Chapter 57
Amy's POV
"Hey- Are you okay? You look like you've seen a ghost" Zac's presence snaps me out of state as I watch Harry talk to Victoria. I don't think my heart could be anymore crushed than it was now. He didn't want me. He introduced me to Victoria as his best friends sister who he fucked. At that point I knew he was done with me. He knew how much that would hurt and he still said it anyway.
"I'm sorry- I have to go" I mutter as I see Harry glance over at me, his eyes flicking from Zac to me but I cannot read his emotion.
"What? Where?" He stops me stepping in front of me as I go to leave. I look up at him shaking my head I feel a single tear roll down my cheek. Before I could even get a word out I hear my name being called but not by the person I wanted it to be.
"Amy!" Eva enters the kitchen with Niall trailing behind her. I guess they made up then? At least tonight went well for someone.
"What happened? Where's Harry?" She asks as she pulls me into a hug when she sees my tears eyes. I think it was the best hug I had ever had. I literally just felt like I was falling and she was the only one catching me.
"With Victoria" I mutter as I pull away.
"This was a mistake I need to leave" I say as wipe my eyes. I watch her face drop and I glance over at Niall who looks incredibly uncomfortable.
"Victoria? Who the fuck is that?" Eva asks glancing around the room clearly looking for Harry.
"Eva leave it, come on-" Niall tries to calm her down but she isn't having any of it.
"Get off me, is that them over there?" She says angrily as she snaps her wrist out of Niall's grasp angrily. She points over to where they are stood and I see Niall's eyes widen. What did he know?
"Yeah don't do-" I try to stop her but she shakes her head.
"I'll catch up with you guys, go get in the car" she says causing my eyes widen. She was going to confront them? Oh my god.
"What? No-" I stop her and she rolls her eyes.
"Trust me" She says and I sigh.
"He isn't going to listen to you" Niall tells her causing me to frown.
"Your underestimating me big time, fucking watch me" she snaps glaring at him. Maybe they hadn't sorted things out? I had no idea. All I knew was Eva was about to do the one thing I couldn't. Step up.
"Eva don't-" Niall grabs her hand as she moves away from us which clearly angers her.
"Niall, I can do what I want! My friend is clearly hurt and it's your best friends fault! Shouldn't you be trying to help?" She snaps at him at I see his expression drop. He was annoyed now. I felt so awkward that I was clearly the source of this argument but I also was so shocked that Niall didn't want to help. I didn't understand.
"I did help! I'm the whole reason your here! Just keep your nose out where it isn't needed" he yells at her causing her to huff pulling her hand out of his grasp.
"If your not going to help me then fuck off" she spits at him causing my eyes to widen. Zac glances at me awkwardly clearly not knowing wether to intervene or not.
"Fine- But good luck with that one, with the mood he is in you haven't got a chance" Niall spots before pushing past Eva and walking away from us.
"I need a drink" Zac laughs lightly trying to fill the silence between the three of us.
"Come on- let's just stay and cool down a minute" he says and I shake my head looking at Eva who was staring at Harry and Victoria.
"I can't I need to go-" I say.
"One drink" Zac stops me causing me to sigh. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be in Evie's house. I didn't want to see Harry. I didn't want to see him with someone else and I sure as hell didn't want to talk about my feelings or problems to anyone else tonight.
"You said you would!" He pushes and I pause mulling it over.
"One drink won't hurt Amy" Eva says smiling at me encouragingly causing me to give in. One drink wouldn't hurt right?
"Fine but I need some air" I mutter before pushing past them all. As I walk through the kitchen I take one last look at Harry to see he was deep in conversation with and wasn't even looking at me. It was the final straw.
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3 days later
To say these past few days had dragged would be an understatement. I hadn't really done much. Other than sat in my room, napped, sit in the shower and watched an endless amount of movies. Eva really had my back since the other night. She had been sat with me and comforting me when she wasn't sorting things with Niall. They had made up after he told her he loved her and she was happier than ever. I was happy for them. But I couldn't help thinking about Harry. He hadn't called, text and I hadn't seen him since that night. What did I expect when we were on a break?
"Amy are you ready?" Eva shouts from down the hall as I sit on my bedroom floor. I wore a two piece checkered skirt and top with some white trainers as I sat debating whether to go tonight. Eva, Niall, Zac, Becca, Klaus, Jade and Mia along with Louis, Liam and Damon were going round to the frat house tonight for a few drinks. It was a small gathering with our closet friends. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go.
"I'm not coming!" I shout as I let my nerves get the best of me.
"Your dressed, why are you sat on the floor?" Eva comes into the room dress in a red dress with trainers on to matching my own.
"I don't want to come" I sigh looking down at my hands. She sighs before sitting down next to me. She looks at me clearly trying to read me before speaking.
