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This is Derek😌 that Tik Tok Guy
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Jessie
I haven't slept in days and when I do I sleep during the day and stay up all not and I've gone to school less
Like once or twice a week I would go to school, X has kept me under his arm ever since I've had that incident, everywhere he went I went, and the only times he wasn't with me when I wasn't at school.
I could tell he didn't really want too lose me.
"Hey mom" I said into the phone, I haven't seen her in awhile and shit has gone insane
"Hey sweetheart how have you been?" She looked so miserable behind bars. "Things have gone .. insane. Did you ever catch someone doing something behind your back?" She sighed and smiled
"One time your father kicked me out the car, and ditched me. But I made a friend along the way, but I caught him later that day at a strip club." I just smiled cause I thought she was lying
"I'm not lying, I shot up the place and took his ass in the car, along with ski. Bottom line; I know how it feels like to be betrayed" she smiled at me
"Whatever is going on I'm sure you'll be fine in the end" she smiled at me as I put my hand on the glass and she done the same with hers
"Also, I have a court day coming up, and their seeing if they're still going to hold me against bail"
"mom that so wonderful! What's the date" she sighed scratching her head
"I know it's two months from now," she said.
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"I'm home!" I closed the door behind me as X approached me
"You got a letter from that Derek faggot" by this time he already knew what happened between me and Derek and he won't allow another boy in my room or in his house again without his approval.
I took the letter and sat it on my desk with the 6 other letters he sent me. I blocked him on all social media except iMessage, I love seeing his messages on my phone with him knowing I'm not going to respond and his caller ID pop up and he knows I'm going to decline that shit.
He wants Marley so bad, bitch he can have her, I will never sleep on a fuck nigga, and I will never eat with a fuck nigga.
And Marley. That bitch ALWAYSS runs from me when shit about to go down, and I love it when they run
At the end of they day I might shed a few tears but, I'm still that bitch
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I opened my laptop and and I got my song book as I started writing songs. I don't really write songs for myself anymore they're never going to get produced so I write songs for my dad instead we both have the same problems and we relate a lot on being bipolar as hell.
I we were both actually working on a song called Train Food but it was more of him working on it then me since I just read over what he writes
"Tomorrow you have to go to school aight? They finna take me to court if you don't" X said handing me McDonald's. "I will"
I pulled out my food but my phone started to ring again and it was a incoming call from Derek again.
Let me throw this nigga a bone "Hello?" I picked up
"Hey baby, I'm sorry that you seen what happened and, I never meant to hurt you and I want to make t up too you-"
"First of all" I start "I'm not your 'baby' and you obviously wanted Marley and if you want her so bad, hell you can have her"
"But it's not like that, I want you! Like I want you I want you, I want you"
"You want to much," I admit
"Let me make it up to you"
"Let ME make THIS clear. Your bad planning should NEVER be my emergency, and let me keep it real. I did want you, but what after I seen you no good for me. Niggas like you be a let down and I just learned to get over it"
"Wait- Jess"
"Bye bye nigger" I hung up and put my phone on do not disturb
Of course I still want him, and I still miss him. But I'm NOT being with someone that betrays me again. Either you choose me or you lose me. PERIODT
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"Wake up! You might have to take a Uber if you don't get up!" I heard X say taking the covers off of me.
Why is he such a early bird "ITS ONLY 6" I say to him
"Watch your mouth, and I have a meeting with a big music company in an hour so I need to take you to school now." I rolled my eyes
"Alright Fine," I Said getting out of bed.
"Ou, SHE MaD?!" He teased I just smiled as he excited my room.
I done my daily routine, and put on a yellow long sleeve shirt with some Jordan sweatpants.
Pretend her room red ok?😔
I played with Titan before we left, and Titan was my baby he my realist 😌
Titan would never betray me, he my bestieee
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I put my stuff in my locker and tried to race through the crowd of kids before Robbie, Aliyah, Marley, and Derek would see me. They are He last mf I need in my life atm
I got to my first period and sit my stuff at a different desk I do not want to sit next to Derek.
After everyone came in, Derek couldn't keep his eyes off me everywhere I went, it's like he just wanted to know my every move.
He needs to calm down I'm only 15 I ain't goin no where.
"Everyone needs to get a paper or someone is passing them out" no one raised their hand to pass out the papers, so we all had to go up there and get one.
I felt arms wrap around my waist and I was suddenly being carried back to my old seat beside Derek
"Can you put me down please?"
"No" I didn't even try fighting. I'm so sick of fighting
He sat me down in my old chair beside him "look, I'm sorry for what happened. It won't happen again! I promise"
I sighed. Everything is cancer to my heart, he fake fucks with me just cause we get along doesn't mean we will be friends. "Can we please be friends again?" He asked me
"Maybe in another life time my friend" I fake smiled