Long ass chapter for my loves! There is a time jump but you will understand why. Please comment your thoughts for me! x
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Chapter 73
2 month's later
Amy's POV
"Class dismissed" Mrs Evers yells over the class as the end of the first day back finally comes around. It had been a long ass day. I gather my stuff throwing the books in my bag before pushing my chair under.
"Miss West please can I have a word?" Mrs Evers calls to me looking at me through her small framed glasses. What? She wanted to talk to me? I don't think I've ever really hand a proper conversation with her ever.
"Is everything okay Mrs Evers?" I step up to her desk as the last student leaves the classroom.
"Yes dear, did you have a good summer?" She asks as she sorts some of the papers out on her desk not looking up at me. Did I have a good summer? Why would she even care?
"Yes thank you, did you?" I ask trying to be polite.
"Wonderful actually" she smiles at me before stopping what she was doing to give me her full attention.
"I wanted to speak to you about something, I hope you don't mind me doing this" she says as she takes a seat behind her desk. Why would I mind her doing something? I mean unless she's fucked up something for me.
"Your making me nervous" I laugh lightly and she shakes her head.
"No it's nothing to be worried about!" She laughs before opening up the top draw of her desk. She pulls out a white envelope that seems important looking in my opinion making me frown.
"I'll just give you this, just give a little read and give it a good think" she says as she hands me the envelope which has my name written on it very formally. I frown as she hands me it as my bought run a muck of what it could be about.
"My number is on there if you have any questions, I have a meeting now or I would discuss it with you but it's nothing to worry about just give it a thought okay?" She looks up at me with a huge smile and I raise my brow at her. I had barely ever spoke to this woman yet why do I feel like I've known her years?
"What is it?" I question and she laughs lightly shaking her head.
"Just trust me, read it and get back to me" she says but I stay put not really knowing what to do or say as of his second.
"Go go... I have a meeting in here now" she shoos me off and I frown as I step back from her desk without a word. Do I thank her? What the fuck even is this?
"Oh okay" I mutter as I head towards the door.
"Thanks?" I say quickly before leaving the room hearing her little laugh just before I close the door. I look down at the letter seeing it have a stamp in the corner, I didn't recognise the symbol but it looked fancy. I turn it around to open it just as my phone rings. I sigh pulling my phone out my pocket seeing Harry's caller ID pop up.
"Hey" I answer the phone holding it to my ear as I head out the front door onto the grounds.
"Hey I'm out front, where are you?" He asks and I feel a rush of excitement come over me.
"I can see you, turn around" I laugh lightly as I spot him stood against his car with his back to me just a few feet from me. He turns around with the phone still to his ear making me smile as soon as I see his face. I feel myself pick up the pace a little as I end the call, closing the gap between us. I instantly wrap my arms around him along with my legs as he laughs at my sudden burst of affection. God had I missed him.
"Hi.." I mumble with a smile as he sets me down still holding his arms around my waist. He quickly connects his lips to mine and I feel my whole body start to tingle under his touch.
"I missed you" He smiles into the kiss making me laugh lightly before pulling back.
"I missed you too, how was your trip?" I ask. Harry had been to see his Mom and the rest of his family and friends in England for the past to 2 weeks and got back this afternoon. I had missed him so fucking much it was a joke. He asked me to go with him but I couldn't get the time off work and seen as classes had started up again I was tied down. We had called, texted and FaceTimed but nothing compared to actually being with him and being physically able to kiss him, cuddle and you know have sex. I did miss the sex, I'm not gonna lie. We tried phone sex but Eva walked on me several times and now we had vowed never to attempt it again.
"Good" He says bluntly.
"My Mum says she misses you" he adds and I smile. His Mom had FaceTimed me when Harry was and we had a conversation even when Harry fell asleep. She was lovely. Harry drunk called be a few times and I got to talk to a few of his friends briefly which ended just being a conversation of how I should of come and that they all really wanted to meet me because Harry would shut up about me. It was cute.
"Awh" I smile as we pull away.
"What's that?" He says pointing down the letter in my hand with a skeptical look on his face. I had completely forgot about the letter as soon as I saw him, it was crazy.
"Oh I don't know, something from Mrs Evers" I say as I look down at the fancy writing on the front of the envelope.
"I'll read it later" I say as I tuck the letter in my bag.
