"When I close my eyes
All I think about is you
All I think about is"
-PRETTYMUCH
Status: unedited
I woke up to the crisp fresh air breezing across my face, I groaned snuggling my face further into Grayson's neck, smiling when I heard him snore softly.
I had my arm draped across Grayson's bare abdomen, his arm wrapped around my waist, keeping me flush against his side.
Unfortunately, being out in a forest in the morning means chirping birds and singing crickets, which would usually be somewhat relaxing but when all I wanted to do was sleep on my boyfriend's chest, I'd rather be in pure silence.
When I realised there was no way I could fall asleep, my eyes fluttered open, squinting at the immediate brightness that I wasn't used to.
I smiled as soon as I saw the flower field in the distance and the once lit, now dulled candles surrounding the bed, the silk sheets draped across Grayson and I's bare bodies.
I looked up at him, smiling even wider when I saw his peaceful, sleeping face. I don't know how it's possible to look so perfect whilst sleeping, I snore, my mouth is wide open, and I drool like a dog after staring at a treat for five minutes.
I felt different.
I mean of course I do, I just lost my virginity. I felt bad for not feeling guilty, guilty about just giving a part of myself to my brother's best friend, my last part of my innocence. But I didn't, I didn't feel an ounce of guilt, or maybe I just taught myself to bury it deep down after spending so much time with Grayson. I more so felt guilty for not feeling guilty.
Call me heartless or selfish, but Grayson is one of those things that are completely and utterly wrong, yet so right at the same time. One of those things you have to decide whether it's worth the risk, and worth the sacrifice.
In this case, he definitely was.
Whether Caleb approves or not, whether Avery bullies me or Taylor say's I'm stupid and inconsiderate, it won't change my mind.
I'll admit, I'm scared. I'm extremely fearful. I know my brother, he's embarrassed of me, he hates me sitting at his table and he hates driving me to school, overall, he hates being seen with me because I'm weird and clumsy, but he's still overprotective. Whose brother isn't?
If he caught me so much as sitting next to Grayson, I think he'd lock me in my room.
I wish he was understanding and somewhat careless, but he isn't. That's just him. I know when I tell Caleb about me and Grayson, he isn't going to be happy and I'm completely dreading it.
Taylor's supportive, if anything she'll only be annoyed, I didn't tell her sooner, but now we're official I think I can tell her, I just have to make sure she keeps her mouth shut until Grayson and I decide to tell Caleb.
"Gracie?" I smiled, hearing Grayson's raspy morning voice.
I looked at him, watching as he forced his eyes open, squinting at the light much like I did, before he sat up slightly.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"When're we telling Caleb about us?" I asked, biting my lip nervously, "Because you said we'd tell him when we know this is something we want, we're dating Grayson, I don't know about you, but I want this more than anything."
He smiled widely, his hand sliding up my back, making me shiver.
"I think I showed you damn well how much I want this last night," he smirked.
I blushed, glaring at him, even though he's right.
"Grayson," I scowled, "I'm serious!"
He chuckled, resting his head back on the pillow.
"I'm serious too, baby. I can show you how serious I am, if you want." He licked his lips, his hand running down my back to grab my butt.
I slapped it off, narrowing my eyes at him.
"Fine!" he laughed, wrapping his arm back around my waist, "We'll tell him soon, his birthday is coming up then prom isn't long afterwards, so we'll tell him before prom so I can take you."
My eyes widened, I completely forgot about prom, that's so soon, only a few weeks away before we graduate.
"Okay," I said simply.
"C'mere," he said.
I smiled, crawling onto his lap so I was straddling him, my naked body completely on show for his eyes only.
"Fuck," he groaned, placing his hands on my waist, "So fucking beautiful."
I blushed, trying to cover myself but he wouldn't let me, he couldn't remove his eyes from my body.
After that, we cuddled for a while, talking and laughing, trying to put off having to go back home, back to reality.
But unfortunately, we had too, I haven't checked my phone last night and I can only imagine the various texts Caleb would have spammed my phone with. So, we got up, putting our clothes back on before I folded all the blankets and deflated the bed whilst Grayson neatly packed all the food we didn't eat back in the basket, placing the candles in there too.
We grabbed everything, me dragging the now airless mattress behind me as we walked through the forest, it's probably got several holes in it now.
He threw it in the boot of his car before hopping in and getting the car on the road.
I couldn't help but pout as we got further and further away from the clearing.
I wish I could pause time so we could stay there forever, but unfortunately, life doesn't work that way.
An hour of driving later, and I was finally home, Grayson made sure to park a few houses down just in case Caleb saw, he wouldn't be too impressed that his sister goes missing for a night and gets dropped off the next day by his best friend.
I smiled, leaning over to place a small kiss on Grayson's lips before grabbing my work back and jumping out the car, watching as he drove off before walking a few seconds up the street, arriving at my house.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion when I saw Taylor's rusty blue car in the driveway, why the hell is she here?
