Warning
The use of drugs in this chapter is prominent, if this would offend you please don't read it
Chapter 85
Amy's POV
"Stefan pass-" Danny says as Stefan passes him the joint he was smoking. I watch as they take puffs as I lay on Danny's couch in a dingy apartment. I hadn't been here in forever. After the whole facade with my friends this afternoon, I decided I needed some other company. Stefan and Danny were more than happy to hear from me. I hadn't spoken to them at all through my time with Harry. I hadn't needed to. But now I guess you could say I had fallen back down the rabbit hole. Hard.
"West?" Danny offers the joint out to me as he puffs the smoke out of his mouth. Danny and Stefan were good guys, doing the wrong things. Maybe that was me too. But I think maybe I wasn't a good guy anymore. Harry made me doubt all that.
"No thanks I'm good" I shake my head as I sink back into the couch with my legs over Stefan. Stefan and I had become close over the years and it was kinda nice to have someone like him there. I knew the kinda stuff he was into but I guess I couldn't help but try new things because of him.
"Oh come on- don't be fucking boring" Danny rolls his at me as he holds the joint out in front of me. It was so tempting. I hadn't smoked a joint in months. I knew Harry would of killed me if I had even gone near this stuff never mind anything else. But he wasn't an issue anymore I guess. I could do what I want. And I wanted this. I needed this.
"Fine" I huff taking the joint from him before placing it in between my lips inhaling it as they both watch me carefully.
"Where's your boyfriend? Oh no better yet- your brother?" Danny laughs lightly as he takes a sip of the beer he was also drinking as he sits opposite me. Stefan was on his phone not really paying that much attention, but for some reason this did seem to catch it. Quickly.
"Shut up Danny" Stefan rolls his eyes at Danny who just sits there and laughs.
"Just asking" he shrugs and I inhale again. God, why did I actually stop doing this?
"I don't have a boyfriend" I sigh, sinking back into the couch as Stefan looks to me in confusion.
"Thought you were with Styles?" He asks and I shake my head. So did I- I wanted to say, but chose against it. I didn't need them asking questions that I didn't even have the answers to.
"Nope" I shake my head pulling the joint from my lips, exhaling.
"So... fancy a date with me then babe?" Danny winks at me making me roll my eyes. Danny was a good looking guy, tall, dark and handsome, but he just wasn't for me. Not right now. Not ever.
"You wish" I glare at him as he smirks at me taking the joint from my lips.
"Worth a try" he laughs lightly as he blows a kiss to me sarcastically making me roll my eyes.
"There's a party on 33rd, you guys up for it?" Stefan asks, looking to Danny with a smile. A party? God no thank you. No way was I going to a party tonight, I was planning on heading to my Mom's tomorrow for a family dinner, I was yet to explain to her the Harry situation too.
"You up for it West?" Danny looks to me and I immediately shake my head sitting up, pulling my legs off Stefan.
"I'm kinda tired, I might go home-" I say just as Stefan cuts me off laughing lightly.
"What the hell happened to you? Rewind to last year, you would of been the one begging me to go parties-"
"I'm just tired" I shrug cutting him off. He rolls his eyes digging in his pocket for a second before pulling out a little white bag.
"Well get some of that shit down you, and you'll be fine" he says as he throws the bag into my lap. My eyes widen at how openly he just threw this shit around like it cost nothing. It was fucking expensive shit.
"I don't know-" I shake my head as I look down at the bag of cocaine. I wasn't scared of using it, I was just hesitant. I hadn't used it since before Harry and I got together, I had bought a bag the other day off Stefan but had yet to use it as it was still in my locker. I don't know why I was holding back, I just was.
"It will only go to waste babe" Danny laughs lightly and I glare at him.
"You have it then" I say as I throw the bag at him, causing it to land in his lap.
"I've got this, I'm alright" he holds up his joint with a smirk as he puffs out a cloud of smoke.
"Come on I'm trying to be a gentlemen here" he winks at me as the bag now lands back in my lap.
