Chou Tzuyu has been ignoring me.
And I swear I don't like it.
I hate it. I fucking hate it.
Argh! Why am I even bothered by her ignoring me? It's not like I did something wrong or anything but what the heck, I even feel guilty! The moment she got off on top of me that day and quickly went out of the room, I already felt the guilt and I don't even know why. Like dude, my friends just had to barge in and see us in that embarrassing position.
Aish, what's wrong with Chou Tzuyu? How could she ignore me, the one and only Minatozaki Sana? The girl who gets everyone's attention?
Someone snapped their fingers in front of me. "Oi, stop thinking about Chou Tzuyu and eat." I looked at the owner of the hand, and it was Nayeon, who was sitting in front of me.
I blinked. How the heck did she know that I was thinking about Chou Tzuyu?
She smirked. "So, that means I am right, then," she stated, causing our friends to laugh.
I friend confusion and started to munch on my sandwich. "I don't know what you're talking about," I denied. "Why would I think about Tzuyu?"
"Because," she started as she raised a finger. "She's been ignoring you."
"And," Jihyo, who was sitting beside Nayeon, butted in. "You've been like that since she started to ignore you," she pointed out.
Well, damn their detective skills then. I didn't even tell them that Chou Tzuyu was — and is still ignoring me.
I swallowed my food before looking at them. "I don't really know what you two are talking about," I denied for the second time. "I don't get why Tzuyu would ignore me?" I asked. And heck, honestly, I did that to get an answer. They might even know more about the situation than me.
"You probably pissed her off, unnie," Chaeyoung suddenly answered beside me. "What were you two doing before she went out of your room?" She curiously asked.
Dahyun, sitting beside Jihyo, coughed. "Having sex," she muttered, then coughed again.
I sent her a glare that says 'shut up or Momo won't have a girlfriend anymore'. Then shrugging, I truthfully answered, "Nothing, I was just making her admit that she likes me."
A snort came out of Nayeon's mouth. "So, what happened with the 'so guys, let's not pressure her, okay?'" She mocked, imitating what I said when I first met Chou Tzuyu.
My face burned in embarrassment as I cursed under my breath. "Shut up!" I hissed to lessen the embarrassment that I was feeling.
She suddenly burst out laughing, followed by Jihyo and Dahyun. My eyebrows twitched in annoyance. It suddenly made me wonder why the heck I'm friends with them.
"Unnie," Chaeyoung spoke as she lightly tapped on my shoulder. "I think you should ask Tzuyu first what's wrong, then apologize" she suggested.
My face scrunched up as I immediately disliked the idea. "As far as I know, I did not do anything wrong. So why would I apologize?" I raised an eyebrow.
She sighed. "Exactly why I told you to ask her first what's wrong," she said before shaking her head a bit.
Ah, right. Damn, this kid acts more matured than me. Then as I looked at my other friends, I can only just shake my head. I turned back to Chaeyoung and slowly nodded, but is still opposed to the idea. "I'll only apologize if she approaches me first, though," I told her.
"Yah! Listen to the kid!" Jihyo, who had just finished laughing with Nayeon and Dahyun, agreed with Chaeyoung.
"When will anyone know that I'm not a kid anymore?" Chaeyoung mumbled before sulking.
Dahyun snorted. "Probably when you start chasing after 'your penguin'," she emphasized, successfully making Chaeyoung's face red.
"What the fu—"
"Are you about to curse?" A cold voice spoke behind us, successfully cutting Chaeyoung off as she froze.
I noticed that Nayeon, Jihyo, and Dahyun also froze, so I turned around and damn. I froze as well.
What the fuck is with Mina's expression what the heck she's so scary what the absolute fudge made her look like that?!
You know how anime people look whenever they get pissed off or something? Yeah, that's exactly how Mina looks. It's like you could almost see the dark aura coming out of her. And her expressionless eyes? Damn. Poor Chaeyoungie.
Chaeyoung then seemed to snap out of it before turning around and facing Mina. "I was about to say fudge, but yeah, you just cut me off so..." She trailed off, slightly pouting.
I think I just saw Mina melt by that slight pouting that Chaeyoung did. The mood lightened as she cleared her throat. "Okay," she said before handing Chaeyoung the penguin plushie that they've been fighting over for what seems like a million years. "Take this, I got bored of it anyways."
Chaeyoung's expression suddenly turned into an annoyed one as she snatched the penguin plushie from Mina. "Got bored," she mumbled sadly as she looked at the plushie. Eh? Why was she suddenly sad?
