Chapter 67
Amy's POV
After picking out a place to eat, we finally sat down in the resatraunt my Mom and Anne chose. I think it was called 'Belgrais' or something I wasn't sure. We sat down at a table at the end opposite Harry, who sat next to Gemma. My Mom sat opposite Anne at the end of the table on my side. Harry was clearly annoyed at me for what I said to him about pretending, but I didn't mean it in the way he took it.
I didn't know how to act around him at all. I felt like we were just straining ourselves not talking about anything. Not sorting anything out. Ignoring the issue. But yet I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to act.
"Amy you need to eat proper food-"
"Pizza is proper food Mom" I say to her as she looks over her menu at me turning her head to look at me.
"No it's not" Harry laughs lightly and I frown at him.
"Why don't you get the lasagne? You like my lasagne..." he says and I feel this weird feeling in my stomach. It kinda brought back memories of this one date we had at his house where he made lasagna and it was amazing. Harry was a good cook, that was an understatement.
"Yeah emphasis on the fact that you made it" I say and he rolls his eyes at me. Gemma laughs lightly at the two of us shaking her head making my cheeks blush slightly pink. I had no idea she was even watching us.
"I'll order for you" He says to me and I sigh. He had a habit of doing this.
"I can choose Harry.." I tell him and he laughs lightly. I couldn't tell if he was pretending to be nice or not. I had no idea.
"Yeah but I know what you like better than you anyway" he says with a hint of annoyance in his voice as he speaks causing me to glare at him. I don't know why my comment had gone down that badly with him, he just took it the complete wrong way.
"So Harry, how are things with my son? Has he come round to you guys yet?" My Mom asks as she places down the menu.
"He's Uh- he's getting there I think, right babe?" Harry looks to me instantly catching me off guard. It was weird hearing that from him when we hadn't been on good terms for the past week. As if it had been a week since I got scared to meet his Mom.
"What? Oh uh- yeah, he is taking it better than before" I say as I feel the awkward exchange of eye contact Harry and I shared as I spoke.
"Your brother is Harry's best friend Klaus, right?" Gemma asks and for some reason I felt a little self conscious about it. Was she judging me?
"Yes" I say.
"Oh is he not a big fan of you guys right now?" Anne interjects and I look to Harry not knowing what to say.
"We're working things out" he says before his eyes quickly catch mine. I felt like he wasn't referring to Klaus at all at this point. My eyes drop to my hands on my lap as I feel the pit in my stomach start to come back.
"So Amy what do you plan on doing next year when you leave College?" Anne asks as she places her menu down smiling over at me.
"Uh hopefully I can get a job as an intern somewhere and work my way up" I say and she nods. I had been looking into some internships but I couldn't find one right for me at all. It was a nightmare.
"Are you staying here?" She asks and I feel Harry's eyes on me as I nod.
"I was planning on staying here yes" I say.
"How lovely!" She says as she looks to Harry briefly, causing me to feel confused over there quick exchange. What just happened? Before I could ask Harry the waiter stands beside us note pad and pen ready.
"Can I take your order please?" He smiles at us widely. Anne orders first, my Mom following and then Gemma before Harry looks at me. I hope he was ordering for me because I had no idea what I wanted seen as my Mom said pizza isn't proper food.
"I'll have the Steak please, medium rare" Harry tells the man and he quickly jots it down before looking to me.
"And she will have the bacon double cheese burger, no sauce, no salad and no pickles or dressing please" he says and I feel this weird feeling my chest as he glances at me. He knew exactly what I liked probably more than I did.
"Thank you, is that everything?" The waiter asks and we nod.
"Yes thank you" Harry says as the sister starts to take our menus. Anne starts talking about something with my Mom and Gemma and I look to Harry just as the waiter leaves.
"I lo- thank you Harry" I correct myself. What the hell? What was I thinking? I was about to- Oh my.
"Your welcome" he smirks clearly noticing my slip up making my cheeks blush slightly.
"Come get a drink with me?" He asks and I nod.
"Excuse us a second" He says to rest of them before we leave the table. I follow close behind him as we walk over to bar.
"Nice coat by the way" he says as he turns to me with a smirk on his face. My eyes widen slightly as I feel my cheeks burn up as he looks down at me leaning on the bar.
"What? You didn't think I would notice? I've been looking for that for weeks" he says and I pull the jacket round me tighter.
"It's comfy" I say and he smiles.
"Looks good on you" he says as I feel his eyes trail up and down my body effortlessly.
"I mean looks better than those shorts you were wearing the other night, and bonus you have shoes on" he says sarcastically making me laugh lightly.
"Don't remind me" I shake my head as I look away from him in embarrassment.
