BEA POV
3 months, three fucking months ako nawala sa pinas. It was the worst of times, stuck for two months inside a hospital and one month rest. Being not able to fit to travel. I have to endure that one month. Para makauwi ng Pilipinas.
As soon as I was cleared. We booked a flight to the Philippines. I'm with my family— Dad, Mom and Kuya Loel. They helped me to recover. For that one month, bawal ako magcellphone. Walang communication sa mga team mates ko. Wala rin akong update sa volleyball. Wala rin akong communication at balita sa kanya.
After my check up, umuwi agad kami to pack our things. Kasi kinabukasan flight na namin. I'm even excited, even Mom and Dad was happy and they gave my phone back. But the twist is that I will open it once I'm back sa Manila. So I didn't waste any time and pack all my things with the given time. Hindi ako makatulog sa sobrang excitement. Kaya I read a book muna, For One More Day by Mitch Albom.
It stated that, if you had the chance, just one chance to go back and fix what you did wrong in life, would you take it?
That's a tricky question actually. I still don't have answer for that question that time. Until I drove off to sleep unexpectedly.
Next thing I knew I woke up from a kiss by my dad.
"Are you ready baby? We're going home na in a bit. I know how badly you miss her. So go and prepare yourself na. Yung breakfast hinahanda na kaya bilisan mo ha? You don't want to miss our flight." Dad
Without any hesitation, I got up from my bed. Prayed that the following day will be glowing and happy as today. I took a bath with six songs which is mabilis na para sa akin kasi minsan nakakatapos ako ng album hahahaha. I dressed with my most comfy clothes at bumaba na for breakfast.
We ate breakfast together then get our things and drove to the airport. I don't know why I'm so tensed.
Is this happiness? Is this loneliness? Or what? I can't explain why I'm feeling.
Naramdaman siguro ni kuya. Kaya he hugged me.
"You're going to be okay Bei! Chill ka lang diyan! Mahaba pa yung oras ng byahe." Kuya Loel
FLIGHT JL15 is now boarding at Gate 14B
FLIGHT JL15 is now boarding at Gate 14B
Please proceed to the departure gate.
Please proceed to the departure gate.
Kaya pumunta na kami sa gate to settle our seats. We took business class seats kasi I need to be comfortable to rest din. Ayoko namang biglain yung katawan ko baka mamaya di pa ako nakakatapak sa labas ng manila, pabalik na agad kami ng US.
15 hours flight to Manila. Kaya manonood muna ako ng series/movies or read ng books.
Gusto ko sana mag-internet kaso baka magalit sina Dad sakin hehe.
AFTER 15 hours flight.
Nakaabang na pala mga drivers namin. Ewan ko kung bakit magkakahiwalay kami ng sasakyan. Kuya Loel got his own driver. Ganon din si Mom and Dad. Ako naman pinagdrive ni Kuya Mike.
Traffic sa manila is forever.
I turned on my phone, pero wala pala akong internet load. So I had to transfer pa from my card. And I'm like stuck sa traffic for 30mins already. Hay nako!
I opened my data and GOD! Notifications are the worst. Mas marami pa din sa Twitter. I opened my imessage at ang daming message ng team mates ko lalo na si Jia.
I opened it one by one, read it pampalipas ng oras. Di ko na namalayan na nasa katipunan na kami.
Sa sobrang dami kong binasa, kahit isa walang message na galing sa kanya. I guess she's doing something?
After 15 mins nasa village na namin kami ni Kuya Mike.
"Grabe kuya yung traffic na dinaanan natin ah." Bea
"Oo nga po ma'am eh pero saglit na lang Miss Bea, makakarating ka na sa bahay niyo." Kuya Mike
And then nakarating na kami. Bumaba agad ako sa sasakyan. Nandun na sasakyan ni Kuya Loel at Dad.
Pagbukas ko ng bahay. Biglang....
"WELCOME HOME BEA!" A lot of people!
Nandito ang ALE, even Maki and Cel! Nandito din sina Boo! Actually lahat ng friends ko from Poveda at La Salle nandito din. Nandito rin sina Tita Lovel.
I'm roaming around my eyes, pero hindi ko pa nakikita. Until humawi sila and may isang tao na may dalang cake.
"Welcome home Beh!" Jho
I blew the cake and hug her. I was about to kiss her when suddenly she faint.
Nagpanic ako but Tita Lovel talked to me.
"Be Calm Bei, iakyat na lang natin sa kwarto mo. She's just tired preparing this stuff for you." Tita Lovel
"Okay po Tita." Bea
After that I tucked her to bed. Kasama ko si Jia sa room. Nang biglang nagising si Jho.
