"You made a list?" Harry asked as he looked over at Louis with a small smile, finding it pretty amazing that his boyfriend was taking initiative in this whole thing. Truthfully, Harry had been ignoring the more serious questions he'd been asking himself about having a baby because it was scary to think about, but he was glad he had Louis to talk to.
"Of course I made a list. I thought about it a lot and I've researched a ton of stuff and I just... I think that these things are important to talk about before we have a baby together." Louis said softly as he sat on the end of Harry's bed with the folded up piece of paper in his left hand.
"Got it, yeah," Harry smiled and then looked over at Louis. "Okay, Lou, so what's first on your list?" He asked softly as he sat on the bed, with his back against a pillow.
"My first big question is... what if we break up?" Louis asked as he read the list and then looked back up at Harry. "Not because I'm plotting ways to break up with you, but I'm asking because having a baby takes a toll on people's relationships. And I would like to think that we'll stay together, but... I still think we should talk about it just in case."
"Yeah, that makes sense," Harry assured Louis softly and then nodded his head a little. "I guess if we break up then we have to figure out, like, custody of the baby and all that." He said and then shrugged his shoulders. "Assuming both of us would still want to be a part of his or her life." He said and Louis nodded his head. "I guess we'd have to figure that out if it happens, yeah? It depends on quite a bit. Next question."
"Okay, so my next question would be about where would the three of us live?" Louis asked as he looked back down at his list, then his eyes trailed back up to Harry. "Like, am I still living at my mum's place and you and the baby would be living here? That would feel a bit weird honestly." He admitted and Harry nodded his head in agreement. "So, would we live here or at my mum's or figure out... how to get an apartment or something?"
"First of all, we're a bit too broke for an apartment. Second, pretty sure my mum wouldn't let me move out of her house at fifteen," Harry admitted softly. "But I don't know. I guess this one also depends on a lot of different factors. Such as... talking to our parents, yeah?"
"Which brings me to my next point: when are we telling our parents exactly?" Louis asked and Harry only stared back at him, because he really didn't have an answer to that one. Clearly, he wanted to tell their parents sooner rather than later, but it was scary to think about having to do that. "Okay, so we should figure that out then. Personally, I think we should tell them soon. As in possibly this weekend soon." He said and then shrugged his shoulders.
"My mum is going to be so disappointed in me," Harry sighed softly and then Louis nodded his head a little.
"Mine too," Louis admitted and then moved to sit down next to Harry wrapping his right arm around Harry to cuddle him close. "But we have to tell them at some point. And... I mean, they've had kids before. They'll know what to do and they'll be able to help us, yeah?" He asked. "We only have so many months before a baby is born. We don't have forever to prepare."
"Is it wrong to say that I'm kind of shocked about how much you've thought about this? I mean, don't get me wrong, it's just... I haven't even though about things like this. And I'm the one who's pregnant." Harry said softly.
"That's alright, love. That's why it takes two people to make a baby and not just one. Well, naturally anyway. We can figure out things together, yeah? Bounce opinions off of one another in regards to the little one," Louis said and Harry smiled a little. "So, if it is alright with you, I want to tell them this weekend."
"I don't... I don't want to tell them so soon," Harry admitted softly and then tilted his head to look at Louis. "Maybe next weekend. Or the weekend after that. Just... not this weekend, okay? Just want a few more weekends where my mum doesn't know her baby is carrying a baby." He said softly and Louis nodded a little.
"Okay, fine, we won't tell them until you're ready," Louis promised softly. "We should talk about the money thing again. Because I really would like to go ahead and call my aunt and ask if she has any positions opened. The sooner we start saving, the better. I mean, I already have some money saved up that was going towards a car, but who needs one anyway? And you have money saved as well, yeah?"
"Yeah," Harry said and nodded a little. "I think calling your aunt would be a good idea. After school Asher can take us over to the cafe to work... and then my sister or Asher could probably come to pick us up." He said softly. "We can do homework and actual work at the same time. During breaks, yeah?"
"I don't know. I've never had a job," Louis hummed softly. "I'll ask my aunt," He assured softly and then looked down at Harry. "So, assuming we both get jobs within the near future and also stay in school... what's it going to be like once the baby is here? Like childcare wise? Because I mean, after the baby is born I'm assuming you'll need to stay home for a while with him or her." Louis said, thinking aloud at this point, so Harry listened along. Then at some point, you'll have to go back to school. Which means we have to figure out a daycare plan. Because while we're at school someone has to watch the baby. And then we also have to decide if we're both going back to work or if one of us is staying home with the baby after school."