"My Mum leaves tomorrow" he says and I look up at him. He didn't really seem pleased about it but I could tell something was bothering him.
"I was wondering-"
"Are you guys waiting?" The bartender interrupts snapping me out of my gaze at Harry. I smile at him as he looks to me briefly then back at Harry.
"Oh uh yeah please can we have a medium Merlot, a small Merlot, two cokes and a lemonade" Harry asks and the bartender nods.
"Course" He says looking to me with a smile before walking away. Was he hitting on me?
"What were you going to say?" I ask pulling Harry's attention back to me as he glares at the bartender.
"I Uh- I was wondering if we could you know.. talk tomorrow" he asks as he looks down at me. I knew this was bound to come up. It's not like I didn't want to talk, I think it had to happen. Spending time with my Mom really helped clear my head.
"Obviously I want to spend time with my family tonight and I would invite you but I don't want to over step-"
"Your not over stepping" I say as he looks down clearly getting a little shy.
"Can we just see how tonight goes?" I ask and he looks at me skeptically for a second before nodding.
"Course" He says. It was kinda awkward between us. We both seemed sort of lost as we looked at each other. There was so much left unsaid and it was all sort of lingering between us.
"Harry your Mom-"
"Here you go" The bartender interrupts bringing us some of our drinks. I avoid his gaze as I look to Harry intently. I had to ask. I couldn't help myself.
"Thanks" Harry says bluntly to the bartender as he walks away to grab the rest of our drinks.
"My Mum What?" He presses as he looks to me again. I didn't know how to bring it up. I didn't know whether I should or not but I just couldn't stop myself.
"Do you have anything to tell me?" I blurt out without catching myself. I watch his expression become cold and confused as he looks at me.
"What do you mean?" He asks.
"Do you have anything to tell me? I feel like your keeping something from me" I say as I look down at my hands. I didn't know if I was being stupid or not.
"What? No" he says quickly as his finger comes into contact with my chin pushing my head up to meet his gaze.
"No I'm not keeping anything from you" he says as he takes a step closer to me dropping his hand from my face.
"Why would you think that?" He asks as his I feel his hand slide down my arm comfortingly.
"Why would I think that? Do you not recall the past week we have just had?" I say as a frown appears on my face quickly.
"How many times can I say I'm sorry?" He sighs as he rubs his forehead in frustration.
"It's not about that Harry! I don't care about sorry" I tell him sternly as I look up at him.
"I need you to show me" I say and his expression becomes unreadable.
"I need you to show me how much you want me because right now I'm just so lost" I whisper to him as my gaze falls to the floor again. We stand in silence for a second as I feel myself become vulnerable to him. I let him know what I was thinking and he said nothing.
"Excuse me? Please could you take these to that table over there" he says to the bartender causing me to sigh. He really didn't care.
"Of course sir" The bartender says.
"Thank you" Harry mutters as he takes my hand in his surprisingly.
"Come.." He says as he lightly tugs on my hand. I don't say anything as he pulls me across the restaurant. I had no clue where we were going but I was confused to say the least. He stops as we get into the bathroom. The girls bathroom making me frown.
"Harry this is the girls bathroom" I frown as I pull back on his hand slightly as we enter.
"Shhh..." he says as he pulls us into the larger cubicle. I can't say I've ever been in this situation before. He quickly shuts the door behind me as I back up against it in confusion.
"What are you-"
"Tell me one thing" he asks as he takes a step close to me. His breath brushed against my skin making me want to just grab him and kiss him but I decide not. The dim lighting in the bathroom made this even weirder as I felt like it was night time I'm here.
"Do you love me?" He asks and I feel a pang of guilt hit me in the chest. He had been debating the fact that I love him? I thought he knew I loved him? Despite everything that's happened love doesn't just go away like that. I look up at him as I feel his nose brush against mine as he places his hands on either side of my head against the door.
"Why would you ask me that?" I whisper to him as his nose brushes against mine.
"Do you?" He presses as he leans his forehead against mine closing his eyes as I do mine. This moment couldn't become anymore emotionally driven then it was right now.
"You can't just put that on me" I whisper to him as I place my hands on his chest as I feel his breath hit my lips.
"I have to know" he sighs as he tilts my head up pushing his nose against mine. I look up at him as my lips part slightly as my eyes meet his.
I couldn't be anymore in love with him than I already am. Within one instant of hesitation I slowly lean into him, our lips brushing slightly with hesitation before he presses his lips to mine. I feel my lips start to tingle as his kisses me softly. Within seconds the soft side disappeared and the kiss became hungry. My hands reach up into his hair as his hands pin my hips to the door harshly making me gasp into the kiss. He takes this chance to push his tongue into my mouth as he pushes his coat from my body letting it drop to ground. His hands drops to my behind as he presses his front to mine almost in frustration. He grabs the back of my thighs pushing me up causing me to wrap my legs around his torso in an instant. I tugged at his hair lightly causing him to moan into the kiss. I never wanted to leave this moment. Even if we were in a bathroom.