"Oh, hey Mina!" Jeongyeon, along with Momo, suddenly appeared beside Mina.
I felt my eyebrow twitch when I didn't see a yoda. The heck. Where could that Chou Tzuyu be?
"You don't get bored on someone you truly like," Chaeyoung mumbled again. I guess only I heard her since Nayeon was already talking to Jeongyeon, Dahyun was engulfed in a hug by Momo, and Jihyo was face palming while shaking her head.
I looked back at Chaeyoung, who was still busy looking at the penguin plushie, then at Mina, who was busy looking at Chaeyoung with an unreadable expression. Oh, so these two have a problem. Damn.
This is why I don't do love.
I looked at the two again and sighed. Jihyo shared a look with me as she noticed what was happening with the two, then shook her head. Aish, so much for falling in love.
"Err, Mina and Chaeyoung, come with me." Jihyo stood up before pulling the two with her. And they didn't even protest.
I shrugged and was about to follow them, but stopped and thought about what Chaeyoung said. I'll find Chou Tzuyu then ask her what's wrong.
Argh, I can't believe I'm doing this!
I walked away from the couples who were busy flirting with each other. I rolled my eyes and sighed for the second time. I'm not gonna lie, I miss flirting with other girls.
But I miss Chou Tzuyu more.
Now I'm just talking nonsense. Fuck this.
I've been walking for about a moment now and still found no trace of the girl that's been running through my mind since the day that she walked out of my room. No need to guess who's the girl, y'all know it's Chou Tzuyu anyways.
"Hey, penny for your thoughts?" A voice spoke behind me. I quickly turned around and found out that it was Mark, the guy who actually stopped annoying me for a while.
My eyes widened and immediately went into a fighting stance. "Yah! Why are you here?!" I yelled at him.
He raised his hands up in the air and chuckled. "Geez, I'll cause no harm. I promise," he said as he smiled.
I slowly relaxed and nodded. I squinted my eyes and observed him. There's something new about him, but I can't figure it out yet. "Why are you here?" I asked again, calmer this time.
He ran a hand through his hair and chuckled again. "I just noticed that you've been walking for a while as if you were looking for someone," he answered.
I flinched. "Is that so," I replied. There's still something about him that I still can't figure out.
His expression then changed into a serious one. "Hey," he called.
I tensed as I started to get nervous. I swear, if he ever planned to do something bad to me, the whole Japan will swallow him. "What?" I answered with a hint of fear. Damn it.
"Chill," he spoke. He then scratched the back of his head and let out an uneasy smile. "I'm just here to tell you that—"
"That what?!" I cut him off. "Don't you dare do a single thing on me or—"
"I said chill, didn't I?" He also cut me off. Wow, can't believe he had the guts to do so. "I don't like you anymore."
My eyebrows shot up in surprise. Okay, that was definitely not what I was expecting. Cool, he doesn't like me anymore.
"You seemed surprised," he stated more that asked. He chuckled for the third time. "I knew you'd react that way. Do you want me to continue liking you?" He teased.
"No!" I answered almost immediately. "I mean—"
"That was kind of offending, but okay. I'll let it pass." He shrugged before grinning.
I slowly nodded. "Why are you telling me this, though?" I asked curiously. "Shouldn't you be keeping that to yourself?"
He let out a nervous smile. "Uhm, you see..." He trailed off.
I furrowed my eyebrows and stared at him intensely. He squirmed under my scrutinizing gaze. "What?" I raised an eyebrow.
"I just realized..." He trailed off again. Damn, this boy is getting on my nerves.
My eyebrows twitched. "Can you please stop trailing off and continue what you're saying? It's annoying!" I snapped.
He flinched. "I just realized that I'm gay, okay?!" He snapped back. "Oh shit, I'm sorry I didn't mean to—"
"Pardon?"
"What?"
"Can you please repeat what you've just said?" I slowly asked. Did I hear everything right?
He looked around to see if anyone was listening, luckily, there are none. Okay, so he's still in the closet. "I'm gay. You know, like you," he said. "The only difference is that you're a girl who likes girls while I—" He pointed at himself. "I am a man who likes a man," he explained as if it was my first time to learn about homosexuals.
He probably didn't know that I'm the one who spreads homosexuality the most.
I snorted. "Did you just call yourself a man?"
He glared at me. "What's that suppose to mean?" He's probably offended for real now.
I shook my head before staring at him. Wow, so what I thought was 'new' about him was just my gaydar telling me that he is gay. Cool. I cracked a smile. "So, since when?"
"I don't know, actually. Maybe it's when I started to 'like' you," he answered.
