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" talaga ate??"
" oo nga. . "
" eh si Pierre na talaga ang jowa mo for life??"
" shhh.. di pa alam nina mommy at daddy na nagsasama na kami. Naghahanap pa ako ng tiyempo na sabihin sa kanila.."
" eh kelan ka bang uuwi ng Pinas?"
" i dont know pa. Baka ngayong pasko. Eh teka nga, kayo ni Matteo!! Bakit nga pala iisang kwarto kayo??"
Nakita ko kung paanong namula ng husto ang mukha ni Sarah sa tanong ng ate nya. Nandito kami ngayon sa isang restaurant dahil katatapos lang namin mamili ng mga damit . . I find it really cute to see Sarah not comfortable fitting her dresses infront of me. Ang ganda ganda nya kaya!! Buti na lang din kasama namin ang ate nito,dahil alam nito ang pasikot sikot dito sa italya na kung san makakahanap ng mga tipong dress ni Sarah. Nakakatuwa silang dalawa. Complete opposite.
Sarah's timid, while Shine is outspoken . Sarah prefers simple designer clothes, while Shine's not afraid to mix and match clothes of different designers.
Nevertheless, both of them compliment each other.
" ate. Kasi ano , eh - ahm"
" o-em-gee!!! Ayyyy!!!! "
" ate!!" Natatarantang pinakalma nito ang kapatid. "Wag ka nang maingay! Pinagtitinginan na tayo . Matteo, patigilin mo nga si Ate!!"
" hayaan mo na sya. Nagulat lang ata" kalmado kong sabi.
" oh Gosh!!!! Nag seventh heaven na kayo?!!!!"
" ano?!" Si Sarah
" hahahah" ako.
" oh my gosh! Shocks!! I knew it! "
" ate!!"
" nag momol kayo kanina , or you just finished making love??! "
" tumigil ka na ate. Nahihiya na ako!! At di kame nag make love kanina! Ano ka ba?!"
" almost lang siguro noh!!"
" ang awkward ah! Andito si Matteo!!" Sabi nito.
" oh dont mind me. I cant hear you two. Continue talking. " tinaas ko pa ang kamay ko saka nagpanggap na walang naririnig. Pero ang Sarah bigla akong kinurot!!! "Ouch lovey!! Sakit ah!"
" eh kasi naman.. "
" so nadistorbo ko kayo kanina?? Coz you were'nt wearing bottoms! Naka tshirt ka lang eh"
" shocks ate, and extreme nitong conversations natin! Pwede bang ibang topic na lang ang pag usapan natin???" .
" ahm- plano ko pa sana matulog kang katabi mamaya.. but since may naudlot palang loving loving, separate room na lang ako. Tutal hahabol naman si Pierre bukas.. "
"Tama na ate, sobra na kong nahihiya.. ang awkward naman kasi ih!!" Tinakpan na nito ng tuluyan ang kanyang mukha gamit ang palad nito. Tawa naman ng tawa ng ate Shine nito. I saw how lovingly her ate stares at her.. then she looked at me..
" thank you. " she said. " thank you for fighting and for making my little sister happy. . "
" im just starting making her happy. I still got a long way to go to , and years to spend , just to make Sarah the happiest partner.. I will love Sarah with every beat of my heart. " direktang sabi ko dito.
She smiled at me . Its genuine and its full of emotions. I stood up and gave Shine a hug.
" thank you brother.. " bulong nito..
" thank you.. "
" hey you two lovebirds! My room's next to yours, wag masyadong maingay ha! " tukso muli ni shine kay Sarah! Alas onse na nang gabi. At kahit na anong pilit ko na same room na lang kami dahil nakaimon ang mga ito, ayaw ni Shine. Rason nito na darating ng madaling ang araw ang boyfriend nitong Frances at ayaw nyang madistorbo kami.
And my Sarah, well she's a bit tipsy.
" goodnight Te!"
" enjoy your night Sis! Hey bro in law soon, wag mong saktan ang kapatid ko, sasapakin kita"
" noted ma'am!!!" Sumaludo pa ako dito. I waited for her to close her door before i closed ours.
