This chapter is about when Bea found Jho's letter.
Bea found the letter wayback three months ago. That time when she's always chasing Jho... pursuing her in order to remember her, you know what I mean.
One day she woke up at her dorm sa Eliazo and found that letter. Later that night she had a confontation with Jho including Nico (please check chapter nine for reference)
She went home and drink until she's numb. Let me tell you that she has a high tolerance on alcohol. She managed to call Deanna, and the later joined her but on a few drinks only.
She's crying and crying and you will feel her pain. How badly hurt she is. It's already 2 am when she stops drinking. Deanna fell asleep and she let her. She sneaked her bag and pack some clothes. She's going for a trip she said.
She sleep for about three hours. Three hours na sapat na sa kanya, ginising niya si Deanna. At first Deanna was hesitant to let her drive but she's already sober with matching puffy eyes. From her house they went to Eliazo to dropped Deanna. Deanna asked where she was going but she smiled and said, she'll be fine so Deanna won't have to worry.
She went home and took a bath. Bought everything she needs. Went to grocery and silently put her bags inside her car.
Umalis siya ng tanghaling tapat. Bumili siya muna ng lunch niya sa drive thru. Hindi man lang siya nag-abala na mag-iwan ng letter sa parents niya.
She started driving. It's a 5 hour drive because traffic. Later on for five hours nakarating na din siya sa happy place niya.
Because she need it the most right now.
Bea went to Quezon Province.
Off from social media.
Off from school.
Off from volleyball.
Off from the reality.
Bea already bought a house for her...self also. A graduation gift she would say. It's already finish before the accident.
A gift that would say she will build a family within it.
She's so exhausted that's why when she entered the house. Natulog na agad siya. Kasi she has all the time for herself.
D a y O n e
She had a great sleep. Opened her eyes with the radiant sun peeking through her windows. You'll hear roosters being the alarm clock of the town. She had a peaceful sleep she would say.
She got her phone and as she was expecting, there a lot of phone calls and texts.
Jia: Where are you?
Jia: why are you not answering?
Jia: im worried na bei, nasan ka pls tell me
Alyssa: Baby Besh san ka? Di ka daw umuwi sa inyo kagabi. We're worried please be safe. Weloveyou!
Denisse: Beiii where are u doe? Tita det called us. Come home na bei.
Ella: Hoy ineng nasan ka? Uwi ka na beh di na ko galit.
Ella: im serious tho
Deanna: Heyy! Ate Bei, u r home na ba? Thanks for the ride. Take care love you and always here for you
Deanna: it's very unusual that u wont reply to me huh i miss u alredi pls reply huhu
Deanna: ate bei wer r u, tita det called us. im panicking here u said u'll be fine
Maki: Wer r u? U know wer to find us when you need me and cel.
Maki: gurll nasan ka reply reply din
Cel: beshibop where are you? you did not sleep at your house daw.
Jia: please answer my call bei
Jia: im dying here waiting for your text... and call
Jia: hey you haven't texted. should we be alarmed.
"Arghh what kind of morning." Bea
She turned off her phone for her peace of mind. Nobody knows where her house is. Cause it was supposed to be a surprise. She didn't manage to look at her phone and left it where it should be.
She got up from her bed and did her morning routine. She woke up late, that's why she decided to make a breakfast for herself.
Bacon and eggs ~ all time favorite for breakfast and a cup coffee.
The house is a bit dusty and semi furnished. It's a three storey house with a rooftop on the third floor. Pang-chill night with friends she said. With four rooms plus 2 big guest room. It's their dream house and she made it happen.
She started to clean the house to divert her attention from the reality she is facing.
She finished by lunch and felt her growling tummy. She took a bath and drove to the nearest restaurant.
Hoping that no one knows her. She only wear a plain shirt with blue jeans and wear a cap.. and shades. Typical Beadel.
She entered the restaurant and luckily, siya lang ang customer. She took her seat right beside a window in the corner of the restaurant to avoid eye contact.
