Poll time
What do you think of Amy and Harry's Relationship?
Are they suited or nah?
Chapter 70
Amy's POV
"Amy stop!" Niall grabs my wrist as I find myself stood on the front porch with tears streaming down my cheeks. I was so angry and upset I couldn't process what I was doing but I knew what I wanted.
"Get off me!" I cry as I try to pull my wrist out of his grasp. I could barely see through my blurry teary eyes but I knew who was in front of me and who was now walking away from me.
"Your wearing nothing!" Klaus steps in grabbing my arm causing Niall to back off. I had no idea what Klaus actually knew about this whole situation, I knew that he didn't know about Harry and Victoria but he must know what just went on upstairs, literally 5 minutes ago.
"Let go!" I cry as I feel myself getting overly worked up to the point where I feel my knees beginning to shake along with my hands. I was a wreck. But who could blame me?
"Hey just put my coat on and then go-" Klaus says to me and I cut him off.
"I don't need a coat! I don't care! I really don't give a shit. I just- I just...I need him! He's all I fucking need, don't you get that?" I snap my wrist from his grasp.
"I love him!" I cry as I watch his expression drop.
"I'm so in love with him you don't understand and right now I think I may have just lost him- he probably hates me" I sob. I see Eva and Jade looking at me sympathetically but I can't help but hate it. I don't need sympathy.
"I can't stay and talk to you or put a fucking coat when he's walking away from me!" I gesture to there house just as I turn away from them. Klaus quickly grabs my wrist making me cry and fight him even more.
"Let her go" Jade simply says and Klaus looks at her with wide eyes.
"What? In that! No way-"
"Klaus!" Jade snaps at him.
"Are you fucking kidding me-" he looks at her in disbelief before looking back at me clearly displeased.
"Fine" He buffs as he lets go of my wrist hesitantly.
"If he hurts you, you come tell me straight away" He says sternly and I frown shaking my head.
"He would never hurt me" I say as I wipe my tears away.
"Famous last words" he mutters as I turn away from him. I don't even know what he meant by that but right now I didn't care. All I wanted was to end things with Harry once and for all. I couldn't let this go any further.
I quickly run across the road bare foot clinging on to the last inch of modesty that I had as I enter Harry's house without knocking. I didn't care. Why should I? I see Louis sat with Zac on the couch in the living room, there eyes widening as they see me. I don't understand how Harry walked past Zac without killing him but it happened. I didn't care about them though.
"Woah- Amy what are you doing? Where are your clothes-" Louis tries to say as he looks me up and down in shock. Zac keeps his back to me and for good reason. I wanted to kill him. I hated him.
"Where is he?" I snap.
"Upstairs- Amy I wouldn't..." Louis says and I shake my head before quickly ascending the stairs. I don't care if I look crazy I just needed to see him. As I neared his room as the end of the hall I could hear loud crashes and bangs going on from inside. He was probably taking his anger out on his own shit inside. I felt nervous as my knees began to shake along with my hands again as I needed the door. I needed to do this. I was hurt and angry with him and he needed to know. I couldn't let this go any further. We needed to sort it. I was done walking away from him.
As I approach the door I swallow my pride- well the little I have left and open the door abruptly.
"You-" I point to Harry as I see him pacing the room as I slam the door behind me.
"You are so fucking selfish Harry. How dare you walk away from like that? If you really cared about me-" he cuts me off immediately.
He laughs in disbelief. "I'm selfish? All I ever do is think about you! Everything I do is fucking for you! And your calling me selfish? What about you! What about you not wanting to meet my Mum? What about you kissing Zac! Twice may I fucking add! You kissed him twice!" He yells at me angrily and I shake my head.
"No! No I didn't! He kissed me! I never kissed him b-"
"It's the same thing! You still kissed! You knew full well that I wanted you back and you go ahead and get with him? What the fuck is wrong with you?" He spits and I shake my head as I take a step closer to him. He was clearly reaching about this whole situation and I don't blame him.
"But I didn't! I don't want him! I never wanted him! Do you know why? Because I couldn't get over you! I will never be able to get over you! I tried. It doesn't fucking work, trust me! I'm so in love with you Harry, how can you not see that-"
"How can I not see that? Maybe because your kissing him every other day!" He cuts me off yelling as he uses hand gestures. I couldn't even believe what I was hearing.