"Can we grab some food?" I ask making him laugh lightly.
"How did I know you were going to ask that?" He says as he opens the car door. He pulls out a brown basket and holds it up with a cheeky grin on his face. My heart literally was doing backflips at this point in time.
"A picnic? You did this?" I ask in shock. How did he even have time to do this? I thought he would be tired and jet lagged but clearly not.
"Well yeah... I missed you" He says sweetly and I see him getting a little shy on me.
"So I'm taking you somewhere" He states and I smile looking at him in admiration.
"I love you" I tell him as I place a sweet kiss on his lips.
"No you just love that I brought food" he laughs and I shrug.
"Can't argue with that" I joke and he rolls his eyes gesturing for me to get in the car.
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"How's everything at home?" I ask him as I take a chocolate covered strawberry into my mouth. Harry had brought us to probably my favourite place in the world. The lagoon he brought me to months ago. After we kissed here the first time and had such a good time together just being us, I loved coming here. The sun had just started to go down and we had set up our little picnic on the edge of the lagoon pool. There was no one here as usual as I don't think anyone knew of this place. After arguing with Harry over who gets the last slice of pizza he agreed that I should have it on the condition we would do what he wanted all night. I didn't care what he wanted to do because I would do it anyway just because I would be with him.
"Good" He says bluntly looking down for a second, I go to open my mouth to ask another question about his visit but he cuts me off instantly.
"How's everything been here? Did everyone miss me?" He smirks and I roll my eyes. I didn't understand why he never wanted to talk about his trip home, like even the questions I asked in the car on the way here he brushed off. He was acting odd, but I didn't want to argue so I let it go.
"Well Klaus isn't talking to me still, Niall and Eva are back on track, Zac's been MIA and I've been spending my time working or hanging out with Louis seen as we both had nothing better to do" I say simply before taking a sip from the champagne flute he had brought.
"Louis? Since when were you guys close?" He raises a brow inquisitively before taking a bite out of the strawberry.
"I dunno, it just sort of happened" I shrug. Louis had become awfully close to me the past few weeks and I loved him. We were literally the same person. He went to parties, dinners and just hung out watching movies whenever we were both free. He helped me when I was missing Harry and comforted me when Harry couldn't because he wasn't here. We were close to say the least.
"He reminds me of Klaus before he became and asshole" I say and Harry almost chokes on his fruit laughing making me giggle.
"You can say that again" he laughs lightly and I smile at him before laying on my back looking up at the trees around us and orange and red sky slowly taking over the blue. Within a few seconds Harry was on his side looking down at me with a little smile on his face. I just live for these moments with him. I just felt like a school girl on her first date with her crush despite being with Harry for nearly 11 months. Wow time flies by when there's drama, fun, sex and arguments.
"How was your first day back? Mrs Evers treating you well? Mr Fowler giving you a hard time yet?" He asks with a teasing smile as his hand entwines with mine.
"Mr Fowler is on paternity and Mrs Evers is in an oddly good mood" I tell him. The letter. Gosh I need to read that. She made it out to be pretty important and I mustn't forget that it's in my bag.
"When do you start?" I ask him.
"Tomorrow- so you'll be stuck with me again for Mrs Hadley's class" he tells me and I laugh lightly. I couldn't wait to be back with Harry in a few classes, I mean it one the reasons we became close.
"You say it like it's a bad thing" I say and he rolls his eyes playfully.
"It is- I'm stuck with you for an hour and a half" he teases.
"Stop..." I laugh lightly pushing him in the chest playfully.
"That was the class that brought us together in a sense, right?" I say and he nods keeping eye contact with me.
"Right" he hums.
"That and the fact you've been obsessed with me for years" he rolls his eyes.
"Don't think I didn't notice" he adds and I roll my eyes at his cheekiness.
"That's such bullshit" I say.
"You know we were not friends" I state and he rolls his eyes at me.
"Oh yeah you hated me, how could I forget?" He says and I sit up wrapping my arms around him.
"I never hated you" I whisper to him and he rolls his eyes laughing lightly. He sits up properly pulling me into his lap before wrapping his arms around my waist.
"Do you remember when you first brought me here?" I ask him as my hands reach up into the back of his hair tangling into his curls.