A waitress approached her,
"What's your order ma'am?" Waitress
"I would like to have a beef caldereta and two cups of rice.." Bea
"Okay na po ma'am?" Waitress
"And uhhh available ba sansrival cake niyo? Also a glass of iced tea. Thank you." Bea
"Yes available po ma'am, would you like to have a slice?" Waitress
"Yes please. Thank you." Bea
Her order came and eat it up not minding other people's business.
She later went home to read a book.
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Days has passed it's been a week. And there are still no sign of Beadel showing up at the blue eagle gym, the eliazo even in her own home.
Jia has been restless trying to find Bea even her parents but the police are useless. All of her teammates are aware that she is missing, but only one is unaware of what is happening.
"Hey guys no practice for today as per the management. There's a lead and they are trying to go for it. We were advised to stay put and be alert and try to call her." Alyssa
"In case na icontact niya kayo. Please tell us right away please." Jia
She let her tears stream down her face.
"Ate Ells, anong problema? May practice ba? Sorry late ako nagdate pa kami ni Nico kasi." Jho
Hindi naman siya sinagot ni Ella at nilingon lamang. Pawang nakikinig pa kana Alyssa and she's pretty mad with Jho ngayon. Hindi naman sa sinisisi niya si Jho. But this kind of thing should have been prevented. Bea doesn't deserve this.
"Ah walang practice sabi ng management Ate Jho" Deanna
binigyan niya naman ito ng tipid na ngiti. Jho wasn't aware that her erased-somewhere-in-her-memory lover slash bestfriend is missing for a week already.
"Bakit wala?" Jho
"Ah emergency" Deanna
"Emergency saan?" Jho
"Uhmm." Deanna
"You don't need to know pa Jhoana, just go back to your boyfriend kasi wala namang practice na." Jia
Nagpantig naman ang tenga ni Jhoana sa tono nang pananalita ni Jia.
"Ano bang problema mo sakin Jia?" Jho
"You really wanna know? What's the point Jho, mukhang wala ka namang pake." Jia
"Ano ba talagang problema mo? Si Bea ba, sayong sayo na siya Jia!" Jho
Mas nag-init naman ang dugo ni Jia sa mga binitawang salita ni Jho.
"Guys! You need to calm down!" Alyssa
"Calm down Ate Ly? I can be calm but not with that kind of attitude that I can't deal with. Cause of delay ng practice dahil sa pakikipagdate and she's not even fucking aware! Looks like she doesn't care at all." Jia
"Jia words" Ella
"Oh wow! The miss perfect setter! Ikaw na lagi ang on time Miss Morado. If this about last week with Bea sobrang childish and ang babaw ng rason mo." Jho
"Sa tingin mo mababaw lang yon? Sabagay kung para sayo mababaw kasi wala ka talagang pake. Hindi mo nga alam pinag-uusapan ng team dahil lagi kang wala at late. Lol" Jia
Their argument has heated the athmosphere sa BEG. Buti na lang na sila lang ang tao ngayon.
"Edi kung sinasabi mo para aware ako. Hindi yung nagyayabang ka diyan at puro satsat!" Jho
"What a waste of time! Fine you wanna know? Bea-" Jia
"She doesn't need to know Ju, aaksayahin mo lang ang laway at oras mo diyan." Ella
"Pati ba naman ikaw Ate Ella?" Jho
"Don't start with me Jho. Let's go na Jia, nasasayang lang lalo oras natin dito. Ly dismiss na please." Ella
"Ah ganon, tapos sasabihan niyo akong walang pake. Unbelievable!" Jho
"You know what Jho, I've had enough of this attitude. Hindi na ikaw yung kilala naming Jhoana since Nico okay? Kung may pake ka talaga napansin mo na agad yon unang araw pa lang! Right? Did you know that Bea is missing for a week now and you don't even care. You only cared for your pathetic boyfriend. We don't even know where the hell she is. Is she even alive or fucking dead... shit! God knows how scared all of us pero ikaw itong walang pake at well mas pinili pa ang boyfriend niya whom she have known for what week? Sabagay who are we to judge diba? So sorry Jho kung naabala namin oras mo and date mo kasi kinancel ng management para hanapin namin si Bea. Now you can go with your boyfriend now. Bye!" Ella
Jho was left dumbfounded of what she heard. Iniwan siya ng buong team dahil kailangan pa nilang hanapin si Bea. Sure Ella was in a lot of fire and binuhos niya kay Jho. Even though she loves Jho, she sure knows when to fire her friend because she had enough.
