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Noah:
I suddenly want to kick everyone out of my house and end this fucking party because i don’t feel in the mood to celebrate anything at all. Valerie literally broke up with me in the most heartless way she could’ve think of, i didn’t even know she felt that way.
I took one of the many available bottles of Vodka and went upstairs to my room. The other rooms were full of people making out but i thankfully left mine locked. So i got inside with the key and locked it again.
I sat in my bed and drank straight from the bottle, i took a tennis ball and started bouncing it against the floor, the wall and then it would come back to me. Tears were streaming down my face but i didn’t care , i was locked up for that very same reason. No one other than Valerie would make me feel better about this.
Taking another sip from the bottle, as i notice i’ve drank half of it i put it to the side and decide is time for me to stop and go to bed. I look at my phone and contemplate whether or not i should text Valerie. She is the only thing i can think about.
I stand up and stumble walking to the floor, I laugh at myself as i am laying on the floor,, like an idiot laughing at my pathetic existence. I hear a knock and i roll my eyes, people don’t understand that a locked door means ‘Do not bother’
I try to ignore it and pretend no one is in here. but they knock again. I sat quietly, set on not to answer the door, until i hear her voice “Noah, I know you’re in there. Open up” Valerie says from the other side, and although i should be pissed at her, my heartbeat races just to hear her voice.
I suddenly think maybe she didn’t mean what she said earlier, and maybe she wants to talk about it. I really need her to give me a chance to make her fall in love with me again, Doesn’t she notice that i can’t live without her?
I sigh and stand up from the floor sloppily walking to the door. I open and grin at her, she is so beautiful, I wish I could just kiss her…
“what?” rude Noah, why would you say that? Being drunk doesn't mean you can be mean
“I need to talk to you” she states boldly and walks past me entering in my room. She paces back and forth like not knowing what to say. She walks to the night stand and takes the photo frame she gave me in my birthday, looking at the photo.
I walk to her and stand in front of her, looking down at the photo as well, It was the day we finally met, we looked so happy. I wish we could go back to that moment.
“We were really in love” She says in a low voice, I can tell she’s drunk too, her nose and cheeks are red and her breath smells strongly like alcohol and fruits. I chuckle and nod
“Yeah.. we were… “ I say looking down at her and then sigh heavily “Well.. I still am.. even though we are no longer together.” I confess biting my lip and shake my head not believing that she dumped me hours ago.
“You were right…about Chad” She says biting her lip too and then leaves the frame on the nightstand. “ He is an ass, i had to slap him, it was quite the scene actually” she sighs and chuckles lowly and i frown
“What did he do? ugh i swear i’m gonna punch his face again and i’m going to enjoy it so much…” I say thinking about it and She shakes her head
“it’s fine, i think he’s been humiliated enough.” She says cooly and then i nod, not really with the strength to do it when i’ve drunk so much today. I am lucky i can speak clearly.
“He did mention something useful… That you rejected Harvard because of me?” She says and my eyes widen suddenly remembering it.
“I don’t want to talk about it valerie, i’m too drunk” I confess, i really don’t want to talk about at all, not even sober
“Well, i think tomorrow you’ll avoid it again” She pushes and i shake my head
“Valerie, there is nothing to talk about, i told them no 5 months ago, they will not sit waiting for me, i lost the chance, and it’s fine, i did it because i love you and i didn’t want to be apart from you”
“How do you love someone that much?” she asked sitting down on my bed and fidgeting with her fingers
“I don’t think i can answer that…” I confess, sitting down on the bed next to her “not even sober” i add and she chuckles a little
“You lost your chance to go there, because of me, and now we are not together anymore, and you won’t be able to go… and it’s my fault” She says and i shake my head
“What? no it’s not your fault” I chuckle and place a strand of her hair behind her ear. “You were not happy back then when i told you i wouldn’t go we fought about it and all” I tell her shrugging
“well I can see why I was so mad about it, Noah, you should call the recruiter, tell them you changed your mind” she says calmly and I shake my head quickly
“Valerie, I don't want to go, and I won't go, you don't remember me, but I remember you, and I love you, so Goddamn much” I tell her truthfully and she sighs
“why do you love me so much?” she asks looking up at me, her big green eyes look at me curiously. And I look up to the ceiling to think about my answer
I shrugged not knowing how to answer “i just fell for you, I don't know how it happened but I did” I chucked “even when we started texting, you were so funny, so smart, so laid back, i just wanted to talk to you all day” my heart feels full of love for her and I just wish she could feel the same way about me right now “you are so sweet to me, you joke around with me, you are ambitious, determined to follow your dreams, you don't take shit from anyone, you're gorgeous” I sigh in happiness and shake my head “I can't tell you all of the reasons why I love you, I guess the main one is that you make me happy, Valerie, I am so fucking happy when I'm With you” I finally tell her.
She smiles at me and places her small hand on my cheek, i place mine on top of hers. but I am completely astonished when she leans down and kisses me.
I am shook but I don't hesitate before I place my hand on her waist and the other on her hair and I kiss her back. Oh my, I have missed her lips so much, her soft kisses, the way my heart races when she does that.
She keeps kissing me and even though I know I should stop it because we're both piss drunk, I don't want this moment to end. So I keep kissing back and I gently suck on her bottom lip, she opens her mouth to give me access and our tongues start brushing against each other.
The kiss gets heated and Valerie moved from her spot beside me and gets on top of me straddling me, I'm surprised that she wouldn't let me hold her hand days ago and now she's doing this, but I don't stop her, of course i don’t.
I wrap my hands around her waist and stroke her back while she keeps kissing me and pressing her body against mine.
I allow myself to lay down so now she is on top of me, I take that moment as my cue to take off her top and we keep kissing passionately and her hips grind against mine making me harder every second. My hand traveled up her back and when I'm about to unclasp her bra, I stop myself
I pull away from the kiss and Valerie sits up, she is on top of me and I sigh looking at her amazing body in front of me and her beautiful disappointed eyes
“what… what happened? Am I doing something wrong? You know kinda forgot how to have sex.. ” she asks biting her lip and I chuckle shaking me head.
“can you feel me under my jeans?” I ask amused and she giggles nodding
“you're not doing anything wrong, Valerie, you're so gorgeous, I've missed you so much” I say resting my hands on her hips , stroking them gently , she just frowns looking at me in utter confusion
“then why don't you want to be with me?” she pouts crossing her arms around her chest and I sigh
“because… Because we're both really drunk, Valerie, and I don't want you to regret anything tomorrow” I say softly and she sighs
“I'm not gonna regret it, Noah, you're not some douche who's gonna kick me out in the morning” she says rolling her eyes and me chucking again
“let's sober up and if you still want to, I have no problem picking where we left off” I offer with a grin and she giggles
“okay, you are right, why do you have to be so respectful? uuugh … do you have any flaws, Noah?” she asks jokingly as she gets off me and lays down next to me. I lay on my side and we're both lying facing each other
“I think my only flaw is that I'm too in love with you to realize it is going to be the end of me” I confess and she smiles sweetly at me
“good night, Noah” she pecks my lips and closes her eyes, she'll probably fall asleep in a minute.
I wrap my hands around her and close my eyes too, but then I reach for my nightstand to grab my phone and text Chris, telling him Valerie is staying with me so he doesn't get worried.
I snuggle into her and stroke her hair as I start falling a sleep next to her, I feel like this is the best night of sleep I'll have in weeks. I'm so happy with how the night turned out