Eleanor
I shrug on my maroon waterfall cardigan over the black dress with the cream peter pan collar that I had purchased earlier that week.
“You look stunning,” Dani comments
“Really?” I ask nervously, biting my lip glossed lip
She nods, grinning, “Absolutely mind blowingly beautiful,”
I smile, glancing in the mirror and scrunching up my curls,
“Did you miss him?” Dani asks me curiously
I nod, my face dropping a little, “I didn’t like not having him around,”
She smiles sympathetically, “I know, I know, but at least he was only gone for the weekend,”
I nod, picking up my cream knit bag and slinging it over my shoulder,,
“Okay, you ready?” I ask Dani as she stands up, nodding, revealing her bodycon black dress, designed beautifully with a gold bejewelled neckline,
“Indeed,” she grins, pushing her bag up on her shoulder and grinning widely.
I switch off the lights, letting Dani out the door before going out myself and locking the door. We walk down the road until we reach Louis house, number twenty five. I search through my keys, selecting the one that opens Louis’ house and walk in, letting Dani close the door,
“Hello?” I call out, walking in and dropping my bag on the couch. I see Liam trying to start a fire in the fireplace,
“Hiya,” I smile at him as Dani goes up and kisses his cheek,
“Hi love, Hi El,” Liam smiles, some coal streaked on his face
“Louis?” I questions
“Kitchen,” he nods
I smile in appreciation, “Thank you,”
I walk into the kitchen and see Louis wiping his hands on a towel, just finished cleaning the dishes. The sound of popcorn popping echoes throughout the room as I walk up to him and wrap my left arm around his torso; placing a small kiss on his neck. He turns around, a startled look on his face, before smiling when he sees me,
“I didn’t even hear you come in,” he laughs, kissing me gently, “I thought you were Liam, I got a bit freaked out,”
I laugh, shaking my head,
“Well the resemblance is quite uncanny but no, not quite,”
He wraps his arms around my hips, pulling me into him, kissing my forehead gently,
“I missed you so much,” I whisper, stroking his cheek carefully, feeling his gruff stumble beneath my fingertips,
“I missed you too,” he smiles, kissing me, “I have to tell you something,”
He bits his lip, nervously, frowning,
“What is it?” I question, suddenly becoming anxious, my body tensing under his hands.
The microwave dings, breaking the tension slightly. Louis sighs, walking over and taking it out, handing me a bowl and taking the other one in his hands,
“Louis?” I persist, my heart beating against my chest as I try and keep my inhales and exhales even
“It doesn’t matter El, okay?” he snaps back, pushing past me to get into the living room.
I frown, looking at the popcorn that spilt on the ground as he moved me out of the way. I sigh, putting the bowl on the table and picking up the loose popcorn with my left hand and throwing it in the bin before grabbing the salty snack and entering the living room, placing them on the table. I glance at Dani who is cuddled up to Liam as he searches through the movies, occasionally poking at the fire, making sure it stays alight. Louis is sitting on the two seater couch, his figure hunched ahead of his body, a frown covering his face. I go over and perch on the edge of the couch, glancing over at Louis who doesn’t as much as look in my direction. I remain silent, as Liam and Dani select a movie, putting it in the DVD player and starting it up, picking up two of the four popcorns and going over to sit on the love seat, cuddling into each other. I silently hand Louis one of the remaining bowls of popcorn. He takes it from me without looking.
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When the movie is finished, I collect the empty cups and bowls and bring them into the kitchen, running a sink of hot water and adding some Percil in. I begin washing up, not looking at who enters and exits the kitchen. Someone comes in and boils the kettle, remaining there as I finish the dishes.
“Do you want a cuppa?” Louis voice fills me ears.
I bit my lip, pausing slightly before shaking my head,
“No thank you,” I reply, emotionless
He sighs as I drain the sink and dry my hands with my left one, going to exit the room, before his voice stops me,
“I’m going away,” he sighs
“What?” I ask my eyes widening as I turn to face him. He runs his hand through his hair,
“I....I’m going away Eleanor,” He tells me, a look of distraught on his face
“You’re going away....” I repeat, staring at him, a million and one thoughts running through my head. I speak the first one that comes out
“Where?” I echo
“I’m going to London for a while, I’m not sure how long, maybe only for a week, maybe for two or three,”
“Why?”
“I went to an X-Factor audition, and I got through, I’m going forward to bootcamp,” he bits his lip nervously,
“That’s amazing Louis!” I grin, going in to hug him
He pushes me away,
“No Eleanor, you don’t get it!” he snaps
I step away. Hurt fills me as I feel my lip tremble,
“What? What don’t I get?” I ask, my voice trembling
“I am going away,” he says slowly, looking at my pointedly
“And?” I reply, just as pointedly
“I’m not going to be here, we aren’t going to see each other,”
“I can come up and visit you,” I say, confusion clear on my face
“Eleanor, only half of you fucking works! You’re disabled! I came round to you the other day to see you lying in a pool of your own fucking blood because you wanted to ‘feel’ so you stabbed yourself!” Louis explodes, shoving a hand in my direction
My mouth falls agape slightly as a lump arises in my throat. I feel tears well in my eyes as my bottom lip automatically juts out slightly. I try and hold back the tears in my throat but give up after a few seconds, letting them streak down my cheeks slowly. I nod gently, wiping away the salty water that is escaping my eyes
“Eleanor....” Louis whispers, his hand covering his mouth as his eyes glass over with tears, “Eleanor I didn’t mean...I didn’t...”
