So as you can tell this book is coming to an end, I would say only like 1-3 more chapters left? I'm not sure, but here's a long ass chapter for you guys!
Book 2 is in the works btw - A x
Chapter 92
Harry's POV
"I broke up with her" I sigh as I drop my keys down on the kitchen counter before sitting on the stool, rubbing my hands over my tired eyes as Niall stands in front of me with a hot dog looking utterly shocked.
After I snuck away from Amy this morning I vowed that I wouldn't go back. I couldn't. Last night was hard enough for me. Seeing her cry and feeling her tears drip onto my bare chest was enough heartache to last me a lifetime. I hurt her. Again. Like I always seemed to do, even trying to do the right thing- I hurt her.
"What?-" Niall's jaw hits the floor in shock as he looks at me, his expression quickly turning into confusion and what I think was anger.
"What the fuck is wrong with you? Why the hell would you do that?" He snaps at me narrowing his eyes at me.
Why would I do that? Maybe because I love her? Maybe because I had to? Maybe because I loved her so much that I had to let her go. Even if she didn't know it yet, but I was doing the right thing.
"I had to" I go with, grumbling into my hands as I lean my elbows against the counter.
"Uh no-" he spits looking at me like I was fucking deluded.
"You didn't" he frowns and I roll my eyes.
"Niall-"
"No don't you 'Niall' me-" He says as he throws his hot dog down onto the plate in front of him. I roll my eyes at his behaviour. Of course he wouldn't understand.
"I've had it up to here with you Harry!" He yells at me.
"I was trying to help you and you go fuck it up and do the opposite of what you were supposed to do! You were supposed to apologise for being an asshole-"
"I did" I argue and he laughs in disbelief.
"What, by being an even bigger asshole? Oh fucking good one!" He yells at me and I roll my eyes.
"You know that girl is so fucking in love with you and your just taking it for granted! Even Eva doesn't look at me like Amy looks at you! I Fucking wish she did but she doesn't! But Your throwing away probably the best thing that has ever happened to you because you can't do long distance? Is that it?" He snaps at me and I sigh. He really didn't understand.
"I need to do this" I shake my head as I play with the rings left on my finger.
"Why? Give me one good reason why you would break up with her?" Niall snaps just as the kitchen door opens making my eyes widen as the last person I could possibly imagine walks in.
"You broke up with my sister?" Klaus gapes as he enters the room narrowing his eyes at me as he holds Joseph in his arms. He looked different. Had his hair cut, clean shaven, even had a shirt and slacks on. This wasn't the Klaus that fought with me in this very kitchen months earlier.
"Woah...Uh N-Maybe-" I stutter as his eyes widen at me. I look to Niall but he just looks awkward as he stands in the middle of us. I hadn't spoken to Klaus in ages, we had been civil since the last argument we had but other than that we were barely friends I think.
I did miss our friendship and I would do anything to get it back, we have been friends for 13 years and I didn't want to leave on bad note. I guess now me and Amy were over, we could maybe build our friendship back up? I don't know.
"What? Is she alright? What the fuck did you do this time? I Fucking swear Harry if she's hurt-"
"I thought you would of wanted this?" I frown completely thrown off by his reaction. Klaus and Amy were not on speaking terms that I knew of and that was all because of me.
"Not if you've hurt her!" He snaps but doesn't raise his voice, probably because he had Joseph.
"I'm sure you do a good job at that yourself mate" I spit before my mind could catch up with my mouth.
"To be fair you are nasty to her" Niall chips in looking to Klaus making me roll my eyes. God we didn't need a fight on our hands right now. Not in front of the baby.
"She's my sister, I was harsh on her because I care about her'' Klaus says looking between Niall and I.
"Great excuse, I'll use that one next time" I roll my eyes and Niall sniggers just as Klaus shoots daggers at me.
"Can you blame me? Harry you used to be such a fucking asshole with girls! I was looking out for my sister!" He raises his voice slightly at me and I can feel myself get frustrated instantly.
