I was at the bar having my lunch break, when someone pulled the chair in front of me and sat down. My breath stopped when I noticed how great he actually did look today.
"Hi beautiful"
I looked away and silently cursed at my self for not eating somewhere else "What do you want?"
He smiled, "Simple.. I want you"
I shook my head and kept eating my food while he began eating his. After a few minutes of silence and me looking away, he finally decided to speak up
"So.. how has been your day?"
"Got worse now.." I replied taking the lid off of my drink
"Always charming Haeju.. you want me to leave you alone that bad? You wouldn't mind if you never got to see me ever again?" He asked taking a bite of his own food
"I wouldn't Jackson. I'm actually thinking of going back to Portugal so that can happen"
"What?" He asked now with panic in his voice
I shrugged my shoulders and he grabbed my hand forcefully "You can't Haeju" he hissed
"Why can't I?"
His eyes jumped in between my due to pure panic "You can't be serious are you?" He asked gripping my hand tighter
I shoved his grip away and stood up "I am serious. You have no say in it aswell" I told him sharply without causing a scene in the cafeteria. I picked up my container and walked away from the table not really wanting to explain what was going on to him.
I ran away back into the main area and waited for my tutor. On the TV it started playing music videos and while I was completely okay with listening to Put Your Hands Up, Why so Lonely and Knock Knock.. my heart sunk when I heard Look
대체 너는 걱정 하는 시간
얼마나 되는 거야 question
나는 너를 괴롭히는 것들과의
전투를 준비 중이야 yes, sir
(How much time
are you gonna spend worrying? question
I'm preparing to go to war
with the things that bother you, yes sir)
I groaned remembering the scene I had seen between him and the trainee about a month ago and how it still didn't left my mind.. I still had so many questions about them both..
"Hum.. Kim Haeju?" The lady in the entrance asked making me confusedly stand up
"That's me.."
"Your tutor asked for you to meet him in room 3" she smiled while still holding the phone
"Oh.. that's the small studio.." I stated while she nodded "Ok, I will!" I smiled bowing at her and ran to the elevator as fast as I could
I walked down te hallway passing by Got7's room without even taking a glance at it. I approached the door and noticed how it was dark inside, however, when I pushed the door, it opened
I got inside and looked around to see if I could see anything. Just when I reached to turn on the lights, I felt a hand behind me grabbing my hand which scared me
I felt another hand on my hips and then someones lips on my neck. I felt like my skin was on fire as those lips came in contact to my skin
"I'll love you so hard, until the point where I make you never want to leave" he finally whispered against my ear
"You're not my tutor" was the only thing I could say as his lips attacked my neck again
"Aren't you glad he got the flu?"
I took in a deep breath and his hands came up to my shoulders "You seem tense babe.. let me help you relax" he mumbled with what sounded like a smile
I was puddy for this man once again. He just had this effect on me. It doesn't matter how much I try to run away.. he always found a way to me
I keep fighting, riding, climbing
Till the day I see you (till the day I see you)
I can't lie can't hide it, deny how much I need you
Till the day I see you
I keep fighting till the day I see you
I bit my lip as I felt Jackson's hands start to move around. He caressed my curves as his mouth came up to softly nibble on my ear. I couldn't contain the moans I had deep in my throat
He then came in front of me and pulled me by the waist towards him, making me tingle between my legs.. this feeling of being complete over took my brain once again as he kissed me gently. I always felt like I was at my best whenever I was with him.. whenever we were kissing, hugging, holding hands..
I felt like none of my insecurities mattered as his hands caressed each part of my body without showing any preference for any of it.. as if to him, they were all the same.. they were all perfect
I was always someone who wore my heart on their sleeve, but with Jackson, it all had a different meaning.. I flew across countries for him and I would do it again if I had to.. I'd do anything for this man.. the guy who held me up in a pedestal.. the man who treated me like royalty everytime we were together
I'll jump on a train, drive I'm switching lanes
I'll come crashing
No matter what it costs to find you, I won't be far behind you
You're my passion, yes you are
But also, the human.. the I fuck up sometimes guy.. Wang Jiaer..
Even though I'm completely and utterly crazy about him, I simply can't seem to forget the first time we broke up, the day he told me he didn't want to be with me.. the fights we had before that.. all the yelling and cursing at eachother.. the nights I spent alone because of his job.. the feeling of finding out he overworked himself and got into an hospital by a fan.. him kissing another woman..
All these things that I still had a hard time getting over with..
