Hallucinogens
How I wish I was just hallucinating everything that I see infront of me. Because I see no other than my own husband. With all his handsome looks and panty dropping smile.
He was in for something I don't wanted him to. He obviously has a plan already. I know him too much to just know it. And it was so intact. His smiles say it all. His smiles were dangerously burning with with something toxic.
" Goodmorning wife" He smiled. Napatampal ako sa aking noo ng makita ko siyang presko na nakasandal sa pintuan ng kuwarto ko.
" Your smiles creep me out, Xander. So stop smiling" He then laughed before advancing in my position.
" I have the right to smile, wife. It's a wonderful day and I'd like to take my wife in the beach" What! Did he just say beach.
" Wait-what! No. Ayokong pumunta sa beach. We're in Italy for pete's sake. It's not like if we're in San Diego" I muttered to him. He smiled
" San Diego it is then. My wife wants to go to San Diego." Saglit akong tumayo bago ko hinanap yung bra at panty ko.
Right. We just had sex last night. A mind blowing, and a scrutinizing sex last night. My female organ is sore but I need to deal with this man first.
I am naked. But god! I don't even care at all anymore. I don't have anything to hide from him. He already saw everything.
" I'm not going to San Diego. You can go if you want. I'm staying. I have a lot of works to do." I stood up from bed with the blanket sheet covering my nakedness. Void with no words, he just stared at me with his blazing eyes. I was about to move pass him when he suddenly cornered me against the wall and both of his arms then he kissed me erotically until we were both out of breath.
" What the hell are you doing Xander" I whispered infront of him. But intead of answering my question, he just kissed me again. The kiss was lustful. It was dominating, owning.
" Never ever kiss me again without my permission, Xander. I swear" Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko dahil muli niya akong hinalikan.
" I'm your husband. I'm entitled for a kiss." He whispered.
" Not until you cheated on me Xander. Tell me, was it Melanie you had sex with the night you called me?" I asked. I wasn't able to ask him last night because damn it! He was so good at what he is doing that I forgot everything. Damn it! Is that even possible
" She was in my place that night" He muttered. I closed my eyes.
" I know" Then he looked at me with an intensity as if piercing through my soul.
" Dad called me for a drink. We got drunk" He spoke once more.
" I wasn't suppose to go back to our house that night but damn it! I miss you so much." He was just intently looking at me.
" I didn't expect her to be in our house that night. She cooked dinner for me but it was already past twelve when I got home" That woman really did wait for my husband to come home. And I hate the fact that she assumes my work.
" I told her to go home. Believe me wife, I did. I am not a man who would just shoo a woman outside but I did. I did because I am married. And having another woman in my own house makes me feel like I'm cheating. But fuck the alcohol. I was too wasted to do it. She accompanied me in our room. I denied her but she insisted" He continued explaining. His words bitterly processed in my whole system.
Akto akong aalis nang hapitin niya ako.
" Fuck nothing happened wife. I'm fucking drunk but I'm not fucking dumb to cheat on you" His voice was dangerous.
He's explaining. I got it. But damn it! Ba't ba ang arte ko parin. Seems like I can't even put my fucking trust on my husband. Those moans. They seem real but all this time. Those were fake moans.
" I hate you. You know. I hate you because you freakin' always make me a cry baby. But I still freakin' love you so damn much." I almost said in a whisper. A glimpse of smile then was visibly shown in his eyes.
" Bakit ka ba kase naglasing ka. May jet lag ka pa tapos naglasing ka kaagad" Wika ko sa kanya.
He then breathed in before answering me.
" Mom's pregnant. And that called for a celebration" I almost gasped in shock and amazement. I then saw a slight line of smile in his lips.
" Dad planned it." He continued. Now I'm starting to get really nervous with my husband. Ma'am Charmaigne's at her 50s and I'm very sure of that tapos nabuntis parin siya ng asawa niya.