"Harry..." I murmur into the kiss as he presses me against the door firmly.
"Listen-" I try to say in between his kisses.
"Mm listening" He smiles teasingly into the kiss as he still kisses me making me laugh lightly.
"They're gonna be wondering where we are" I mutter into his lips as he presses his to mine again.
"Fuck them" he laughs lightly into the kiss. I tug on his hair as he kisses me hungrily making me want more of him. But I couldn't get out of my head that he questioned my love for him. How? How could he think that?
"You really don't think I love you?" I whisper as he plants kisses along my jaw line making me tilt my head back in pleasure.
"I don't know" He mutters against my skin his breath tickling my skin as his grip on my thighs tightens making me taking in a sharp breath trying to control myself.
"After that thing with Zac- It just messed with my head" he sighs as he leans his forehead against mine closing his eyes.
"That thing with Zac-"
"Please don't talk about that right now" he cuts me off as he pushes his lips to mine again softly. I understood why he didn't want to talk about it but at the same time it wasn't something to be avoided.
"I just want to kiss you" He mutters as he places kisses down my neck sucking on certain spots longer than others making my skin tingle with pleasure. He knew exactly how I liked things and he took pleasure in doing it for me.
"Harry..." I groan as he sucks a spot near the base of my neck causing me to grip his hair tightly due to pleasure of his touch.
"I'm showing you how much I want you" He mutters into my skin before looking up at me placing a kiss on the corner of my mouth teasingly.
"And trust me if we weren't in a bathroom cubicle, I would be doing much more" he smirks as his lips brush mine but don't make full contact. I feel my heart flutter at his words as other areas tingle too thinking about what he could do. I was like mush in his hands.
"I don't doubt that" I whisper as I place a gentle kiss to his lips.
"But we need to go..." I say as he puts me down, my feet meeting the ground as I hold onto Harry keeping him close against me.
"Five more minutes..." he groans as he leans his forehead against mine.
"Five more minutes and they'll be out looking for us" I say but he ignores me, instead squeezes my bum playfully making me wriggly in his grasp.
"I don't fancy your Mom or mine finding us in stall in the girls bathroom together do you?" I say and he shakes his head brushing his nose against mine. He was so tempting but I had to be strong. One of us had to.
"I don't care.." he mutters as he pushes his lips to mine once again making me smile into the kiss. I felt like we were almost back to normal. We weren't. But it just felt like we were a little closer than we were before this.
"Come on..." I pull away from the kiss pushing him away from me causing him to groan in annoyance. I pick up his coat from the floor before wrapping it around me as I open the cubicle door much to Harry's annoyance.
"Your killing me" He says as he grabs my hips pulling me back to him. His nose brushes mine but I pull back only for his hand to take mine.
"We can't keep doing this" I sigh as he smirks at me.
"Doing what?" He raises an eyebrow at me as his thumb runs over my hand comfortingly. I sigh not wanting to ruin what just happened but we couldn't keep doing his. We were not getting anywhere. We were just ignoring the elephant in the room.
"Going back and fourth" I sigh and he frowns.
"You think we were wrong to do that?" He asks and I shake my head. It wasn't wrong. Nothing ever felt wrong with him.
"No not wrong but-"
"Why is there always a but with you?" He sighs as he let's go of my hand causing me to frown. What was that supposed to mean?
"Because I'm trying to be the one that thinks clearly for once" I state as I fold my arms over my chest looking up at him as he has his back to me running a hand through his hair in frustration.
"Stop thinking! You think too much- just enjoy the moment for once" he says as he spins around to face me. I narrow my eyes at him immediately and couldn't control the next thing that came out of my mouth.
"You not thinking got us in this mess in the first place" I snap and he freezes. We both stand there looking at each other, almost in shock of what I had said. I didn't know why I said it. I shouldn't of said it but I did. And now I couldn't take it back.
"Wow... really? That was a low blow..." he sighs laughing in disbelief at me as he shakes his head backing up from me. I could tell he was hurt by my words but I didn't realise how much of low blow it was until I saw the look in his eyes.
"You mean to say you were thinking when you had your tongue down her throat?" I say as I raise an eyebrow at him. I was subconsciously screaming at myself to shut up but for some reason I couldn't. My mouth was running before my brain could even hit the breaks.
"Were you thinking when you had your tongue down Zac's throat?" He hits back at me raising his voice slightly at me making me angry. Was he for real?
"We broke up! That had nothing to do with us!" I raise my voice at him back. I just hoped no one walked in on us or heard us. I couldn't deal with that.