"Oh wow thank you so much!" I say sarcastically as I glare at him playfully.
"Watch it-"
"Right come on, Dylan's outside" Stefan says as he jumps up from the couch.
"Why's Dylan here?" I frown looking up at him as he takes the bag from my lap. He empties the content onto the glass table in front of me before glancing over at me.
"To takes us to the party obviously- and your coming so don't even try to get out of this- you go AWOL for nearly a year and you think we're just going to let it slide?" He raises a brow at me as I just stare blankly at him. I didn't know what to say. I had no excuse. I just had to listen.
"Not a chance babe" he laughs lightly looking down at the lines now on the table. Nine lines to be exact. Nine.
"Now are we gonna make up for lost time or what?" He says with a smirk as he holds up a rolled up dollar to me. I look to Danny who just smiles at me, before looking back at Stefan. Part of me told me to stop and just walk away. But another part of me just lost it. I hadn't done it in so long and it was so hard to say no.
So I didn't.
I said yes, taking the note from his hand before kneeling down and taking three lines, before they shared the rest between them. I felt nothing.
Nothing at all.
"Let's go" Stefan smirks as he takes my hand pulling me up from the floor and towards the front door with ease.
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3 hours later
"Truth or Dare?" Danny turns to me making me roll my eyes. We had been sat in the kitchen of some frat house for over 3 hours now, drinking, smoking and doing god knows what else. I just knew that I felt like I was on cloud Nine.
"Oh come on, is this not a little old?" I sigh as I take a sip of the alcoholic beverage Stefan had given me. I say next to Stefan on the couch, as we sat with some of there friends Sam, Josh, Rich, Danny, Abbie and of fucking course Evie was here. I had tried to ignore her all night but I could see her throwing daggers at me with her eyes every time I spoke. I Fucking hated this bitch probably more than I hated Harry. And Victoria. And my Brother. And that's saying a lot.
"Just do it!" Danny laughs rolling his eyes at me as he lights up a blunt Josh passes to him that he had just freshly rolled.
"Fine- truth" I sigh as I sip my drink.
"Boring-" Evie laughs with her friend Abbie as they sit opposite me on the floor in front of Josh and Danny.
"She said truth, leave her alone" Stefan snaps at her before I could even get a word in. Stefan hated Evie. I swear most people did, to be honest. But I had a feeling there was a little bit of history between the two of them he conveniently forgot to tell me about. I just had that feeling you know?
"Whatever" she rolls her eyes before looking to me with a smirk.
"Amy, is it true that you slept with your Brother's Best Friend to get back at him for sleeping with your best friend?" She fires at me causing the rest of them to either laugh lightly or 'ooooo' at what she had just outed me for. Even though it wasn't true.
"What? No-" I try to say but her friend cuts me off.
"You can't lie!" Abbie laughs pointing at me as Evie leans into her laughing hysterically. I wanted to smack her there and then.
"I'm not lying" I snap and Evie smirks at me.
"Oh I'm sure sweetie" She rolls her eyes before continuing.
"Was he good? I know Harry is amazing with his tongue-"
"Excuse me?" I snap at her cutting her off.
"I mean, what do you expect from a guy with a wandering eye? You actually thought for a second he liked you? Oh please-" she laughs lightly and so does Abbie as they glance at each other. Stefan rolls his eyes at her and I watch as Danny looks away awkwardly.
"I heard about Victoria-" She smirks and I cut her off immediately. I was not going down this road with her out of all people.
"I don't want to talk about this-" I snap but she laughs cutting me off.
"Oh but I do! Your boyfriend- Oh sorry Ex-Boyfriend, couldn't help himself could he? Is that why your suddenly hanging back out with these losers?" She gestures to Stefan and Danny causing them both to frown. I couldn't help but be ruled by her words. Stefan and Danny weren't losers, I mean they weren't exactly the best of guys but they weren't low life's. They had jobs, good jobs at that. Apartments each and families and lots of friends, they were popular guys that were just mixed in with the wrong stuff.