"Is this about-"
"Please don't" I shake my head cutting her off not wanting to get upset.
"I'm sorry Amy, he still hasn't spoke to you?" She says as she puts her arm around me pulling me into her. I lean my head onto her shoulder eyes I blink away the tears trying to push them back.
"Nope, I mean I don't blame him, I just want to keep my distance" I say. Harry wanted to go on a break. He didn't want to see me. He made that pretty clear. But it doesn't mean that it wasn't hard for me to except.
"He isn't going to be there you know?" She says and I frown pulling back from her looking at her in confusion. It was Harry's house of course he was going to be there. Where else would he be?
"Niall said he was going out with his Mom and Sister" she explains and I sigh almost in relief. What else would he be doing I mentally slap myself for putting no trust in him at all.
"See if that's what you were worried about, don't be" she says as she rubs my back comfortingly.
"Are you sure?" I ask and she smiles.
"Yeah course" she nods. So Harry wasn't going to be there. That doesn't mean I still wanted to go. What about everyone else? What about all the questions and conversations I'm gonna get? Did I want that right now?
"I just don't feel like myself at all- I don't think I can face everyone" I say truthfully as I look down at my hand as I play with the ring on my finger.
"They're gonna ask questions and I just can't do it, I can't pretend like I'm fine" I say as I feel myself getting worked up. What did I even tell people? We were on a break because of what? Because we fell out? Because Harry didn't want me anymore? I didn't know? I had no answers for myself never mind other people.
"I know, I get it" she says looking at me sympathetically.
"I talked to Niall and he said Harry hasn't been at the house since that night" she says making me frown. This was news to me. Anything to do with Harry was news to me seen as I was completely out of the loop.
"He didn't come home?" I frown. I didn't want to presume the worst but I couldn't help if. What if he stayed with that girl? What if he stayed at Evie's house? Oh no what if he stayed with Evie?
"No- he thinks he probably went back to stay with his Mom but I'm not 100% sure" Eva says and I pause. Was I being stupid or not? I had no idea. I just didn't know.
"Do you think he would-"
"Don't torture yourself" Eva says says giving me a unsettling look. She didn't seem very convincing when she told me not to torture myself. It's only made my worries worse.
"Come on, let's try and take your mind off it" she says as she jumps up grabbing my hand pulling me up with her. I sigh brushing the negative thoughts away trying to focus on actually getting out the house for once.
"Thank you" I hug her briefly.
"You look amazing, now smile- I missed your smile" she says making me smile as my cheeks blush a little. Probably the first time I had smiled in three days.
"See! Amazing" she jokes poking my cheeks causing me to push her hands away. We leave the room and she tells me about how Zac and Becca when on a date today and Becca was really happy it was exciting. We walk to the boys house and I instantly feel my nerves start to kick in. I was nervous. Really nervous. I knew by now everyone in there probably knew about me and Harry and that made ems more nervous than actually seeing Harry himself. Eva smiles at me as we enter the house and I follow behind her sweetly. I could hear everyone talking and laughing in the kitchen along with music playing in the background.
"Hey!" Jade gives me a hug as soon as I walk in making me feel all the more welcome. She passes me a drink instantly but I don't really feel like drinking so I place it down on the counter.
"You look cute" I tell her smiling falsely at her.
"Says you, look at you! Where do you put it I don't understand" she says as pinches my waist trying to find some fat on me jokingly.
"Shut up..." I roll my eyes just as someone wraps there arms around my neck.
"Didn't know you were coming" Klaus says and for a second I actually feel relieved seeing him. He looked happy. So happy. He was practically prancing around.
"Yeah I wasn't- but guess I couldn't resist?" I joke as he lets go of me as I turn to face him, he stands next to Jade and she smiles at my widely at the show of affection between the two of us.
"Where's Harry?" He asks making me frown. I glance to Jade who shakes her head as her eyes widen. He didn't know? I had told Jade everything and she hadn't told Klaus? To say I was shocked was an understatement.
"Uh-"
"He's with his Mom right?" Jade says saving me as I stand there frozen not knowing what to do.
"Is he coming later?" He presses as he takes a sip from his beer bottle.
"Not sure" I shrug looking anywhere but him. I couldn't believe he didn't know. Did that mean that everyone else didn't know too? I knew that Eva, Niall and Jade for sure knew but I had no idea about everyone else. I'm pretty sure Zac probably had an idea as well but yet none of them cared to mention it to my brother? Wow.
"Come to the bathroom with me, I need a wee" Jade she as she grabs my hand pulling me out the room. Klaus shakes his head laughing as we walk away she drags me into the living room quickly.
"I'm sensing this isn't really about you needing a wee" I say skeptically as we walk up the stairs.