"But I love her!" I yell furrowing my brows together as I look at him intently.
"I know!" He yells back and I open my mouth to defend myself instinctively, but shut it straight away.
"What?" I gape in shock at what he had said. Was I hearing things?
"I know" he sighs as he looks down at Joseph who was stirring in his sleep. God he looked so beautiful. My heart aches as the thought of having children with her had now been diminished, it wasn't going to happen, ever.
"My Mom told me fucking everything" he says as he sways slightly sushing the small child in his arms.
"And then Jade kinda swayed my judgement a little too" he smiles lightly at Joseph before looking back up at me with a straight face. It was weird seeing Klaus like this with a child but I couldn't help but see the old Klaus seeping through. The Klaus I was best friends with.
"I don't understand-"
"I know you hate me, I get it" He says cutting me off making me roll my eyes. I didn't hate him.
"But the way you spoke about my sister the other week kinda woke me up a little, I wish I could hate you but- but I just can't" He says and I just sit and listen not really knowing what to say.
"I see the way you look at her, and god does it make me want to be sick? Yes. But I just- after I heard about you leaving I guess it's kinda time to end all this shit" he says and my eyes widen slightly. He actually wanted to move past it all?
"I don't want to throw 13 years of friendship away over a girl- especially my sister" he says with a slight smile playing on his lips. I feel my chest ache at his impeccable timing. Why couldn't he say all this about a 3 weeks ago? When I actually still had a chance with his sister? When we actually were together? Why now?
"God you have really bad timing" I shake my head laughing lighting with sarcasm. I guess none of this really mattered anymore now that I had just broken up with her.
"I'm surprised she's not going with you" he says and I frown shaking my head. It would be a lie to say I had never thought about asking her. Because I had. I was so close to asking her at one point, but the subject was changed before I could even open my mouth.
"She's going to Stanford" I sigh. Fucking Stanford. Fucking hated even talking about that place. Don't get me wrong I was happy for her and so proud of what she has accomplished, but California was so far. So far from England and home.
"What? Stanford? As in California?" Klaus' eyes widen. My chest ached even mentioning it.
"Yeah" I sigh. Not that it mattered though? I would be in England. Thousands of miles away. An ocean away. A whole 'Pacific' ocean away. I nearly roll my eyes at my own thoughts but catch myself before I get a head.
"I guess it's kinda all worked out for the best" I tell myself.
"But I thought you lo-"
"I do" I cut him off as my head falls into my hands in frustration. Course I loved her. I always will.
"I fucking do, so bad" I mutter into my hands before pulling them away.
"But I won't be the one holding her back" I shake my head as I play with the rings on my finger again. I hope she keeps my ring.
"Maybe she'll find a nice guy in California and maybe some new friends? I don't know? But I don't want our relationship to get in the way of her doing all the things she should be doing at her age" I sigh shrugging my shoulders trying to convince myself more than him really.
"I mean- god knows when I'll even come back so-"
"You aren't coming back?" Niall frowns.
"I don't know" I shrug.
"But I can't let her wait that out for me" I quickly add so I didn't answer anymore questions on that.
"Gosh you do have it bad" Klaus laughs lightly, shaking his head at me.
"I leave in just over a week, and I'm starting to think it's for the best" I lie.
"She deserves better, and I'm done being selfish with her anymore, I can't do it" I tell myself.
"She needs to move on and live her life, go to Stanford and live her dream- I would only be holding her back" I convince myself, telling myself this for like the 100th time.
"Your so full of shit it's unreal" Niall snaps making me frown at his sudden outburst.
"If that was me, I would of at least tried to make it work- You've given up before even getting to the first hurdle" he spits looking at me angrily as he shakes his head in disappoint.
"It's a fucking joke" he laughs in disbelief as he heads towards the door.
"I thought you knew better, but clearly not" he spits before slamming the door behind him.
What the hell just happened?
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1 week later
Amy's POV
It had been a week since I last saw Harry.