"Yeah and you had no shoes on, we were screaming from under the falls and we kissed-" he pauses looking just passed me making me turn my head.
"Right up there" he points to just underneath the falls making me smile.
"Seems like forever ago" I whisper as I feel my heart start to swell at the thought of that memory. Harry said it was the first time he knew he had fallen for me.
-Flashback-
"Do you know what my favourite part about this place is?" He says as he walks underneath the rocks hanging above our heads.
"What?" I saw as I take my hand away from the water and take a step closer to him.
"You can do this-" He says and shocks me by letting out a huge scream. I wince and as he screams and the cave echos the sound around.
"And no one can even hear you- go on try it" He says and I laugh shaking my head.
"What? No way" I laugh and he rolls his eyes.
"Come on... I'm sure there's a lot of anger built up in there, just let it out, scream. Scream as loud as you can it's just me" He says and I shake my head. He laughs before shouting again really loud making me laugh.
"Come on! Try it!" He says and yells again.
"Harry!" I yell at him as I cover my ears.
"Come on!" He yells at me and I can't help but laugh as he screams again. If you can't beat them join them. I can't help but scream with him and feel relieved as the sound echos round the cave.
"Come on you can do better than that!" He yells over my scream causing me to try harder and scream louder as I close my eyes. He was right, this was the best part about being here. I laugh breathlessly as we both stop and stand in front of each other.
"That was fun" I laugh and he does lightly.
"Mmmm"
"Thank you... for tonight and yesterday and this morning- oh god we are spending way too much time together" I laugh teasingly and he rolls his eyes laughing lightly as he now stands directly in front of me.
"Well your alright, I could be stuck with someone worse" He laughs and I hit him on the arm playfully.
Tonight had been something I never expected to happen to me for a long time.
Wow. I have to admit that was one of my favourite memories with Harry. Even now.
"Nearly 11 month's you know?" He says and my eyes widen.
"It's crazy" I say as he looks into my eyes intently.
"Would you go back?" I ask and he frowns.
"Do it all again?" I add.
"Would I fall in love with you all over again?" He questions and I smile feeling that fluttering feeling come back.
"Yes" He smiles brushing his nose against mine.
"I still am" he smiles pressing a small kiss to my lips making me laugh.
"That's cheesy" I mutter against his lips making him laugh.
"You asked!" He asks laughing along with me and I roll my eyes.
"Would you do it differently?" I press and he pauses for a second.
"Uh-" he thinks as his eyes wander my face.
"I think I would have told Klaus sooner, but other than that I wouldn't" He says and I nod. I think that would of been the smart thing to do.
"Everything happens for a reason- why change it?" He shrugs and I nod. That was true.
"I would change one thing" I say and he frowns raising a brow at me.
"Judging you before I even got to know you" I say thinking back to all the times I was so harsh on him before I actually really knew him.
"I'm not that bad, I did tell you!" He says playfully squeezing my sides making me laugh.
"I know, I figured that out eventually" I smile and he rolls his eyes.
"Come on- enough of that shit" he says picking me up as he stands up placing me back down on the ground.
"What? Don't you trust me?" He frowns when I don't move. I laugh lightly before quickly pushing him back catching him off guard before running towards the falls.
"Race you!" I yell making him laugh as I run up the side of the falls.
"Hey! That's cheating!" He yells to me and I flip him off.
"No your just slow!" I say as I climb the up the side nearly reaching the spot where me and Harry last were.
"I win!" I yell to him just as I reach the top where the falls start to fall over our heads by the caves. In a second I feel Harry crash into me knocking us both to the ground within seconds.
"Hey- Ow!" I whine as he falls on top of me.
"Sorry..." he laughs lightly over the sound of the water crashing beneath us. One small step and we would have been over the cliff edge.
"I love you" he says to me with a smile as I watch the reflection of the watch fill the cave bouncing off our skin and walls.
"I love you" I smile bringing his face down, pushing my lips to his. I never wanted to leave this moment. I was so in love him. Every inch of him. We both laugh into the kiss and I feel as though we were in the best place in our relationship that we ever had been.
"Hey-" he pulls away with a smile quickly grabbing my hand pulling me up off the ground with him.
"You know what I always wanted to do?" He says and I frown. Very open ended question.
"Have a threesome?" I raise an eyebrow at him.
"Yes- No, what the hell?" He frowns at me laughing lightly.
