Her hands were shaking. She then started fidgeting with her fingers. She breathed in deep. She could feel her heart beating loudly, faster than it usually does.
What have I done? Why didn't you trust him more? These were what was going through her mind over and over. She felt even guiltier.
Have I accused him of things he never did? She bit her bottom lip. She wanted to slap herself right then and there.
When they got home from Japan 3 days ago, she wanted to write on her little diary about how much she missed him and how much she regretted what she did but she couldn't find it until the next day.
What she did a few days back was unforgiveable. It shouldn't have turned out like that. If only she had trusted him more.
She had read his entry on her diary a day after they got home from their activities in Japan. She wasn't really sure how he was able to do it but she couldn't care less.
She had just read everything he wrote. Now, she knew the truth. He had expressed all his sentiments in that one entry and got all the answers to all her questions.
She breathed in deep once more. She needed courage. She'll see him again tonight.
Tonight will happen the first award ceremony of the year. Of course, her group and his group were both invited.
"You can do it," she smiled to her side. It was Chaeyoung. She couldn't be anymore thankful to have Chaeyoung as a friend and all her other members who were there to support her and guide her.
She smiled and nodded at the girl.
Dugeun. Dugeun. Dugeun. Her heart went pit a pat when his group were called on stage. It was as if her heart was yelling for him. Good thing she was just behind her group members or she would've ran to him already and hugged him in front of all the people and cameras at the event.
She glanced at him when his group bowed to the audience. She couldn't help but smile, remembering everything he had written on her diary.
How could this amazing guy have all these feeling for her? Her heart skipped a beat at that thought.
Eotteoke? What do I do? She asked herself while staring at him passing by in front of her group and all the artists present. She knew she must do something sooner or later to answer him.
The event went on smoothly. Her group was able to pull off their stage well. But she felt like time went by too fast, she wasn't even given the chance to approach him or was she just scared?
The second day of the award ceremony arrived. More artists were invited this time. She also promised herself to approach him this time around or even just greet him. She shouldn't chicken out.
Her group had entered the stage first before his group again. She found his group's entrance really cute as Taehyung piggyback Yoongi. This time, they were closer to each other too as there was only one group in between them.
She couldn't help but look at him by her side. How have you been? She wanted to ask him questions as she had missed him too much already.
But how was she going to do it? She was secretly hoping he would look to the side and return her glances at him. She pouted for a second when he didn't.
Then a smile grew on her face when he finally did but that smile vanished when he immediately looked front again. She mentally reminded herself that there were in public now so maybe that was the reason why he did that.
She breathed in and out. She looked to the side and pouted. A few minutes from now her group was going to perform. She wanted him to see it but he wasn't in his seat, his members were there but he wasn't.
She was still able to give her all during their performance. She felt his presence when they were at the middle of their performance already. Then, her smile grew and she was more inspired to sing and dance.
That night, his group won the grandest award. He was given the chance to deliver the gratitude speech too which made her smile. He would usually avoid to speak but it was nice to see him talk.
The event ended well. As usual, all artists gathered on stage at the end. There, she wanted to fulfill the promise she made earlier that day.
"Unnie," she whispered to Mina. All her members knew about her troubles and what they were going through.
"Kaja!" the older girl then grabbed her hand and dragged her out of their dressing room.
Her heart wouldn't stop from beating madly as she took more steps closer to his group's dressing room.
Mina managed to knock on the door, something she thought she wouldn't be able to do so.
Her heart skipped when the door opened and it revealed his smiling face.
"Jungkook~ssi, take care of uri Tzuyu," she heard Mina whispered to Jungkook. He scratched the back of his nape, as if feeling shy. She bit her bottom lip. She found him really adorable.
"Annyeong," he said, raising a hand and waving it to her. She managed to bow in front of him. She should be saying something but it felt like she couldn't utter any word. She swore it was one of the most awkward moments in her life.
They were sharing gazes at each other. His stares felt warm, which made her feel more comfortable. He beamed at her. She then slowly returned the smile to him.
She saw him look around, she did the same. Good thing there were no one around. What he did next surprised her, almost giving her a heart attack. He gave her a peck on the forehead which lasted for a few seconds. She had always loved it whenever he does that.
"Don't worry, I'll wait for your answer," she felt sincerity in his words. He then gave her a wholehearted smile. She nodded at him and gave her warmest smile.
Another week had passed and they were again invited into a big awards ceremony. She was feeling happy the whole time as his group were seated in a table next to her group's.
He would glance at her from time to time which she would answer too. There was even a time when they just caught each other's eyes at the same time. She would just giggle inwardly, feeling giddy.
Her brows knitted as she watched him after his group's performance. Something isn't right. He doesn't look right. Worry was starting to take over her.
His group received a total of three awards that night including the grandest award. She felt the proudest looking at him and his group receive those awards.
His group were expected to perform the encore but she could clearly see that he wasn't well. She bit her bottom lip, concern for him filling up her system.
All artists gathered on stage after the award ceremony for the pictorial. He wasn't too far from her. She could see how weak he looked and how he was masking how he felt.
He and his group had been working too hard lately to the point when they just outdo themselves. It wasn't right.
After the event, she just wanted to see him and look after him.
"Oppa, gwenchana?" she asked.
"Neh," the guy answered.
"Aniya, you're clearly not," Mina retorted. Jimin's one arm was around Mina's shoulders while Mina's arms were around Jimin's waist trying to support Jimin's weight.
"I really am," Jimin expressed, giving Mina his signature eye smile, trying to assure his girlfriend.
