another version of "musical answers" because i have more new music lol. just skip if you're tired of my blabbering (idk why u even read this book if u get tired of blabbering).
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you know the rules. shuffle, answer, blah.
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1. How are you feeling today?
√ namae no nai kaibutsu //egoist//
- i dunno what this leads to, but maybe it's trying to tell us all, the fact that from this hour forward, i have decided embrace the fact that i am no longer qualified to be a human being. i beautifully accept that fact, then. i'll live with it.
2. Will you get far in life?
√ route sphere //gumi//
- the song says i just have to have confidence in my choices, step forward unwavering from my goals and ideals (which i, unfortunately, do not have, so if you would please give me atleast one), and believe in a future i created with my own hands. it's actually way inspiring than i expected it to be, but man, not the time for this.
3. How do your friends see you?
√ exorcism //cyber diva//
- the major message of this song. i need an exorcism. just kidding. basically, i get sooo easily influenced and i am being possesed by the shit i did in the past? so i highly need someone to remove all ny negative stuff from me? ok, next song, stop interpretation, this song is pretty creepy.
4. Will you get married?
√ nijirou chouchou //hatsune miku//
- this song is actually really melancholic. i won't get married, i guess, because i am too different from them whom i have wanted to reach out to. but in the process, i'd be able to learn how to be kind, sad, and happy. and after that, i'll search for that one person now with rainbow-coloured "wings" which have been birthed out of my journey under the snow. wow.
5. What is your best friend's theme song?
√ ODD Future //UVERworld//
- my best friend is nonexistent, so the interpretation would also be nonexistent. although this is a bnha song, well, not the time for that either.
6. What is the story of your life?
√ oz vessalius character song //minagawa junko//
- ... fuck. wow. why is this shit returning to me at such a period of time? anyways, the main reason why i didn't hate oz as a character (well, most people said they didn't like him that much) and honestly held a place as a favorite is because there was a pretty relatable spot in his personality... wait, personalities? *there goes my trigger, and you can choose to either listen to the song or read the lyrics because i cannot be bothered to interpret something so heavy as of now* but if i had to put it in a short explanation... "i found a purpose in a world where i did nothing but contort".
7. What will high school life be like?
√ lost in paradise //evanescence//
- i don't really get the song because it has multiple meanings in my head atm. but one of these is that highschool life is a ride of me disappoining everyone who trusted me to be HUMAN. unfortunately, i am "broken", says the song, so i am now lost in a paradise of my own mind. i guess.
8. How will you get ahead in life?
√ statice //elliot nightray (fanmade piece, original, HeroicPlights on tumblr i think)//
- this is um uhhhhhhhhh fuck. for now, let's just say that it's invalid because there are no lyrics-- and-- *cries* JUN GET BACK HERE WHY WOULD YOU KILL ELLIOT UGH. but song interpretation, i need calm. peace. stability. appreciation for all things serene and simply beautiful. i need all that to be able to push forward. wow, good point. still cri
9. What is the best thing about your friends?
√ specimen girl //kamui gakupo//
- best thing about them is that they're possessive, mentally deranged fucktards who would replace your eyes with glass because they don't want you looking at anyone else other than them. so basically, they are yandere psychos. seems like the best thing that ever happened.
10. To describe your grandparents.
√ KINGS //angela//
- since i haven't gotten round to listening to the full song as of yet, i can only make a rough interpretation from the tv-size. basically... they're people with conflicting ideals or views of justice, but they want to connect, and that connection is something they find peaceful amidst the raging war??? or the connection is a mutual understanding of what they're fighting for from two different points of view, and that they hold each other in the calm of battle. or something.
11. How is your life going?
√ hotaru //fujita maiko//
- yes, this is, indeed, the hotaru. i don't know how to interpret this, but it's probably something like... "i am currently confused by what is happening around me, because i try to understand people, but the suffocating feeling of not being able to is making me cry". what. the song is just too linked to the anime that i can't give it any other meaning, other than me referring to an actual human being, and, not being pleased with myself since i can't understand this certain human. and the day for us to separate is drawing near. like... this person opened their heart to me, but when i touched it, it broke, and i couldn't understand any more than i initially did. pretty tough.
12. What song will play at your funeral?
√ sugar song and bitter step //UNISON SQUARE GARDEN//
- this is definitely not for a funeral. but man, it's "i'm confused, i don't understand myself, but i don't care as long as i'm having fun during my stay" or, in this scenario, "i haven't found myself, but although this death is bittersweet, i don't mind because i had a lot of fun when i was still living." enough said.
13. How does the world see you?
√ daze //GARDiNELIA//
- the one who showed people that loneliness is never an issue. roughly. i didn't really get a good grip on those lyrics.
14. Will you have a happy life?
√ don't say lazy //hokagyakou tea time//
- probably yes, as long as i never give up on my "dreams" (give me some) and as long as i don't listen to everyone else's putdowns out of their own belief of the fact that i can't do this and that, because they've never seen me attempt it openly. also, i will have a happy life as long as i would be able to act accordingly, with enough emotion and mental prowess, on the situations that come my way???
15. Do people secretly lust over you?
√ lacrimosa //kalafina//
- no they do not, for i am as dark as the night, yet beautiful as the moonlight. snort.