"No I do" she laughs lightly.
"Amongst other things too though" she adds making me roll my eyes. We get into the bathroom and she locks the door behind her.
"You didn't tell Klaus about me and Harry" she laughs lightly as she goes for a wee making me laugh.
"Is that a question or statement?" She rolls her eyes.
"I mean why?"
"Because it's not my place. I don't want to go running my mouth when I don't know what could happen between you two" she says and I nod in response.
"Besides I thought you would of made up by now" she shrugs and I sigh. I almost thought the exact same thing up until yesterday when I had given up on the thought he would turn up at my door or at least text me something. I could hear some people talking downstairs as I thought about what she was saying to me before I heard a door shut snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Nope" I shake my head.
"He hates me" I sigh shaking my head as I feel a wave of emotion hit me once again.
"Like I mean it, I've never seen him this angry and upset with me before like I don't know what to do! I didn't think I would hurt him this much" I say and she cuts me off.
"He doesn't hate you" she says and I roll my eyes. She was just saying that to make me feel better but it really was far from the the truth.
"That boy could never hate you, in fact he's head over heels for you that's why he's hurt so much" she says and I shake my head.
"But he said he doesn't want to see me, we're on a break like what does that even mean?" I sigh as I feel the tears starting to come on. I was such a fucking baby literally crying over a guy who I thought loved me.
"He's just angry, Besides he probably just needs some space" she says as she sorts her self out.
"How much space? Like this is what I don't get! He doesn't talk to me so I don't know what to do!" I sigh in frustration. This was the issue. Even if we are on a break, what were the terms? Was he seeing other people? Were we supposed to talk or not? I didn't know!
"Have you called him?" She asks as she washes her hands in the sink.
"No" I shake my head and she looks at me with wide eyes.
"What? Why?"
"Because we're on a break!" I yell at her in frustration causing her to roll her eyes.
"What does that even mean? This is ridiculous" she says huffing as she dries her hands with a towel.
"Just call him" she insists and I shake my head.
"I can't" I say. He wouldn't pick up anyway. I knew he wouldn't.
"I'm letting him have his space because I'm trying to do what he wants for once" I sigh.
"I want to show him that I actually do care about him" I mutter as she opens the bathroom door.
"Girl you got it bad for him" she laughs lightly and I frown as we walk out into the hall.
"No I don't"
"Yeah you do! You basically kissing his feet right now- What you need to be doing is grabbing him by he dick and make him realise what he's missing" she says making weird gestures with her hands that make me feel uncomfortable.
"I think that would hurt" I say and she looks at me in disbelief making me confused.
"I don't mean physically you idiot! It's a figure- your so dumb sometimes" she says shaking her head in shock at my blond moment.
"Sorry" I mutter trying not to laugh as she cleverly is frustrated with me.
"Just man up and go talk to him" she says and I shake my head. I didn't have a chance talking to Harry right now. The wounds were clearly still fresh and I wasn't about to put salt on them.
"I think I'll pass" she rolls her eyes looking at me as we get to the bottom of the stairs.
"Your loss, your only going to put a rift between the both of you" she says and I frown.
"Come on, lighten up" she says as we walk into the kitchen. I sigh as I realise she probably was right but now wasn't the time to be thinking about that. I had to socialise. Get a life and stop dwelling on something that wasn't going to change right now. I had no control in this situation much to may dismay. But it was what he wanted and I had to except that.
After an hour I started to become. I had sort of let less a little. I didn't think about Harry at all as I talked to Zac and Damon most the night and danced with Eva and Jade to cheesy songs that the boys hated. But by that time I was ready to turn in. Jade and Klaus were outside in the garden with Niall, Eva, Damon, Mia and Becca. Whilst I was inside with Zac, Louis and Liam, because we didn't want to be with the smokers. Not that Jade smoked she just was talking to Klaus.
"I'm gonna go, I'm pretty tired now" I say as I give Louis and Liam a joint hug.
"Are you sure?" Zac asks looking at me skeptically before hugging me.
"Yeah it's been a long day" I sigh as we pull apart. For a second I almost think his eyes flit to my lips but I wasn't sure. I didn't take much notice of it anyway.
"Tell them I said bye" I say gesturing to the smokers outside. He nods hugging me one last time before I leave. I walk through the empty house sighing as I feel 100% ready for a shower and a nap. I close the front door behind me as I head across the road. No one was home so thankfully I would find some piece and quiet for 2 seconds of my day. I look down at my phone checking my messages seeing two unread ones. Both from my Mom. I sigh putting my phone in bag deciding to read them later before opening the door to the house. I close the door behind me shutting my eyes as I lean back on it sighing softly. Finally home.
"Amy?"