"Don't act like you've never thought about it" I say and he rolls his eyes playfully at me pulling me into him by my hips.
"Well if we ever need to spice up our relationship I now know how" he says with a smirk and instantly regret saying that. I mean I don't even know if I would have a threesome. Don't think I would share.
"We don't need spicing up" I say a little too quickly making him laugh.
"Not when I'm dating a minx, you surprise me in bed" he says with a smirk and I push at his his chest playfully.
"I've never been with a girl who watches porn" he adds and I roll my eyes. Oh Men...
"No you probably have, they just probably never used them on you" I say smirking back at him causing him to raise his eyebrow at me.
"Got any new ones?" He teases and I laugh lightly.
"Why? Wanna see?" I fire back.
"Is that even a question?" He smirks before pushing his lips to mine crashing us back into the cave wall. His kisses were hungry and full of lust and with every move moment I felt my body respond to his every touch. He quickly peels his shirt off before pulling mine off after. He pushes his tongue into my mouth making me laugh into the kiss, excitement taking over me. I couldn't help but crave Harry's touch, he knew my body better than I did and I loved it. His hands pull up my skirt as he rakes them up my body slowly making me groan leaning back onto the wall as he places small kisses along my neck. His hands palm my breast through my bra before he unclasps it without struggle. My bra falls to the floor with ease joining our shirts, exposing me to him. I gasp when he takes my nipple into his mouth palming my other breast roughly making me moan with pleasure.
"Wait- what if someone see's us?" I say through gasps as he takes my breasts in his hands groping them as he kisses my neck.
"If you haven't noticed, no one comes here" he says against my skin, the vibrations making my hair stand on end with chills.
"You can be as loud as you want babe" he smirks and I can't help but moan as soon as his crotch presses against mine.
"God I have missed you" He mutters against my collarbone after sharply sucking on my skin, which was surely to leave a mark in the morning.
"Take it off.." I groan as I tug at his belt loops on his jeans. He laughs lightly pulling away for a second pulling his jeans off with a little difficulty making me laugh.
"You could of took your boots off you idiot" I laugh at him causing him to glare at me as he shimmies them down struggling to get them past his boots.
"Didn't think that far ahead" he mutters and I laugh when he nearly falls over pulling one leg out.
"That's right, you were thinking with your dick weren't you?" I laugh covering my mouth when he flips me off.
"Can you blame me?" He glares at me pulling his other leg out throwing the jeans to the side.
"Happy now?" He says as he presses his body against mine, brushing his nose with mine.
"Hmm.." I tease shaking my head.
"Your pushing it today" he warns.
"Am I?" I take my bottom lip in between my teeth which instantly drives him crazy causing him to groan before his lips hit mine with lust. His hands roam my body as my hands reach up into his hair tangling into his curls. I groan when his hand pushes my skirt up brushes over my clothed area causing my hips to jolt forward.
"These new?" He mutters into the kiss before looking down between us at my choice in underwear.
"No" I mutter as he plays with the hem of my white thongs.
"Our sex lives have just been dry for over two weeks" I say when his lips connect with my neck making me groan .
"I think our phone sex was pretty heated" He mutters into my neck making my eyes widen. God that dreaded phone sex. I wish we had never tried it.
"Don't ever mention that again" I say and he laughs into my neck, his breath tickling my skin making me smile.
"Oh come on.. I liked it knowing you were touching yourself listening to me" he teases making me groan in embarrassment.
"Harry..." I whine pushing at his chest feeling completely embarrassed. I couldn't believe he even said that.
"Don't go shy on me now" he smirks before pulling my skirt down letting it drop in a pool beneath me.
"Stop teasing..." I groan becoming awfully impatient with him.
"Tell me what you want" he whispers in my ear seductively making my knees go weak.
"Harry.." I groan in annoyance at his teasing.
"Tell me" he presses and I sigh when his fingers find find there way beneath my underwear making me gasp as he starts to rub circles harshly against me.
"I want you" I breath out as I feel my back arch against the cave wall with pleasure.
"Please..." I beg when he keeps rubbing my clit making me groan. He quickly rips off my thongs breaking them with ease making me gasp at his actions. Well there goes a pair of nice underwear I'll never be able to use again. I was so wet for him it was unreal, I needed him. I didn't even need the foreplay aspect, I was already ready. I gasp when I feel his fingers push inside of me making my legs go weak.