"No! I'm not! The first time we kissed, I admit I kissed him back-"
"Was that before or after you were rolling around the sheets in your underwear with him?" He cuts me off and I feel my heart drop. I look at him in shock not knowing what to say as I open my mouth to speak nothing comes out.
"You cared to leave that part out didn't you?" He snaps looking at me intently. He looked disgusted. Hurt more though. I don't blame him. It's not that I left it out on purpose I just didn't feel the need to explain the context in which me and Zac kissed.
"Harry-" he cuts me off.
"Did you or did you not do that?" He says sternly and I shake my head not knowing what to say.
"Just tell me the truth, things couldn't really be any worse" He sighs as he takes a step closer to me. I feel my heart breaking into pieces. I didn't want to hurt him but I already had. I hated myself.
"Yes-" He shakes his head not letting me finish.
"Get out" he sighs and I feel my eyes start to tear up.
"What? No-" I shake my head.
"I'm not asking you! I'm telling you!" He raises his voice and I feel the tears start to fall. I didn't know if I was hurt or just angry.
"Get out!" He yells at me and I frown. We had come through so much to leave it on this note. I couldn't. I couldn't loose him. He was more than he thought to me.
"No" I snap and he frowns before laughing in disbelief.
"Oh my god! What is wrong with you? Just go!" He yells and I shake my head trying to compose myself.
"No" I stand my ground causing him to roll his eyes turning away from me shaking his head.
"I'm not leaving until you listen to me-"
"You mean till you persuade me that he means nothing to you? That those moments meant nothing? Fucking cry me a river-"
"It did mean nothing to me! Because he wasn't you!" I raise my voice at him.
"He will never be you" I sigh as he turns back around to face me.
"That's why I don't want him" I add and he frowns.
"Why do it in the first place?-"
"You forget you did the same to me!" I can't help but snap at him. I didn't understand why all the sudden he was acting like he was complete innocent in all this.
"Your no angel Harry!" I yell at him and he scoffs.
"I don't deny that! I know what I did was wrong and god am I paying for it! But you-" he points at me in anger.
"Your not even sorry-" he spits and I cut him off in anger.
"Course I'm sorry! How can you say that? I'm so fucking sorry Harry!" I yell at him and he laughs hurting my feelings even more. He didn't believe me.
"Fuck you" he spits laughing.
"Your not fucking sorry at all" he shakes his head.
"If you were sorry the first time you wouldn't of done it again the second" he says and I frown.
"I didn't kiss him!" I argue and he rolls his eyes.
"Yes you did! I'm not an idiot! I saw! With my own fucking eyes I saw you guys kissing!" He yells in anger but I can also hear the frustration in his voice too.
"Harry I didn't... he kissed me I swear it. You honestly think for a second, that after everything he did I would kiss him? He came over to apologise-"
"Oh and to confess his love for you? Yeah I heard that too" he snaps and I feel the sinking feeling in my stomach come back.
"He doesn't love me-"
"Too right he fucking doesn't" he laughs harshly.
"I don't love him" I say as I look up at him
"I couldn't" I press waiting for a reaction.
"He's not you" I add and I almost feel like he was calming. I wasn't sure.
"I love you" I whisper as I wipe the tears from my cheeks.
"Even if I don't want to be in love with you, I am. After everything you did, I still am. I can't help it. I tried to stay away from you and get over you but I can't. I just can't. And I hate it. I wish I could fucking hate you but I can't! You just have this hold over me that I just can't control and I hate it!" I say and I watch as he studies me intensely.
"The fact that you can even think for a second I would choose him over you is absurd. I couldn't. Even if I wanted to- I couldn't not choose you. It's always you. It's always going to be you" I sigh as I feel I have nothing left to give. I couldn't try any harder. I wait for his reply but it doesn't. He doesn't react. I feel the sinking feeling enter my stomach again making my heart wrench. I hated myself and I swear he hated me too. I watch as he turns his back to me walking away from as he runs a hand through his hair. He stands by the book case full of CD's and DVD's that were his Dad's and he says nothing. Absolutely nothing.