Seeing how happy Sarah doubles the happiness in me. . Kaya ko atang magpa alila sa babaeng to na nasisiyahan pa! Pasensya na, pero sobrang inlove ko sa babaeng ito..
Naglakad ito patungong kitchen saka kumuha ng tubig sa ref. Every movement she does, stops me from doing anything and leaving me to just staring at her. Ang pagbukas nito ng mineral bottle, ang pag inom nito, lahat yun nakatatak sa isip ko.
Slowly i walked towards her. Nakapikit ito habang umiinom ng tubig. And those sexy neck, and that water drippin' at the side of her lips make me groan instantly..
" ahhh.. ang thirtsty ko love." She said after drinking.
" water please" sabi ko dito. Pinakita nito ang water bottle nya at tumango ako. Binigay naman nito at agad ko yun ininom. I gulped it, and Its as if im tasting her mouth..
I drank the remaing water while staring at her. She stares back at me with same intensity. Tonight wont be just a usual night where we lie down our bed and sleeps!
Im making sure she'd get whipped!!
Pagkaubos ko ng tubig, tinapon ko lang ito sa sink sabay na hinapit si Sarah at siniil ng mainit na halik! I kissed her hard and deep. I made sure my lips would taste every corners of her mouth. And she responded with same amount of intensity'!
I gripped her waist and put her on top of the sink. Patuloy pa din kami sa paghahalikan. Her hands on my hair put much fire on what we are feeling right now..
" Love..," she called me in her most sensual way at it made me want her her more! My lips travel to her jaw to the side of her neck. "Hmmm why are you so addictive? , huh?" I asked her. She cupped my face and me look at her.. " dahil mahal mo ako!" She said.
" yes. Im so inlove with you.. " seryoso kong saad..
Nakatitig lang ito sa akin. Titig na titig. Until i felt her hand combing my hair and letting it move to my nape, down to shoulders, and back to my face. Nanatili ang mga palad nito ang mukha ko. Her thumb playing with my jaw..
" i love you so much , matteo.. " . Its almost a whisper, yet it is as if the world heard it. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. And before i could even utter a word, she shut me with her mouth.
Unti unting nauupos kami ng apoy na dulot ng pagdampi nang aming mga katawan. My hands roam around her body. From her thighs to the sides of her boob!! Her body reacts with every touch i gave her. Kung di ito nakaupo sa kitchen sink, malamang naduwal na kaming pareho.." oooh Matt.. " she gasped when i palmed her breasts.
" lovey.. sisingilin ko ang pagkabitin ko kanina. " bigla itong napasigaw nang binuhat ko ito. "Here? Sofa? Room? -"
" hah?? Pwede bang bathroom.. i feel so sticky. I wanna bathe"
" we'll bath together. And it will longer than the usual."
" hah?? "
" i'll show you how our bath should be. " at muli ko itong sinungaban ng halik. At wala na itong nagawa pa kungdi ang tumugon...
" ooohh!! Love!! " her back facing me, her body pressed on the wall.. " Gahhd!! Ahhgg!"
" tell me if it hurts, ok?" I kissed her nape and continued taking her from behind. The shower wont give justice on how wet we are right now. It cant even kill the burning passion in us! Slowly , im thrusting in and out of her, careful not for her to get hurt.. I could still control the beast in me. Ayokong mabinat ito kung sakali..
" lo-ve!!" . She arched her back and that gave me access on to taste her neck. My hands cupped her boobs. Palming and fondling the softness of her two mountains. Perfectly fit on my hands. Paulit ulit itong humihiyaw. At tila isang napakagandang musika ang dating nito sa pandinig ko.
" hmmm.. Sarah.. " i crawled my right hand on her neck and moved her face to meet my hungry lips! Habang ang kaliwa kong kamay ay dahan dahang bumababa hangang sa huminto ito sa pinakaiingatan nito.
" oooh- mnm.. " .
Our lips meeting as if its insync with my sensual thrusts! I cant move faster and rougher yet. Im still letting her adjust fully on my lenght. And i cant think of better ways to lessen the pain while im inside her. Alam kong masakit ito dahil minsan ko itong narinig na napapaigik, ngunit alam ko ding di nito ako gustong tumigil..
