*JONAS*
Well shit.
Now things were back to the way they were before and I hated it. It was so much easier to avoid what I felt when she hated my guts, and when she wanted nothing to do with me.
I need a drink.
I grab my car keys and head downstairs after quickly grabbing a banana off the counter and putting on my shoes. I needed to get out of here, I needed to forget.
I drive to the nearest bar and take a seat on one of the stools. Before long a blonde bartender appears in front of me.
"What's bothering you?" She asks with a southern accent
"Nothing. I just needed a drink"
She eye me wearily.
"Honey I've been working bars for the longest time I can always tell when something's bothering someone. There is no reason a good looking guy like you should be sulking at a bar"
"I'm not sulking" I grumble
She raises an eyebrow at me.
"Ah it's lady problems huh?"
When I don't respond to her her face lights up.
"Let me help you out, tell me what's going on with these ladies and I'll whip you up a special drink on the house"
I sigh and rack my hands through my hair.
A few seconds later she places a glass of amber colored liquid in front of me.
"What is this?"
"Rum and Vodka, it's a house specialty"
I shrug and down the glass. It burns as it goes down my throat and instantly warms my stomach.
"Now, what's the whole situation with the girls?" She asks pouring me another glass.
I sigh before I start explaining.
"Let me just start from the beginning, it'll be easier to piece everything together on where I went wrong. Two and a half years ago I went to this Halloween party with my brother...."
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"And now she hates my guts" I slur.
I had finished my story after about two hours. And I had lost my mind about four drinks ago. I was hammered, the bartender had become a hydra. I was seeing three heads.
"Well honey it seems to me you went wrong when you left her. And you told her you regretted the kiss, no girl wants to hear that."
I groan and lay my head on the bar top. It's lands with a loud thud.
The bartender chuckles.
"I'm such a dumbass" I grumble
"Did you mean it? That you regretted the kiss?"
I shake my head.
"No it was the best kiss I'd ever had. It made my toes tingle"
"Well honey I think you need to tell her that"
I groan again before lifting my head of the bar top.
"It seems to me that this Lacey is the one you want to be with. And the other girl was just your way of trying to forget. And doesn't she deserve to know? Don't they both?"
I hated that she was right. Lacey deserved to know how I felt, and it was only fair to tell Vikki that it wasn't going to work. But how? How the hell could I do it?
"I need to get home. I need to talk to them." I say standing, well attempting to stand. I wobble on my feet and hold onto the bar top to balance myself.
"Honey let me call a cab for you, you're in no condition to drive."
"Spencer will come get me." I grumble
"Spencer! It's time to go!" I yell from the bar.
"Please sit down!"
I whip my head towards the three headed lady.
"Where's Spencer?" I ask pulling out my phone.
I hit the contact and call. After a few ear splitting rings a sweet feminine voice answers.
"Jonas? Why are you calling me so late?"
"Spencer I need you come get me."
"Jonas what the hell! Where are you?"
"I'm at a bar. I had some drinking done and now I gotta piss, but first I need to talk to.. to.. ummmmm"
I hear shuffling and rustling around on the other line and by time a gruff voice starts talking to me, I had ended up sitting on the floor outside the bar.
"Jonas?"
"Spencer my man! Whassssss upppppp?"
"Did you get drunk again?"
"Helll yeahsss"
"Jonas what the hell is wrong with you? You scared the shit out of Lacey!"
"Laceyyyyyy"
"What bar are you at?"
"It's just down the house and away from the street."
"What?"
"What."
"Just stay put and I'll be there soon"
He hangs up before I can respond. I put my phone in my pocket after a few failed attempts.
Before I know it a very very pissed Spencer is standing in front of me.
"Spencer? Is that you?"
"Shut up dumbass and get in the car"
"Allllrriiigghhhtttyyyyy" I say wobbling into his car.
"I love you man, all three of you" I slur.
He shoots me a look that I couldn't decipher.
We're almost to the apartment building when I start laughing at nothing.