"Oh..." I moan when he starts to pick up the pace, the sound of the falls drowning out my moans and pleads for him to go faster.
"No I can't- I can't take anymore" I stutter as I grip on to his shoulders for support as I feel my legs start to give way. I couldn't take anymore, I had waited too long for this and I couldn't wait another second.
"Someone's eager" he teases smirking against my neck as he adds another finger.
"Harry please..." I beg grabbing his hand making him laugh.
"As you wish" he smiles before removing his hand from me. I watch intently as he pulls his his boxers down exposing his hardened length instantly. I felt myself start to throb as I was so eager for him. I just needed him. I didn't care to wait another second. I squeal in shock when he grabs my legs lifting it up so he could gain access easier. He takes his length in his hand positioning himself in front of me glancing up at me almost for reassurance which he always did. Everything we got intimate he would do this and I couldn't help but feel my heart warm at his sweet gesture showing that he cared so much. I nod to him and feel him slowly push into me with ease making me wince at the discomfort it caused.
"Am I hurting you?" He asks stopping instantly when he notices my facial expression.
"No" I lie making him frown.
"I am, don't lie" he tries to step back but I pull him back into me making my back arch as he pushes deeper than before under my hand.
"No don't stop... I'm fine, I just- it's been a while" I reassure him as he adjusts his grip on my leg holding me up.
"I don't want to hurt you" he says with concern written all over his face.
"Your not" I cup his cheeks in my hand.
"Like you said-" I smile.
"You've got a big game" I smirk and he rolls his eyes laughing lightly.
"I'm sorry.." he kisses me softly and I smile slightly into the the kiss. I felt like there was more behind his apology than what he was letting on by just the look in his eyes but I decide not to push it.
"Don't be" I tell him and he nods.
"I trust you" I add placing a sweet kiss on his lips. I see his expression change and a smile come on to his face as he listens to what I said.
"God I fucking love you" he mutters before pressing his lips to mine pushing into me making me scream into the kiss at the sudden movement. I felt myself stretch around him making me dig my nails into his back as he presses his chest against me holding me to him as he starts to thrust in and out of me. It felt different this time for some reason. I felt so close to him. I felt so much passion and drive behind every thrust and kiss placed on my skin. I couldn't even hold myself up, I was holding onto him for support the whole time. I don't know how I would be able to stand up if I didn't. I moan into his shoulder as he picks up the pace pushing into me with ease.
"You feel so good" he groans into my neck making me moan as he lifts my leg higher coming at me from a newer angle.
"Oh shit..." I dig my nails into him trying to control myself.
"Fuck.. I'm gonna-" he doesn't get to finish his sentence as I feel him release inside of me making me do the same his moans and my cries mixing together with the sound of the water falling around us. My legs go limp and I rely on Harry to hold me up completely. We both cling to each other, our heavy breathing mixing with each other's as we compose ourselves again.
"Are you okay?" He asks, his breath tickling my skin as I push my hands up into his hair grasping his curls gaining a moan from his making me laugh lightly.
"Yes" I smile as we both pull away, he drops my leg and his length slides out of me making me throb slightly at the loss of contact.
"Yes that was perfect" I tell him making him smile.
"Can I tell you what I've always wanted to do now?" He laughs lightly pulling away from me out keeping hold of me.
"What?" I laugh as he lets go of my hand stepping back.
"This!" He yells as he turns running toward the edge of the fall before jumping. My heart dropped.
"Oh my god Harry!" I run over to the edge looking over not seeing him anywhere. I wait a second, my heart pounding out my chest before I see him resurface.
"You Fucking idiot!" I yell at him as he catches his breath looking up at me.
"Come on! It's warm!" He yells up at me.
"Your crazy" I laugh shaking my head at him.
"Jump!" He says and I shake my head.
"No way" I frown.
"Hey you said you would do whatever I wanted tonight because you ate the last slice of pizza! This is what I want!" He says and I instantly feel bad. We did agree on that.
"That's blackmail!" I yell to him laughing lightly.
"Just jump loser!" He teases and I gasp.
"Loser?" I frown.
"Yeah loser!" He puts up a 'L' shape with his fingers sticking his tongue out at me playfully making me laugh.