I brought my hand up to his chest before pulling out from the kiss. We stood there in the dark just hearing eachother breathe. He kept on softly caressing my face making my heart melt. I looked up and saw the shine in his eyes. The reflection of the light coming from the corridor
"I love you Haeju. I want to be with you. I can't and will never forget you.. please don't leave me.. please don't go.. I'm scared" he whispered
I felt a drop fall to my arm telling me that he was crying. That explains why he didn't want me to turn on the lights
Take it all up let me block the rain for ya
Witness every moment, let me go through all the pain for ya
Let me be the one to make you smile
Overcoming all the fear let me be there
Wiping all your tears for ya
Not a problem where you at
Started from the place we met
Holding on you by your side let us ride
Till the end keeping all the promise
I'm gon' make it all for you
Writing rap like poems let me read it next to you
You the gift from heaven at least in my point of view
Let me prove that love lasts forever
And if anybody bring me a lifetime contract i'm gon' sign the deal
Let the raindrop hit my face, let the thunder strike
Let me be the dark knight claiming all the fights
Let me suffer all the pain
I know all the worst things happened cause they call it the lucky rain
I looked down at my hand since I had felt something beneath his shirt. His hand came down to my hip as I touched his neck so I could pull out the chain he had hanging on it. I let it dangle against his chest feeling another tear fall onto my skin, this time to the back of my hand.
He leaned slowly towards me and rested his forehead on my shoulder while I touched the necklace he had been hiding. He had many chains out, why did he hid this one?
I touched it with the tips of my fingertips and immediately recognized what it was.
"You wore this everyday?"
He cleared his throat "Whenever I was with.. her.. I t-took it off.." he said as quietly as he could
"Why?" I asked playing with the two rings in between my fingers, hanging onto the thin chain
"Because I couldn't use them.. it felt, wrong.. believe in me when I say that I have a lot of respect for you.."
"Why did you accept her offer?.." I asked feeling now the tears come to my own eyes
He hugged me tighter making our bodies touch "Because I thought I had lost you for good.. that you didn't see me as more than a friend anymore.. whenever we were together I tried holding your hand but you'd pull it away.. I tried to hug you and you'd bow.. it felt like.. like it was over.."
"I was trying to stop the temptation Jackson.. do you really think I didn't want to hold your hand and be next to you? It killed me.."
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.. Haeju please accept me back.. please.." he asked again "I hate that you hate me.. I hate that you don't want me next to you..I don't wnat you to leavw Korea.. please stay.."
"I don't hate you Jackson.. I could never hate someone I fell in love with.." I admited
He pulled back and I sighed leaning away to turn on the lights but he stopped me "Wait.. don't.."
I smiled to myself and turned the lights from the back so I could see the minimum of his face
"There's this thing called gravity you know? Tears fall down.." I smiled showing him my wet arm
His puffy red eyes were heartbreaking but they were still as beautiful as I remembered
"I have an ugly crying face" he mumbled looking away but I pulled his chin towards me with my hands
"Like I never saw you cry before" I chuckled looking straight into his eyes "Why are you crying for a girl? You can have any girl you want.." I told him while reaching up to clean one of his cheeks
Years ago...
"It's been months Haeju, I'm over it"
I chuckled turning around sitting on the step "Sure you are.. you're Jackson Wang am I right?" I said loudly while hugging my legs from how cold I was feeling
"What do you mean?"
"You're Jackson Wang" I said doing a gesture as he sat down next to me "You don't need a girl like me" I chuckled "You can have any girl, any time" I told him hugging my legs again
He chuckled softly and touched my arm "Look inside"
I looked inside and smiled seeing JB and Yoona sharing probably their first kiss as people around them kept dancing like nothing is happening "You think I can have that girl?"
I chuckled "Good luck with mister Chic and Sexy"
He shook his head "I don't want anyone else.." he said staring straight into my eyes
I smiled "That's not what you're supposed to say" I chuckled remembering the conversation both of us had at the end of Youngjae's birthday party
"I still have your jacket" I told him starting to take it off but he stopped me of doing so
"Keep it.. think of it as an excuse to see you again.." he smiled making me blush
"Hum... ok.. I'll keep it.."
He looked to the side and then leaned closer to me so he could whisper in my ear "I can have all the girls.. but I still can't manage to get the only one I do want.."
"You're supposed to tell me that.. you do can have any girl in the world"
He smiled looking down before looking back up
"Where's my charming and irresistible Wang? I only see a baby crying for a toy he wants.. where's the Wang that is determined to get the woman?"
He chuckled loudly and then bit his lip.. his eyes changing a little "So I'm yours huh? Guess I did could manage to get the one girl I want" he sniffed
I smiled looking down and reached up to take off his chain. I put the rings in my hand and then asked for his so I could put the ring in it
"Guess this girl really does have a switch that makes her soft and completely melt for you" I mumbled while he took the ring and softly pushed it on my finger
He intertwined our hands and stared at it smiling for a while "This is where they belong.. not against my heart, but with my heart" he softly spoke looking back up at me
"Hope this is the last time you have to turn on my switch" I told him making him nod
"I also do.." he said while letting go of my hand only to hug me tighter "I promise I will become the man you deserve.."
I sighed hugging back and closing my eyes as I focused on the sound of his voice vibrating against my cheek