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It felt like a very long time past before Junghyun leaped at his younger brother and engulfed him in an embrace, not caring about the fact that he was dripping wet with his own sweat.
Jungkook in the meantime cringed at how sticky and disgusting it felt to be hugged by a heavily sweating grown man. It didn't even matter that it was his own brother.
He could already smell his own clothes reeking of sweat.
He should have told his managers to get the elevator fixed as soon as possible and not just in some weeks.
In hope of getting set free, the younger of the two slowly patted the elders back. Not before searching for a spot that was kind of dry, of course.
„Nice to see you too, now let me go please."
How rude. Your brother just missed you and you won't even let him hug you. Ungrateful child.
The sudden guilt made him regret his words and actions immediately. He wanted to take them back, but that was not how life works, was it?
Am I being ungrateful? Am I a bad dongsaeng? Should I say sorry?
His brother, however, just put his smile back on and let go of him before letting himself in.
Without saying anything, Junghyun made his way to the living area while Jungkook went to get two glasses and a cooled water bottle.
While reaching out to get the glasses from the top shelf, a sudden pain shot through his spine, forcing him to let go of the glasses and crouch down in pain.
Everything happened in slow motion. The maknae could only watch as the two glasses collide with the marble floor and shattered into tiny pieces. He could only listen as his brother rushed to his side and he could only follow as he was painfully dragged to the living area.
He was gently forced to sit down while Junghyun picked up the broken pieces to throw them away. A feeling of uselessness spread inside of him making his chest feel heavy. The guilt of breaking the glasses was eating him up inside out and it didn't exactly help ease his mind either.
See what you did? You couldn't even finish such an easy task.
Of course, you had to break something.
But I didn't mean to-
Yeah, but you still did it. What will your hyungs think when they find out?
I didn't do it on purpose!
So what? It's still your fault. How do you expect to perform being this clumsy and unprofessional?
You will not only disappoint your hyungs, the staff, the company, your fans but also the nation. Disgrace.
Tears threatened to fall, but before it could happen, his brother came back and sat down across from him, staring at him as if he was trying to solve a puzzle.
And obviously, that puzzle was Jungkook.
See what you did? Now he thinks something is wrong with you while in fact, everything about you is wrong. Everything you do is wrong. You are wrong.
Jungkook didn't want to do anything else but curl up into a small ball and cry himself to sleep. He wanted to grip his hair and pull them until he bled. Until the pain would be strong enough to distract him from the heart-piercing words he can't seem to block out. But he can't. He can't do that right now because his brother was still staring at him with full intensity and curiosity.
At that exact moment, the older one of the two decided to break the silence. „Are you ok?" And that was all that needed to be said for the younger to have his hopes rise up once again. Let's see how long it'll take for it to come crashing down again, shall we?
At this point, the little maknae wanted to do nothing more than to fling himself at his brother and pour his heart out while bawling.
But of course, he couldn't. If he couldn't tell his hyungs, how could he tell his actual hyung?
The voice didn't even need to tell him that. It was already common knowledge for him not to tell anyone for everyone's sake. Maybe it even developed into a habit already.
„Yeah, yeah... don't worry about me." The same sentence over and over again. Without even batting an eyelash, he was able to lie straight to Junghyuns face. He was not even breaking a sweat as normally he would have in the past.
He should have known better because a frown appeared on Junghyuns usually indifferent face.
„Telling me not to worry just makes me worry more, you know? "
The idol's eyes widened at this statement. Hands sweaty and clenched together tightly.
You messed up badly. Now he has more unnecessary worries because of you.
Should I have said something else? Should I have used other words? Phrased it better?
He will pressure and corner you until you tell him what's wrong. He will waste his precious time on you once again because you were unable to get a single act together.
He will waste his time on me...?
After some time of Jungkook not replying or saying anything at all, the older male just sighed and shook his head.
„Never mind. Actually, Jungkook, I had another reason to come here today."
That snapped him out of his trance-like state. His head darted up hectically, and his shock widened eyes started at Junghyun as his heart clenched ever so slightly.
He... he didn't come to see me?
You are unimportant to him.
I am his brother... he doesn't have to come to check on me...
He is forced to talk to you because he needs to be here.
I am not the reason for his visit...
„I need to talk to Namjoon, it's urgent."
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Ok, so what do you guys think so far?
Anything you'd want to happen?
Anything you'd like to criticize?
Anything you'd have done differently?
And how are you feeling?
Please talk to me if you feel like talking.
Btw, sorry for the late update. RL hasn't been going well recently. I think with every passing day, I'm just getting more stressed and irritated ㅠㅠ. But I love writing, it's the only way for me to calm down and express myself :) (so don't tell me to stay away, ima come back anyway ㅇ-ㅇ) I always stop writing for a while whenever I don't know how to phrase something because, if I force the words to spill out without being motivated, this wouldn't end very well. I would be unsatisfied and unhappy, and so would you too. That's also a reason why I took so long. I didn't want to serve you guys a half-assed and half-hearted chapter. I wouldn't want to do this to my own baby and you guys ㅠㅠ
So, what do you think will happen now? Do you think Junghyun is gonna make everything worse? Or will he temporarily make Kook feel better? I'm genuinely curious of what you guys are thinking ㅇㅁㅇ
And btw
W T F iS tHiS?! ThErE iS nO sUiCiDe yEt
Istg, Wattpad is bugging 24/7.
And thank you HumanBean5 for helping me dm with the last few lines~
I might or might now have spoiled a lil bit to her.... but well, y'all can't blame me. I thought the ending of this was clear...dOnT u dARe sPiLl oR iMa bReAk tHe mUtUaL >:( (jk, I wouldn't do that)
Till next chapter!
Love, Ahlpa ♥