I’m Jason and I am a 14-year-old boy. I am quite popular in school and I have pretty great life. I even have a best friend named Chandler Riggs who plays Carl from “The Walking Dead.” The biggest problem of my life is having to deal with being, well, gay… but I'm closeted. I also have a huge crush on my best friend…
It was mid November and it was Monday. I heard my alarm go off so I reached my hand over and turned it off. Then slowly got up, rubbed my eyes, stretched, and stood up. I then slowly pulled on some shorts and a t-shirt just so I wouldn’t walk around my house in my underwear. I then rubbed my eyes again and walked out of my bedroom door and went towards the kitchen. I then slowly pulled out a bowl, a spoon, some cheerios, and the milk. I then stuffed my bowl with cheerios and milk and enjoyed my breakfast.
After finishing breakfast I said a quick “Good morning” to my mom as I saw her walk past me. I then put my bowl in the sink and put away the cereal and milk, then went back up to my room when I saw it was 7:30am. I walked into my room and looked through my clothes for some… well clothes. I got a black t-shirt, some underwear, and some blue jeans. I changed then walked back downstairs and grabbed my backpack, then yelled into my house, “Bye! Going to school!” I then walked out hearing a “Bye!” from my mom. I got on my bike and started towards school.
When I got to my school I went and locked up my bike and then walked to where my group usually hangs out. I got there and I saw my group, it consisted of: Chandler, Josh, Wes, Avery, Jasmin, and I. I walked over to them and gave them a hello wave and gave a bro hug to Chandler. I then sat down next to them and the group talked amongst ourselves for a while. When we heard the bell Chandler and I got up and said bye to the group as we started to walk towards our class. We had Health and Safety together while the rest of our group had P.E. together.
It was a quiet between us while walking. Once we got there we sat in our seats, the tables were triangles so they could be arranged in fours, so he sat in the group of four behind me. When the bell rung to start class we realized we had a substitute. I heard Chandler get up quietly and walk over to the seat next to me and sit down (The person next to me usually was absent.) The substitute had his back turned so he didn’t see him switch seats. The sub started the class telling us his name and what we were doing, just bookwork that was really easy and we could do it in like ten minutes. Once he walked over to the desk to sit down the class slowly, but surely, started getting louder and louder, but the sub I guess didn’t care enough to say anything. Right as I grabbed my book out of my backpack I felt Chandler nudge me with his shoulder. I pulled out my book then looked over to him, “Yeah?” I asked awkwardly.
“We barely talk anymore dude…” He started quietly, “We used to talk like every day all day, what happened?”
“I don’t know…” I lied; I knew exactly why I barely talk to him anymore. It was because every time we talked one on one he pulls me back into my own living hell, being in love with your best friend who is straight…
“Well, I’m having a party on Friday, at my house. You going to come?”
“Sure.”
“Kay, so like right after school on Friday just come over, it’ll be a blast.” He laughs. After that conversation I slowly drift away from the talking and got back to my work.
It seemed like the work only took five minutes and right after I finished it I got bored fast. I started talking to Chandler some more about random stuff. I feel something on my leg. It feels like… a hand… I look around at the three other people at the table; they were Chandler (obviously), Jessie, and Kyle. I knew it couldn’t be Kyle or Jessie because I saw their hands, all four of them focusing on their work. I looked over at Chandler confused, the hand still on my leg. He looks at me as he smiles brightly and I can see him blush just a little bit, making his face a little pink. I then see him scoot his chair closer to me, and the hand slowly goes up and down my leg. “What are you doing!?” I quietly yell in his ear so only he can hear. I see him blush even more and I feel the hand rub on my inner thigh, I can feel my face getting hot. The hand then slowly moves up and touches my crotch, I fidget a little bit uncomfortably in my seat, but he doesn’t stop, he just rubs on me. I then feel the hand slowly unbutton my jeans. He leans up close to me and pushes his lips to mine and the room goes completely quiet. I feel awkward because I can tell the whole room is watching us, but I kiss back, his hand still on my crotch. We pull away to breathe and I get a glimpse at the people in the room, all their jaws dropped, and they stared at us. Chandler looked me straight into the eyes, his beautiful eyes seemed like they could see through your soul. He then whispered, “Jason, Jason… Jason! JASON!!!”
I opened my eyes and saw Chandler rapidly waving his hand in front of my face. “Jason oh my god you were sleeping...” He chuckled, “You could freaking sleep through an earthquake while your house is falling!” He laughed some more, I laughed with him awkwardly. He pulled me back in! Dammit! I just stopped dreaming about him a couple days ago!!!! He turned away laughing and started to get back to his work. I felt myself getting hard under the table, I quickly scooted back a bit and pretended to stretch and moved my hands down my lap to push it down, trying to be inconspicuous. Luckily I was able to calm myself down, for now…
The class ended after an hour or so, I gave Chandler a bro hug to say bye since we were splitting ways for the rest of the day except for 6th period and lunch. I walked quickly out the door and to my next classes. After 3rd period I got up from my seat. Then I realized it was lunch… I was going to see Chandler again… oh no.