"You better watch your fucking mouth-" I hiss at her leaning forward just as Stefan stops me.
"Amy don't" he grabs my arm pulling me back down.
"Oh you sound just like him! Shame he won't be round for much longer right? I can't wait to give him my own goodbye gift, maybe he could unwrap me?" She teases and I can't help but feel my blood boil. Why did it even anger me this much, when me and Harry weren't together anymore? I didn't understand it. But I knew I wanted to throttle her.
"I'm sorry but he doesn't go for whores" I spit at her with a smirk on my face.
"He went for you" she fires back and I feel my anger get the better of me.
"I will fucking kill you-" I spit as I launch myself at her with ease.
"Woah! Easy-" Danny quickly pushes me back before I could reach her, pushing me into Stefan as he grabs me holding me back from hurting her.
"Fuck off Evie, why do you always have to be a bitch?" Stefan snaps at her as she just laughs sipping her drink as chaos unravels around her.
"Your right I'm so sorry" she laughs lightly, looking to Abbie for a second before back at me.
"I'm so sorry your boyfriend cheated on you Amy, maybe he just wanted someone a little more... how can I say this?- Uh, less used?" She smirks making my eyes widen just as I push Stefan off me, gunning for Evie in a split second.
"That's it-" I scream at her as I manage to now be on top of her in an instant.
"Amy! What the fuck?" An all too familiar Irish voice rings through my ear just as I feel myself being lifted over a shoulder. I hear Evie yelling abuse at me as I'm being carried away from the scene before I'm placed back on my feet pinned against a wall.
"Niall she fucking started it, I swear I'm going to-"
"What the hell are you even doing here?" Niall cuts me off looking down at me in utter confusion. Why would he be so shocked to see me here? I didn't understand.
"I'm here with some friends, why-"
"Stefan and Danny?" He laughs pulling back from a little.
"Oh please don't tell me your hanging round with those losers again" he laughs rolling his eyes and my jaw nearly hits the floor in shock. I didn't think Niall was like this? To judge so quickly and easily.
"They aren't losers!" I push him in the chest getting him off me completely.
"You know your just as much of an asshole as Evie, you actually fucking sound like her" I snap at him and he glares at me.
"What? They fucking sell drugs Amy, how are they not losers?" He laughs lightly in shock making me frown.
"You don't even know them!" I yell back at him over the sound of the music playing through the crowded house.
"I don't care to, I'm trying to be a good friend to you-"
"I don't need you to be my friend- Get off me!" I push him off me as he tries to push back against the wall. He was cornering me, telling me who I can't be friends with and patronising me. I hated it. I saw red.
"Your acting fucking crazy-" he tries to say as he pins my arms to the wall just as he is cut off by an all too familiar voice.
"Niall..." I look up to see Harry stood to the right of me watching this whole scene play out. No.
No.
I couldn't deal with this right now. I couldn't handle him right now.
"Oh no no no-" I shake my head looking away from him laughing quietly to myself. This was too good to be Fucking true.
"Did you fucking set me up?" I push Niall off me angrily causing me to step away from the wall with ease. Niall says nothing just looks at me with wide eyes just as Harry narrows his own at me, folding his arm over his chest.
"Are you two conspiring to corner me or something?" I spit at the both of them just as Harry steps towards me causing me to step back into the wall.
"You- Get away from me" I point to him holding my hand up in defence.
"Amy-" Harry starts but I cut him off.
"No!" I yell over him shaking my head.
"I can't actually believe this- is this why you dragged me out of there? To see him?" I snap turning to Niall who just stares at me with wide eyes.
"No-" he starts but I cut him off.
"This is unbelievable" I laugh in disbelief looking down at the ground.
"He didn't do this" Harry states and I can't help but stare at him for a second longer than I should of.
"I swear I didn't" Niall says as he holds his hands up.
"Get the fuck away from me-"
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Harry steps forward pushing Niall back from me.