"Hi Beh! Sorry I fainted kanina." Jho
"Uy no worries Love, pahinga ka lang diyan. I'll stay here." Bea
"Huh? No need! Labas na tayo don. This party is for you! Sayang effort ko pag di tayo nakipag-party sa kanila." Jho
She pouted! God I want to kiss her so bad!
Kaya lumabas na kami. Naunang bumaba si Jho.
"Jho una ka muna, I need to talk to Bei first." Jia
"Oh okay! Basta baba ka beh ah! Namiss kita!" Jho
"I've missed you too Love." Bea
Then confusion in her face kaya hinayaan ko na lang.
Jia hugged me.
"I've missed you Bei! Are you on full recovery na?" Jia
"Yes juju! So give me an update! Three months din ako nawala." Bea
"About that, I want you to know this dahil may consent na din naman ni Tita Lovel and ng parents mo. I want to talk to you about Jho." Jia
"About Jho? Why? What happened?" Bea
"You know after that thing, she was one month in the hospital. We were so happy when she woke up. But the thing is. Bei she's suffering from a short term memory loss. Maybe a year or six month bago bumalik yung memory niya or worse hindi na bumalik." Jia
"Is this a joke Jia? She seems fine ah." Bea
"That's the thing, she remembers you, but as her bestfriend, not her partner...not her lover. And it would be bad for her if you forced her to remember things. Nawala sa memory niya yung memory niyong dalawa hanggang sa accident. Kaya mukha siyang confused when you called her Love." Jia
"Oh my God this is all my fault Jia. If I didn't take her somewhere, hindi mangyayari to." Bea
"Hey! Don't blame yourself, walang may gustong mangyari 'to." Jia
I cried after Jia told me that. Pero I need to hold myself, madaming tao sa baba.
"And Bei I know this will hurt you more, pero you need to know this. May pumoporma kay Jhoana. Remember Nico Evangelista?" Jia
"Yes I know that son of a bitch! Lagi yong umaaligid at nagpapansin kay Jhoana ah! Bakit anong meron?" Bea
"Kasi he's the one who's courting Jho. Alam niya yung kondisyon, kinausap na din siya ng team and even parents ni Jho pero hindi siya nakinig and pinagpatuloy pa din. So I hope wag ka sanang magulat kapag may pinakilala sayo si Jhoana." Jia
"Shit Jia! What have I done! She was mine but.... pano nangyari tong mga to. Shit! Shit! Tangina!" Bea
"I'm sorry Bei! Hindi namin gustong umabot sa ganto pag-uwi mo pero kasi ayaw namin na pwersahin si Jho about sa inyong dalawa. We even mentioned you to her, she misses you daw. Hind daw niya alam kung bakit pag gising niya sa ospital wala ka don. Nagtampo siya pero sinabi namin na nasa US ka. Pero hindi ka man lang daw nagparamdam sa kanya. We didn't tell her about the accident and why are you even in the US." Jia
"I can't, I'm 2 months in sleep bago magising then one month rest na bawal ang cellphone or any gadgets." Bea
"Just act like your bestfriend with her. Let's not make things complicated muna sa kanya. We hope na bumalik na alaala niya before things get worse. Lakasan mo loob mo Bei! Nandito lang kami." Jia
I hugged Jia real tight and I even cried. We were interrupted by a knock on the door.
"Am I interrupting something? Or should I know something?" Jho
"It's not what you think Jho. May pinag-usapan lang kami." Bea
"You don't need to explain Bei. Sorry kung naistorbo ko kayo ni Jia!" Jho
She was about to close the door pero pinigilan ko and inipit ko sarili ko sa pinto. Lumabas naman si Jia ng tumatawa, kiniss pa ako sa cheeks! Great!
"Goodluck with that Bei! She's still the jealous type kind of bestfriend hahaha!" Jia
Napakamot naman ako sa ulo ko.
