(Photo of Namjoon)
Two years ago I met him, it wasn't something I ever expected. You see? I was at an award show in Las Vegas and I didn't really know anybody, it was kind of awkward. I was still recovering over finding out what Blake was doing and honestly I shut everyone out but for some reason when Namjoon aka RM approached me, it felt different.
"Hey, you're Lo London. I'm a huge fan!" He says shaking my hand
"Hi, thank you so much. You're performing tonight right! you're in the group BTS! I've seen a couple of your videos, you're amazing performers"
"No no, not as great as you. Your music videos are amazing. The dancing- it's breathtaking"
I met the rest of the boys after that, the band members were looking for their leader who in fact is Kim Namjoon. They were all very kind and to my surprise we were actually seated together. Namjoon and I kept talking during the show until the boys performed. They are really loved by their fans, all the screams and chants were louder than ever for BTS. That night I won 3 awards; Best Female Artist, Best R&B Album, and Artist of the Year. Best night of my life and honestly, I don't regret giving Namjoon my number after the award show.
Since then, I've been dating Kim Namjoon. Sure, Blake still had a place in my heart but he let me and I figured it's time to move on to true happiness
Back to the set!
"So you've been hiding this from everyone" Drita asks while brushing my hair
"Yeah, Drita.. I'm sorry. We couldn't tell anyone until his company gave us the okay." I say turning to face her
"I am honestly just happy you are happy, I'm not gonna dwell on this. It isn't worth it when you're happier than ever before Lo"
Today, I am letting go of everything. I am moving on from Blake and moving on from the unhappiness that came with him. I am ready to live a new chapter with Namjoon and I'm ready to show my growth to my fans.
"Ms. London you're on in 5!" a blonde woman comes in and let's me know
"Are you ready?" Drita asks
"I'm ready" I say smiling and taking one last look in the mirror
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One year later..
"Ace come here baby boy" I call out to Ace
"I'm here momma" he runs to me as Namjoon walks behind him
"How's my beautiful wife doing today?" He comes up behind me and kissing my neck
"I'm great baby. Ace looks super happy, how was the zoo?" I asked Joon
"It was fun, we saw so many animals didn't we Ace?"
"Yes papa" says Ace with his new elephant toy
"Ace. daddy Blake will be coming to get you soon okay!" I tell my son as I pack his clothes for his weekend with Blake
After 9 months of namjoon and I dating he proposed and of course I said yes, I felt a new kind of happiness and I felt so complete. Blake and I talked about how we'd manage our parenting and it's been pretty good. He's moved on and isn't living in LA anymore since he's been traded but he still comes to visit Ace and the other kids whenever he can. We have grown and learned to respect each other and that's something I'm really proud of.
"Ace! Are you excited to hang with your daddy Blake!" Namjoon asks
"Yes papa, I'm gonna miss you and mommy! Also Snoopy" he says frowning while reaching out to our dog "Snoopy"
"Awe baby, we're gonna miss you too but you'll be home sooner than you think" I say giving him a kiss on the cheek and hugging him
"Ace, he's here son" Namjoon says while approaching the door
"Hey bro!" Blake says to Joon as they shake hands
"Hey, come on in" Joon smiles
"Hi daddy' Ace runs to his dad as Blake picks him up
"Here's his backpack and remember don't let him eat too much sweets" I say kissing Ace one last time
"Got it!" Blake says as he smiles at me
"I'll escort you out" I say walking Blake and Ace out "how are you doing" I ask
"I'm good, the new team is pretty good. Lots of rookies" he says putting Ace in the backseat
"That's good. I hope to see you guys win a lot" I smile
"Loren, I. I know I wasn't the best to you and I regret a lot of things I did but I want you to know I'm happy for you, you really love Namjoon, as much as it still hurts me, I can see how you look at him and it was the way you looked at me.. I"
"It's okay Blake, really. I think it's for the better and Im glad you're happy with your new team and your new life. Thank you for still being in Ace's life"
"I love my son, it sucks being away so much. But that's what I signed up for... I'm gonna get going"
"Alright, call me when you get to your destination please, be safe" I saw backing away from his car
Blake waves and that's it. There isn't a connection anymore, though Blake apologizes repeatedly his actions always showed the worst and it was a bit toxic. This new life of mine was never expected but I wouldn't change a thing... from Blake to dealing with Ciara, to the ups and downs to now being married to Namjoon. I've grown and learned to love myself more than I ever would before and for that I'm forever grateful.
Guess that Lolita image has change for the better huh..
The end.