2 years later (Addi and Tom are married)
(y/n) POV
Thomas and I were driving to Addi and Tom's house. Addi just had a baby about 1.5 months ago and Thomas and I have been planning to visit for forever. Thomas and I weren't what far. Heck we weren't even engaged. We had agreed to take it slow. And that's what we're doing.
Thomas and I have talking about children before, like when we are passing baby things in stores, but I always try to change the subject.
"(y/n)." Thomas caught my attention. "(y/n) I can't hide it anymore. I want a baby. I want a baby really bad darling. I want a baby with you." I flinched.
"Thomas, I know you do. But we can't."
"Why? Why not (y/n)."
I didn't wanna tell him. I didn't wanna tell him at all.
"Well (y/n)?" His tone was getting upset I can tell.
"Thomas, have infertility" I confessed.
Thomas looked at me in shock.
"Really?" He asked. I nodded. He looked forward. I can tell he's disappointed. I looked out the window and blinked back the tears. This was one thing I kept a secret for a reason.
It was silent till we got to Addi and Tom's. Tom answered the door.
"Hello!" I greeted, joyfully despite that empty feeling in my chest.
Thomas and Tom hugged.
"Hello Mate it's been a while." Tom said.
"It's has. To long." Thomas said laughing. We went inside, and I saw Addi.
"Hi!" Addi said. She was sitting on the ground holding the baby in her lap. "Meet Rose. Say Hi Rose!" Addi said, taking Roses hand and waving it up and down.
"Aww! Hi Rose!" I said getting down on my knees. Tom went over and talked with Thomas. I had a feeling they were taking about us, because I could see both of them glancing at us. Rose moved around a bit, shooting her hand out to me, and trying to grab me I think.
"I think she wants you to hold her." Addi laughed.
I picked her up and put her on my knee, gently bouncing her up and down. She smiled at me.
"She's smiling! Tom look she's smiling. Not fair! I wanted to make her smile for the first time!" Addi pretended to be angry.
"Well, you can steal their baby's first laugh. I think that's even." Tom laughed.
Thomas looked at him with wide eyes and shook his head.
"Maybe." I said laughing.
Thomas looked at me, but just someone knocked at the door.
"I'll get it!" Tom said, rushing over to the door.
Thomas quickly came over to me.
"(y/n), are you serious?" He sounded, not angry, but surprised.
"I'll talk with you later Thomas." I whispered to him.
I heard Halle's voice. I stood up and walked over to her.
"Hey Halle!"
"Hey (y/n)! Long time no see!" I hugged her.
"Halle, come meet Rose!" I said walking back over it where Rose was.
We talked for a bit, until Rose decided it was time for dinner.
"I'll be back guys. Gotta go feed Rose."
Addi left with Rose to go feed her, and Halle and I sat on the couch to talk.
"So how's your life been?" I asked her, cringing at my attempt to start a conversation.
"Well, we haven't told the public, but we're engaged."
"Oh my god! Really!" I was shocked, but very happy.
"I've been dying to tell you! I wanted to tell you in person, and it's been so hard." She laughed. I laughed too.
"So what's going on with you and Thomas?" She asked. I shrugged.
"Not much. Still just dating."
Halle nodded. "Well I mean Thomas does want a baby." Halle smiled.
"What did you say?" She asked excitedly.
"Well, I... I said no." Her face dropped.
"Why?" She asked.
"Well,it's.. it's.. complicated."
She nodded again, and it was silent.
Then she laughed, breaking the silence.
"What's so funny?
"Well Addi and Tom are the youngest, and they are already married and have a kid, and you and Thomas are the oldest and still just dating."
I chuckled. "That is funny.
•••
Before I knew it, it was time to go.
I hugged everyone goodbye and kissed Rose on the cheek.
Thomas and I walked out to the car, holding hands as if the conflict of earlier was forgotten.
We got in the car, completely silent.
It was like that most of the way home.
"Thomas, I know it most likely won't happen, but if you want, we can try." I whispered.
"Really!" Thomas exclaimed.
I nodded.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
I nodded again. He smiled and drove home. Fast.
•Time skip of 3 months•
Thomas and I have been trying for a baby for three months. We went to the doctor. He said, that is was no impossible, but unlikely it would happen.
But we tried anyways. I knew it wasn't ever gonna happen, but I knew how badly Thomas wanted a baby. But, I have to tell him eventually.
"Thomas." I said, looking at him. He was sitting on the couch, while I was reading a book. "Thomas, I'm sorry I just don't think it's gonna happen." I broke it to him.
He turned off the tv and came over to me, embracing me tightly.
"It's ok love." He whispered into my ear. "It's ok."
•One Month Later• (happy)
I threw up in the toilet yet another time. A week ago, Thomas and I had gone to a sushi (sry if you don't like sushi) place and I think I got food poisoning. I constantly felt like I need to throw up or I was gonna throw up. I also need to pee a lot, but that's nothing big. It's probably just because of all the water I'm drinking because I'm sick.