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Bea has been enjoying her vacation slash hiding to the reality for a week now.
She met a lot of locals and lovely neighborhood including Tatay Ranie, Nanay Neci and Thea.
She's been hanging out with this family.
Si Thea ang sumasama sa kanya kung saan man niya gustong pumunta at gumala. She's been eating breakfast, lunch and dinner with the three. Thea is only a 10 year old kid, grand daughter of the two old couple.
Nung minsang araw ay sumama si Bea kay Tatay Ranie upang magpaturo magsaka at magtanim tanim. She took photos, might as well put a photobook out of it. Nung minsan pa ay sinama siya nito sa pagawaan nang lambanog and Bea said that it is the best alak na natikman niya.
On the other hand, kay Nanay Neci naman siya natututong magluto at mamili nang tamang papalengkehin na isda, karne at gulay.
And I would say na she really freshed her mind and forget what the thing she needs to forget, partially.
At last, she opened her phone and there's a lot of message. Kulang na lang maging isang libo ito. She composed a message to her family.
"Hi! I'm still alive, I know you are all worried but please don't tell it to my team. I just need to be alone right now. I'll be back soon, don't try to search for me. I love you."
Later on she received a message from her dad
"Just be safe my princess, if this is what you want. We love you okay? Always remember that."
She let a tear escaped from her eyes. She really is a daddy's girl.
She turned off her phone and went to Thea's house.
"Hi Ate Isabel! Kain na tayo dinner na!" Thea
"Saktong sakto dating mo, maghugas ka na ng kamay don at kakain na tayo." Nanay Neci
"Ay salamat po talaga! The best talaga kayo hihi!" Bea
"Blessing ka samin Isabel." Nanay Neci
Kumain naman sila nang mapayapa.
"Ay iha, hanggang kailan mo ba balak dito manirahan?" Tatay Ranie
"Ah di pa po ako nakakapagdesisyon tatay eh, bakit po?" Bea
"Ah wala naman, sa paparating kasi na biyernes ay kapistahan nang ating barangay. Kaya manatili ka muna dito hanggang piyesta. Paniguradong magugustuhan mo iyon." Tatay Ranie
"Oo nga Ate Isabel! May kakampe na ako sa mga palaro." Thea
"Sige ba! Basta kelangan nating manalo ah!" Bea
Bea is happy right now having this simple family beside her.
After eating, she cleaned the dishes, she loves doing it daw eh. Later on she bid her goodbye and bumalik sa bahay niya. Because she's still not finish reading a book. She get it and read it for a while. Unconsciously nakatulog na lang si Bea dahil sa pagbabasa.
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There's a tension between the team.
Jho is out of place with the girls, they didn't mean to but they are currently hurt with the situation. They cared for the both of them but the other one is missing and still no lead.
They were inside the blue eagle gym.
No one is speaking.
Their silence can kill a person.
About Jhoana, she cried after knowing the Bea is missing for a week and she didn't know about it. She knows that the reason Bea was missing is because of that confrontation between them.
To break the silence, Coach Tai huddle the girls and let out an announcement.
"I know you guys are tired finding Bea and we are also. The management advise that we will have a rest until there's a legitimate lead with Bea's case for a week. And I think that there's a commotion inside this team. Alyssa and Denise, the two of you are a leader better fix these it might affect our games. Dismiss" Coach Tai
Buti na lamang at bakasyon pa kaya hindi mahigpit si Coach Tai sa nangyayari ngayon.
"Girls you heard Coach, we better resolve this. Bea wouldn't be happy if she sees us like this." Dennise
Jhoana tried to approach Ella but the latter just dodge her and left the gym.
"Maybe just give her some time to breathe Jho." Alyssa
"I'm sorry Jia if I was insensitive. I'm sorry." Jho
Nginitian siya ni Jia and nagsorry din sa nangyari away nila. Nagyakapan naman sila.