"So your just going to ignore me?" I croak out in a whisper. He doesn't reply. He doesn't even turn to face me. He hated me. I knew it.
"Fine" I snap. I wasn't leaving. I huff as I storm over to the bed climbing up onto it before sitting with my legs and arms folded.
"I'll sit here until you decide to talk" I say as he glances at me before rolling his eyes. He knew I was serious. I could tell.
"Please just leave" he sighs facing me. I don't budge. I don't even look at him.
"I've had a long day and this is last thing I want to be dealing with right now" he snaps as he walks closer to me. I glance at him seeing him staring at me awaiting a response but I don't give him one. I simply turn my head away from him. Chelsey frustrating him further.
"Amy-" he sigh.
"Stop playing- I'm serious" he says and I look at him.
"I'm not moving" I state and he rolls his eyes.
"You know I could easily move you" He says and I knew he could. But I didn't think that far ahead in the plan so I was kinda screwed if he did move me himself.
"But you won't" I say hopefully. He says nothing just stares at me. I had no idea what he was thinking.
"Please just talk to me" I sigh in frustration.
"I know you hate me right now but I would rather you yell at me and scream in my face then say nothing" I say as I feel myself gaining more confidence.
"Please leave" he says and I become quickly frustrated.
"No!" I raise my voice at him as I move to my knees on the bed.
"Harry I'm not going anywhere" I huff causing him to roll his eyes at me.
"Your such a baby" he spits shaking his head at me.
"I don't care" I snap as I watch him grab a pillow and the blanket off the end of the bed.
"Fine well you can sit up here on your own" he sighs as picks up the blanket making me frown.
"Where are you going?" I ask.
"To sleep on the couch" he states and my eyes widen. I had to stop him.
"No!" I grab the blanket he is holding stopping him.
"Please..." I beg.
"Please let me explain" I sigh as he rolls his eyes at me.
"There's nothing to explain- let go" he pulls the blanket from my grasp.
"I saw" He states.
"It's done- I know where we stand now" he says and I shake my head.
"I would of much rather you told just me you didn't want this anymore but I mean whatever-"
"Why are you not listening to me? I do want this" I say as I get up off the bed standing in front of him.
"You have a fucking funny way of showing it" he says as he walks past me.
"No- your not walking away from me Harry" I quickly step in front of him grabbing the pillow he has and throw it on the bed. He sighs and shakes his head at my actions but doesn't attempt to get it back.
"I care about you- Us, to let this go over this shit! I couldn't care if Zac told me he loved me 100 times but just to hear you say it once means the world to me" I say in frustration trying not to raise my voice too much at him.
"I don't love him! Gosh I don't even like him! I like you! It's always been you! You think I would of risked all this shit with my brother to just end up not being together?" I sigh and he laughs in disbelief.
"You barley risked anything! I risked my whole friendship with my best friends for god knows how many years for you! And this is how you repay me! I did everything the way you wanted! Why? Because I was in love with you way before I actually told you!" He raises his voice at me.
"I know that! I never said you didn't risk anything! I knew what it took for us to be together and that's why I don't want to throw this away over Zac! He doesn't deserve the satisfaction of that-"
"Tell me this-" he cuts me off and I sigh.
"If I hadn't of walked it on you, would you have kissed him back?" He asks raising an eyebrow at me.
"No" I say instantly.
"If you heard what I said before he kissed me, you should know that I didn't want him! I don't! I told him he was pathetic, that he never had a chance and that I thought-"
"He was worse than me? Yeah I heard" he shakes his head looking at me in disappointment.
"I cannot forget what you did Harry, do not ask that of me" I state sternly feeling myself becoming overwhelmed.
"I know" He sighs.
"What else did you say to him?" He asks and I feel shocked. He was coming round?
"You didn't hear the whole thing?" I ask in confusion.
"No" he shakes his head as he places the blanket on the bed. Progress?
"I caught it from the part where he told you he-"
"Okay you don't have to-" I shake my head cutting him off.
"I just told him to get out, that I thought he had done enough and that I didn't care for what he had to say to me" I sigh and he watches me intently.
"I tried to get him out but then when he started saying all that stuff to me I just froze-" I add.