" Enough with this issue, wife. Because we both know that I'm so inlove with you that I cannot risk doing something that would kill me. You'll be stuck with me forever. Always think of that. Now, I'll be the one to ask you. And you don't threaten me with such lame annulment thing just because you heard another woman moan when you called me. Have you not even thought of me not cheating on you? Because damn it! I won't and I will never would cheat on you, wife. Hindi porket may narinig ka, naniwala ka na agad at pinangunahan ang lahat. You haven't even asked me about it. You haven't even let me explain. You just barged up into your own decision and decided to fucking file an annulment" That got me speechless.
Wala akong masabi dahil totoo ang sinabi niya.
My decision was lame. Gosh, I should have managed it maturely. I know it was such a childish act on my part. And I hate it.
" I'm sorry" Bulalas ko nalang.
"I'm sorry for not trusting you that much. I'm sorry for not letting you explain. I should have. Because if I would be at your shoes, I wanted you to do the same thing for me" He then hugged me
" That will never be a problem on me wife." He whispered.
" Please forgive me for hurting you again" He whispered more. Tuluyan na akong nalunod sa yakap niya.
" Now let's talk about the real issue here" He started.
" We never talked about your FRIEND RIEL." He opened up. Hindi ko alam kung magugulat ba ako o sasagot na lang.
" As far as I am concerned. I don't have any communication with him as of the moment" I saw him smile and I hate it.
" Really." His voice sounded so erotically dangerous.
" Not when you're hiding something from me" I then said. He's not good as this, I shall say. Alam kong may itinatago siya sa akin.
" My office may be full of his damn love letters but none will reach you" Dun na ako natauhan sa sinabi niya.
" What!" Napangisi na siyang tumingin sa akin.
" I'm damn lucky I married you. Ang dami ko palang karibal." Hindi ko na alam kung saan hahantong 'tong usapan namin ni Xander.
" Ano bang gusto mong palabasin ha. Parang kanina lang, ako ang galit sa 'yo, tapos ngayon, iyang walang kabuluhang issue ang sinasabi mo sa akin" Ang akala ko'y susumbatan niya ako ngunit nagkamali pala ako. Instead of fighting he actually made me speechless with what he just said.
" I'm a married man. I'm no longer a businessman" My mind travelled into different conclusions with what he just said.
" Ano na naman iyang balak mo ha" Tanong kong muli sa kanya.
He then extended his arms.
" Halika nga dito. Nakakamiss ka talaga" He muttered then I slowly moved to his embrace.
" Namiss mo ako?" I asked
I heard him chuckle.
" Hindi pa ba halata?" Wika niya pabalik.
He then laughed. Naalala ko tuloy yung nangyari kagabi. He is a true monster in bed.
" You took advantage on me last night you dimwit. Alam mong galit ako sa 'yo kagabi ngunit sadyang mahalay ka lang masyado." I muttered to him.
" I didn't, wife. It's not my fault that you make me horny. You slept on our bed totally exposed." Damn it! I can't believe myself. Sanay akong matulog na nakahubad tuwing nalalasing ako. Pakiramdam ko kase, inaapoy ako sa init sa tuwing nalalasing ako.
" Stop okay. Okay na. Kasalanan ko na. But damn it! You can't even put your penis steady inside your freakin' pants" I was about to fight him with words a
when I suddenly felt nauseated. Dumiretso agad ako sa banyo ng maramdaman kong nasusuka talaga ako.
Hindi na ako nagulat pa ng makita ko siyang nakabuntot sa akin habang sumusuka ako sa sink.
Shit!
I mentally cursed a hundred times.
I then faced him afterwards. Hindi nakawala sa paningin ko ang pagpipigil niyang ngiti.
" What" Walang emosyon kong tanong sa kanya.
" I love you" He muttered with a smile.
" I hate you" I walked out.
Damn it! It's too early. Ang aga pa para mabuntis ako.
And I just drank liquor last night. God! I hope it's not a morning sickness. It's just the effect of that freakin' liquor I drank last night.
" Paano ba iyan. Mukhang magiging tatay na pala ako" At talagang sigurado na siya.
" Hindi ako buntis okay" Untag ko sa kanya pabalik.
" Buntis ka. At kung mapatunayan kong buntis ka, iuuwi na kita" He muttered. I was taken a back.
Damn it!
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