Thomas came back in the bathroom, with a re-filled up water bottle.
"I'm sorry this happened to you love." He said, rubbing my back.
"It's ok Thomas it's not your fault." I gaged again, but I didn't throw up. The weirdest part was that I constantly wanted odd foods, like Sardines with peanut butter, but then I would always throw up.
"Wait." I exclaimed sitting up taller, so I wasn't scrunched over. "Thomas."
"Yes love?"
"Thomas, I am craving foods, I'm throwing up and peeing alot!" I shouted.
"Ya.." Thomas trailed off, not catching on.
"Thomas, I'm craving foods, I'm throwing up and I'm peeing a lot." I explained again slowly.
Thomas shot up. "Does that mean?" He exclaimed.
"I don't know! I mean.. umm.. Thomas, run to the store and get a pregnancy test." I told him.
"Ok, but I'll be right back!" He shouted.
I sat at the toilet, smiling. 'I might be pregnant.'
•••
Thomas burst back in with a pregnancy test.
"I got it." He gasped out. He threw it at me. Thanks to my unathleticness, I stumbled with it and dropped it.
"Oops." I laughed. Thomas left so I could take the test.
After I was done, I washed my hands. It takes 20 minutes before it stays anything.
I walked out. Thomas was sitting on the bed. He stood up immediately.
"Well!" He asked excitedly.
"It takes 20 minutes Thomas." I reminded him.
"Oh ya." He said. "Well, you wanna watch something on TV for a bit?" He asked.
He turned on the Tv. I cuddled up next to him. 'This is where I wanna be.' I thought to myself. 'Forever'
After a while, I looked at the clock. It was 8:00. It has in fact been an hour. I noticed Thomas had fallen asleep. I pried myself out of his arms, trying my hardest not to wake him.
"Noo.. (y/n) don't go." He groaned.
"Thomas. I have to check the pregnancy test." I whispered. He shot up immediately. I walked to the bathroom, while Thomas stayed on the bed, sitting up. I got more and more nervous with each step.
I opened the door. I didn't wanna look. I don't wanna look.
It's positive. It's POSITIVE. ITS POSITIVE! I screamed. Thomas ran to the bathroom.
"What what what!" He demanded.
"Congratulations, your a father." I told him. His jaw dropped.
"Really!" He exclaimed, picking me up and swinging me around.
"Yes." I kissed him. He smiled into the kiss. I have never felt happier.
Jaxx Liam Sangster
Born to
(y/n) (m/n) Sangster and Thomas Brodie-Sangster
September 7th 2020
•One month later•(sad)
I threw up in the toilet yet another time. A week ago, Thomas and I had gone to a sushi (sry if you don't like sushi) place and I think I got food poisoning. I constantly felt like I need to throw up or I was gonna throw up. I also need to pee a lot, but that's nothing big. It's probably just because of all the water I'm drinking because I'm sick.
Thomas came back in the bathroom, with a re-filled up water bottle.
"I'm sorry this happened to you love." He said, rubbing my back.
"It's ok Thomas it's not your fault." I gaged again, but I didn't throw up. The weirdest part was that I constantly wanted odd foods, like Sardines with peanut butter, but then I would always throw up.
"Wait." I exclaimed sitting up taller, so I wasn't scrunched over. "Thomas."
"Yes love?"
"Thomas, I am craving foods, I'm throwing up and peeing alot!" I shouted.
"Ya.." Thomas trailed off, not catching on.
"Thomas, I'm craving foods, I'm throwing up and I'm peeing a lot." I explained again slowly.
Thomas shot up. "Does that mean?" He exclaimed.
"I don't know! I mean.. umm.. Thomas, run to the store and get a pregnancy test." I told him.
"Ok, but I'll be right back!" He shouted.
He never came back.
•3 months later•
"(y/n) would you like to say a few words?"
I nodded and went up to the wooden speech stand.
"I move to London about 3 years ago. I meant Thomas through the movie I had tried out for. We were also neighbors. I realized I had fallen for him in just a few weeks. All the trauma we went through made us stronger.
For all you who don't know, Thomas went to the store. When he was checking out, a robber came in. Thomas sacrificed himself for everyone in the store by stopping the robber, but not before getting shot in The chest three times. He was pronounced dead three hours later. But not before.." I trailed off, tearing up at the memory.
"Not before.. telling him I was pregnant." I choked out. "I was in the room when Thomas died. He died with a smile on his face, knowing he was father. I just wish.." I trailed off again. I could barely go on. The tears were clouding my vision, making everything and everyone blurry.
"I just wish he could see our little baby boy grow up." I couldn't hold it in any longer. I left the stage, in tears. I wasn't the only one who had started crying. I tried my hardest to stop the waterfall of tears, but they kept flowing out.
Thomas will never get to meet our baby
He will never experience his first smile. His first laugh. First step. First day of school. First job. Wedding. He'll miss it all. And I'll go on with that ache in my heart forever.
Or at least until I join him.