" love!!! "
" hmmmm.. ". Huminto ako saglit. I pulled out and i felt how she breathe deeply..
" ooh- ooh.. ahm!!" Patuloy pa din ako sa paghalik sa mukha nito pababa sa kanyang leeg. " sarah.. " anas ko. Madiin itong napahawak sa kamay ko na mabilis na gumagalaw sa gitnang bahagi ng binti nito.
" Ma-aaatt!!"
Hinarap ko na ito sa akin saka muling sinakop ang mga labi nito.. and slowly, i guided my shaft inside her again.. " not yet done lovey. " i whispered in her ear.
" ahhhhh!!! " isang malakas na halinghing ang muli kong narinig mula dito.. " oooh Matteo!!!! -ahh! Shit! ! " . I smirked at her curses. And it fuels me more! Her face's showing how orgasms ripping her, her mouth parted.. her eyes shut!! Her eyebrows meeting, and her chest's flushed!!! Yumuko ako at nakita ko kung paanong gumalaw ang mga katawan namin. I could clearly see how her breasts move! How her fingers dig deeper on my skin! This woman is not allowing me to breathe properly. Im getting near! And my voice's growling inside, and i couldnt control my movements anymore!!
Our voices' are the only music that's keeping us alive. The bodies clasping, the water dripping all over our body ,intensifies our love making! This woman is a goddess! In all aspect. In every detail of it.
" i love you so much Sarah.. " i groaned. . I stared at her once more, before claiming her over and over again..
" wake up sleepy head. " past seven in the morning and Sarah's still sleeping soundly. Tumawag na ang ate nito at sinabing maghanda na kami para sabay nang mag agahan sa resto dito lang din sa hotel..
Di ako nito pinansin, bagkus, tumalikod pa ito sa akin. Her bare back is exposed and my eyes feasted on it. Such a wonderful view.
Naligo na nga akong una dito, dahil pag sinabayan ko pa ito di na naman kami matatapos on time. Last night, we made love . We were one. And the feeling was beyond wonderful.
" lovey... "
" hmm.." at di pa talaga ito nagising. Kaya muli ko itong niyugyog ng mahina.
" wake up na. Tumawag na si ate mo. We better get ready na daw.. ". Gumalaw lang ito, pero gaya kanina tulog pa din!!!
Medyo natangal na ang pagkakabalabal ng kumot sa katawan nito dahil sa kanyang galaw.. She's almost half naked!! And fuck, nabubuhay ang alaga ko!!
" sarah.. bubuhatin na talaga kita papasok ng banyo pag di ka pa nagising. " banta ko dito. But then again, deadma lang ito. Tuluyan na akong nahiga muli sa side nito. Nakatalikod ito sa akin, kaya buong ingat kong dinampian ng halik ang batok nito. My lips traces her spine , and it leaves hot marks on her back..
" hmm- what are - you doing?? " antok pa din ang boses nito.
" waking you up.. "
"Uhm.. - "
" hmmm.. you smell so good lovey." Kasabay ng pag akyat ng labi ko ang paghaplos ng aking kamay sa katawan nito..
And when i was about go touch her bossom, she stopped me!
" im feeling sore love.. " i heard her speak.. "at ang aga pa para lumandi sa akin"
" wha- ha- hahahaa!! Landi talaga??" I spooned her and kissed her cheek and neck countless times! Mukhang nakikiliti ito. Kaya pinagpatuloy ko lang. "Gising na lovey.. gising na. "
" gising na nga po eh. "
"Wehhh. Eh bakit nakapikit ka pa?"
"Gigising na.. "
" gusto mo ako na magpapaligo sayo?"
" ligo lang??"
" yeah. You're sore.. And its my fault. I should have been more gentle. Im sorry lovey.. "
Tuluyan na itong humarap sa akin. Slowly she opened her eyes. Then she covered her mouth. " di pa ko naka toothbrush" . Tinangal ko ang kamay nitong nakatakip sa bibig nya saka dinampian ito ng halik! " lovey.. " mahinang tulak nito. Napa pout akong bigla. " di pa ako nag mumog!"