"Nothing just leave-"
"Come here" he reaches for me but I push his hand from me as he eyes me skeptically.
"Fuck off" I spit at him as he frowns.
"I Fucking swear-" he suddenly pushes me against the wall firmly grabbing my chin in his hand as he eyes me carefully. I try to push him off me but with all his body weight pressed against me I was not getting away at all.
"What the fuck have you been taking?" He spits at me angrily as I push his hand from my chin harshly.
"Get off me Harry!" I yell as I fight against him, but to no avail.
"I'll give you guys a minute" Niall says quickly before he runs off leaving us stood here. Alone.
"What the fuck have you taken? and Don't even try to fucking lie to me, I can see it in your eyes you've taken some shit-" Harry snaps at me as he pins me to the wall harder pushing for answers.
"Oh like you actually care" I laugh lightly as I push at his chest pathetically. I watch as he clenches his jaw, clearly becoming frustrated with me before he sighs looking fo the ground for a second before back up at me.
"What have you taken?" He sighs looking at me with sad eyes. He waits for a second just looking down at me as I catch my breath from fighting against him. I was exhausted.
"Amy, you need to tell me so I can help you" He breathes out and I frown.
"Help me? I don't recall actually asking for your help Harry" I snap harshly at him as his eyes search my own.
"Don't do this-" he pleads as he keeps me against the wall making me more and more aggravated.
"Let go of me" I snap pushing at his chest harder than before.
"Baby don't-"
"Harry I said let go!" I push him off me loosing my temper.
"You don't get to do that anymore!" I yell at him and he frowns before laughing lightly.
"Do what? Care about? You can't tell me to stop having feelings for you!" He yells back angrily.
"Just like you couldn't tell me about you leaving?" I snap harshly as I fold my arms over my chest defensively. He doesn't say anything. He just stares at me blankly.
"Double standards right?" I laugh sarcastically rolling my eyes at him.
"That's different and you know it" he spits at me and I frown. How in any world was this different?
"It's not different" I fire back.
"It is" he narrows his eyes at me.
"How? Why the fuck are you even talking to me anyway? You've lasted only a week" I roll my eyes and he frowns angrily at me.
"Don't be a dick" he spits shaking his head as he looks away from me, almost like he was checking who was around us. Being no one by the way.
"I'm not being a dick, you've ignored me for a week straight, no calls, no texts, nothing- and now you think you can stand in front of me right now demanding answers from me? What the hell are you playing at?" I yell at him and he rolls his eyes before sighing.
"Can you stop yelling at me for two seconds, so I can actually get a word in?" He snaps at me taking a step closer to me causing my back to hit the wall again.
"Like you deserve it-" I roll my eyes trying to push past him but to no avail.
"Hey-" he steps in front of me causing me to back up into the wall again.
"You either tell me what you've taken or I'll go over to those low life's and fucking ask them myself- it's your choice" he spits at me lowly as he points in the direction of my friends who were day round the corner. I'm surprised Harry even knew who they were to be honest, I didn't even think Harry or Niall or anyone like that would be here- it's not really there crowd of people.
"Oh How kind of you..." I roll my eyes sarcastically as he just narrows his eyes at me.
"Why are you doing this?" He sighs looking down at me intently.
"Why not?" I fire back as his fingers come up to my cheek, brushing away the hair that had fallen onto my face, without a word. I couldn't help but feel tingly under his touch but I would never tell him that. Not now anyway.
"Your better than this" he whispers looking down at me, his eyes searching my own for what felt like forever. Part of me missed him so much my heart aches but another part of me hated him for just dropping me and leaving me to pick up my own pieces.
"I don't need a lecture Harry, I'll have enough when I go to Stanford, thank you very much" I whisper back to him as I notice how close we actually were, his nose brushing against my own as he eyes cling to my lips watching there every move. Being this close to him felt so right but I couldn't push away the anger I felt towards him. The upset. The hurt. The heart ache. It was all too much.
"What?-"