Lisa's POV
I wipe my tears as I take one bite of my chocolate bar. For three consecutive days of being absent in school, I didn't do anything here in our house but to cry and cry and cry all they long then eat.
"Ms. Seo come here!" I call for my personal maid and right on a cue, she quickly responded on me.
"What can I do for you, young master?" Ms.Seo hastily asked.
"Can you get me another ice cream and chocolate bars in our refrigerator?" I commanded to her.
"Ok young master!" She bowed then immediately follow my order.
"Oops wait!" Ms. Seo quickly turn her head to me, waiting for the continuation of what I've said "Can you also get me some soju bottles? Plss?" I look at her with a puppy eyes. I hope this will work.
"Sorry young master but your not allowed to drink any alcoholic beverages. Your parents is the one who tell me that so I'm sorry I can't do your order" she bowed to me once again then quickly leave me.
I was left disappointed in my room. I just realized that everything I want in my life is I can't get. First to Taehyung then next to Jennie. Even Soju that I really want I can't have it. Why destiny is so bad with me?
Three days already passed but I still can't move on from what happened in the Gymnasium. Well, who wouldn't? This is my first time to get rejected and the worst part here, Jennie did it infront of many people. I look so dumb and hurt at the same time. I didn't know it will turn like this and I don't have any ideas that Jennie will act like that towards me. Did she hate me that much?
It feels like curse whenever I fall in love to someone. I always get broken and ended up being hurt.
Sometimes it comes to my mind if I would just be a nun or decided to climb in the mountains and join as a Monk. Well, I'm just being open for possibilities here since it was like destiny is giving me a clue to just stay single or maybe it was really my destiny to be on myself and serve our God.
I eat the remaining ice cream in the container while crying in despair. I already consume the two boxes of our ice cream and this time it will be the third one. I can't stop myself from eating too much sweets right now. This is the only way I can do to ease the pain I'm feeling and I don't fucking care if my figure will be ruined if I continue this habit.
My appearance is such a waste right now if Jennie will never appreciate and accept me. So, I don't care about myself anymore.
"If you will just imprisoned yourself in your room all day long, Jennie will never be yours even in your wildest dreams" I hastily look to the direction where's this voice came from then I saw my Dad standing in the corner of my room while crossing his arms.
"I know" I bitterly said. "I already know that, Dad"
"So you're already giving up to her?" there's a tone of despising in my Dad while saying it. "It's just like that? After all the difficulties you fight just to get well and be with her. You're already giving up? It's just like that?" My dad continuously mocking me.
From the moment I heard that, the memories when I'm so closed to death started to flashback in my mind.
I remember the time when I didn't fulfill my promise to Jennie. That time I already thought it was my end, that I'll be going to face death but I was wrong because there's a kind person who help and brought me in the hospital immediately.
I'm not alive right now if he didn't saw me that time so I'm very thankful for him. Too sad, I'm not given a chance to meet him but if ever destiny let us meet again, I won't hesitate to give all my thanks to him for saving my life.
After that incident, mom and dad immediately decided for me to underwent a life-saving brain operation in America. Me and my family quickly flight in this country even though it's not 100% sure if I will wake up after this surgery since it is too risky for me but my parents don't hesitate anymore to try this just to save my life.
Luckily, the operation was successful and the brain tumor is already removed so I'm proud to tell you guys that I'm 100% healthy right now. My parents is already giving up that time but miracle works so here I am still alive and kicking.
It will never happened if it is not because of Jennie who strengthens me to fight this disease. She's my inspiration in the times I'm already giving up. She's really the reason why I choose to continue my life but what I will going to do right now if my life doesn't want to be my life anymore?
"I can't do anything about it."
"Jennie already tell she doesn't want me" I said while sobbing so hard as I take one bite on my chocolate bar again but I suddenly choked because unfortunately, it halts on my throat.
"Water plss!" I said while sweating so hard. Dad immediately give me the water and I quickly take and drink it.
When I finally get recovered, I cry so hard like a crying baby again. Who wouldn't cry? I almost die because of that fucking chocolate. I swear to myself, I won't eat chocolate bars again.
"Haysst my daughter really grew up right now" he said while tapping my back. "I remember when you're still young, you're just crying if you didn't get the toy you want but right now is really different" he paused for a bit. "You're crying now because of a girl"
I quickly stop from crying and give him a glare because of that. I know it's real but he doesn't need to mention it to me anymore. That's pretty embarrassing for me whenever I heard it. It's not that I'm shy because I fell inlove to a girl but it was just I'm not used with it.
"Dad plss stop that!" I said in annoyance.
"Why would I? I'm just telling the truth here" he said innocently.
I rolled my eyes to him as a response. Since our talk is just a pure non sense thingy, I just focus myself in eating my ice cream and didn't mind him.
"But just an advice Lisa if I we're you, I won't stop pursuing the girl I love. I won't give up until I didn't get her yes" he said seriously.
"If you don't want to see her with someone else. Make a move right now" he added then after saying that he already leaves me.
I was left thinking deeply about what he said. I started asking myself about the possibilities if Jennie would end up be with someone else.
See Jennie with someone else? Hmmmm it's kinda ok with me! As long as she was happy with that person I won't interfere in her life anymore.
Seeing her with a smile on her lips even though I'm not the reason will always be fine with me. After all, I always consider her happiness.
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Fuck! Forget what I've said I'm just lying!!! I don't want to see her with someone else. I'm the only one who's allow to hold her hand, hug her tightly and kiss her nons stop until her lips get sore in the future. I know I didn't have any right to claim her as mine but it's final she's only for me. It always going to be me and no one will ever do that to her, only me.
I'm the only one who's allow to love her!!!
I really want to kill myself from not attending our school for three days. What if there is someone who is also courting my Jennie? The three consecutive days of me being absent will be a great advantage to that person to pursue my Jennie. I'm just wasting my time here from eating but why I didn't realize this idea that early. Arrgh! Lisa you're so dumb!
I immediately go down stairs and started to look for Mr. Choi, my personal driver. I shouldn't waste time. Three days is already enough to waste such a long time for nothing. Dad was right. I should make a move now to pursue her.
"Where's Mr.Choi?" I asked one from our drivers.
"I'm sorry young master but Mr. Choi is not here. If you needed a personal driver right now I'm free. Where do you want to go?" He answered.
Well, that's a good idea. Thanks God you sensed it, I mentally replied.
"Take me to St. Mary's Academy. I have something important stuff to do there so plss drive quickly" I quickly ordered him as I hop in my car. The driver started the engine then after this we headed our way in my destination.
Just wait for me Jennie!!!
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A/N: A very short update! I got busy from watching K-dramas so I ended up forget about updating it.
I know this chapter is not that good and too short but I will try updating a new chapter tomorrow if I have a time hehe!
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