" kiss me.. "
" yoko." Sabi nito sabay tulak sa akin. Pero di ako papayag! Kaya bigla kong kinabig ito. I pinned her hands on top of her head and kissed her hard! And as much as i want to take her, i have to control, or else we wont be able to explore the city for im going to lock her inside our room and make love with her over and over...
" tuloy na ang ball ??" Shine asked her.
" ah , ano kasi ate, diba my japan screening, flight ko sa 30. " bigla akong napahinto sa paglalakad dahil sa sagot nito. We're inside a shopping center ,and were buying 'pasalubongs' . "Pag uusapan pa namin ni Matt.," mahinang pinisil nito ang braso ko tanda na kailangan naming magusap ng masinsinan.
" pero , akala ko ba Matt , nagawa na ang gown ni Sarah?" Shine asked me.
" yes. Nag fitting na kame. But you know, una muna work. " seryoso kong saad. Kinuha ko na lang sa mga kamay nito ang mga paper bags, . " i'll put this in the car muna, sa resto na ako susunod" ani ko na hindi na hinintay ang sagot nito. I heard Sarah called me pero dumiretso na lang ako ng lakad.
Fuck!! I hisses under my breath! I thought we're ok ! I thought we're coming together to the ball, but what happened?? Bakit biglang hindi na ito pwede at pag uusapan pa??!
" love.."
" shit! " nagulat dahil di ko inakalang susunod ito. " Sarah??di ba sabi ko sa resto na lang mag antay, ipapasok ko lang ito sa kotse"
" im-
" dont say youre sorry. I know. I understand. I completely get it" di ko na itago ang sarkasmo sa boses ko. " and its work. Job. Career. And its fine with me. "
" di ba pag uusapan muna natin. "
" yeah yeah. "
" matteo!"
" ok, Sarah. We'll talk about it later. " binuksan ko ang compartment ng kotse saka nilagay ang mgs naunang nabili namin. Pabagsak kong sinarado ito. And i cant hide my frustrations!!!
I breathe sharply and closes my eyes! I need to calm down. Pwede pa namang pag usapan.. pag uusapan pa namin..
" love.. " naramdaman ko ang pagyakap nito sa likod ko. " we'll plan about it. Tingnan natin kung kaya ng sched.. please dont get mad at me.. " .at hindi kaya ng puso ko na marinig na ganito ang boses ni Sarah. Nasasaktan ito. Pero mas masakit sa akin na makita itong nasasaktan. At kasalanan ko..
" im sorry Sarah.. " humarap ako dito saka niyakap ito ng mahihpit. I kissed her head several times. " im sorry love.. im so sorry. I didnt mean to raise my voice on you.. im sorry.. " i cupped her face and kisses her forehead before hugging her tight again..
" let me see your schedule" ani Shine kay Sarah. Nasa restaurant na kami ngayon kasama ng boyfriend nito. Sarah handed her her cellphone and let her Ate see her sched.
Kinuha ko na din ang cellphone ko para icheck ang flight schedules.
" di pwedeng di ka pumunta" dugtong ni Shine. Puno nang pagtatakang napatingin si Sarah dito. Maski ako , interesado akong makinig sa rason nito..
"Dahil ito ang first Ball mo. Di ka nakapag JS nung highschool, no ball ever attended dahil binigay mo na ang buhay mo para sa aming lahat. Nagtrabaho ka at di mo na enjoy ang dapat na iniienjoy ng mga kaedaran mo nun.. "
" ate.. "
" at wala tayong choice nun, lalong lalo ka na. Sa trabaho mo na binuhos ang lahat. This time, Sarah, sarili mo naman ang iuna mo. Kaligayahan mo naman muna bago ang lahat.. pwede bang , ikaw muna bago ang iba?? Please Sarah, unahin mo na ang kaligayahan mo bago ang iba"
Di nito napigilan ang pagpatak ng luha. Shine hugged her instantly and like any other big sister, she showered her love and kisses..