16. How can I make myself happy?
√ bauklötze //hiroyuki sawano & mika kobayashi (vocals)//
- set myself free from all the things that destroyed early memories of a childhood which is supposed to be happy for everyone? cut myself off from the things that broke my walls and fly with the wings of a being that never seemed to have taken any burns and damage? thanks, song, but i can no longer-- //kicked// on the lighter side, this is probably life advice that todoroki shoto needs badly.
17. What should you do with your life?
√ identity //mikio sakai//
- i could only get the translation for tv size because the site didn't have traslation for the whole thing and i'm too lazy to dig through everything. well, i do have an idea about these songs, but i re-read the lyrics in case i missed anything. anyways, it says i have to "STOP LETTING ANYONE AFFECT MY IDENTITY" because that is the best way to get my adrenaline pumping and blood rushing towards the goal of taking the top. almost all the songs i've encountered so far are telling me the same fucking thing help.
18. Will you have children?
√ legacy //black veil brides//
- title itself says no, ok i'm leaving this question bc i'm not interested in children of my own.
19. What is your deep, dark secret?
√ alice baskerville character song //kawasumi ayako//
- not knowing who i am, searching for myself and losing direction in a lonely place in the process of looking for it??? or maybe entrusting ME to someone whom i believed would always be by my side (under the foolish delusion that humans aren't mortal), and feeling that part of me shatter as the person who held it fell to the ground as they met their end. being forgotten. fear of loneliness, quiet chaos, unkept promises, and questioning the reason for my existence more often than not.
20. What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
√ the game of life //miku hatsune//
- my mortal enemy is god, then. enough said. so he probably does exist, but i have managed to break out of his strings and am dissing him for the way he plays around with all of us and nothing else. cuts it short because "blasphemy".
21. What is your personality like?
√ nee //fujita maiko//
- i am not in the mood to interpret this song today, so i'll let it pass for a bit.
22. What song will be played at your funeral?
√ maze //ohmi tomoe//
- this is pretty unfit for a funeral in a lot of ways, including the fact that it talks about wanting to find some 'light' in the 'maze of life'. very contradictory, and 'the proof of living' is an actual line in this song so oof
23. Will you be rich?
√ alice the human sacrifice //basically vocaloids//
- probably not. because everyone ended in tragedy here. so instead of being able to reach the ideal world and becoming the 'ideal alice' that is closer to becoming god (of course, i'm still on about that "god is money" thing and you can't change my mind bc it's true), i ended up destroying my own shit by succumbing to the ease of luxury on my way there.
24. Are you a good chef?
√ jiyuu no tsubasa //linked horizon//
- my cooking will give you wings to heaven or hell bye.
25. What will you grow up to be?
√ mad hatter //melaine martinez//
- wow, i have an actual western song. anyways... it says i'll grow up to be an extreme addict who has delusions regularly. this is actually pretty bad, because i wouldn't want to grow up to be some kind of psychopath who peels the skin off their calves. i'm not in the mood for creepies today, i have to end this here.
26. What are your parents like?
√ this game //konomi suzuki//
- the gist of this song is that the "we" it speaks about refuse to give up in a society where everyone is forced to conform. basically, they are "maverick", and they don't need anyone's fucking help to achieve their goals. this is pretty nice for my, um, parents, whom i don't think have any hope left. i sure do hope this positivity is gonna get to them in due time lol.
27. What is your weakness?
√ senbonzakura
- the art of war? the legacy of battle? who knows? but it might be something related to either of those two, or both. i can't really explain, but it's all in the history of how we came to be what we currently are. and indeed, that is my weakness, because i don't fucking know who the fuck i currently am. just kidding, not what it means at all, but you get me.
28. Will you ever take over the world?
√ alumina //nightmare//
- this song made it actually pretty deep. what is the world indeed? is the world something we simply want to call ours, because it is our sense of self? is the world really necessarily the earth itself that floats somewhere outer space? what is it that we seek to conquer when we refer to the "world"? is it actually ourselves, and our own real thoughts that had shattered and scattered in this restrictive society?
29. Are you scary?
√ cantarella //kaito shion//
- probably scary when inlove or some shit. this song kinda screams "RAPE" in my perspective, and that's not a good sign, so i gotta... go...
30. Are you a friendly person?
√ liar //one ok rock//
- obviously not. from either point of views, i would not be considered as friendly, as the ditched one holds a grudge to this day, and the person who "lied" is obviously an asshole.
31. Are you mentally insane?
√ whispers in the dark //skillet//
- oof the title is so perfect for this item, let's leave it at that. this is a love song anyways, sooo
32. What message are you going to get from a fortune cookie next time you get one?
√ imperfect flower //kamui gakupo//
- too beautiful to interpret. i never really listened to this song until noe so let me just... bask in the beauty of its message for a while.
33. If you were reincarnated as an animal, what would you be?
√ my demons //idk the singer. it's western shit//
- so i would probably an animal who runs wild in my own mind.
34. What is your favorite thing to do?
√ heartache //taka//
- maybe be all dramatic about shit that happened in the past. either that, or be too hung up on something that had transversed a lot of times before. probably think back on shit i did and regret all of them i want to melt everytime.
35. Did you like this thing?
No shit.