Two months without Tae felt like hell. It felt weird being alone again. My new job was going well and everyone pretty much treated me like family. It was something I longed and wished for and I finally got it. We'd hangout and have lunch with each other, go bowling, and karaoke. But there was something in me that absolutely didn't feel right. Like something was missing. Was it Jin's dad jokes that I missed? Jimin whining about his small hands? Yoongi's sarcasm? Namjoon's brotherly affection? Jungkook's blushing face every time I call him oppa, even though I was older than him? Was my heart still yearning for Hobi? That can't be. Hobi doesn't love me anymore so why should I still worry about whether he loves me or not? Whatever it is, I wanted it to stop so I can stop dwelling on it.
I was in the office with my manager going over some of the albums that were being shipped to us for pre orders.
"When are we expected to get the albums?" I ask going over the itinerary with my manager
"Somewhere next week. Also we have another pre order for BTS's new album that's due in the next two months. They're having a tour in the US and they're coming to Los Angeles" My manager says, handing me another paper.
"Huh? Really?" I say choking
"Yeah. Haven't you been keeping up on Twitter?"
"No...I've been avoiding social media the plague" I say slouching down on the chair.
"Well it's healthy. Seeing that you're still coping with the divorce...But at least you have someone who values you" Amy says, turning around to face me.
"Yeah..I do..but it feels like there's still something wrong. Like an itch you can't scratch."
"Maybe it's a sign. Maybe something will work out. You never know" She shrugs, pilling up the paper work and putting them in a box.
"I don't know. Maybe I'm just overthinking things." I get up from the chair and start picking up another box.
Amy picks up the box with a low grunt and peeks at me "It could be your heart. It's probably telling you something. Only you can see" She says carrying the box to the door as I follow behind her.
After putting the boxes in the storage room we walk out and head to the lounge, downstairs.
"Want to go to Paris Baguette at the plaza? I hear they have pretty good sandwiches" She suggest
"Uhh..yeah..sure...let me go get my stuff first" I say, running to the room next door to open my locker. I grab my purse but something falls out of my bag. I grab it but suddenly take a good look at it. It was a little picture of Hobi and I sharing a milk tea at Paris Baguette.
I'm taken back into another memory of Hobi and I on our first date in Paris Baguette. Hobi was sitting at the cafe waiting for me. I came in, wearing a yellow poko dot dress with a white bow on the top of my head, with black shoes. He got up from his seat, approaching me slowly, eyeing me from head to toe. I blush even more and cover my face from embarrassment.
"Wow! You look beautiful! I'm sorry, I can't stop looking" He says, still staring deeply at me.
"Gwecnchana. Thank you. I hope it's not too much" I say, putting a strand of my hair behind my ear.
"No! No! You look perfect!" He waves his hand in protest "Here let me get your chair out for you" he says pulling the seat out.
"Thank you Hoseok" I say taking my seat.
"I'll go order something. Is there anything you like from here?" He asks me sweetly
"Umm..I'm not so sure. Anything you get I'm fine" I smile at him
"Ok! I'll be right back Y/N!" He squeaks and walks to the order line.
I take out my mini mirror from my purse and angel it to where I can fix my makeup. I put my mirror back in my purse, looking around the bakery, admiring it's aroma and beautiful display of pastries and breads. I close my eyes and hum to the rhythm and sound of slow romantic Korean music paying in the background. I felt a slight tap on my shoulder and I open my eyes, where Hobi sets the tray of food on the table.
"Oh! I'm sorry!" He gasps.
"No it's ok!There's no need to apologize!" I say in protest
"You looked so peaceful for a moment...It's beautiful" He says sitting down next to me. " I got us a turkey and cheese sandwiches with mayo, and chocolate mousse cake. Oh I also got us both house milk teas with Boba. I got you caramel and I got butterscotch. I hope this is all OK for you!"
"Of coarse! Wow! It all looks so good. Let's eat!"
He happily hands me a napkin and my sandwich. I take the sandwich and took a bite of it. It was so heavenly I close my eyes, smiling as I chew, savoring it. After swallowing my first bite, I open my eyes to see Hobi staring blankly at me and I blush.
"I'm sorry! You just look so cute eating so I couldn't stop staring. The sandwich is good,isn't it?" He says taking a sip of his tea.