After that night, I hadn't seen him since. He left. He walked out. Gone by the time I woke up. I didn't even notice because he used pillows to replace his body that I was cuddled into all night. I was so lonely.
But I didn't know how to feel.
I was hurt that he had left after everything he said to me that night. I was so hurt. But part of me felt like it was bound to happen. He was moving. I was moving and nothing was stopping that from happening. I couldn't help but think maybe it would of been easier if we just kept or relationship platonic.
Keep him just as my Brother's Best Friend.
"So I was thinking we put all your bedding in this box, your dressing table in this box and then your clothes in those ones" I hear my Mom say as I zone back in from my day dream. I was packing for Stanford seeing as I was moving earlier than planned.
I needed to go, as soon as possible.
Luckily my dorm was ready for me seen as I was leaving on Friday, instead of in two weeks time. But as of right now I was laid on my bed staring up at the ceiling in my sweats as my Mom and Dad were helping me pack my stuff.
My Mom and Dad were so happy when I told them about Stanford. They cried. I cried. It was cute to say the least. They immediately started looking more into it and even called Mrs Everly to thank her which I thought was a little over board but she appreciated it. I had been spending my time with Mrs Everly lately. Staying later after classes for extra credit and to talk about Stanford stuff. She was pretty cool.
I hadn't seen my friends at all. You could say I was avoiding them but I don't really know what I was doing to be honest. I didn't want to see them in case Harry was with them. I didn't want to talk about the whole situation I just wanted to focus on myself.
"Amy are you listening to your mother?" My Dad says sternly to me and I instantly feel bad.
"Yes- Yes of course" I sit up abruptly trying to make it look like I was actually listening. Something I kinda was doing a lot lately.
"I will not do all this myself, now move" My Mom snaps at me with her thick Spanish accent coming through. I roll my eyes as I climb off the bed moving towards my dressing table. I guess I better help then.
"Fine" I sigh as I start to pack away some of my shit into the box. I did not want to do this right now at all.
After packing my room up for about 3 hours, we were no where near done. My closet was still yet to do and that probably would take a day itself. My bathroom was nearly packed up and my Bedroom was half down. The basics were left out really.
"Amy we've ran out of tape!" My Dad shouts from the bedroom as I wipe down the sides in the bathroom. Of course we were. How typical?
"Check the top draw!" I yell back to him. I hear him rustling around a second before he yells back.
"None!" He says and I shake my head. There had to be some.
"Go ask Klaus if he has any!" He yells to me making my eyes widen.
Klaus and I were talking. He apologised to me, I mean I didn't accept it, but I said he needed to make it up to me so he was working hard. He was taking me to dinner like nearly everyday, texting me, bringing Joseph over more and everything. It was strange but I liked it. I missed my brother and I guess there was nothing pulling us apart anymore. I had to talk to him at some point right?
"What? No-"
"Go!" My Dad yells as I peak my head round the corner seeing him glaring at me sternly. I sigh before groaning in frustration as I storm out the bedroom. Today wasn't my day. I was in such a bad mood and this couldn't really get any worse.
Within a few minutes I found myself outside the boys house. My heart was racing as I saw Harry's car parked right out front. I just hoped he wasn't in, maybe he went out for a run or something. I didn't want to see him. I wouldn't even know what to say to him? I didn't even know how I felt towards him at all.
I took a deep breath moving my hand to knock just as the door swings open.
"Oh- Amy..." Niall looks at me with wide eyes as he looks shocked to see me. Well I hadn't seen him in a week or anyone except Klaus really. I think anyone would be shocked to see me.
"Uh-" he looks back into the house a second making me frown before he looks back at me.
"Are you okay?" He ask trying to lean against the door frame casually, closing the door so I couldn't really see in.
"Is Klaus here?" I ask, ignoring his question. He looked like he was hiding something but I didn't understand what he would have to hide.
"Yeah, he's uh-"
"Great thanks" I smile falsely at him as I push the door open.
"Woah no-" Niall tries to stop me but I've already entered the room by now.
Then I say why.