"Huh bakit bumaba na si Jia? Nasira ko tuloy moment niyo ng crush mo!" Jho
"Sira ka Jho! Nagseselos ka na naman, here let me hug you. I missed you Beh! Sobrang hirap ng three months na di kita nakita at nakausap." Bea
"Sus! Alam ko namang si Jia talaga namiss mo eh, nasira ko nga moment niyong dalawa eh! Dapat di na lang ako umakyat or dapat di na lang kitang pinaghanda sa pagdating mo at si Jia na lang sana! Sayang effort ko!" Jho
"Hey! Hindi kaya, I loved what you did! Sobrang saya ng heart ko na namiss ako ng bestfriend ko. Thank you for throwing me a welcome party! I love you Love este Beh!" Bea
"Love ka ng love kanina ka pa! Tawag mo siguro sa mga babae mo sa US!" Jho
"Sinabihan kita ng I love you yun lang napansin mo? Hay nako! Isa lang sinasabihan ko ng Love ah! Kasi iisa lang naman ang mahal ko at ang mamahalin ko habang buhay." Bea
"And hindi mo pa siya pinapakilala sakin! I'm tampo na." Jho
"Soon Jho! You'll meet her, nakalimutan kasi niyang mahal ko siya." Bea
"Ay ang sakit naman non. Di bale beh! Di ko makakalimutan na mahal mo ko at mahal din kita! Namiss kita bakulaw!" Jho
"Wow! Bakulaw talaga ah! Namiss din kita love you Jho!" Bea
"Love you too Bei! Dito ako tutulog mamaya ha! We have a lot of catching up to do." Jho
"Okay po di papalag Kumander!" Bea
Bumaba na kami para makiparty sa baba. Nakipagcatch up sa ibang ALE. Sa mga bestfriend ko, to the point nagplaplano agad sila ng outing. Di ko pa man lang naayos gamit ko, may outing agad.
"Hey girls! Dahan dahan lang ah, bawal mapagod yang si Beatriz!" Dad
"Hahaha! Sorry Tito! Namiss lang namin si Bea and for sure mapapagod to mamaya! Sleepover daw si Jho eh!" Maki
"Maks!!!" Cel
"Oh sorry! I forgot! Sorry tito! Love you Bei!" Maki
"Sira ka talaga! Buti wala dito!" Cel
"Chill! Nandito tayo para magsaya bukas na yang problema! And for you Miss Bea De Leon! Bawal ka ng alcoholic drinks so go for water or juice lang muna!" Ate Den
"Haha Mommy Den as always! Missed you!" Bea
I hugged her. Grabe namiss ko talaga sila. Lalo na siya.
After the party nag-uwian na sila huling umalis ang ALE.
"Bei you are still not fit to practice with us ah! Kaya take your time to rest. Parehas kayo ni Jho." Den
"Ano bang nangyari dito kay Bea?" Jho
"Wala beh! Bawal lang mapagod hehe." Bea
"So una na kami Bea! Thank you and welcome home uli! I guess see you tom? Kung may plano man tomorrow?" Alyssa
"Sige Ate Ly! I will, text me na lang oki?" Bea
"Sure! Ikaw ba Jho di ka pa ba uuwi?" Alyssa
"Ay hindi pa yan besh! Lalandi pa yan sa Beh Beh Lab niya! Namiss eh, tingnan mo magsleepover pa yan dito." Ella
"Epal ka donya! Oo na magsleep over ako dito. Namiss ko ih!" Jho
"Harot mong babae ka ah! Kakalbuhin kita diyan, Deanna iuwi mo na tong mommy mo." Ella
"Huh? Mommy? Ako? Ni Deanna?" Jho
"Ay sorry! Di ka pala updated Ma? Nagbunga ako sa inyo ni Ate Bei! Harot niyo kasi eh grabe maglandian!" Deanna
"Sira kayo! Pure friendship lang walang halong malisya, diba beh?" Jho
Sabay cling sa arms ko napakamot na lang ako sa ulo ko. Hayyy palakasan nga ng loob to.
"Ah oo guys! Wag kayong issue! PURE friendship!" Bea
Hinugg naman ako ni Jia! Hay this girl always got my back.
"Opps! Jhoana yang mukha mo, pure friendship diba? Kaya wag kang umasta diyan na parang gf ni Bea! Wag kang mag-iinarte kay Bea ah! Wag mong bigyan ng sakit ng ulo yan. Baka sila talaga ni Jia para sa isa't isa. Bleh!" Ella sabay dila!
"Sira ka Ate Ells! Tara na nga masyado kang madaldal, hirap talaga ng alcoholic! Maingay na!" Jia
"Sus Jia! Bea na yan oh! Single na ata!" Ella
"Gago ka Ate Ells ah! Di ako single!" Bea
"Ay Jho o di daw single sabi ko sayo may babae yan sa US eh!" Ella
"Hayy nako Jujubear uwi mo na nga yang pandak na yan! Baka di na makalabas ng buhay yan dito kapag natagalan pa." Bea
"Love you Bei! Hayaan mo lang magselos si Jhoana! Hahaha!" Ella
"Sira! Baka lalo nang magalit si Kumander, iba na yung timpla ng mukha! Byeee ingat kayo!" Bea
At umalis naman na sila. At nag-iba talaga ang ihip ng hangin. Nagbago ang mood ng love ko.
Time for suyuan na naman hayyy.