"It is. How's the milk tea?" I say wiping my face with the napkin
"Here, try it" He says pointing the cup to me
I push my face back slightly, nervous to drink from the same straw as his "No. It's ok"
"Here Y/N!" He giggles as he puts the drink closer to my lips.
"Ok. I'll try it" I said and gave in. I put my lips on the straw and took a sip of the tea. To my surprise, it was very delicious.
"Mmm it's really good!" I grab mine and put it to his mouth "Want to try mine?"
"Ne!" Jumps happily in his seat and takes a sip "Whoa! That's one's good too. We should come here often and try other flavors" He says taking a bite of his sandwich.
"So, how are you liking LA? Is it scary, fun?" I ask
"I love it! I know there's many parts of LA that's bad. It's not always rainbows and sunshine. Seeing this many homeless people here makes me want to give back, even with little money I have. But I love it here because..it gives me an opportunity to spend time with you" He says, smiling at me sweetly.
"Don't we spend time with each other almost all the time?" I chuckle, finishing the last bite of the sandwhich
"Yes..but it's only work related. I want to spend time getting to know you better."
"That's sweet of you"
We spent the next hour talking with each other. Hoseok was talking about his goals for the company and where he saw himself and the members within the next couple of years. I told him about my goals and how I want to move up in the company, and how much I wanted to make everyone proud. Talking and joking around with him was like talking to my other half. His smile, his charismatic charm, they way he talks about dance was filled with so much love and passion it was making me fall for him instantly. It was 5pm and the bakery was set to close in another hour and the sun was starting to set. It was only me and Hoseok in the bakery.
"We haven't touched the chocolate mouse cake yet." Hobi says picking up his fork and digging into the cake. He takes his left and hand puts it underneath his right hand, as he slowly puts the fork to my mouth. "Here comes the choo choo train!" He sings
"Hoseok, stop it! This is embarrassing!" I say, pushing the fork away
"Come on Y/N! It's only us here, now open! Ah!" he says
"Ok, fine!" I smirk at him and open my mouth and take a bite. "I like it" I say, eyes widen with delight
"Let me try" He then takes a piece of the cake and puts it in his mouth "Why is everything here so good!" He shouts and I laugh.
"Maybe because you picked out the right things off the menu" I smirk and laugh at him
"You're right...Oh you have some chocolate on your chin"
"Oh really? Where?" I say touching my chin
"I'll get it for you" He then takes the napkin from the tray and wipes my lips off. He suddenly stops what he was doing, gracing his thumb against my lower lip. I blush underneath his touch. He brings his face closer to mine, staring at my eyes, then down to my lips. He slowly brings his lips to mine and I melt into the kiss. I take my hand and put them behind his head, deepening the kiss. His hand traveled to my neck, grazing his thumb on my jaw. His other hand travels to my waist, bringing me closer to his body. We soon let go of each other, staring at each other, both of us slightly panting and gasping for air.
"Y/N...I know I've told you a lot that I liked you but...I want us to be..a couple.. Will you be my girlfriend?" He says holding my hands.
"I want the same too. And yes I'll be your girlfriend, Hoseok"
"No... don't call me Hoseok anymore....call me Jagi...but I prefer Oppa" He says, pinching my nose playfully
"Ok...Jagi" I say, slightly slapping him in the shoulder
"But I like Oppa better!" He whines in his seat "Fine. Let me take you home" He says taking my hand, while carrying the trash with the other and putting it in the trash can. We leave the bakery and head to the car, that he borrowed from PD. Before we step into the he turns me around, making me face him.
"Jagiya. Before the sunsets...there's one last thing I want to ask you."
"Yeah what is it?"
"Can....I kiss you, again?"
"Yes." He pulls me into his chest and kisses me again and I come back to reality when I hear my name being called over and over.
"Y/N! Y/N! Hey!" Amy says tapping me
"Oh! Oh my god. I'm so sorry!" I say, as I jump back a little
"You've been in here for quite sometime now. Are you ok? You look..pale" she says, cocking her head from side to side, to examine my face.
"I'm fine. I was just thinking of something and got caught up. Let's hurry up and go before rush hour starts, shall we?" I say with a smile, while gathering my stuff and we both head out the door.
What was wrong with me? I'm falling for Taehyung now, so why am I still having memories of Hobi? He doesn't love me anymore so snap out of it. Am I even in love with Tae? Am I still in love with Hobi ?