Im Soo Jung
A guy that slowly started entering in my head and hart as I healed from the permanent scar Jackson had left open
He wasn't really that different fromhim. The only real difference was that he was my age and less... celebrity
I never told him about my live life, much less that I had dated Jackon Wang from GOT7. But just for the record, Soo Jung and I were never official, not even close to it..
I was actually super afraid of how long it would take for me to completely heal and move on from Jackson.
It was a really dark night today and it had just started pouring out rain intensely. It was ridiculous how fast it started. Almost like someone turned on a faucet at full potential. I was staying at my tiny place. It was a one roomed studio on the main floor of a building. The rent was cheap since it was a really small space, but it had the essencial and that was really all I needed
I had beed studying for a while with my kpop piano covers' playlist. I was hetting tired of sitting in the same position so I decided to go peak at my only window.
I looked at the front door of the building and saw a man sitting in the step of the door trying to wait out for the rain to stop. Feeling empathy for him,I decided I would open him the door so he wouldn't get all wet since from what I could see, it wasn't helping at all.
I opened my apartment door and then walked the small corridor towards the main door.
Lucky Rain..
I opened the door "Ahdjussi.. c-"
Startled, the man quickly turned around and stared at me. Immediately, he stood upnot even glancing away from my eyes
Why was godso cruel? Why did this all feel like a fucking dejavu from our last breakup?..
I froze not really knowing how to react. From all the places in the world, he had to happen to be at my doorstep.. of all things I could be doing, why did I look out that freaking window?..
It was still too early to re-open this wound again.. it wasn't healed, not yet.. I knew what was going to happen.. I knew how weak I was for him still..
"C-Can.. can I come in?" He finally choked out making me stiffen up
I opened my mouth but no sound came from my mouth.. just say no Haeju!
"I.. I don't think it's a good idea, I-"
"Please.."
He did it.. he fucking gave me the puppy eyes without even noticing it. I was puddy for him at this point..
"Jackson, tha-.." I took a deep breath and closed my eyes opening the door wider and then turning my back to him as I walked to my apartment
There was no escape now, since I literally couldn't hide anywhere. My room was mostly occupied by the bed. He came inside and took off his shoes closing the door behind him. He took of his wet coat and then took two steps to stand in front of me, catching my attention
"You can stay for 10 minutes.. after that, you have to get out and never comeback"
He looked around for a while and then sat by my bed it really was the only place where he could sit. Right beside me.
He leaned back against the wall closing his eyes and crossing his arms. Of all places in the world and all the people in the world, it had to be him in here.
I looked at my watch nervously wait for time to go by faster pleading to god that it would go faster since I hated the situation I was in.
My phone ringed and I looked at it seeing that in was Soo Jung calling me. I looked at Jackson who was still in the same position. Not really having another option since I didn't want to decline the call, I took it
Pressing the device firmly against my ear I crack out a silent "Yobuseyo"
"Haeju! What are you doing tomorrow?" He asked excitedly making me gulp
"Tomorrow? Hum.. I'm not doing anything.. Why?"
"I thought we could meet eachother at the park and study together for a while.. what do you think?"
I closed my eyes not really understanding why was god playing with my heart as I heard the words that were coming out of his mouth
"You could say that.. hum.. I'm inviting you for a date.." he confessed
"Da.. te?.." I asked as quietly as I could now feeling my heart get strangled in my chest.
Soo Jung kept talking but my mind went blank as I just noticed I had just said that word right next to.. well.. Jackson
I looked towards him and noticed that he was still the same. Ignoring everything that was happening.. He could even pass as being asleep
"Hum.. I have to.. I have to see.. I'll c-call you later Soo Jung" I said while clearing my throat "Ok?.."
"Oh of course! No pressure.. I'm sorry if it was too forward.. I didn't want to scare you.."
"Ah.. you did nothing wrong... I'll call you later.. o-ok?"
He agreed and then ended the call. I squeezed my phone in my hand feeling my brain needing to explode. A strong and uncomfortable weird kind of feeling took over my chest. Almost like regret..
I looked at Jackson again and he was still just like the other times I had glanced at him. The sound of the rain intensified making me sigh.. I can't let him leave in a weather like this..
"행복하니?" (Are you happy?) he finally choked out making the hairs in my body lift up as if I had been caught doing something wrong
"뭐?" (What?)
"내가 거기 있지 않다면 너 더 행복해?" (Are you happier now that I'm not there?)
I snorted and shook my head not even dignifying him of an answer. I kept it silenced as I stood up to look out the window. When was the rain stop pouring?
He also stood up and came behind me leaning down next to me to whisper in my ear
"It feels like you haven't moved on from me" he mumbled
I pushed him away "You're wrong"
He leaned against the wall and caressed his chin with his hand but I didn't dare even glance at him again.
I then heard some shuffling and making me turn around to see him walk to the door. He oicked up his jacket and put on his boots. "Where are you going?" I asked taking a step towards him
"10 minutes are up, bye" he mumbled not even glancing at me.
He opened the door and walked out of my small studio, worried about how bad the weather was, I ran towards the entrance and put on my sneakers just before the door closed
I ran out slamming the door and then went down the hall seeing him already close the door "Jackson!" I shouted but failed to make him listen
I ran towards the outside and saw him adjusting his coat now getting wet from the awful rain. I decided to ran towards him not really minding the pouring water on me, not really caring if I'd get a cold after all of this "Jackson!!" I shouted once again only to see him turn around the corner
A ray of lighting crossed the skies making me scream in fear and ball down to my feet, only to be followed by the thundering noise.
My high pitched scream must've caught his attention because next thing I knew, he was asking me if I was okay. I kept crying since I was truly afraid of thunderstorms.
"Ashh.. such a kid sometimes" he mumbled pulling my shoulders up "Come on, I'll take you to yo-"
Another lighting crossed the skies and this time, the thunder was much closer making a bigger and noisier sound which scared me more. I immediately embraced him hitting my head in his chest letting out another high pitched scream.
"I don't wanna die" I cried into his torso
He took a deep breath and caressed my back.
The rain was still pouring on us and the thunder storm was still going, but somehow.. I relaxed..
Baby if it's rain, thunder on this course
I will make it
I will find a way, even if It's pouring
And I will take it all for you
"Come on.. lets go.." he mumbled while starting to take a few steps towards where we just came from