Hearing her ate's stories made my heart melt.. It adds purpose on why im living.. Im living because of Sarah. Im living because i have to take care of this woman. Im living because theres a need to fill-in all gaps of life's loses on Sarah's part when she was younger. And im filling them little by little. Her happines will always be my top priority..
I took her hand and kissed the back of her palm. "Allow me to be your firsts in everything. "
" Matteo.. "
" What about we shop for your shoes and jewelries now??"
" lovey!!"
" oh wait . I'll be back.. and Pierre, can you go with me?"
" sure bro!"
" san kayo?" Tanong nito. Hinalikan ko lang ito sa ulo bago kami umalis ni Pierre. Kailangan ko kasi gawin ito..nagtaka man , nginitian na lang ako ni Shine..
" where are we going?" Pierre asked me.
" can you play any instrument?"
" im a good guitarist. "
" i can play the piano.. " sagot ko.
" and.. "
" ive got a plan. Let's go.. "
Una namin pinuntahan ang opisina ng restaurant. And good thing, kilala ng tito and Papa ko ang may ari ng restaurant na to! May wineyard ito, at isa si Papa sa mga regular customers nito. Mabilis lang ang naging pag uusap namin. They agreed on my request. They even gave us a hand, to help us in our preparation.
In less than 10 minutes, we were able to finish my 'gimmick' .
" ready??" Tanong ni Pierre. I gave him a nod and he started strumming!
" good afternoon, ladies and getlemen" . Im seated at the grand piano na nasa bandang pintuan ng resto. According to the owner, matagal na itong di nagagamit kaya ginawa na lamang nilang palamuti. Though its still ok.. There were guests inside the resto and they all looked at our way.
Pierre on the guitar, and he strums like a pro!
" this song is for you My love. "
" I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know
She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home
I found a love to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids but we're so in love
Fighting against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
When I saw you in that dress
Looking so beautiful
I don't deserve this
Darling, you look perfect.. Always.
" Sarah .. " i could hear claps from the people inside the resto. The waiters started giving her flowers , and Pierre continues strumming as im walking towards her. Im stil holding my mic, though.
" im so inlove with you lovey.. Im going to take this opportunity to ask you. ,"
One knee down as the waiters stood at my back, Holding a scented paper waiting to reveal its word written on it. Five waiters at my back, and Sarah's standing few meters away from us.
"Sarah, .. " and Pierre gave the signal to the waiters. Will. You. Be. My . Date?. That's what written on thepaper.. and i hold a bouquet of flowers in my hand for Sarah.
" Sarah, will you be my date on that Ball??? Say yes please. "
" say Yes. Say yes!" Pierre chanted. Even Shine was chanting too. Same with all the people inside the restaurant.
with all Smiles and tears she managed to say Yes and nod. "Yes' "
" and that's Final, ok?!" Sinigurado ko.
" yes!! Yes!! Yess!!"
" oh lovey!!" Tinakbo ko na ang pagitan namin saka ito niyakap ng mahigpit! " thank you love.. thank you.. " . wala na akong pakialam sa mga nakapaligid sa amin. Parang kami lang ang tao na andito. I care less of their claps,, of their shouts. Si sarah lang ang tanging nakikita ko.. si Sarah lang.. then i heard her talk.
" no lovey, thank you. . Ako ang dapat na magpasalamat sa yo. Thank you for allowing me to experience the things i forgot to feel because i skipped my teen life. . Nakalimutan ko na ang kabataan ko dahil sa trabaho. Salamat at binabalik mo ito, at pinaparamdam sa akin ang mga bagay na di ko kailanman naramdaman.. Salamat. "
" sarah.. "
" ganito pala yung pakiramdam na ayain ka ng crush mo sa ball. Ganito pala ito.. ang sarap sa puso.. Ganito pala.. salamat Matteo.. salamat. "
I cant help but to shed a tear. . I couldnt imagine how hard she had to gone through to be the star she is right now. All her hardworks. All the time her youngself lost..so many experiences and happenings skipped because of time she never had..
But im here now, and i made my self a promise, a promise i alone knows. . Im going to make her experience all the things she was not able to do when she was younger. And that starts with a Ball..
She deserves the world, and im giving it to her..