Wow I can't believe it's been a year since you went up into heaven and became an Angel that we all been knew. I'm trying so hard not to cry I'm trying to stay strong I'm trying to keep my emotions in but sadly I'm slowly losing it I just wanna cry out I just wanna cry all of my emotions, frustrations out like my heart hurt so much that's it's crying out of pain. Why is it already 1 year? It's crazy how you're not here anymore! I just wish I was there to stop you even tho you don't know who I am. You may just know me as a fan which I am I just admire you and look up to you as a role model, an idol, an influence artist but also as a human being. I just wish I noticed all of the hints and signs that you were dropping telling us your cry out for help but yet I didn't see it all I saw was that bright diamond smile, beautiful personality and that golden pure heart. I just wish I could meet you, give you hugs, and tell you how much you mean to me and a lot of other people, how much of an impact and an influence you left on everybody. I just wish I can tell you how proud I am to call you my idol and how you did well but the only way I can tell you is in my thoughts and up to the shining star up in the sky that shine so bright. I love you so much, you're forever in my heart, on my mind and in my life. Kim Jonghyun you did well rest easy up in heaven my shining star and my guardian angel. I always thought to myself When I look up into the night sky and see a shining bright star that's just shining up in the night "Wow Jonghyun your shining hella bright every night boo. How is heaven up there? Are you doing okay as an Angel? I really do miss you, your family, friends, members and Shawols miss you so much but we all know including me that you are watching over us as our Guardian Angel that's gonna keep us safe and protect us" You is forever my baby, my world, my universe, my everything. Maybe one day I'll see you in heaven my shining star I love you forever and always. You did amazing and well Jonghyun. You may be gone but you will never be forgotten forever in our mind but always in our heart see you soon my Angel💞💞💞💞💞💞♥️♥️♥️❤️❤️❤️😭😭😭