"I think we are all okay here, let's have lunch my treat." Alyssa
"wow!" team
"babe tawagan mo si Ella sabihin mo lunch tayo." Alyssa
Den tried to call Ella but to her surprise. Ella doesn't want to come.
"I guess she's really need some time alone too." Dennise
Umalis naman na ang team and nagpunta sa UPTC para maglunch.
They were inside a restaurant in UPTC when Jia saw Maki and Cel with friends.
"Hey Maki! Hey Cel!" Jia
"Hey Jia! May balita na ba?" Maiki
"Wala pa din eh. Sa inyo ba?" Jia
"Wala din eh." Cel
"Uhm Jia meet Bianca and Tina, they are Bea's friend also" Maki
"Hi Bianca, Hi Tina!" Jia
"Anyway Bianca is not yet aware so we better go take our seat to tell her and update na lang tayo okay?" Maki
"Okay, bye guys" Jia
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Maki Cel
"Napakabiglaan nang hangout na to ah.. Nasan pala si Bei?" Bianca
"About that, that's why we need to talk to you." Maki
"About what?" Bianca
"Just promise us na you won't scream! Okay?" Cel
"hopefully okay what is it? Spill!" Bianca
"Go ahead Tina." Maki
"About Beadel, she's missing for a week now." Tina
"WHAT?!" Bianca
She screamed inside the restaurant, not minding the attention she will get including the volleyball team.
"I told you not to scream!" Cel
"How can I not scream? My bestfriend is missing for a week now and ngayon ko lang nalaman?" Bianca
"Because Tita Det told us so...not to tell anyone, ayaw nilang magcause ng panic and ayaw din nilang ipaalam sa public for Bea's own safety." Maki
"Eh bakit ba nawawala yan si Bea, tell me the reason para naman updated ako." Bianca while rolling her eyes.
"I think you know naman situation nila ni Jho, right? Having a new boyfriend... it's about that. Ate Ella told me that Jho and Bea had a big fight, the night before she went missing. We think she's really hurt of what happened." Cel
"That Bitch! Who would not? You and your love got into accident, later when you woke up your lover has a new lover then she doesn't remember your lovestory pa. Tas epal pa yung boyfriend, that's really a burden for Bea." Bianca
"Anyway let's eat, we will find Bea afterwards." Tina
"May lead na ba?" Bianca
"The only lead we have is Bea inside a convenience store sa gasoline station in Marikina. That's the only thing we had right after wala. We can't even track her phone." Maki
"Ohhhh" Bianca
They finished their food and they were about to leave the restaurant. When Biance saw Jhoana.
"Not a good time to be a savior Bianca, hold your shit and calm your ass." Cel
Bianca let it pass and throw a dagger look to Jhoana.
On the other hand, Jhoana saw it and it made her heart ache. She know Bianca is one of Bea's close friend. And maybe she thought, she's being accused right now of what is happening.
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Bea went for a morning jog to her favorite restaurant in town. She got her phone, wallet and keys.
For about one hour jog... she's almost there.
She went first to the bathroom. To freshen up herself. Ordered a Sinigang na Salmon and rice.
There are no customers yet, because it's very early.
She sitted at the corner right beside a window, to avoid attention. While Bea's mind pretty occupied, she didn't see a new customer came in.
Earphones on, volume up.
Someone sitted in front of her but she didn't notice it.
"what a pain in the ass".....
"excuse me hello! notice me senpai"....
a person waved at Beatriz causing her to flinch
"WHAT THE HELL" Bea
She was shocked of who she saw in front of her.
"You are not very good at hiding. Sobrang burden at sakit mo sa ulo ah."....
"Who told you to come here in the first place" Bea
"Galit ka na agad? Layo ng byinahe ko ah! You are causing panic and dilemma, you know?" ....
"Stop, why are you here?" Bea
"To tell you Miss Isabel Beatriz, I know you made your dreamhouse or I would say dream house niyo ni Jhoana. I guess you forgot that you told it to me. Hehehehe! And sorry late na ako nakapunta...one week ka na pala nawawala and ngayon lang ako nagkapake so I had to run all the way from you know my house to here." .....
"Okay thank you, you can go now." Bea
" why are you being so cold hearted to me huh? " ......