Klaus was at on the couch playing video games, drinking beer and eating shit with Harry. Well I was shocked to say the least. I didn't even know they were speaking again. They were all shirtless Klaus is shorts like Harry and Niall in joggers as they all held game controls in there hands.
"Oh hey..." Klaus looked over his shoulder at me awkwardly.
My eyes instantly go to Harry's as he looks up at me. I feel my chest ache as my eyes lock with his for the first time in what felt like forever. He looked tired. Stressed almost, his frown lines showing as he looked at me in shock. For a second a felt like we were the only two people in the room.
"I- uh.." I tear my stare away from him trying to gather my thoughts to form a sentence which seemed to be more difficult then it should of been.
"I-I need tape" I say as I look down at the floor trying to avoid his gaze on me. Maybe I could of been polite, but it kinda just left my mind once I saw him.
"Why?" Klaus frowns looking at me weirdly. I almost smacked him for putting me in such an uncomfortable situation.
"Uh.. I-I'm packing" I mutter just as Harry looks away from me, disengaging in the conversation. Thanks Klaus.
"Oh" He states looking between the two of us awkwardly.
"Well Harry had it last, didn't you?" Niall says and I literally wanted the ground to swallow me whole.
"Wh-Uh.. No" Harry frowns looking back at Niall with wide eyes.
"Uh yeah you did, you had it yesterday" Niall smirks smugly. Oh- I see what he was doing. I wasn't happy about it.
"No I didn't Niall" Harry glares at him.
"No I think you did mate, didn't you have it in the kitchen- Niall let's go look" Klaus quickly jumps up off the couch making my eyes widen. I looked at him with pleading eyes as he pushes Niall towards the kitchen, smiling at me briefly.
"Oh yeah..." Niall clicks on, before they both head to kitchen whispering to each other as they leave me stood here looking liking a fucking lemon.
I literally wanted to kill them both.
I stand there awkwardly not really knowing what to do-
"You know you can sit down?" Harry says catching my attention instantly. I was shocked he actually spoke to me. Was I to sit? I didn't know if I wanted to. I don't think I wanted to. But I kinda didn't want to be awkward.
"Oh" Is all I say I can come up with before I quickly move over to the other couch without taking a second look at him. I sat in the chair awkwardly not really knowing how to act as I just looked at my hands playing with the ring on my finger. His ring. God did he want this back? Should I give it to him? Would that be weird? I don't know?
"Popcorn?" He extends the blue bowl full of popcorn to me. I look down at the bowl before looking up at him slowly. Was he serious? Popcorn? Did I want popcorn?
"Um.. No thank you" I mutter shaking me head causing his to nod putting the bowl back down. He then leans back slouching into the back of the couch without a word as he picks up the controller, pressing play on the game.
"You know, this game is two player if you want to play?" He says making me frown as he glances back at me then back to the screen.
"What?" I gape in shock. Was he serious? Popcorn and now playing fucking car games. I didn't believe it. I didn't even know how to react.
"It's two player" he frowns pausing the game to look at me.
"Meaning two people have to play" he adds looking at me as if I was dumb.
"Seen as them two have fucked off, that leaves you" he says shrugging slightly. Oh god.
"Your my only hope" he says and I frown trying not to laugh instantly. Did he just-
"Did you just quote Star Wars?" I cant help but smile slightly as I look at him inquisitively.
"Maybe-"
"But I thought you hated Star Wars?" I frown and he shrugs. Harry only used to watch Star Wars because I loved it and he lov- he uh.. he wanted to do what I wanted.
"No I hated it because you made me watch it like a hundred times" he rolls his eyes playfully.
"I was barely watching it half the time" he adds and I raise my eyebrow at him.
"Then why do you know more lines than me?" I challenge causing him to smirk as he laughs lightly.
"Because I'm practically a fucking Jedi, I've seen it that many times" he says and I roll my eyes laughing lightly too. What even were we doing right now? Were we supposed to be laughing like this, after we hadn't spoken for a week? After we had just broken up? I didn't understand the dynamic's right now.