Pumasok na kami sa bahay, and nag good night kay Mom and Dad. Tulog na kasi si Kuya Loel kaya hindi na kami nakapaggood night. Diretso na kami ni Jho sa room ko.
"Beh shower lang ako ah." Bea
Pero wala akong nakuhang response.
"Sa labas na lang ako magshower, dito ka na magshower sa room ko. Labas lang akk beh." Bea
Wala talaga, di ako kinausap hahaha. Kaya binilisan ko na lang pagshower ko kasi baka pagbalik ko tulog na.
After 15 mins tapos naman na ako. Bumalik na ako ng room ko and saktong katatapos niya lang.
"Beh, tara tulog na tayo." Bea
"Huyy! Bakit di mo ako pinapansin?" Bea
"Beh okay ka lang?" Bea
"Andami mo sigurong babae sa US kaya hindi ka man lang nagparamdam sa akin. Hindi mo rin ata alam na nasa ospital ako. I was looking for my bestfriend when I woke up. Pero wala silang masagot kung nasan ka. Hindi nila ako masagot. I was crying kasi that one person na gusto ko makita wala. And then I heard ate Ells na marami kang babae sa US. Tapos pagdating pa dito ang clingy niyo pa sa isa't isa ni Jia na crush mo ever since nagstart ka sa ALE." Jho
Napangiti naman ako, cute talaga nito magselos kaya lumapit ako sa kanya and nagback hug.
"So you are telling me na nagseselos ka?" Bea
"No! I'm just saying kung anong nararamdaman ko kasi nagtatanong ka kung bakit hindi kita pinapansin." Jho
"Beh, I'm sorry kung paggising mo wala ako sa tabi mo. Wala ako to take care of you. Wala ako for three months and hindi nagparamdam sayo. Sa buong ALE naman hindi ako nagparamdam." Bea
"Sa buong ALE? Pero alam ni Jia at Ate Ly mga ganap sa buhay mo. Naririnig ko sila minsan mag-usap." Jho
"Baka kinakausap nila si Mom. Wag ka na magtampo Beh ko. I promise you wala akong babae sa US." Bea
"Pero you still don't tell me kung bakit wala ka dito for three months. Wala din communication. Hindi ka rin nagtwetweet or nag-oonline." Jho
"Ahhh...about that," Bea
Nag-iisip ako ng alibi, ayoko namang sabihin sa kanya na parehas kaming naospital.
"Anooo?" Jho
"Fine you don't want to tell me." Jho
"No Jho! Kasi ganto ahhh I undergo for a training and a therapy bawal kasi ang gadgets don. Training for company pag pumasok na ako sa company ni Dad, also cousins bonding time. And Therapy kasi humihina baga ko but I'm all cleared na. Fit to work, Fit to train." Bea
"Hay nako Beatriz! Hindi bagay sayo magsinungaling." Jho
"Huh? I'm not!" Bea
"Ulol beh! Sinabi sakin ni Nico, narinig niya na may kausap si Mama. I think si Tita Det ata kasi kinakamusta ka and wala ka pa daw malay. And if ever na magkamalay ka na may one month rest ka pa bago umuwi. Kaya pagkasabi ni Nico non, kinausap ko si Mama and totoo nga." Jho
"I'm sorry Jho ayoko naman magworry ka pa kasi I'm fine na." Bea
"Gusto ko lang malaman bakit ka naospital." Jho
"That, ah nahulog kasi ako sa hagdan kasi hindi ako tumitingin sa dinadaanan ko hanggang sa ayun nagpagulong gulong ako at nagising ako after two months. Hehe" Bea
"So clumsy as ever!" Jho
"So we are okay na? Beh" Bea
"Okay naman tayo ah." Jho
"Okayy. Jho sino pala si Nico?" Bea
While waiting for her answer, parang tinutusok tusok na yung puso ko.
"Ahh si Nico? Papakilala ko siya sayo! Saka ko na lang siya ikwento sayo Beh. Tulog na tayo!" Jho
"Okay. Good night Jho."
"Good night Beh." Bea
Nahiga na kami and tumalikod ako sa kanya. Which is so unusual pag nagslesleep over. We always cuddle kapag natutulog. Speaking of matutulog, hindi ako makatulog.
My thoughts is being consumed by Nico. Ah the nerve! How could he do this!
Naramdaman ko namang nagbackhug sakin si Jho.
"Beh galit ka ba?" Jho
"Huh? Hindi, bakit mo naman nasabi yan?" Bea
"Hindi kasi tayo magka-cuddle, I just miss you." Jho
"Sorry beh! Eto na cuddle na tayo wag ka magtampo." Bea
And with that nakatulog naman na ako with her by my side.
It felt familiar. It felt like home.