"I just want to be alone. If they knew you are missing din, it will cause more panic." Bea
"But I want to stay here with you, kahit one night lang. Isipin mo naman yung pagod ko sa pagdridrive." .......
"Tas isisisi mo sakin yan... sana di ko na lang sinabi sayo tong lugar na to para walang nangungulit sakin. Hays fine you can stay, just one night! And don't you dare tell them or you'll lose me for good." Bea
"Easy woman! I'll keep my mouth shut! Mwahh libre mo ako ah." .....
Bea thought to have a good company right now. ........ is a friend, isa sa pinagkakatiwalaan niya at nag-iisang pinagsabihan niya ng mga plano niya. Just like what she told to her na when she went missing.. Bea would always be in Quezon.
They happily ate their meal together and drove to her house.
"Bakla! Infairness ganda nang napagawa mong bahay ah! Ako na lang jowain mo...may bahay ka na pala." ......
"Tigilan mo ko .....! Pahinga ka kaya muna para matigil yang bibig mo." Bea
"Sungit neto! Kala mo red alert!" .....
"Surri! Go take a rest or shower or whatever, ilibot kita dito after lunch." Bea
Inirapan lamang siya ni Bianca at pumasok ng guest room.
Natawa naman si Bea sa inasta ng kaibigan at pumunta ng kwarto niya para magshower.
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Later that night, when the ocean breeze is embracing them. Napagdesisyonan nila na tumambay doon.
"Why are you here Bei?".....
"You know why I'm here. You always knew." Bea
"I know that you are here whenever you are sad or had a fight with Jho. But I think there's more than the fight." .....
"She wants me to let go..." Bea
"Ano yon? Di kita narinig"....
"She wants me to let go" Bea
"Let go of what?" ....
"Let go of her...because she can't return the love that I'm offering to her. Dahil hindi ako si Nico, and hinding hindi ako magiging si Nico." Bea
"Bei, I'm so sorry..." ....
"No it's not your fault, you don't need to say sorry. Actually kasalanan ko naman lahat eh, kung hindi ko sana kami umalis ng bahay di naman kami maaksidente eh. Hindi sana ako yung nandito na nagmumukmok at nalulungkot dahil hindi ko siya kasama. I should have been more careful you know? But wala eh, plano ata talaga ni Lord." Bea
"Siz let me hug you. You'll be okay soon, nandito lang ako. Just tell me what you need." ....
"Sometimes I wish I was selfish as everyone else. You know so I could keep her and grab her away from Nico. But we both know, it's not what she needs. I'm not what she needs. And we both know that it will be never me." Bea
"Iyak mo lang yan... ito beer oh! Papatugtugin ko Malibu Nights ah para damang dama mo siz." .....
"I really hate your ass! Panira ka ng moment." Bea
"Ikaw na nga tong tinutulungan eh. Pero siz anong plano mo?" ....
"I'll be staying here until saturday. Fiesta kasi bukas. Then I'll face them and really I will try to let her go. Kasi yun yung gusto niya, yun yung kasiyahan niya. Remember kung saan siya masaya, susuportahan ko siya." Bea
"Even hindi na ikaw ang dahilan?"....
"Always, I love Jhoana so much that I wish, I have something to remove her in my mind you know? So I could move on." Bea
"You really want that?" .....
"Partly yes, ang sakit sakit na eh. But ayoko rin naman mabura yung mga memories namin." Bea
"You know hindi ako sanay sa gantong side mo. Better fix yourself when we go back." ....
"Anong we? Nakikisama ka na naman! Babalik ka na tomorrow morning!" Bea
"KJ mo! Kakasabi mo lang fiesta bukas dito eh. Makikichibog ako siz wag kang epal!" ....
"Ikaw tong epal na pumunta dito eh." Bea
"Mag-aaway na naman ba tayo Bea? Lalasingin na lang kita para maging Paul Jason Klein ka mamaya diyan sa dagat!" .....
"Epal ka talaga! Gusto na lang kitang lunudin ngayon as in ngayon." Bea
"Ito naman pinapasaya lang kita...aminin gusto mo din maging Paul Jason Klein." ....
