[WARNING! PLEASE READ!; THIS FAN FICTION CONTAINS GRAPHIC CONTENT SOME MIGHT NOT LIKE. THIS HAS TRIGGER WARNINGS! I WILL NOT STOP YOU FROM READING AT YOUR OWN WILL I AM ONLY WARNING YOU. IT CONTAINS; VIOLENCE, SUICIDE, FOUL LANGUAGE (ALOT) AND BULLYING! TAKE CARE PLEASE!]
Jaewon Pov
The pain is worth it... he's loves me, right? He didn't mean to... it's nothing but a small bruise... right? He won't do it again...
that's what they all say
Tuesday 9:32am
Tuesday class have never been my favourite... math, then chemistry.... Same old crap every time. Except, he's in my classes so it makes it all worth it, if you take away the fact he acts like he doesn't know me... like we are total strangers between 8:30 and 3:20 but the second we step out of those school ground... he's utterly infatuated with me.
Is this normal? Is this sane?
I sit in the same spot along the wall gazing out the window, it's spring, so the leaves slowly fall off the trees and get carried away as the wind blow softly carrying them along to touch the ground. The teacher is babbling about the same thing as last week, linear equations. We get it.Before I noticed my chair had been kicked out from under me mid-way through sighing, I gasped for air, shock ran through my body as I fell back and under the desk behind me to see a familiar blue and pink haired, ass hat smirking at me, the room goes silent as everyone looks over as I lean up hitting my head on the desk I'm under with a grunt."Why the fuck did you do that?!" I say with a timid growl standing up and lifting my chair to stand up right.
"What did you say?" He stands up from his desk as I take a harsh gulp feeling it travel right down the back of my throat like sandpaper. At this point, everyone is staring as he grabs the front of my shirt close to the second top button."I said, Minsung, why the fuck did you do that?"He raised his fist as I bit down on my lip harshly before students separate and pry us apart."Both of you. Sit down or its out of my god damn class!" He yells from the front board. We both shake off the students holding us back from each other as we sit back down.A few hours go by with the occasional chair kick."I'm surprised that they allow me to have a goddamn chair, three chair legs snapped in the past two weeks!" I grumble softly keeping my head on the desk.The door blows open and closed as the school corridor acts as a wind tunnel, papers blow off desk as the teacher rushes and closes the door before speaking clearly."It seems like a bad storm tonight. Walk home carefully." He says seconds before the bell rings through the school. The sound of chairs scraping against the hardwood floors is heard before shoes, so many shoes, clattering as they collide with the floor tiling.
I'm left alone in the classroom as the students leave; I dread going home in the rain. With my bag packed, I get up hearing my phone ting in my pocket. The sound I hated more than thunder, was that particular text tone. It sounded like a knife being dragged across a dinner plate and it made me feel a sharp pain right through the heart. I took a harsh gulp before grabbing out the phone and switching on the lockscreen, four missed messages: crap.
'Him 💋'
I'm waiting out the front.
Sent at 3:22pm
Hello?
Sent at 3:24pm
I'm not going to wait all day in the damn rain
Sent at 3:26pm
Get home yourself.
Sent at 3:30pm
I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding in. God it didn't seem bad, right? Wrong. I walked out of the class with my bag on my back, walking out the front gates water puddles everywhere and rain falling heavier by the second. I walked down the small three step stairs and into water.
"My shoes..." I whined softly as I began to walk through the puddles.
It was like time had stopped. I felt a rough tug on my backpack and, feeling a harsh kick to the back of my shoe, my feet easily slipped out from under me as I brace myself for water and the hard concrete beneath me. Time catches up with me and the pain is sent right through my body as I gasp, feeling all the air shoot out of my lungs. I take short breaths looking through watery eyes to see the culprit.
"You read, but didn't reply? How rude." He said through gritted teeth
"I'm sorry... my uh phone died?" I lied. It's fully charged, I was just scared to reply.
He looked at me with a glare that soon changed to a soft expression with a soft smile, holding his hand out to help me up, I gently grab his hand getting halfway up before he lets my hand go.
"You don't deserve respect for ignoring me." Minsung growled as I fall back onto my elbows now saturated in water.
"I-I'm sorry," I speak in a soft voice slowly standing up as he starts to walk. I shoot to my feet and follow behind him closely.
We walked to his house in complete silence.
"Baby you know I didn't mean to... you know I do it because I love you?" Minsung uttered the first word walking through the front door of the house.
"Yeah, I know you do," I muttered looking towards the floor taking my shoes off leaving them at the front door. I wish I had listened when they warned me about him... if I knew he'd end up like this... I would have stayed the hell away. Now there is no escaping him... well alive that is. He closes the door behind me with a thud before locks click shut.
