until the end of platform.
When I couldn't see her anymore, when I knew that she couldn't see me anymore I broke down. I have never cried so hard in my life. Tears were pouring out of my eyes as my whole body was shaking from sobbing. I curled in my seat and put my face into my hands.
Pickett slowly crawled out of the pocket in my coat. He looked sad. Then I remembered that Y/n named Pickett. It just made me cry harder.
Why did I decide to distance myself from her in the first place. Why couldn't I just tell her that I like her?
My head was filled with questions that I did not have the answers to.
Would we ever meet again? And if we will, would she want to see me?