"It's him who isn't," Jimin stated. She knew very well who he was talking about. She was about to ask something.
"He's on the way to the dorm with one of the managers," Jimin answered her unsaid question. She nodded at his statement.
"Tzuyu~yah, you can ask one of the managers to take you to their dorm," Mina suggested. Their managers knew about the two group's relationships. Their company's do actually, as long as they could lie low and no scandal would spread.
She hurried her way out and asked one of her group's managers to take her to his group's dorm. She was seated at the back seat, fingers fidgeting at the thought of him in pain. She couldn't explain how nervous she was.
She knew their dorm's password even when it gets changed almost every week for security purposes so she didn't have any hard time opening the door.
She smirked as she remembered that there was a time when their dorm passwords were her group members' birthdates. Her birthdate became their password for two weeks, the maximum a password lasts for his group's dorm.
She turned the lights on and walked silently to his room which was situated at the first floor, at the end of the hallway.
She knocked twice but there was no sound. This made her even more nervous. She opened the door lightly only to see him seated on his bed, staring blankly on to space.
She scoffed which cut his train of thoughts and made him look to the door.
Even when he was in pain, he still managed to smile at her. She smiled at him too. He stretched one arm, offering his hand. She walked inside his room, closed the door and took his hand. He made her sit beside him.
She looked at him. "Don't worry, I'm fine now that you're here," he managed to say. Even when he wasn't feeling well, he could still be cheesy.
"Do you want to lie down and get some rest?" she asked. He nodded.
She positioned herself on his bed, resting her back on the head part of the bed. He laid down and placed his head on her lap.
She beamed, looking down at him. "Don't give that smile to other guys," he warned. She furrowed her brows.
"Even when that guy is one of my friends, ani, all the more if that guy is one of my same aged friends," he continued. Now, she got what he meant. This was about her and one of the 97-liner idols during the biannual sports event.
"Neh, yakseok," she couldn't believe that he could still be possessive even when he was not feeling well. Still, she smiled at him as she like him being like this. She offered her pinky finger which he took and both made a pinky promise.
He intertwined their fingers and placed their hands on his chest. She could feel his heartbeat which she knew was only beating for her.
"The diary," she started.
"Neh, I already knew about it. I discovered it on the day I visited you in your dorm when you were not feeling well," he informed. She nodded.
"How did you get it?" she asked again. He smirked.
"I begged Chaeyoung for it. She almost killed me when I asked for her help," he chuckled. "She gave it to me before you left for Japan and I gave it to her on the day you arrived from Japan," he continued.
Now, it made sense to her. That was why she couldn't find it when she wanted to write on it when they got home from Japan. She owe Chaeyoung a thousand times now after discovering this.
She was caressing his hair with her free hand, something that only she was given the chance to. This would usually make him fall asleep.
Even if night and day passes, even if time passes
Remember that I will always be by your side
I eagerly waited for it
We will meet someday
You and I, you and I, you and I
Like a dream I don't want to wake from
After dark
If you look at the sky
Like that moon in the daytime
You and I, you and I, you and I
I will always be by your side
I'll be there
She sang a bit of her favorite track from their latest album, hoping this would help him fall asleep faster. She then hummed the song while caressing his hair.
"Saranghae," she was taken aback. It was just random. He had opened his eyes, looking at her. He had never said that one word to her, hearing him say that at that moment felt surreal for her.
"Saranghae," he repeated. She could feel the butterflies in her stomach was let loose. Her heart was pounding too fast, it felt like it would come out from her chest.
He got up from lying down and sat beside her. He cupped her cheeks with both his hands.
"Mianhae for making you wait all this time. I just wanted to make sure I was doing everything perfectly which obviously didn't turn out right. Mianhae for letting doubt build up in your heart," she placed her thumb on his lips while cupping his face with the same hand.
"Nado," she saw how his eyes widened at what she had said. "Nado saranghae," she said again clearly.
He closed their gap and both shared a chaste but warm kiss. It felt like fireworks exploded everywhere and her heart was floating on midair.
She had got home blissful and ecstatic. It didn't feel like their manager had took her during the wee hours of the morning as she was feeling over the moon.
She opened their dorm. It was pretty dark, maybe the members were still all sleeping.
She turned the lights on only to find flower petals on the floor. She bit her lower lip, feeling excited at the thought of him doing this for her.
The flower petals formed a pathway. She followed it. She saw how the lights turned on as she reached the living room of their dorm.
A smile grew on her face as she saw a huge teddy bear mascot in the middle of the room. It was the same mascot he had worn during one of their older Japanese music videos. She walked closer to it. It knelt down with one knee as she had approached it. It offered her a bouquet of flowers which she took.
"Will you, my angel, my goddess, Chou Tzuyu, officially be my girlfriend?"
Finally! She thought. She grabbed the teddy bear's head and took it to reveal his beaming face. She grabbed one his hands to make him stand up.
"Neh, I will officially be your girlfriend," she answered while nodding at him.
Her heart jumped as he scooped her. He was now carrying her bridal style. She managed to wrap her arms around his neck.
"Saranghae," he told her.
"Nado saranghae," she replied.
He closed their gap once more and they shared a romantic kiss. It was different from the first one. This time it was more passionate.
Now, she wouldn't need to wait after moon...
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Some scenes were inspired from the GDA's, ISAC and SMA's. Hope BTS & TWICE gets to rest even in between schedules. So worried about Jungkook. #getwellsoonJungkook
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AN: This is a work of fiction, based solely from the author's delusional mind. Please do leave a comment and tell me what you think. Rightful credits to the owners of the media used in this story.