"We didn't come this far for nothing. At least I didn't" he carefully answered watching me stand up and turn towards the first aid kit
I picked up a few things and then turned to look at his bruised face. I placed the soft cotton on his lip bruise and he backed away immediately hissing
"Am I gonna make it?" I mumbled feeling the tears starting to dwell again
He gulped standing up straight again. His two hands warming up my exposed cold waist. He didn't say anything but his silence told me a lot of things
I moved towards the rashes on his chin and he took a deep breath "I'm sorry for not being there to protect you.. I'm sorry that I was a bit late.. I shouldn't.." he stopped gathering his thoughts "I should've never let him touch you"
I gulped and nodded "I'm sorry for the petty fight.. if it wasn't for it, nothing would've happen" I mumbled moving down to the bruises on his neck
"I love you Haeju. I meant it when I said you won't get rid of me now. I will fight for us and I know we will make it. Together"
I nodded letting a single tear escape. His hand came up to my belly. After rubbing it a couple of times he quickly leaned down kissing my lips.
It was a short kiss since his air got caught on his throat as soon as his bruise started stinging. But he didn't back off. He leaned in again softly moving our lips in sync.
He squeezed my hips against him and then pulled us back towards the bedroom "You're freezing"
I took a deep breath and he pulled away his shirt in front of me, followed by his pants and socks
"Jackson, the last thing I w-"
"I want to cuddle with you.. to warm you up.. can you let me do it?"
My eyes jumped between his. All I read was sincerity so I instantly agreed not particularly feeling excited anymore. The idea of the other man wanting to do exactly that and even more with me completely turned my stomach
It was hard to remember that in front of me was Jackson and not some stranger. His face was permanently screenshoted in my face
Jackson pulled me to the bed and I laid against him on his chest. The warmness of his body working along with the duvet to warm my own. He truly made me feel loved as he caressed my body. Petting my head, kissing my head.. drawing circles on my skin..
Everything without any word.. he was just there for me. Heating me up and holding me. And without knowing he was doing exactly what I needed him to do at the moment
I woke up the next day. The sun was already out again and the room was being lit by its rays coming from the window. I felt so warm agains Jackson's skin. He had his arm on my shoulder but I had clearly moved during my sleep. I scooted a little closer to him and snuggled closing my eyes and taking a deep breath.
I wanted to stay with him like this. Forget about the worries I had in the back of my mind screaming and shouting at my heart.
I felt a soft but long kiss on the top of my head and then a few more
When I looked up he had a rather surprised expression "Oh, you're awake?" He asked making my heart melt
I gave him a smile and nodded before kissing his chest and laying my head back on top of it. It was really in moments like these when I fell more for him. Suddenly the images of last night creeped back into my mind and Jackson must've felt me tense up.
"I love you" he mumbled as he started rubbing ny skin.
I burried my face deeper onto his bare skin closing my eyes, fighting away the big urge of just bawing my eyes out.
For the next days Jackson insisted I went to see a psychologist about what happened and so I eventually caved in. He was so damn annoying and persistent, literally reminding me off it every second
I asked him to keep it all between us which was hard considering he had a huge cut on his lip but eventually he went with the excuse that he had fallen at the apartment, thus damaging his million dollar face
Fan theories started spreading about him being involved in a fight, but the most disgusting part was logging on Twitter and seeing that people made a conspiracy theory about him being in a abusive relationship with his so called girl. Obviously, Haeju became a name thrown around a lot and people started speculating and getting even more interested in me
But in reality, to them, any girl that hung out with him was Haeju now.
Jackson and JYP still didn't spoke about the issue making fans mad and suddenly, what I feared the most became a reality.. Jackson's image started to get ugly
The worst part of it all was seeing him prettend everything was fine. Him coming home exhausted and discouraged but hiding it all from me. It only made me feel worse.
It didn't affect GOT7's japanese comeback as much but it did affect the release of his new solo single which completely shattered my heart.
One night, I decided to call Director Park Jinyoung personally. I explained to him about my concerns and my ideas and he seemed suportive. We came to an agreement and so it was a matter of waiting
Next day, I was afraid Jackson could feel the nerves through me so I tried to avoid being around him too much. He had practice all day which made it easier for me, but at night was the worst part since he was really whiny and needy, calling me all the time to leave my computer, which I was using to simply gain time, and give him cuddles
And that's when it happened, my phone rang signaling a text had just been received and I gulped reading the green light in Park Jinyoung's words
I grabbed my phone with both my hands and took in a deep breath before coming inside the bedroom where Jackson was spread across the bed watching TV. He lift up his head and smiled
"You're done? Finally! I was at the point of standing up" he chuckled making me smile and sit on the bed. I looked at the bed side table and picked up his phone quickly before laying next to him. He kept eating his dehydrated apple and so, I put my plan in practice
"Kim Haeju 💕"
I put another photo showing us both smiling utilizing the instagram swipe feature and looked one last time before pressing post
I put down the phone in my chest and took a deep breath closing my eyes
"Haeju?.. what's wrong?" He asked
I immediately started crying so he must've entered in panic mode, instantly sitting up, even letting his snack fall from the bed
"Baby, what's wrong? Wha-"
"Just hug me and tell me you'll love me no matter what" I sobbed making him instantly cover my small frame with his bulky arms
"What's wrong? What did you do? Come on babe, everything will be fine"
"I'm so scared Jackson.. I'm so scared I'm not godd enough.. I don't even wanna see it.. I'm scared"
"Hey.. shh calm down baby.. what are you scared of?" He mumbled kissing the side of my head
His phone started vibrating between us and so did mine. We both pulled away but instead of picking up his phone he insisted in looking at me and wiping away my tears. I moved my face away still sobbing
I picked up my phone and saw that it was Yoona calling me. I turned it off along with the entire devince and put it back on the table before scooting towards the headboard of the bed hugging my legs, trying to calm myself down from the anxiety I felt in my system
Jackson tugged my ankle and pulled me towards him forcefully making me look at him. He was looking at his phone. It was vibrating non stop so he probably turned it off not letting go of my ankle
He looked up after throwing his phone on the mattress and my heart stopped afraid of what he was going to say.. he obviously already saw what I did. I could tell
"Please don't be too mad.. I had to do it alone.. I had to be the one doing it.. I'm sorry.. please don't leave me" I blurt out in one giant cry
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Sorry for taking so long but I had a huge dance show to attend and I was super busy with rehearsals and injuries and just life in general 😂😂😂 thank you for your patience and I hope you enjoyed this chapter! 💕💕