I slowly walked outside (Our cafeteria is outside for some reason…) and slowly to our spot. When I got there luckily Chandler wasn’t there yet, it was only Josh, Avery, and Jasmin, whom I said hello to. Soon came Wes with is food already.
Wes was always ready to eat… Wes had brown hair and brown eyes, his hair was only what seemed like two inches long and, like I said a second ago, was always ready to eat. He was actually skinny as hell; he was like Shaggy from ScoobyDoo, he was pretty much an exact image of him, with the same traits, but in real life and youngerish…
Jasmin was a nice and pretty girl; even for a gay guy I can say she is pretty hot. She has long blond hair and has green eyes. She is also very skinny and seems to always have things work out for her. Like even when Avery accidentally drops her plate (I’ll get to that in a second) she never gets any of the food on her.
Avery was a nice girl, and kind of pretty. She had black hair and brown eyes, she had freckles, and wore glasses. Avery always knew when and how to make the group laugh, even when we were in a bad mood, somehow she would make us laugh. Her only problem is that she is clumsy… like… very clumsy. Jasmin and Avery are also BFFs.
Then there is Josh. He has black hair to the bottom of his ears, and it was also very wavy. He has hazel eyes and had his lip pierced so he has a lip ring all the time. He was skinny and always wore a necklace that had a cross on it. Even though he wasn’t very big about his religion, I think it was some sort of family heirloom. Josh was also the conversation starter of the group. Whenever we would stop talking and it would be awkward silence, I don’t know why but that happens a lot in this group, he always find something to talk about. Like he always come up with his signature line, “Haha! There was this one time…” and then would start up a conversation that was very thinly linked to the conversation that stopped right before.
Then there is Chandler and I, Chandler is unexplainable in my eyes, and you don’t want to hear my thoughts of Chandler… Ohhh. Okay lets go back a bit. I have brown eyes and brown hair, my hair goes down to the bottom of my ears but is stupid and curly and does stupid things and I hate it… okay enough of that. I am skinny, not as skinny as the rest of my group though. I was the most quiet out of the group, I still talked when I was talked to but otherwise I kept quiet, that’s just how I am. The only reason I’m in this group is because of Chandler, after he got popular I pretty much was carried with him, since I am his best friend I practically went everywhere with him… I wouldn’t say this out loud but in my mind I can easily think of myself Chandler’s little puppy that he has to take care of, and that’s probably the reason he wondered why I have been avoiding him. Not like I’d complain being his puppy, I would get to sit in his lap and get pet by him, and lick his face… oh… that would be awesome, and it wouldn’t be awkward all the time…
“Jason… Jason! JASON!!!” I heard someone yell in my ear. It was Josh, “Dude, why did you zone out?”
“I don’t know I’ve been doing it like all day.” I responded half truthfully, half lying.
“Well, I asked if you were coming to the party.” He repeated.
“Oh yea, Chandler invited me during first period.” I smiled.
“Kay, just making sure.” We laughed. I don’t know why that was funny but I laughed with them. That’s when I saw him, Chandler, walking from the main building.
He got here quick and when he got to us asked, “What’d I miss?”
“Nothing, just Jason zoning.” I smirked and then looked up at Chandler, he was looking right at me.
“Why were you zoning?” He asked.
“I dunno… been doing it all day.” I responded quickly, trying to keep from making eye contact. After saying that he started talking to the rest of the group. We talked until we heard the bell. We then split ways again; I waved to the group as I walked to my next class.
I got there and I sat down in my seat. There was nothing special in that class or my fifth period class. Then it was my sixth period class, I sit next to Chandler in that class… I slowly walked towards my class. During the walk I had to decide to skip class or not, but I decided my grade needs me to be there. I got there and sat down, saying “Hello” to Chandler when I got there. He said “Hey” back.
The class started and we were watching a movie, I could hear people saying “Yay.” During the movie some people were talking very quiet including Chandler and me. We whispered about random stuff, but mostly talking about his party. There was no way for me to not talk to him; he just pulls you into the conversation no matter what.
That class was boring because it was just some dumb movie. After the bell rang I gave Chandler a bro hug and then left to go get my bike. I unlocked it and quickly rode home. I got home within ten minutes and put my bike in my backyard. I walked inside and said “Hello” to my mom and dad. I then walked up to my room and laid down on my bed. I started thinking about Chandler again. I could feel myself getting hard again, but I might as well embrace it since I’m alone now. I slowly slipped off my pants and got to my business.