I feel it grow closer to the birth of me...
The day the scared little girl came into the world and changed her family.
The abandonment; the fear..
All this showed up; rather clear.
Crumbled, I sink lower in my heart;
Love couldn't be the thing that shattered me and them apart.
I feel my heart sink;
But they were gone jn just one blink.
My birthday is just in a few days;
But I know I'll only shatter, break and cry in so many ways.
I'll forever feel so much alone.
When things are only soon to be harder....I should've known.
A tear will forever sink down my porcelain face;
As I wonder what i could've done to fix my crumbled place.
This is only fate, forever it will change.
I know things are soon to get harder...this is only strange.
My brother how he is getting older more and more as time goes by...
But i can't see or talk to him..I feel as though i'll die.
My birthday will never be the same...without him in my life...
It only feels like I was stabbed with a knife...
He means so much to me;
He's part of my family..
An without a sign to know he's great...
I knew this was life...this was fate.