I nod my head gently, the tears flowing down my face,
“Fine, you’re absolutely right, I’m a messed up, disabled retard, who would want to be with me, no, you’re right,” I try and keep my voice steady as I walk out of the room, Louis on my heels, grabbing my bag and putting it over my shoulder,
“Eleanor! I didn’t think I’m sorry; I’m so, so, sorry, you know I didn’t mean it! I was just pissed off at myself not at you. I shouldn’t have....I’m sorry,” he begs
“What happened to ‘I love you so much’ and ‘Just because you have episodes and stuff, that doesn’t matter you’re still the same Eleanor I fell for’?!” I sob
He tries to wrap his arms around me, “I do love you Eleanor, with all my heart and soul and everything I posses in my being,”
I shake my head, “It’s over Louis,” I sob gently; opening the door and slamming it behind me, not caring that Dani and Liam saw our charade. The only thing I care about is the fact that the boy I love with all my heart, the one boy I thought would never hurt me, the one boy that was always there for me, that that one boy has just hurt me beyond my wildest dreams and grinded my heart into dust, throwing it down the toilet and flushing the contents to a sewer somewhere. I let a few sobs escape my lips and I cross my left around my shivering body, trudging home,
“Eleanor?” a voice calls
I look over and see Thomas, one of my best friends stopped in his car, peering out the window at me,
“What’s wrong?” he calls, swerving his car beside the path and getting out, walking towards me.
A few more sobs escape my lips as I walk up to him, throwing my arm around his torso, sobbing into his chest. His brows knit together in concern as his arms wrap around me, stroking my hair gently,
“It’s okay, ssh, ssh, it’s okay, what happened?” he leans back a little so he can see my face
“L-Louis” I sob
“What did he do now?” Thomas sighs, stroking my cheek gently, removing the tears. Thomas was one of the first people I told about Louis and I, and one of the only people I talked to about my MS and about how I felt about it and about the man at the cafe, we’ve been friends for years.
“W-we....” I try and steady my voice as more sobs escape my parted labiums, “We broke up,” I stutter
“El,” he mumbles, kissing my forehead gently, “I am so, so sorry,”
“H-he’s su-such a p-prick Thomas,” I sob
“What...what did he do?” Thomas questions
“H-he called me d-disabled and...and...and h-he s-said I w-was mes-messed up,” I whimper, trying to subdue my cries
“ELEANOR,” I hear Louis voice call down the street as footsteps echo down,
“Fucking asshole,” Thomas growls, wrapping his arms around me protectively,
“Thomas...?” Louis mumbles, confusion clear in his voice as he approaches us, “Eleanor, please babe, I’m sorry, please,”
“Hey, Louis?” Thomas beckons, removing himself from me and stepping towards Louis
“Mm?” Louis questions
“Eat shit,” Thomas growls, before slamming a fist into Louis face, sending him flying onto the grass; letting a scream escape my lips
“Son of a bitch,” Louis groans, clutching his face as he lays sprawled onto the grass.
A sob escapes my lips as I run up to him, kneeling down beside him, removing his hands from his bloody face, examining his nose, trying to stop the blood which is flowing out of it.
“Thomas!” I screech,
“He deserved it,” Thomas spits at Louis
“You broke his nose!” I sob, looking down at Louis beautiful injured face, a tear falling down my own nose
I take off my cardigan and try to block up Louis bloody nose, careful not to put pressure on his nose too much
“Take him to the hospital Thomas, please,” I beg him,
Thomas groans, “Fine,”
Louis looks up at me, trying to stroke my face gently with his hand before I slap it away,
“You are still a prick, injured or not,” I growl, helping him up and loading him into Thomas’ car before closing the door and watching Thomas slowly trudge to the car,
“Are you not coming?” Thomas asks
I shake my head, “I’m not the one who broke his fucking nose,”
“You’re his girlfriend,”
“Ex,” I correct him
“You’re still his friend thought aren’t you?”
I look at Louis, who is looking up at my pleadingly, hurt covering his face. Tears gleam in my eyes, my jaw set,
I shake my head, turning back to look at Thomas,
“No,” I say stonily, “No, I’m not,”
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Author's Note
Hiya Petals x
Soooo amazing amazing news okay okay okay wellll, my laptop broke like a year ago so since then I have been working off my dad's work laptop but there are days where he forgets to bring it home, and also he doesn't get home until 7, so that limits my time to write, buuuut, ages ago my mother gave her laptop to my nan okay, stay with me, and my nan got an ipad so she doesn't use the laptop sooo drum roll please, she gave it to me!! Which means updates will be all regular and they will be nice and long etc. Also, I am going on holidays for two weeks in october, (i know it's a while away but i wanted to give ye notice) so my wifi will be up and down, because I can only get the wifi in restaurants etc. but i will make sure i wirte up the chpaters before and update bcus aha u da petals okay yeah bye x
(update on angel later x)
Love ye petals,
Niamh x