"I'm not a loser!" I argue.
"Then jump! Don't make me come up there!" He warns teasingly.
"I'll push you!" He adds.
"What a nice boyfriend I have!" I yell to him rolling my eyes.
"Note the sarcasm asshole!" I add and he flips me off.
"Whatever! Jump come on!" He presses and I knew he wasn't going to give in.
"Right okay!" I yell at him as I take a step back from the edge.
"One!" He yells and I look down noticing how big the drop was.
"Two" He counts and I feel my heart start to race.
"Three!" He yells laughing lightly and I hesitate.
"Jump!"
And I did.
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Few hours later
"Jade?" I slowly push the door open to our bedroom knowing Jade was staying here tonight whilst Klaus was away on a trip with his class. I walk in to see her walking around the bed in her night gown as she sorts her side of the room out. She looked exhausted to say the least but she was coping.
"Shh...." she says as she gestures to the Moses basket in the corner next to her bed. Harry shuts the door behind us and she smiles at the two of us.
"He's sleeping" she tells us.
Jade had the baby. The night we stayed in the hospital, she was induced due to a complication with the babies position causing Jades discomfort and accident. The doctors said that if they didn't catch it when they did the baby wouldn't of survived. She had the baby the next day at 9:57am. It was amazing. Scary but amazing. Harry stayed by my side the whole time despite Klaus' best effort to make us leave. She named the baby Joseph, and it would be an understatement to say he was beautiful. The doctors had to keep him in for a week in an incubator because he was born early, in this time Harry and I visited every day and brought the pair of them food and presents to keep there spirits high. Klaus still wasn't happy with us but when Joseph was born he did lighten up a little.
I was an Auntie. I was so fucking excited it was unreal.
"Awh.." I smile as I peak into the Moses basket seeing him sound asleep. He was a little chunky monkey, he had dark hair like Jade and had little dimples when he smiled which reminded me a lot of Harry's. He was the cutest baby.
"Hi Harry!" Jade smiles at him as he pulls her in for a hug after dropping my bags on the floor.
"How was your trip?" She asks and he nods.
"Good" he pulls away from her and she smiles he peaks over the basket next to me, placing his hand on the small of my back.
"Gosh he's grown" he says to Jade looking down at Joseph.
"I know, he's a bruiser" she laughs and I do too. I couldn't believe he was already 2 months old. It was crazy.
"He eats so fucking much it's unreal" she says and Harry laughs.
"Are your nipples sore?" I ask and Harry's eyes widen at me.
"Babe you can't ask that" He scolds me and I roll my eyes at him.
"Just wondering" I shrug and Jade laughs at the pair of us.
"Yes would be the answer to that" she says and I give Harry the 'I told you so' look causing him to laugh lightly.
"Where have you guys been?" She asks and I look to Harry feeling my cheeks heat up a little.
"For a picnic" he tells her and I nod.
"You guys are so cute it makes me sick" she says as she folds some of Joseph's clothes on the bed making us both laugh lightly.
"Has he been sleeping alright?" I ask as I brush my finger lightly across Joseph's cheek in admiration.
"Like a gem actually" she says and I smile. She was such an a amazing Mom. She loved being with Joseph and so did Klaus. She was so caring and had everything so organised for the baby even before he had arrived.
"You guys get off, I'm going to bed anyway" she says waving us off and we smile nodding as Harry takes my hand in his.
"There's some pizza over at yours Harry- if Niall hasn't already eaten it you can have it" she tells him and he nods smiling at her.
"Are you sure? Your alright?" I ask her and she laughs lightly nodding.
"Course" she insists.
"You go and make up for lost time" she says to us both.
"If you know what I mean" she wiggles her brows at us and roll my eyes.
"We already-" I nudge Harry in the stomach shutting him up.
"Ow!" He glares at me grabbing his stomach.
"Oh you've already been busy I see" she laughs lightly giving me a weird look making me feel so uncomfortable.
"Didn't know you were quite the minx Amz" she teases and I roll my eyes.
"Oh is she-"
"Okay thank you! Love you bye!" I cut Harry off grabbing his hand before pulling him towards the door as she laughs at the two of us.
"Goodnight Harry!" She calls and I roll my eyes as I shut the door behind us just as Harry laughs along with her too.
"Use protection!"