A: 3 days...it took me 3 days to update here again.
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- Rosè
We are walking back to the house...
He insisted that he will walk me home and I did just nod a little as an answer earlier.
I don't want him to walk me back...
I don't want seeing him now.
But I am tired to even have an argument about that.
We kept walking...
We just kept even though I feel drowsy and dizzy...
Until I felt collapsing but a hand grabbed me and an arm supported my on my waist.
"I keep walking slowly but it seems like you're a little drunk."
He mumbled under his breath, my eyes unintentionally looked at his lips...
"I miss him."
I do...
But despite of that, I push him a little and chuckled a little.
"Yeah, a bit. But I'm fine. You can even leave me from here, I'll walk on..."
I was cut off by my own self when my knees almost failed me.
His arms wrapped around my waist.
Eyes seriously staring at mine.
The cold wind blew through our bodies and his warmth kept me fine.
"I'll carry you."
Simply, he stated.
At first set of couple of seconds...
I wasn't able to answer.
Until he loosened his grip and motioned that he will carry me...
"I'm fine. You carried Tzuyu all along, you must be tir..."
He cut me off by looking at me with glaring eyes.
"Okay, sorry."
He turned his back and crouched so I can position myself.
Once fine.
I jumped a little at his signal and rode his back.
"Are you comfortable?"
He asked with a warmer tone.
"Mm."
And I just hummed in response.
The smell of his perfume hit my senses.
His hands that are supporting my legs are muscular enough for me to feel secured.
His unbothered figured while carrying me will be one of the things that can turn me on.
"I miss him..."
For the second time...
It popped out inside my head.
My lips touched his clothed shoulder.
I leaned on it and closed my eyes.
I let him carry me, I let the time passes, I let myself get drown on this scene.
Which I didn't know...
Made my tears flow out of my eyes.
I felt him halted for a second...
That's the moment I heard myself sobbed silently.
I tired preventing it...
But just feeling his body having a contact with mine...
I felt breaking down already.
His arms on my legs tightened.
I felt him inhaling a deep amount of oxygen.
I continued crying, without speaking a word, or doing anything.
He continued walking afterwards.
He continued and so my tears does.
Few moments...
We reached the house.
The house that used to be a home for the both of us.
He didn't asked me to open the gate...
And I just realized it myself that we are entering the house already.
"You can put me down."
With a raspy voice, I spoke.
He didn't give any response, instead, he made our way to the room.
"Jungkook."
As we entered, he put me down.
He faced me and aggressively gripped on my wrist and pulled me in before pinning me on the wall.
I hissed in the pain I felt as my body collided with the wall.
"Jungk..."
I felt nervous as I felt his hands gripping on my waist, his eyes piercing on mine.
My hands immediately travelled up to his chest, trying to push him. His breathe was heavy and I don't know what he is thinking but I am trying to avoid something to happen.
"Jungkook, your hand."
Until I can't take it any longer.
I bit my lower lip as he didn't budge to loosen his grip.
He sucked his eyes on me.
They were asking for something, seeking for something.
And I am declining to show whatever it is.
"Can't we be together?"
Until he spoke.
His hands roamed up to my upper arm, gripping on it the same way he gripped on my waist.
My brows furrowed.
Emotions started to fill me in again.
I pumped my lips a little and breathe.
I shook my head.
"We can't Jungkook."
I spoke out the words that even me, don't want to hear.
"Why?"
He asked.
I saw his eyes getting watery.
His sweat dripping on his forehead.
He must feel so tensed right now.
But I feel the same.
I don't want to do a mistake...
A mistake that may lead us to a huge conflict.
And I don't want seeing him suffering again.
"I'm sorry."
He apologized while his arms wrapped around me. His chest touching my back.
"For what?"
I asked.
Though, I know what he is talking about.
The day after he tried defending me to his parents, he apologized for it.
"I haven't thought of them rejecting us."
He answered.
And his lips brushed on my bare nape.
"Rejecting me, correction, baby."
I faced him, and showed up a smile as I stated.
He looked at my lying lips and back to my eyes with a devastated expression.
"If they reject you, that means, they are also rejecting their son, me. If they can't accept you, they can't accept anything from me because they can't accept my own decision."
That small memory flashed.
It reminds me how hard it was not only for me but also for him, to try defending me to his parents, his family, who are all close-minded on accepting me and our relationship.
It wasn't totally me.
I am not just the reason but it is just being thrown to me because I am the nearest person.
Who they hate...
Were really my parents.
Because unlike Tzuyu's family, my parents chose to be their opponent in everything, including business...
And business...
Is the whole reason.
If it doesn't include business, profits, titles, fame ad else...
Neither of us would suffer right now.
No one will get to be involve on a car accident.
No one will reject someone.
No one will face anxiety.
No one will lost his memories.
""Business...it sucks."
"W can't just work it out anymore. Things had been.so messed up, ruined, destroyed, we can't even distinguish a way on how to prove us to your parents anymore especially now that everything had happened already."
I answered.
I am trying my best to hold back the tears but I saw his lips quivering...
My soul lost the guts and my tears stream down.
We stared at each other...
We looked at each other for almost a minute and didn't utter a word.
"But I still love you."
He mumbled...
My lips parted to answer...
But I was cut off when someone called my name from the living room.
"Chaeyoung-a? Where are you?"