"More like Chewbacca" I mutter causing him to frown.
"What?" He frowns at me not hearing what I said.
"Nothing" I shake my head trying not to laugh.
"I better go see what they are do-" I go to stand up but he grabs my hand as I go to move past his couch. I felt a shock as soon as he touched me, my skin tingling under his touch.
"Stay" He says looking up at me with pleading eyes.
"Please stay" he adds looking at me with what I would say were the 'puppy dog' eyes, he had mastered.
"Uh.." I look at him awkwardly not knowing what to do as he pulls me back slightly. What the hell was I suppose to say? Of course Harry I love you'll I'll do anything for you or No fuck off, we're over and I hate you?
"Can we talk?" He asks as I look at him skeptically. Did I want to talk? Not really.
Did we need to talk? Probably.
"Harry.." I try to get out of it but he stops me instantly.
"No please let me say this- About the other day, I'm so sorry I left I just-" he stops shaking his head as he pulls me to sit down on the couch beside him. I don't even know if I wanted to hear this.
"After everything I knew it was the wrong thing to do, I just couldn't even think about talking to you after what I did" he explains and I say nothing at all, what could I say?
"I should of stayed and been mature about it and for that I'm sorry" he sighs shaking his head before continuing.
"Really I am" he says looking me dead in the eyes before I look down at the ring on my finger. My favourite ring.
"Do you not think I deserved better than that?" I whisper looking down at my hands as I try to stand my ground a little.
"I think you deserve the world" he says making my chest ache. I look up at him, his words playing my every need, and his eyes playing me.
"That's why I did it" he explains looking at me intently.
"I did it because I had to, for you" he sighs and I frown. For me? When did I want that? Why would I want him to do that?
"But I didn't ask you to do that-"
"I know"' he cuts me off, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly.
"I tried to keep my distance from you because I didn't know how you would react if you did see me" he shrugs looking down at the rings on his fingers, that mesmerised me.
"But then Klaus told me you refused to talk about me so I kinda presumed you didn't want to see me" he says and I do kinda see where he would get that idea from. I didn't want to talk to Klaus about Harry, why would I? But I didn't think he would tell Harry that. I didn't even know they had made up.
"I would of appreciated at least a call or a text Harry" I sigh. I had nothing. He never called or texted once, and I think if he had maybe I wouldn't feel this weird around him. I didn't know how to act. Could you blame me?
"And say what? Oh fucking hell sorry for breaking up with you 'xoxo'" he spits a little harshly, laughing sarcastically causing me to narrow my eyes at him.
"Don't be a dick" I frown sternly at him causing him to sigh. Now was not the time to argue. I didn't want to argue. I was all out of arguments. I was all out of everything I guess.
"I'm not, I'm just saying- What more could I have said?" He says kinda seeming to become a little frustrated. But I didn't have an answer for him. I didn't know what I wanted from him. Did I want him? Yes. But could I have him? No. Did I want to be friends? No. Could we be friends? No, I don't think we could.
"I don't want to talk about this, I just need tape-" I go to stand up but he stops me.
"Amy please.." he grabs my hand, his fingers brushing across the ring he put on my finger, looking down at it for a moment carefully.
"I-I don't want to leave on a bad note"' he says, before glancing up at me. I sigh sitting back down slowly as I pull my hand from his.
"I mean I cleared things up with Klaus-"
"How convenient?" I can't help but roll my eyes.
"Don't be a dick" He scolds and I frown as he uses my own words against me.
"I'm trying here" he sighs and I look away from him.
"Don't you see why we had to break up?" He asks and I look back at him instantly, his eyes burning into my own.
"I-" I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.
"I- Yes, but I just thought how and when you did it was just completely wrong Harry, can't you blame me for feeling uncomfortable around you right now-"
"You feel uncomfortable round me?" He cuts me off, his brows furrowing together. I shrug in response. I did feel uncomfortable round him.
"Why? I'm still me" He sighs shaking his head as he places his hand on my knee.