"My brain hurts," Harry sighed softly and then shook his head a little. "I don't know. Lou, we should take this one step at a time. We don't even know if we have jobs yet and the baby isn't due for another six months..." He said and then looked over at Louis.
"Harry, six months is practically nothing," Louis said softly as he looked at his boyfriend. "Do you know how much is about to change in the next six months? For one, you're going to start showing. Like, really showing. And our friends are going to find out we're having a baby. Then we'll find out who are true friends are based on who sticks around, yeah? The whole school will find out eventually and they'll start talking. Which means then our teachers will know. On top of that, our parents will know by then and who knows how that's all going to go? Also, we have to work and save money and still worry about keeping our grades up. We also have to figure out what baby stuff we need along with figuring out the answers to all of the questions on this list." He said and then motioned to the list in his hand.
"Lou—"
"And on top of all of that, you're going to give birth. To a baby. Like an actual living, breathing baby. One that we, and we only will be completely responsible for." Louis said softly. "These next six months are going to fucking fly by. Which, I know is terrifying and I'm probably not helping by pointing all of this shit out, but I'm trying to be realistic here." He said. "We have a lot of growing up to do in these next six months. There's things we have to sacrifice and things that... are going to change and... I'm hoping it will all be worth it in the end. Because I love you and... you're having a baby. A baby that we made together. And we have to figure out how to be parents as freshmen in high school."
"Do you want me to keep it?" Harry asked as a genuine question because he didn't think Louis had ever stated what he wanted to happen. He only had asked what Harry had wanted to do.
"I just... I can't imagine having you go through an abortion. And I can't imagine us placing our kid up for adoption." Louis replied softly. "I mean, I've never planned for anything like this but...here we are. And the other two options are just as scary as this option." He admitted. "And just because all of this is scary, it doesn't mean I'm just going to pretend this all isn't happening. Because it is. And I'll stand by your side no matter what you choose to do, Harry. But... yeah. I want you to keep it. If that's what you want to do. Although, you have the option to change your mind at any point if this all becomes too much for you."
"We really should have used a condom that night," Harry joked, trying to lighten the mood a bit because things just felt tense. Which, was something he was expecting but the feeling didn't exactly make him feel the most comfortable.
"Yeah, probably," Louis chuckled a little and then shook his head a little. "So... we'll take things one step at a time." He said and then looked over at Harry. "Step one is to talk to my aunt about job openings, step two is to tell our parents, and step three is to figure out where we're going to stay when the baby is born?" He asked and Harry nodded his head a little.
"Yeah, sounds... manageable," Harry admitted softly and then looked at Louis. "We should add figuring out how to tell our friends I'm pregnant into those steps." He said.
"We should just text the group chat," Louis joked and then Harry laughed a little. "They wouldn't take it nearly as seriously as they should." He smiled and then kissed Harry's forehead gently.
"You know, most of them don't even know we've been having sex," Harry said softly. "I mean, realistically the only two people who know are Zayn and Eleanor. And Zayn has no clue that Eleanor knows." He said and then hummed softly.
"We can lead with that in the text," Louis joked with a small laugh. "We'd be like 'Hey guys, just letting you know we've been having sex for a few months. Also, Harry's pregnant. Cheers!'" Louis chuckled and Harry rolled his eyes playfully before leaning in to press a small kiss to Louis' lips, which very quickly turned into a much deeper kiss without either one of them meaning for that to happen.
"I love you," Louis said softly when he pulled away to look down at his boyfriend's face. "Even if our relationship goes to shit in the near or distant future... I need you to know that I love you. I have since... forever. And you need to remember that when we go through rough patches or if our relationship ends. Remember that... no matter what we're going through, no matter the choices you make, or the things we do to upset each other... I love you. I think there's always going to be a part of me that loves you." He admitted softly.
Harry loved it when Louis got like this. A bit sappy and in his feels. Louis never talked to him in this way in front of anyone else. Harry loved that he was the only one who had the privilege of hearing Louis speak from his heart. He felt even more lucky that those words were being spoken to him. Louis was so sweet, that was one thing that Harry had always admired about him.
"I love you," Harry said softly before leaning back in to kiss Louis again, but this time he intentionally made their kiss much deeper, and much more loving than the last one.
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