"Go take a shower you are drenched and look like a fucking rat," Minsung spoke harshly as I nodded weakly, I dropped my bag to the side neatly where he likes the bags kept and slowly made my way up the stairs and into the bathroom closing and locking the door behind me.
'D.min'
Oi Jaewon you skipped practice today? Are you okay?
Sent at 4:36pm
Ah hyung... I'm sorry I forgot we had practice today...
Sent at 4:45pm
Seen at 4:45pm
Are you sure? Daehyun did remind you at lunch...
Sent at 4:47pm
Seen at 4:48pm
I'm just really forget fun Hyung... I better go Minsung is making dinner and wants me to have a shower before I help 😊
Sent at 4:49pm
My eyes widened, turning on the shower getting it to the right temperature.
"Hh... I'm sorry dongho-hyung... if only you knew the real reason," I locked my phone putting it face down on the bench before slowly stripping my shirt off to see the small bruises that litter my skin and the dark purple marks that cover my wrists. "Thank god for long shirts."
I slowly slipped into the shower after stripping the rest of my clothing off. Wincing at the water of the sensitive areas on my chest and back with a sigh, I stood under the water dropping my head down slightly; the water runs down my face. Once I turn the shower off, I step out wrapping a towel around my waist, forgetting I left my clothes in my bag.
"Shit," I grunt drying off my body, putting my boxers back on, hanging up the towel and my dirty clothes, before slowly walking back to the front door reaching into my bag pulling out sweat pants and a white shirt. A few minutes after I change, I walk into the bathroom to grab my phone but...
"Where'd my phone go?" I look around the bathroom sink and on the floor heading out into the living room. "Hey babe have, you seen... my phone."
My heart drops seeing my phone case of the floor along with a shattered phone screen.
"You must have dropped it on the way out of the bathroom to your bag~!" He said with an all too innocent smile. I nodded weakly picking the phone and phone case up.
"I'll have to wait a week or so to fix it," I speak, clicking the hard phone case onto the phone before putting it in my pocket.
"Baby, come sit up here with me~?" Minsung pats the spot next to him as I smile softly getting up and sit next to him, his attention turned fully towards the TV. Within a few minutes, I lean my head onto his shoulder watching the TV with drowsy eyes. After a while I feel small soft kisses peppered on my cheek moving down my neck slightly. My eyes shoot open as I instantly fall, more like throw myself off the couch to look up at him.
"W-what?" I stutter in fear as his eyes turn cold.
"Baby, come here." His voice was colder than his eyes seemed to be.
I stood up and timidly sat on the couch next to him feeling his slender fingers wrap around my wrist jolting me towards him as he is suddenly on top of me.
"Minsung I- get off please..." I whimper in response to his lips trailing small love bites down my neck, the small pink marks soon to turn a deep purple, he slowly pulls his lips away from my skin teeth barley grazing the skin stopping at my collar bones, then he sits up and turns away with a disgusted expression on his face "Baby I-" I reach out to gently grab his face receiving a harsh slap to my hand "Don't 'Baby' me. Get the fuck away from me" he scolds and I pull my hand back slowly, "Minsung I'm sorry I just don't want-" tears slowly glaze over my eyes as he glares giving me a harsh shove off the couch, I land on my knees looking down at the tiled floor before feeling fingers thread through my hair tugging roughly "I read the messages. What's between you and Dongho hmm?!" he growls angrily as he forces me to look up at him "N-nothing is between us! H-he's a band mate" I choke out, my throat goes dry and scratchy as he gripped my cheeks "Band mate hm? You text them in the shower?" he got angrier and slammed my head into the tiles, I heard a crack. He lets go of my chin to yank me up by my hair again, "I-I needed to reply to h-him" I stutter as he smirks "What utter Bullshit Jaewon!" he sends a hard kick to my ribcage knocking the air right out of me, he lets go of my hair to take a step back shouting as he bends down. I shoot to my feet and sprint towards the bathroom with my phone in my left hand, I slam the door. Locking it behind me as I lean my back against the door "Jaewon you fucking slut open this god damn door" Minsung screams from the other side, kicking the bottom of the door where I sit.