I narrowed my eyes at nothing in particular, as I entered the front door, feeling a sense of déjà vu as I saw Taylor and Caleb both asleep on opposite ends of the couch, drool coming out of both of their mouths.
What a sight.
"Taylor?"
She jolted off the couch, tumbling onto the floor as she heard my voice, causing Caleb to wake up.
She mumbled some inaudible curse words before pulling herself up off the floor, Caleb was sleepy and disorientated before he realised, I was here, when we pulled himself off the couch standing next to Taylor, both of them folding their arms as they glared at me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, eyeing them both suspiciously.
Taylor glared at me, "Well, your stupid brother called me over because he was worried you didn't come home from work which made me worried, so we decided to take turns at staying up in case you came back home,"
I laughed, "Great job, you were both asleep so how did that work out for you?"
Taylor turned to Caleb before smacking him in the chest, "You were on watch last!"
He screwed his face up, "Was not!" he exclaimed, "You were,"
She shook her head, "Nah-uh," she huffed, "I remember that you were because you were eating really loudly well I was trying to sleep."
Caleb's eyes widened, "Well, I think I should go—" he said pulling his phone out of his back pocket, "—Hi, mom!" he said, running up the stairs.
Well at least I don't have to worry about him wondering where I was, he has the attention span of a goldfish.
"I don't mean to sound rude, but—" she paused, "—He doesn't have a mom."
I giggled, "I know."
I turned on my heel, dying to go upstairs and have a hot steamy shower, the area between my legs was aching severely, it felt like I had been stabbed straight between the legs (sorry for the disturbing image) and I was trying extremely hard not to limp.
I hopped up the stairs, Taylor following behind me until I was in my room.
I walked into the bathroom, throwing my bag on the floor before tearing my jumper and leggings off my body before turning the tap on and hoping in the warm shower, the hot water easing my tense achy bones.
I yanked the hair tie out of my hair before wetting it and squeezing some shampoo into the palm of my hand before rubbing it in my hair, washing it out then repeating the same steps with the conditioner.
Lastly, I brushed my teeth and scrubbed my body with my vanilla scented body wash. I know a lot of people aren't too fond of vanilla scented things but personally I could only smell vanilla for the rest of my life and be happy.
I finally got out of the shower, turning the tap off before wrapping a towel around my body, exiting the bathroom to see Taylor laying flat on my bed, tapping away on her phone.
"Face the other way," I told her, she rolled onto her belly, facing the opposite direction.
I dropped my towel, quickly putting on my underwear and a baggy shirt, it's a no bra type of day.
I ran over to the bed, belly flopping down next to her, watching her phone as she played some weird game.
After she finished a few levels, she switched her phone off, tossing it on the floor before turning to me with a suspicious smirk.
"So," she giggled, "Why're you so happy?"
Oh god, I was waiting for this.
I rolled my eyes, "I'm not." I murmured.
"You're glowing, like literally," she said, "Like Edward Cullen glowing, did you lose your—oh my god—"
I cut her off, quickly slapping my hand over her mouth.
"Shush!" I whisper-shouted.
She removed my hand from her mouth, sitting up before squealing excitedly.
"Tell me everything,"
I laughed before telling her everything, maybe I shouldn't have or maybe I should've but regardless I did, she's my best friend I couldn't help myself.
I told her how Grayson and I have been taking things relatively slow, going out a lot before he surprised me last night by asking me out then we did the deed, that part was slightly awkward, but I don't think Taylor felt the same.
"Oh my gosh!" she squealed, "Was he big?"
I cringed, "I'm not telling you," I exclaimed, staring at her like she had just committed a crime.
"Oh, come on," she whined, "It's the least you could do for keeping this from me for so long,"
I glared at her, "God, you're a pain in the butt," she grinned, "Yes, okay, that's all I'm going to say."
She squealed once again, I covered my ears, wincing, god that girl really has a voice in her.
"Shut the hell up!" Caleb shouted from his room.
Taylor glared at the wall, "You!"
"I wasn't saying anything!" Caleb yelled back.
"You just did!" Taylor exclaimed, smirking proudly when Caleb groaned loudly, turning his TV up.
She turned her attention back to me, engulfing me in a large, extremely tight hug.
"I'm so happy for you,"
I raised an eyebrow, "Really?"
She nodded, "Yes! I thought you were going to be single forever and stay here with your brother with fifty dogs in your back yard."
I smiled, sarcastically, "Well, thanks."
She rolled her eyes, as if what she just said wasn't offensive what so ever.
"No but seriously, I can tell he makes you happy. I've known for a long time there was something between you two for a long time."
I stared at her nervously, biting my lip, "You don't think it's wrong?"
She shook her head, "Definitely not, if you really like each other and you make each other happy, it's already more right then wrong."
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