"I couldn't think because all I was thinking was that he wasn't you" I say as I look up at him in awh.
"And then he kissed me and now here we are" I gesture to us.
"I'm not leaving Harry" I say and he doesn't react.
"I'm tired of walking away from my problems and I won't let you make the same mistake I did" I say and I thought I almost saw a flicker of emotion in his eye.
"Everything I want now is in this room and I'm not leaving until you understand that" I state sternly. He stays silent for a minute seeming to have an inner battle with himself. I don't blame him. I just hoped he would let me talk to him.
"Let me fucking kill him and then We can talk-" he steps forwards angrily and I place my hand on his chest stopping him.
"No" I say and he frowns at me.
"Leave it- it's not worth it" I say and I feel him relax under my touch.
"Your better than that Harry" I add and he rolls his eyes.
"I'd feel much better if I beat the shit out of him-"
"Me too, but right now we have more important things to deal with" I say. The last thing we needed was another fight.
"Like us" I sigh. I wanted to save this if I could.
"If there even is still an us?" I look down at my bare feet. Gosh that couldn't be more awkward. He probably still doesn't want me at all.
"There's always going to be an us" He sighs and I look up at him. What?
"Even if I want to hate you right now- I can't" He shakes his head and I feel my chest flutter.
"You don't hate me?" I gape.
"No"' he shakes his head.
"I'm fucking pissed at you but I don't hate you, no" he says and I can't help but smile as my cheeks heat up.
"I'm sorry" I say as my hand drops from his chest.
"I'm so sorry Harry, I never meant for any of this to happen" I say as I feel the distance between us starting to disappear. He was right here. With me. Like it should be.
"Forgive me?" I ask and he pauses.
"Manners cost nothing" he smirks and I feel my chest flutter again.
"Your going to make me beg?" I sigh and he shrugs with a cocky look on his face.
"Mmm... you could give it a go" He bums as he looks away from me playfully.
"Are you serious?-" I gape and he raises an eyebrow at me.
"Fine" I huff.
"Please will you forgive me, for I have sinned-"
"You can't recite the bible!" He laughs lightly and I do too. I missed this. I missed this so much. Hearing him laugh. Seeing him smile. Seeing him happy. It made me happy.
"Please Harry... I'm done fighting with you, I'm done not knowing where my head is at, I'm done seeing you and not being able to touch you or be with you. I need you. I'm sorry it took me this long to figure things out but I seriously know what I want now. I know that your sorry for what happened with Victoria and I forgive you. I can't say it doesn't hurt because it does, but I'm willing to put it aside for us. I want you. Everything about you I want. I'm sorry for everything with Zac and that whole thing with your Mom, I didn't mean for it to happen. Please can you forgive me? Please can we wipe the slate clean and start again?" I sigh as I place my hands on his chest.
"And.." he hums as his hands find there way to my waist instantly.
"And.." I hum looking up at him.
"And I love you" I smile.
"Only you" I add and he smiles softly.
"Good effort" he says as he pushes me off him causing me to frown.
"What? Harry!"
"What? I never said I would forgive you" he says seriously making my heart drop. He didn't forgive me? What? He couldn't- how could he-
"Hey I'm kidding..." he laughs lightly as he sees my eyes start to tear up. I feel my heart beat start to slow down back to normal as he takes my hand pulling me into him.
"I love you too" he whispers as he wraps his arms around my waist as I place my hands on his chest.
"Really?" I look up at him in awh as he raises an eyebrow at me.
"What do you mean really? Of course I do" he laughs lightly and I feel my chest flutter again.
"I never stopped loving you, even when you got out the car before seeing my Mum- I still loved you" He says and I look down ashamed of my actions.
"You made it hard but here we are" he laughs lightly and I look up at him. He was amazing. That was all I could think.
"So we start fresh?" I ask.
"Or your still mad at me?" I quickly add not wanting to sound too pushy.
"Mmm..." he smirks playfully and I roll my eyes.
"Can I change your mind?" I hum as I feel his nose brush mine. Within an instant I feel his lips meet mine and I feel everything else around us just melt away. Nothing else mattered than right now. I feel like this had been coming for so long and now I could finally put the past behind us. We were us again.
This is us.