"I just- I don't know how to be with you, or be your friend even, because we've never been friends before you know?" I sigh, letting myself go.
"We went from hating each other to making out behind locked doors the next- I don't know how to be friends with you Harry" I admit and he looks like I may as well just have punched him in the gut.
"Can't we try?" He looks at me pleadingly.
"Harry-"
"I'm willing to try? I still want you in my life-"
"But I can't have you in my life if I'm not with you, don't you get it?" I snap at him, standing up from the couch in frustration.
"I can't do it" I sigh looking down at him as he watches my every move.
"I'm sorry" I whisper as I move away from the couch.
"Try? How do you know if you won't even try?" He frowns standing up from the couch.
"Because I'm looking at you right now and all I can feel is my heart beating at a 100 mile an hour, my palms sweating like crazy and my skin tingling every time you touch me!-" I raise my voice at him in frustration as I pull at my hair.
"So Please tell me how we can be friends now" I laugh lightly as I feel my chest ache at my own words. It hurt just saying this out loud.
"Amy.." he sighs coming closer to me, but I step back.
"Please don't ask me to be friends with you Harry, because I just can't, I wish I could- but I can't and I won't" I say sternly shaking my head as I look away from him.
"Maybe it's just better off if we just leave things here, like this-"
"No-"
"It's not your decision" I snap at him sternly causing him to stop talking. I knew I was being harsh but I had to be. I had to do this for myself.
"I can't be friends with you Harry" I laugh lightly shaking my head, letting it sink in.
"Don't make me tell you again" I sigh.
"So that's just it? We aren't friends? So your just gonna walk away?" He asks as I move towards the front door.
"Makes a change doesn't it?" I can't help but spit at him.
"Now we're back to square one" he sighs and I spin around angrily.
"No we're not, we are not back to anything- we are nothing" I raise my voice at him.
"And you know, maybe it is for the best?" I snap and he frowns stepping closer to me.
"But if we were just friends maybe it-"
"I love you Harry!" I yell at him cutting him off instantly. He freezes, looking down at the ground as I stand there.
"That's why I can't fucking be friends with you!" I snap angrily, but more out of frustration.
"I love you so much it fucking hurts Harry, and I wish I didn't- I wish I could just let you go but I fucking can't! Being friends with you is never going to be an option" I say truthfully as he looks up at me with wide eyes.
"I couldn't get over you if I were friends with you" I sigh trying to calm myself down.
"Understand that" I tell him trying to get my point across before he could cross me.
"I lo-" he starts but is cut off instantly.
"Hey guys-" Klaus opens the kitchen door interrupting us causing me to look away from all of them. Great timing.
"We found tape" He adds, holding the tape in his hands.
"Thanks" I smile as he throws it to me, me barely catching it.
"I better get going before Mom comes looking for me" I say, looking down at the tape trying not to acknowledge Harry as much as possible.
"You not staying for a game?" Niall asks gesturing to the remote control he had now picked up.
"Uh- no... I'm good thank you" I smile at him falsely as I try to fight back the emotion I was feeling right now.
"I'll see you later" I say as I open the front door. My eyes flicker to Harry's once more, before I close the door behind me.
Maybe now I had my closure.
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Questions
- What did you guys think of this chapter?
- Do you think Niall had a right to be mad at Harry at the start for breaking up with Amy?
- What do you think about Klaus now being back in the picture?
- What do you think of Harry breaking up with Amy?
- Who's side are you on Harry's or Amy's at the minute?
- Who out of Amy and Harry are the most compassionate one? And why?
- Who is the most argumentative out of the two? And why?
- Who is the more understanding one out of the two? And why?
- Do you think Amy was right saying she couldn't be friends with Harry?
- Do you think Harry actually wanted them to be friends?
- Do you think Harry and Amy could be friends if they tried?
- What do you want to happen in the next few chapters to end this book before the second one?
- What would be the worse ending to this book?
- Who is the more popular one out of Harry and Amy?
- Who is the more awkward out of the two? And why?
- Do you think Harry and Amy could have a happy ending?