Mackenzie's POV
I did something terrible
Something unforgivable
I knew I shouldn't have done it, but I did. He'll never forgive me, for the deed that I have done. Even after the past he had, I just ignored all that we've been through
What have I done?
"Ms. Ziegler?" My science teacher called from the front of the classroom. Giggles and Snickers were heard around, and stares were burning my skin
"Y-yes Ms. Crawly?" I asked softly. A hum was heard from her mouth, as she pointed to the passage on the board. A question was below.
"You want me to answer it?"
"What do-
Bell rings
I gathered my things and ran as fast as I could to Johnny. I had to tell him what happened. I had to clear the air. I ran down the hallway to were we meet up every class period.
He wasn't there
"He's not coming" A female voice stated. I turned around to a brown-haired girl, with books held up to her chest.
"What? Where is he?" I asked questionably. Why would she know where my boyfriend is?
"The infirmary" She said then walked off. As soon as she turned the corner, I ran down the hall.
The infirmary was right up the stairs, and around the corner. I peeled through the door to see Johnny sleeping soundly.
Opens door
I sat down quietly and stared at his sleeping figure. His breath hits the air, as his chest pumps up and down.
So beautiful
"Who are you?" A voice asked behind me. I turned around to see the nurse looking at me questionable look.
"I'm just staying with Johnny. Is he alright?"
"He's just resting. He passed out in the courtyard-"
"Jesus" I cried. I buried my face into my hands, as hot tears spilled down.
This is all my fault
A few minutes have passed, and I sat there watching. Indulging in him. His eyes flickered a few times, as his hands began to twitch. I scooted closer to him and hung down low. His breath fanned my face, as his eyed opened.
"What are you doing here?" He asked moving to the other side of the bed. His face was filled with sadness, and his body trembled at my touch
"I just wanted to see if you're ok-"
"Ok? You think I'll be OK, after you cheated on me with Hayden?" He cut me off. My heartfelt like it came to a stop
"It's wasn't like that-"
"I know what happened Mackenzie. You didn't mean to do it. It wasn't apart of the plan. It didn't mean anything. IT DOESN'T MATTER! You still did it, and you can't take it back." He cried. Hot tears started to run down my face. His eyes were beet red and his skin was pale
What did I do?
"You knew what you were doing, and you did it anyway. You knew how I would react, but you didn't care. You don't love me. You don't care. And now you have to pay for the consequences. Look what you did to me."
Look
What
You
Did
To
Me
Look
What
You
Did
To
Me
Those words repeated in my head. The guilt eating me alive. I saved him from that part of himself, and I brought him back. What kind of person am I? What kind of girlfriend?
"John I'm sorry. I didn't want it to happen, but it did. I know I can't take it back, but we're gonna have to live with the fact that we can't. I love you with all my heart
"Stop"
"I knew that I would always love you from the moment we met
"Please stop"
"Please forgive me?"
"I SAID STOP!" Johnny screamed at the top of his lungs. Whispers and gasps were heard from the other side of the door.
"I want to forgive, I really do. I want to say that I love you, but I really can't. I'm sorry." He whispered
"Johnny what are you trying to say?"
"I-I"
"JOHNNY VINCENT ORLANDO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING TO ME?" I yelled tears sliding down my skin
"It's over Mackenzie"