"What is your problem?" Spencer asks in a harsh tone
"I don't feel so good" I say leaning over
"Jonas I swear to god if you puke in my car I will murder you"
I sit up and lay my head on the seat.
"I gotta tell you something. C'mere."
He rolls his eyes. At least I think he did.
"Stop talking your breath is disgusting."
I start laughing again as Spencer tries to get me out of the car. We slowly and carefully head into the elevator and I slump against the wall.
"Spencer."
"What!" He snaps
"Dude don't yell my head hurts!"
"You are so immature Jonas. What happened? I thought you stopped drinking?"
"I did, but I needed a drink."
"You can't be doing this man."
Guilt filled me to my soul. But then I started laughing like a psychopath again.
Lacey's face appeared in my mind and I stopped laughing, she was so beautiful. I couldn't help but think about her, how much I wanted to touch her soft tan skin and run my fingers through her blonde hair. I wanted to kiss her so bad, I wanted her to know that I didn't regret the kiss, I wanted her to know that I was madly, deeply, painstakingly in love with her and that I didn't want to hide my feelings from her anymore.
Next thing I know we're standing outside the apartment door.
"I gotta tell you a secret. Lacey and I kissed. But don't tell Spencer he'd fucking murder me"
This time I could make out the look on his face.
"You what!" He yells at me.
"Stop yelling!"
"You kissed my little sister! When!?"
"She was looking really really sexy in her cat costume"
His hands tighten around my arms and I could make out the look he was giving me. It was unmistakable. He wanted to murder me. His eyes screamed at me in rage.
"Oh my god it all makes sense now. You're the reason she's been acting so strange! God I outta-" he's cut off by the front door swings open and Lacey stands there looking as glorious as ever.
"Hi lulu" I slur and an attempt at a smile comes across my lips.
"You shut the hell up!" Spencer snaps at me.
"Oh my god what happened to you?" She asks me
"He started drinking again and got wasted. You'd think the prick would learn his lesson after what happened last time!"
"Jonas, you didn't"
A blush creeps up onto my cheeks.
"He did!"
"Quite yelling at me! I told you I had a headache!"
"Guys shut up!" Lacey scolds us.
"Where's Vikki? I need to talk to her."
"She's at work still."
Still? She never stayed out late like this.
I groan as I land on my soft and fluffy bed.
"I love you Spencer!"
He grumbles something before turning away and shutting the door. Lacey just stood in the corner of the room staring at me with her arms crossed over her chest.
"I can't believe you started drinking again Jonas" she says to me quietly.
"I know, I'm sorry I let you down lulu"
She steps closer to me and I feel the bed dip where she sat down.
"You didn't Jonas. I just worry about you." She says as she puts her hand on mine.
I could tell she was sincere by the way she squeezed my hand and the sadness in her eyes and voice. It made me love her more, and yet she still didn't know.
"I'm sorry I made you worry about me, I didn't mean to, I just, I wanted to forget"
"Forget what?"
"That things were back to normal between us, but I still can't hold you, or look at you without wanting to pin you to the wall and kiss you with all I have"
Her body tenses up and she removes her hand from mine.
"Please don't go lulu. I didn't mean to scare you off, it's just about time I tell you the truth because if I don't do it now when I don't have control I won't tell you when I'm sober."
"Jonas.."
"I lied lulu, I don't regret the kiss, I never did. I just said that because I wanted to make it easier on myself, easier to fight what I felt, but I can't lulu, I can't fight it anymore."
She stays silent and looks at me with pain in her eyes.
"I'm sorry I made you feel the way I did, I'm sorry I pushed you away. I didn't know what I wanted, but now I do. I want you lulu. Only you."
"Don't say stuff like that. You're drunk yo-you don't know what you're saying. Just- just don't. Please. I don't want to get my hopes up again just to have my heart broken"
She stands up and heads for the door. I try to get up to follow but I can't get my body to work. I wanted to follow her.
"Wait don't go please"
"I'm sorry Jonas"
And she walks away, shutting the door behind her. It sucked. Now I know why she was so pissed at me for so long. As soon as the latch clicked on the door, my heart broke as she left me alone.