July is my favourite month of the year. It's the time where heavy rain and strong typhoons are just like normal thing.
I was blankly staring outside my window watching the raindrops coming from the sky and listening to the soothing sound of the rain while drinking a hot chocolate when suddenly I heard a knock.
I opened my door and saw my best friend. She's soaking wet and shivering.
"Jennie? What happened?" That's my initial reaction as I dragged her inside my unit.
She was crying nonstop. Her eyes are the evidences that she's been crying for a long time now.
I prepared her a hot bath and some unused sweat shirt and pyjamas.
Minutes later, she came out the bathroom and sit on the couch. Still not talking. Staring blankly, while her tears are still flowing from her cheeks.
"Same problem, am I right?" I asked while smiling. A sad one.
She just gave me a small nod and then she hugged me tightly as she sobbed and cried hard on my shoulder. I really wonder how can a petite girl holds so much water in her body. She's been crying for god-knows-how long and she still has tears to cry.
She broke the hug and spoke.
"It's funny that I still manage to cry over the same thing over again. I should be used to it. It's not like it was the first time he did this to me." She said trying not sound bitter.
I just remained silent.
"It's funny that despite of having guys and girls lining up just to have my attention, I still chose to be with a jerk." She let out a fake laugh while wiping her tears.
"C'mon. You should be used to it. Just like what you've said, it's not the first time he did that to you. C'mere, I'll give you a hug." I said and she came closer to me hug me tightly.
I ran out of words. I can't give her an advise. Haha. Maybe because it will just enter her right ear and then left through her left ear.
"I hope it was you whom I fell in love with. Why can't it be you? It should've been you. Maybe life will be not this complicated if it's you, right?"
That hit me. Why can't it be me? I also wished the same thing. I stayed up late at night waiting for 11:11 pm just to wish the same thing. That's the only thing I wish whenever I will see a wishing well. That's the only thing that keeps me wishing on the wishing star.
"Lisa? Are you alright?"
"Of course. You're here with me."
"You're so sweet. What did I do to deserved you?" Then she pinched me in my cheek. Really hard.
"Ouch! That hurts!" But nothing hurts more than seeing the most important person in my life crying over stupid thing. A jerk to be specific.
"I wish it was you. I hope it was you. And I pray it was you." She hugged me on my side and I snaked my arms around her shoulder and pull her closer to me.
"Do you love me?" I was caught off guard. Why is she blabbering things all of a sudden?
"Of course, I do. You're my best friend. Why'd you asked?"
"No, I mean. Do you still love me?" She paused. I got nervous. My body tensed and I know she felt it.
"...romantically?"
"I never unloved you. It's always been you."
I want to say that. I want to slap that on her face and make her realize what she wasted when she chose that guy over me... but why can't I do that?
I broke the hug and get another cup of hot chocolate in the center table.
"What are you saying? You know, you're just broken that's why you're acting like that." I said then laughed nervously. I hope she didn't noticed that.
"Ahh yeah. I'm sorry. I shouldn't said such thing."
*
We decided to go to my room and just watch some random movies. Even if we are already on our 20's, we never watch adult movies. It's always been Disney or DreamWorks or movies for kids. I guess old habits are hard to change.
"I really wonder why Tom and Jerry still saves each others asses when basically they want each other dead." Guess the old Jennie's back; the old, silly Jennie.
"Because that's what the director said. Where's the thrill if Tom already ate Jerry on the first episode?"
"You got it right."
"I'm always right"
But I don't know why it went wrong.
*
Hours have passed and we are already curled up in my bed with a thick blanket that cover our cold bodies.
"Do you still remember when we were still on 7th grade? You were so awkward that time. I never imagined that you'll be a successful model today." She said and I laughed. She's on it again. Reminiscing the old time.
"And who would ever thought that the big, fat Lisa Manoban will be a sexy and hot model? That's beyond reality but hey, you are living a dream."
"I am not fat. My parents just love me that's why they are overfeeding me. And who will not get fat if your father is a world class chef right?"
"You have a point. I remember when we had a sleep over in your house and the foods they prepared were like for 20 people. I got scared because I thought there will be a family reunion and I will basically sleep in your house that time."
She keeps on talking and I'm just listening to her. I love it when she talks a lot.
"I miss those time when our only problem is how we will sneak our food inside Mr. Yang's class."
"Yeah. I do too. I miss those times when your cheeks are still chubby and looks like a dumpling. They're not the same anymore because you lose weight." I laughed hard as I remember those times when I always pinch her cheeks and she'll cry.
"That's what you called self-consciousness and besides, I'm trying to impress someone that time because she already lose a lot of weight and I did the same."
"And who could be that someone?" I asked pretending I don't know who it is.
"You want a clue?" She asked winking.
"Yah sure." I wait for her response.
"She's ugly." Then she burst out in laughter. She's laughing her lungs out and I just rose my brow confusingly.
"Sad people tend to laugh over the stupidest things. It's alright, Jen. I understand. Hahaha! " Then I tap her head and her laughter slowly faded.
"But seriously, that someone always makes me laugh whenever I'm sad. She always makes me happy."
"And I know that someone is fucking hot as well."
"I hate to admit but she is. I'm really happy that out of billion people in this world, God chose her to be my best friend." She looked at me and smile. A smile that makes my heart flutter. A smile that makes my day brighter.
"Thank you for being my best friend, Lisa."
Yeah. Best friend. It broke my heart, for the nth time.
She lift my arm shoulder level and used it as her pillow then she placed her head on my chest and hugged my waist.
"You are unnecessarily clingy today. Is that the effect of your idiocy over that filthy rich-assed guy?"
"Nothing. I just want to cuddle with you just like the old times and talk about our life."
"What do you want to talk about?"
"How on earth did we became friend and how we didn't end up together?"
"But we are together."
"You know what I mean."
I'm also thinking the same shit.
"It started when we were on 3rd grade...."