I gently touch the corner of my lip with a small sob seeing the blood that is left behind on my fingers, I gently brush my fingers along my cheek bone shutting my eyes tightly "Fuck! Shit that hurts" I cry out as Minsung kicks the door harder "Open this mother fucking door Jaewon!" he yells as I open my phone clicking a random contact "Pick up, pick up..." I mumble as it rings "Hello? Jaewon?" The voice that answers, "Dongho-hyung! Dongho please god you have to come pick me up please!" I cry out holding the phone closely to my ear "Whats wrong? Why are you crying??" he asks as I whimper "Its Minsung he's- not himself Please just come pick me up! Quickly!" I hear his car start from the other end of the phone line "Jaewon baby- im sorry, im sorry! I got jealous please come out... I won't hit you again! It was a mistake im sorry!" he pleads as I stand up putting the phone to the floor and reaching for the handle "Don't you dare open that door Jaewon. He is a liar. He will always hit you again!" Dongho yells from the phone as I look down "I am only a few minutes away! Don't listen to him please! He is going to hurt you more!" I should have listened.
I hesitantly walked out of the bathroom to face a very, very angry Minsung. The second I walked out of the bathroom I felt a hand around my throat pushing me against a wall "Fu-uck I can-n't brea-the" I scratch and claw at the hand around my throat "Called Dongho did we now?" he snicker as his grip tightened "Le-et me g-go" I whimper as my breathing slowly shortens, the front door swings open with no warning causing Minsung to snap his head towards the door dropping me to the floor, The sound of a gun loading causes utter silence throughout the house "Minsung, you crazy fuck move away from Jaewon or I swear to god I will not hesitate to shoot you" Dongho yells slowly walking towards us, I shuffle towards Dongho before Minsung slams his foot down next to me "Going with him you ungrateful bitch?" Minsung growls as I keep my head tilted down towards the floor before standing up and walking towards Dongho outstretching my hand to him, Minsung grabs my other hand yanking me back. My full attention is on Minsung who has tears flowing down his cheeks "Please... don't go... I will change I promise I will!" he pleads and begs, "Baby..." I mutter softly cupping his cheeks "Change first. Then I might come back" I spoke in a low tone before backing away from him keeping my hands to my chest as I walk out of the house with Dongho.
Dongho takes me back to his house that he shared with the rest of our bandmates, "I told you not to go outside that bathroom!" Dongho says angrily as I keep my eyes to the ground "Can't you just take me home... my mum will be worried" I asked hoping for a positive answer "No. I told your mum you're staying here tonight, she approved" Dongho took a damn cotton swab and dabbed it along my lips and cheek "You should take a shower there is so much blood... it's down the hall to the left, there is a towel in there and spare clothes you left here last week" Dongho points towards the bathroom as I stand up and scurry towards the bathroom. The hot water ran down my back as I turned towards the mirror seeing the bruises slowly form along with the hickeys and love bites, I wish they didn't. I stand under the water sighing softly "he loves me... it was a mistake he promised not to do it again..." I mutter softly closing my eyes and running my fingers through my hair wincing in pain slightly. Once out of the shower I dry off slowly trying to avoid the tender spots that cover my body, I slowly walk out fully changed in sweat pants and a long red T-Shirt "Dongho-hyung..." I called out quietly to see him poke his head up from the couch "Jaewon-ah? Finished already? I told Minsoo to leave you some food it's on the counter" Dongho spoke in a soft tone with a small smile as I slowly gravitate towards him sitting down on the couch beside him "it's okay... I'm not hungry" I said with a weak smile as he hands me a soft fuzzy blanket "are you sure you're okay?... if you don't mind me asking, how long as he been treating you like that for?" Dongho asks as his soft expression fades "we've been dating what? 2 years... so I guess, 2 years" I dropped my head down in shame as he sighs "why didn't you tell any of us?" "Because! He isn't forgiving! You didn't even see the half of what he can do!" I raised my voice to see a shocked expression on his face "i-im sorry I didn't mean to-" I try and apologies as Dongho shakes his head "I get it, it's okay... Lay down this is a good show" he spoke as my phone text tone goes off, I ignore it to lay my head on the couch slightly bringing my body up onto the couch.
'Him 💋'
Baby... I'm sorry
Sent at 5:34pm
I didn't mean to! I wont do it again!
Sent at 5:35pm
Jaewon! Answer me!
Sent at 5:36pm
You're probably fucking Dongho hm? Well two can play at that game, remember the Nudes you sent me? They'll be around school tomorrow with your number attached~ Its your own fault.
Sent at 5:37pm
Dongho looks down at the phone as his eyes widen, he looks towards me, I am already out like a light. He reaches over and grabs my phone with a sigh pressing the call button "Wonnie! I'm sorry I didn't think you would call me baby!-" Dongho laughed hearing how desperate Minsung was "It's actually Dongho. I read your texts, we didn't fuck. He took a shower and I cleaned up the bruises you made on his face. You are a sick fuck you know that?!" Dongho half yells, yet keeping his voice quiet "Bull shit! Jaewon is a slut he probably begged for you!" Minsung spat causing Dongho to grunt "No. you are far from right. He cried and whimpered in pain! Because the one he loves absolutely fucking loves to hit him! You are going to stay away from Jaewon I don't care what you do. You are not coming anywhere near him go it?" Dongho orders as the phone line goes silent, Minsung hung up.