"Mas gwapo ako don." Bea
"Wow kapal, maniniwala sana ako kaso di ako si Jhoana kaya better luck next time Isabel.".....
"Hayop ka talaga! Lubayan mo nga muna ako." Bea
"Fine! Emote emote ka lang dito siz ah. Don't lunod yourself that's bawal! " .....
"Pinanganak ka siguro talaga maging epal. Bye! Maglalakad lakad muna ako." Bea
"Feeling Malibu Nights! Wag mag feeling! Enjoy yourself! Magfifiesta pa tayo bukas!" ....
Iniwan naman na siya ni Bea. At naglakad nang naglakad. Tamang pagmumuni lang sa dagat.
Kumuha siya ng bato. At itinapon niya ito sabay sigaw.
"I love you Jhoana Maraguinot! I always will but I'm letting you go now!" Bea
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After Fiesta ng Barangay, nag-impake naman na si Bea ng mga gamit niya kasi aalis na din sila. Kinabukasan.
Nagpunta muna siya sa bahay ni Nanay Neci upang magpaalam.
"Nay Neci magandang gabi!" Bea
"Oh Isabel! Magandang gabi din, nag-enjoy ba naman kayo ng kasintahan mo?" Nanay Neci
"Ay hindi po siya yung girlfriend ko. Nandito po ako para magpaalam. Paalis na po kasi ako bukas. Babalik na po akong Manila." Bea
"Ah ganun ba. Eh mag-iingat ka dun ah. " Nanay Neci
"Gusto ko rin po sanang iwan sa inyo ni Tatay Ranie yung bahay ko habang wala po ako." Bea
"Makakaasa ka saming aalagan namin yang pinakamamahal mong bahay iha" Tatay Ranie
"Ate Isabel, aalis ka na? Iiwan mo na kami?" Thea
"Hi baby! Sorry kelangan nang umalis ni Ate Isabel, madami nang naghahanap sakin at may pasok pa ako. Kaya sana pagbalik ko dito mabait ka pa din ah. At saka pala ito oh gift ko sayo sa pagsama mo sakin." Bea
"Hala ate Isabel ang ganda ganda nito. Salamat po! Love you ate isabel." Thea
"At ito nga po pala kauting regalo ko din sainyo saka konting tulong." Bea
"Ay nag-abala ka pa. Maraming salamat pero di namin matatanggap yang pera." Nanay Neci
"Hindi Nay, tulong ko na po sa pagkupkop niyo sa akin ng ilang araw." Bea
"Bukal sa puso ka naming tinulungan. Itabi mo na lang yan at ibigay sa mas nakakarapat." Tatay Ranie
"Sige po kung di niyo matatanggap. Maraming maraming salamat po talaga." Bea
"Walang anuman Isabel, mag-iingat ka doon ah. At sana nahanap mo yung kapayapaan na hinahanap ng puso at utak mo." Tatay Ranie
"Salamat po, babalik na po ako don dahil paalis na din kami mamayang umaga." Bea
"Sige mag-iingat Isabel, salamat sa mga regalo mo." Nanay Neci
Niyakap naman ni Bea ang pamilyang ito.
"Nanay! Hatid ko lang si Ate Isabel sa kanila ha? Babalik din ako." Thea
"Mag-ingat ka!" Nanay Neci
Sinabayan naman ni Thea si Bea na maglakad.
"Ate Isabel, sana okay ka na at di ka na muling naiyak sa pagtulog mo. Sana nahanap mo yung kasiyahan mo dito at yung kapayapaan ng puso mo. Tandaan mo na nandito lang kami lagi nina Nanay at Tatay para sayo. Ha? Mag-iingat ka doon. Mahal ka namin!" Thea
"Oo naman Thea, I will be happy soon okay? Babalik din ako dito. Abangan mo yan ha?" Bea
Niyakap niya naman ang bata at bago pa man sila maghiwalay ay
"Ate Isabel, sana maging masaya ka sa pagbitaw sa kanya." Thea
At kumaripas ng takbo pabalik ng bahay nila. Napakamot na lang ng ulo si Bea sa narinig ng bata.
"Sana nga maging masaya." Bea
Nagpahinga naman na siya para sa pagbyahe niya mamaya.
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