- xxxtentacion
Jessie
"Time to go! Wake up if the sun rises then you do too!" I felt the cold air hit my skin making me shriek
"School starts at 8 it's 5 dad-"
"We going to the studio"
I rub my eyes "why so early?"
"Cause I'm bored now let's go" he walked out of my room and I yawned and started doing my Daily routine.
I put on some pink Shorts with a Pink short sleeve shirt, I seen Sora on the coffee table and I picked her up and got some cat food and put it in her bowl and sat her down.
"Are you ready?" I nodded, X was wearing his red sweatshirt with some black sweatpants.
"Why are we going to the studio?"
"Your going to help me record and make a few songs," I was confused "I cant do that I don't know anything about music" I protested
I heard him sigh while grabbing his keys "I heard your songs, and your just like me; Talented ass fuck" I laughed and just went with it.
•
"Alright so I have the song already I just need some fucking lyrics." He said aggressively "alright let me see .."
He turned it on as I put the headphones on and he has a nice beat we just need to figure out lyrics that can go with it, and the lyrics have to mean something.
I took my headphones off and asked him "what do you want the song to be about?"
" something that talks about providing for my family, my troubled past, and how I used to tell my mother that someday I would make it someday"
I started thinking about it, he has already told me so much about his past, and his powerful ass mind
" won't look back on my mind Won't let bad out my shine Wont let you cloud my mind " I said under my breathe I grabbed a pencil but I didn't have my song book I started rushing around looking for paper before I lost my train of thought
"What are you looking for-"
I grabbed some paper and ignored X and started to write the words down
Won't look back on my mind
Won't let bad out my shine
Won't let you cloud my mind
Won't let you cloud my mind ..
What the fuck rhymes with shine-
"Dad what rhymes with shine?"
"High?" He shrugged
All my days I was cryin,
All my lows, all my highs
Told my mom I'm gon' shine
Told my love I'm gon' shine
"Try this" I gave him the paper and he went to the booth and put on his headphones while I turned the song on
•
" Okay dad I think we're done" I said he excited the booth with a smile "I wanna hear the song"
"It's short" I shrug
"I'm literally going to make these songs like a minute so whatever" I click play and I watched as he nodded his head to the beat.
Won't look back on my mind
Won't let bad out my shine
Won't let you cloud my mind
Won't let you cloud my mind
All my days, I was cryin'
All my lows, all my highs
Told my Mom, "I'm gon' shine"
Told my love, "I'm gon'-"
I smiled at our creation, I was really fucking talented.
And I was like
Whoa-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh
X added those parts, and the song was quiet quick not even kidding this shit could be my ring tone
As the song faded out X clapped his hands proudly and smiled "damn"
This whole song took us 3 hours because we were arguing if we should have added more words or not, but he wanted almost all the songs to be like a minute on his new album.
"Alright well lets go home"
He turned off the lights as I shut the studio down and headed back to the car.
I felt my phone ring "hang on dad I'll be there in a second"
"Don't take too long" I was getting a incoming call from Derek
"Hello?"
"Hey how come you didn't come to school?"
"I was busy in the studio" I laughed awkwardly
"I see, like father like daughter huh?" I rolled my eyes
"Boy, I just came to help him with it, and I still not be coming" school wasn't over yet, but I lowkey don't want to go but I miss seeing Derek's face
"Alright send me a text if you do come and make my day better" he said, I knew what he was doing.
"I will, tyt loser" I hung up the phone and walked towards the car which X was already in.
"Do you want to go back to school?" I looked at the time and my period was already lunch "sure"
•
"I'll see you later! I love you stay positive!"
"I love you too!" I yelled back smiling as he drove off.
I walked in school and I put my stuff in my locker and then went to lunch.
I walked in seeing everyone else except Derek, I go to the storage closet and it was lock Like always so I picked the lock again and when it opened
I seen Derek was making out with Marley.. everyone I have, she has to have apparently, I thought me and Derek was more then friends too
"What the hell, Derek ..?" I was so tired of fighting everyone
"Jessie- it's not what it looks like I swear," he tried to grab my hand and I yanked it away and declined
"You have got to be kidding me Derek .." I said softly, I was so sick and tired of people using me and then throwing me away.
I wiped my tears away as I walked out of school and called a Uber home
I've sacrificed everything, and now I'm done
•
I grabbed the first pills I could find and I took the whole bottle as I cried.
I'm so tired of caring about everyone except myself, the last face I ever want to see is my dads
I go back into the living room and seen my dad smiling at his phone but it instantly fades when he sees me
And then he had a scared look on his face and next thing I knew he picked me up and took me to the bathroom.
Jahseh
I sat her on her knees as I put my finger down her throat making her barf causing everything to come back up.
Her pupils got bigger and I knew what that meant
"JESSIE NEVER EVER DI THAT AGAIN YOU HEAR ME?!" I Said as she cried "y-yes-"
"YOU'RE ALL I HAVE LEFT ABD YOU CANT GIVE UP ON ME NOW. ITS NOT FAIR" I started crying. I haven't had her for so long and she's my daughter the other half of me and the other half of her mother
I held her close as I hugged her "I'm so sorry" I told her quietly