"It has everything to do with us! He was my friend! I would never do that to you!" He yells at me and I laugh in disbelief.
"That's right you did worse! You did it whilst we were still together-"
"We were on a break!" He cuts me off yelling at me again.
"We were not on a break!" I snap back reaching the same volume as him. He laughs in disbelief at me but I carry on.
"How can you say that?" I sigh looking at him in disbelief. We were not on a break. Not that I knew of.
"That's the truth- We were on a break!-" I cut him off as I feel my anger getting he better of me.
"Liar! Your lying! We were not on a break! Stop trying to make yourself feel better for cheating on me!" I yell at him in anger causing his jaw to hit the floor in shock.
"Is that what you think I'm doing? I couldn't feel anymore shit for what I did! But you-" he yells pointing at me as he shakes his head.
"You cannot deny we were on a break! I told you that! Were you not listening? Are you deaf? I called the break!" He yells angrily and I frown.
"You were angry!-"
"I still called it!" He interrupts and I frown.
"I tried to not bring it up and just apologise and get over it but I can't! I can't when you keep throwing my actions in my face when you did the exact same thing!" He yells and my mouth falls open in shock. How can he compare what he did to what I did? It is completely different.
"We broke up!" I yell at him and he laughs in my face.
"We broke up- We were on a break, is that not the same thing? Your words not mine!" He yells and I stare at him thinking of something to say. I did say that but not in this content.
"Hmm? Nothing to say?" He says and I frown at his harsh tone.
"I thought so" he snaps laughing lightly.
"I'm right your wrong, just admit it" he says and I shake my head.
"No" I simply say only for him to cut in.
"Then fine" he spits.
"Believe what you want" he goes on as he pushes a hand through his hair.
"I'm done fighting with you" he states and I don't react. When really in side I could feel myself becoming more and more worked up.
"I'm trying so hard to make it up to you but you just can't get over what I did can you?" He laughs lightly as he shakes his head in disbelief.
"So what am I fighting for?" He snaps and I look to the ground. I didn't know what to say. Whatever I would say he wouldn't listen to anyway.
"Tell me!" He presses raising his voice at me.
"I don't know..." I sigh and he shakes his head as the room falls silent.
"This is waste of time" he snaps and I look up at him.
"This whole thing is a waste of time" he adds as she shakes his head at me.
"What more can I do? Your not giving me a chance!" He raises his voice in frustration again and I can see how upset I had made him.
"I'm trying-"
"Your making a piss poor effort" he cuts me off angrily.
"Harry..." I reach out to him but he steps back making me frown.
"No" he says harshly.
"I don't want to talk to you right now" he says as he pushes past me towards the door making my heart drop.
"Like you said- they'll be wondering where we are right?" He says and I feel the anger radiate off him.
"Put on a smile and lets go pretend" he smugly as his hand slowly reaches up tucking a piece of hair behind my ear intimidatingly.
"Just like you wanted, right?" He says belittling me.
"No..." I whisper as I feel the tears start to form in my eyes.
"Then tell me what you want!" He raises his voice making me jump.
"I don't know!" I yell back at him.
"What do you want from me?" He sighs in frustration as he tugs at his hair making me frown.
"I-" I try to say something but we are cut off as the restroom door opens. A small old women walks in and stops as soon as she sees the two of us.
"I'm sorry is this not the ladies room?" She says as she clutches her handbag defensively almost.
"Sorry M'am we were just leaving" Harry says as he quickly exits the restroom leaving me stood there. Alone. Again.
"I'm sorry" I mutter to her before following him out. I sigh as I try to calm myself as I see Harry taking a seat at the table. I don't know how long we had been but questions were bound to be asked. I take a deep breath as I head over to the table. Gemma smiles at me as I take a seat opposite Harry.
"Nice of you two to join us" Gemma says laughing lightly along with Anne and my Mom. I look to Harry to see him on his phone not looking up one bit.
An hour goes by and we finish up our food without a word shared between the two of us. Harry barely spoke one bit to anyone for that matter, he only spoke when spoken to and even then they were one worded answers. Anne and my Mom got on amazingly, they had even shared numbers and followed each other on Pinterest, seen as they were both obsessed. It was cute to see them get on. I wish I could say the same for me and Harry.
Our argument had put things in perspective for me.
He thought we were on a break when he kissed Victoria, and yet still compared me and Zac to what he did. I didn't know he felt like that. I was disgusted he thought that. He wouldn't listen to me though. I didn't even want to talk to him though in all honesty. Every time I felt we were getting somewhere, we weren't. Every time I felt like I was getting answers from him, I wasn't.
We were only finding questions in answers. We were both walking disasters.