The next morning the rest of the boys are awake and walking around their shared house leaving me on the couch to sleep "Are we going to tell him?" Minsoo asks as Daehyun nods "Hyung we have to... these- these are bad!" Daehyun looks down at his phone with a frown "yeah... just let him sleep first alright?" Dongho adds in as all the boys agree.
'Unknown'
Look at the little Sub slut~ Hope he was worth is Jaewon~ here is the sluts number, go nuts ##########
[4 images attached]
Sent at 7:38am
Daehyun's attention turns to my phone that is now pinging like crazy, he jumps and grabs the phone and looks at it in shock before looking up at the rest of the members as they sigh.
'Unknown'
You are fucking a slut! Die will ya
Sent at 7:40am
'Unknown'
You ugly fag!
Sent at 7:40am
'Unknown'
Die!
Sent at 7:41am
'Unknown'
Erase yourself from existence!
Sent at 7:43am
The messages don't stop coming, Daehyun puts my phone down with a frown "He didn't even do anything..." he speaks softly as his voice quivers slightly "We can't let him see his phone-" Minsoo adds "Why? He's only going to get it at school! That's going to be worse!" Dongho yells before looking over to see me sit up slowly rubbing my eyes "Good morning Jaewon" Daehyun speaks softly with a smile "what time is it?" I ask standing up and rubbing the back of my head "around 7:50 ish? Go change before we go to school" Minsoo says as I nod walking off to change "we'll be in the car!" they all yell in unison before walking out the door.
Once changed I walk out seeing my phone on the bench, I pick it up and open to the lock screen seeing hundreds of messages. My eyes widen in horror reading the messages before putting my phone in my back pocket and shaking my head. I walk out and get into the car keeping my head down as the drive to school is silent, no one dared to speak. The school halls screamed insults at me as students glare daggers into and right through me, the bell rings and we walk into class. As soon as I walk through the door the atmosphere changed to whispers and crude insults. I sit down before feeling a sild covered book thrown at the back of my head causing me to whimper. I shoot to my feet and run out the door of the class hearing laughter, I bolt down the hallway hearing nothing but whispers and laughter as I hold my head in my hands, their words echo through my head as I cry. I stand up and walk towards Minsung's locker slipping a note through the small side of the door before walking out of the school grounds completely
Minsung,
You make me feel like I'm wanted, Touch me like you mean it, You tie me up like it's the last time you'll ever get to see me whimper under the chairs that chafe my wrists, You make me needy for you to touch me, even just briefly. You make me love sick, You make me whimper at the slightest loss of contact when I want you, you make me beg You make me whine for you to be harsher, You care for me You make sure I'm happy over anything else You give me affection and love However, You came at a price. and that price is the small bruises that litter my skin, The bruises are like your fingertips everywhere your fingers have touched on my fragile body has once been met with a bruise, My skin breaks oh so easily, but that's something you love. The slightest bite can break my skin, Your teeth graze my collar bones that make the most satisfying red marks to you,They soon disappear you love me, but you love to hurt me more. You've tired rope and chains around my heart locking it to you and you alone it's not the only thing you've tied up in chains and ropes no matter how much you hurt me, I'll always love you. as long as I have you I don't care.
I'm sorry.
~Jaewon
"Just give up Dongho! It's been weeks no one is going to find him!" Daehyun holds onto the back of Dongho's shirt "I don't care! He has to be out there somewhere! We have to try!" Dongho yanks his shirt out of the grip of Daehyun "No." "What the fuck do you mean No? Minsoo?" Dongho turns and looks at Minsoo "haven't you seen..." Minsoo grabs out his phone and flips to the latest news
'Young boy found at the underside of the Seoul bridge'
A young boy was found hanging under the main Seoul bridge around 10pm last night, h was later identified as Ahn Jaewon, a 17-year-old Music student going to the main music school in Seoul. It was seen that nude photos of the boy were shared around the school causing him to take his own life. The culpriate for leaking said photos has been arrested and charged with holding and distributing nude photos, sentenced to 10 years jail time and fined $110,000 for publish material that counsels or incites someone into committing suicide.
by: Salt
Word count: 4005
Stay tuned for Minsungs POV!
Hii!!! So I hope you liked the fic? Im expecting a few broken hearts... oh well that's what I was going for! I really do love Minwon, and Kyungseok but I always make angsty fics cause they are easy to write. This took a good month to write cause... Laziness.