"Eh?" Was all that came out of my mouth. "So you mean, two years ago?!" I asked in shock.
He cupped the back of his neck as he nodded. "Maybe?" He answered unsurely before chuckling nervously.
"But—" I paused as I was still confused. Damn, why'd he go after me, though? "You already know that time that I'm gay, right?" I asked then he nodded. "Then why me? Why didn't you go after a straight girl?" I shot him questions to show my confusion. "That could've been much easier for you, you know," I pointed out.
He sighed. "I don't know," he answered truthfully. "Maybe I was really attracted to you that time." He then avoided my eyes.
My face scrunched up in disgust. "Ew, dude," I told him.
"Or you could actually just say that you're glad that my gayness overpowered the man in me," he retorted sarcastically. Then as if he remembered something, he suddenly covered his mouth.
He said those things loud.
"Yep, I'm actually glad."
He rolled his eyes before scoffing.
"Now you act like a girl," I stated, causing him to glare at me. I leaned in and whispered, "Who's the lucky guy?"
"Oh wait, before I forget, who were you looking for earlier?" He asked curiously, successfully changing the topic.
I cursed under my breath as I facepalmed. How could I forget about Chou Tzuyu? Argh!
I looked at him and an idea came into my mind. "I need your help," I told him.
His eyebrows raised. "For what?"
"Uhm," I started. "You know Chou Tzuyu?"
He grinned. "Of course. Who wouldn't know that name after what happened at the canteen," he mused. "She's savage as heck!" He exclaimed.
I smirked. That's my girl. Uhm wait no. "Yeah, that's her. Help me find her," I demanded.
A smirk appeared on his face after hearing my words. "Is she your new girl?"
New girl. Damn. I don't like that term.
I shook my head. "No, she's a friend," I answered truthfully. Although I don't know why I also don't like the term 'friend'.
"A friend?" His smirk widened. "Oh, sure." He looked at me with a teasing glint in his eyes.
I rolled my eyes. "I said help me find her."
"Why would I?" He raised an eyebrow.
That statement made me roll my eyes again. "Because I know your secret?" I answered in a 'duh' tone.
He gulped. Ha! Got him! "Why did I even tell you about it," he muttered annoyingly. He then shot me an annoyed look. "Fine, let's go."
Great, I have the upper hand. We started to walk in silence, our heads turning every corner that we pass by. I swear, if I don't see Chou Tzuyu right now, I'm going to barge in to her house the moment I step out of this school.
Oh wait. I don't know where she lives. Great.
"Hey, stop mumbling! Your scaring every person that we pass by!" Mark whisper-yelled.
"Sorry, I can't help it, okay?" I whispered back.
Argh! Where on earth could that yoda be?! Why the heck is she avoiding me?!
I'm really, really, starting to get annoyed. I swear!
"Tell me, Sana," he spoke. "Do you like this girl that we're looking for?"
I froze. I don't like her, do I? Yup, I don't. "I do." Wait what?! That wasn't what I was suppose to say!
He snorted. "I see," he said with a nod.
"I said I don't," I denied. "I bet your ears aren't working. What did you hear?"
He shrugged, but I can see that he was holding back a smile. "I didn't even hear a thing."
I scoffed and went back to finding the girl that's been avoiding me. I furiously shook my head when I thought of the possibility that she could be with the cheater Jungkook. Then as we turned around a corner, I froze. I spoke too fucking soon.
I pulled Mark behind the wall to hide. "Found her," I mumbled, letting Mark hear.
We both peeked and saw that Jungkook suddenly pulled Chou Tzuyu into a hug. I looked away when I suddenly felt my heart like it was being pricked by a needle.
Damn. That hurts.
Mark then stared at me with concern before smiling sadly. "You so like her," he stated as his hand went up to wipe my tears.
I'm fucking crying.
And I didn't even realize it.
I sniffed before swatting his hand away. "I already told you, I don't like her." Then as I felt my lower lip tremble, I quickly covered my mouth. "I don't like her," I repeated, my voice being muffled by my hand.
"Aigoo," he cooed. "You're finally able to like some truly, yeah?" He teased. He then grabbed my wrist and pulled me. "Let's go. I may be gay, but that doesn't mean that I like seeing a girl cry," he said and I just silently let him pull me.
I hung my head low. People can't see me crying. Minatozaki Sana doesn't cry over a girl. I don't like Chou Tzuyu.
I don't like Chou Tzuyu.
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a/n: Heeeey it's finally my vacation!
Please bear with meeee. :)